whale killer

From yesterday to now, Chi Yan didn't know how long he had been in such a chaotic and sober state.

There is a clock hanging on the opposite wall, you can't see the time clearly, you can only listen to the ticking of the second hand, and it stretches or folds according to its unsteady breathing.Xiang Qi is not heavily dependent on air-conditioning, but he sleeps fairly honestly. In summer, he also likes to bury half of his face in the quilt, and his hair rubs against his forearm like scratching his heart.Chi Yan reached out to touch his face, but it was initially confirmed that the air-conditioning was in effect, and the exposed skin was chilly.Feeling itchy, Xiang Qifei stretched out his hand from under the quilt to scratch, and happened to grab Chi Yan's little finger.He didn't wake up, but he smiled shyly in his dream and never let go.His palms are warm.

In the past, just by seeing him, Chi Yan could smooth out most of his irritability and anxiety, but it didn't work much today.Yesterday's performance, the spontaneous ritual was like a curse, reminding him repeatedly not to escape.What Meng Shu didn't have time to finish just now should also be to sue Qin Zheng.After seeing the monument from a distance after the funeral, Chi Yan never went in the direction of Huairou again, as if deliberately choosing the cemetery as far away as possible, so as to have an excuse to escape.He couldn't allow himself to kneel in front of Qin Zhimo and cry bitterly in order to ask for forgiveness.He just felt that he was despicable.

Chi Yan is not blind, he knows that Meng Shu and Xiang Qifei don't deal with each other, but he has kept in touch so far. Apart from making money, it is also because Meng Shu helped a lot back then, and during that time, he quickly became acquainted with Qin Zheng stand up.Meng Shu has a very strange personality. When Qin Zhimo was still around, he would often play tricks every now and then, blatantly doing such vulgar things as going into the lounge to read love letters to Chi Yan in public, and sending whole bouquets of roses directly to the backstage. Or occasionally drink with friends and go to the hospital for gastric lavage, and call Chi Yan the next day to ask Chi Yan to see him.But it's not limited to that, he only does these things in front of people, creating a fake shell of meanness, the queen is actually quite shy, and if he really goes further, he will be shy himself.At first Qin Zhimo bothered him, but after he found out his temper, he got used to it. When he was free, he would put the flowers he sent into glass bottles so that they could live for a few more days.

But anyway, he can't live for a few days. When Qin Zhimo is in a bad state, the withered flowers may also cause a tsunami.

Thinking of these things, he felt suffocated, his lungs were filled with water, and his chest was squeezed in the night. Chi Yan carefully rummaged through his luggage in the dark. There were no cigarettes or lighters, only a handful of lollipops.

The quarrel next door came to an abrupt end with the slamming of the door, subconsciously turned around, Xiang Qifei didn't wake up, just turned over with a hum, he thought it was noisy, and buried his whole head in the bed again.

Putting two sticks of candy into his pocket, he planned to go to the next door to ask Ah Nao for a cigarette, but he started to panic for no reason while holding the doorknob.The hotel room couldn't be locked from the outside, Chi Yan hesitated at the door for a while, and heard the housekeeper pushing the cleaning cart past, and the wheels ran over the carpet, making it annoying.He is well aware that it is unnecessary, all attempts to lock Xiang Qifei are unnecessary, as long as he looks like he is dying, Xiang Qifei will stay by his side and not go anywhere.But he was still restless.

Taking a deep breath, Chi Yan repeatedly told himself that he was right there, waiting for me to wake him up, he would not disappear, nor would he run, but he still returned uncontrollably, removing two drawstrings from an old piece of clothing , slowly picked up Xiang Qifei's wrist, and groped for the bedpost with the other hand——

At the same time, I was stunned, what the hell are you doing, damn it.Chi Yan half-squatted and half-kneeled by the bed, apologizing in a low voice, "I'm sorry." He lowered his head and put Xiang Qifei's hand back on the quilt, and threw the rope into the trash can.

But he still took his mobile phone and ID with him.

Ah Nao was unkempt, barefoot, wearing only a T-shirt and underwear, and opened the door for Chi Yan with a cigarette in his mouth.

The windows in this room are slightly larger, and the overhead light is turned on in the room. By the light, you can see obvious cracks on the glass, the wall peeling off into an abstract painting, and the curtains are torn down. It is estimated that there will be a lot of compensation.On the floor are teapots and cup trays, and the drawers of the bedside table that have been pulled down. Inside are a few condoms prepared by the hotel.

And Liang Cong packed up and disappeared with his luggage.

Ah Nao picked up the lighter from the ground, then fished out the cigarette case from the bed and threw it into Chi Yan's arms.

"Your partner is not allowed to smoke, you have come here to beg."

Chi Yan emphasized: "He didn't stop me from smoking." Then he asked: "Liang Cong hit you?"

Ah Nao straightened out his hair: "Young mother looks down on people, I have opened a ladle for others."

Chi Yan lit the cigarette and teased her: "Woman."

Ah Nao fought back: "Don't you all know where the man is? Why don't you pick up Qin Zheng? He's done more than blame him."

"……Not urgent."

"Shit," Ah Nao swallowed, "I dare not."

Chi Yan changed the subject: "What's the matter with you?"

A Nao put his legs on the bed: "It's the same as before, what else can happen? I only allow the state officials to set fires and not allow the people to light lamps—"

Chi Yan hooked the back neckline of her T-shirt with a cigarette between his fingers: "You'll be fine after washing this thing."

"I don't, why, why do I have to do this to prove my innocence?" Ah Nao sniffed, and tapped Chi Yan's shoulder with his index finger, "What's the use? Don't come to me in the middle of the night and ask for a cigarette."

"It's not the same." Chi Yan threw half of the cigarette on the ground and stomped it out, and said very piously, "I love to ask what's wrong."

"Well, I don't like Liang Cong that much." Ah Nao lay on his back on the bed, "I know some things are hard to get over, even if you want to get over it, some people don't want you to go over it. I don't think I care about Qu Duo anymore, but I They hold on to every new boyfriend. I sometimes ask myself, do I really not care? I actually don’t know.”

"You know," Chi Yan said, "it will be the same for as many Liang Congs as there are."

She turned over, put her head on one arm, dragged a magazine over to pick up the cigarette ashes, and sighed for a while, as if she was about to make up her mind again. "Whatever," she said, turned over and touched Chi Yan's pocket, "I finally changed my phone, strange——"

Chi Yan subconsciously covered it.

"Fuck," Ah Nao suddenly said, "This is from Xiao Xiang."

Chi Yan defaulted.

"Didn't you fucking—" She extinguished the cigarette on the magazine, jumped out of the bed and pulled Chi Yan up to leave, "Isn't he being tied to the bed by you now?" A hole was burned in the coated paper.

Chi Yan was upset, and broke away from Ah Nao's hand: "No."

"Fuck you," Ah Nao was so angry that he clenched his fist and hammered him on the back: "Don't treat him like this, Chi Yan. He is different from Qin Zhimo, and he is also different from us. If we are gone, we will be gone." Who cares if we die? Fuck, the fan club, there will be a memorial, sing our songs, cry for us. Forget about it in a few years, then find another person worth crying for and continue crying. We're nobody I want a child, but Xiang Qifei, he is very good and well-behaved, has friends and family, he is not lacking in love, he is very happy, if not for knowing you, he will be safe and secure in his life, continue to study and work—— "

"Don't hurt him." She gripped Chi Yan's clothes tightly.

After returning to the room and locking the door, the heartbeat became clear in the silence, and the suffocation did not decrease but increased.Ah Nao told me not to harm him, Chi Yan thought, I understand, I understand.It is the best choice for me to escape alone, without facing Qin Zhimo and Qin Zheng, and without kidnapping Xiao Xiang.Why the hell am I using the word kidnapping?Proof that subconsciously thought so.He got up to pack his luggage, and stuffed the things he dug out just now one by one.He was about to run away again, he thought, as in the past, Qin Zheng would be safe with Meng Shu, I just ran to a place where no one knew me, lived alone, and would not hurt anyone or get hurt.

Stuffed for too long, Xiang Qifei might feel short of breath, his head was pushed out of the quilt, and he smashed his mouth with static electricity.I don't know how many times Chi Yan has stared at him like this, it's always a healing thing to see Qi Fei sleeping.He often sleeps deeply and is not easily woken up, mostly because he is open-minded and has no stink of resistance to burdens.Looking at Qifei's expression when he was asleep, he often felt a sense of security. At this moment, the morning light reflected on Xiang Qifei's face through the window.Seeing him wrinkle his nose subconsciously, Chi Yan noticed that the sun had already risen and the whole room was filled with sunlight.

The hand holding the lever softened, and Chi Yan conceded defeat again, disarming and surrendering.He knew he couldn't go away.He would think what if Xiang Qifei woke up and couldn't find me?Will he be in a hurry, will he stay around the world like before, will he cry?He definitely will, but he's also quick to pull himself together, full of energy and problem-solving, positive as a dummy.

But I can't bear him like this.

It doesn't matter if Ah Nao scolds me, or Xiang Qifei will hate me one day.

I can no longer escape from him.

When Xiang Qifei woke up, it was past the departure time.Chi Yan didn't wake him up, and was still fighting in his mind with what he was going to face next. The fact that the back road was blocked didn't mean he dared to move forward boldly.It wasn't until Xiang Qifei checked the box and called his name angrily that Chi Yan managed to recover from the confusion.

I haven't slept for a long time, exhausted both physically and mentally, I smirked at the person who had just slept enough, and remembered that I was hijacking the other party's ID in my hand, and wanted to return it awkwardly, trying to explain: "I'm not—"

Xiang Qifei didn't answer, and sat across Chi Yan's lap face to face, and bit him viciously on the neck.

Chi Yan hissed, put his arms around his waist, and whispered in his ear, "Be gentle, be good, it hurts."

Xiang Qifei loosened his mouth and slammed down hard. The teeth marks were already bleeding, and he felt the bite was hard again. He kissed and licked the wound, and it took him a long time to remember to ask this person: "Do you want to leave? Do you want to leave again?" !"

Chi Yan tightened his arms: "I'm sorry."

Xiang Qifei hooked his chin around Chi Yan's neck, and wrapped his arms around his back firmly: "If you don't want to pick up the kite, then we won't go, if you want to go, we'll just go, but you have to tell me Ah, how do I know what you want to do if you don’t tell me? You can go anywhere you want, but if we want to be together, even if you feel unbearable and want to run, I will run with you... Hey, you, you cry La?"

incredible.

Since Qin Zhimo's death, it was the first time that Chi Yan had such a complete emotional vent. He hugged Xiang Qifei like he was hugging a piece of driftwood, extremely embarrassed, embarrassed, and ashamed.But it seems nothing to lose face in front of Xiang Qifei.I never thought that he would easily say "I will run away with you" before, as if tacitly acquiescing to some responsibilities that you really don't want to take.After all, Xiang Qifei has never escaped anything.

I never thought that someone would still love me after knowing me so well, and even accept my filth, hesitation, indecision and fragility.