growing up porcelain doll

◎In the past, Christmas Eve and Christmas were always very popular festivals for young people. Everyone gave apples to each other to express their blessings, and some young men congratulated themselves on such lively festivals

In the past, Christmas Eve and Christmas were always very popular festivals for young people. Everyone gave apples to each other to express their blessings, and some boys courted the girls they liked on such lively festivals. In short, these two days will be particularly festive on campus day.But this year's Christmas Eve and Christmas are very deserted. No matter on campus or on the street, there is no celebration except for the Christmas trees that symbolize the festival at the store entrances, and the festive Santa Claus on the windows and glass doors. The festive atmosphere, as if this is just an ordinary December 12th and December 25th.

Compared with Christmas Eve and Christmas, everyone seems to be more looking forward to the coming New Year's Day, at least there is a three-day holiday to relax.

Cheng Yue is also a 20-year-old girl, and she has matured a lot. After rejecting Huang Tao's pursuit, they did not ignore each other like a child throwing a temper tantrum.And because they were in the same city, the two had more contacts. Huang Tao still cared about her like a big brother and did not interfere with her feelings. He fulfilled his promise. If Cheng Yue and Gong Qing could get together Together he blesses them, but if not, he fights for himself.

Cheng Yue, who hadn't seen her elder brother and second brother for several months, suddenly felt that she missed them very much. Although she had more contact with Huang Tao in the past two years, she also had an inexplicable feeling for Huang Tao. Is the heartbeat of the period really love in the true sense?But this kind of relationship has lasted for so many years, and she is unwilling to let her give up so vaguely, so she wants to find a chance to try it out, to see if she still has the same heartbeat when seeing her second brother again .

The opportunity came soon, and she decided to go to Beijing to surprise her elder brother and second brother on New Year's Day.Along the way, she gave herself enough psychological training. If she still has that kind of affection for her second brother, she will find an opportunity to confess her love to her second brother after the Chinese New Year. No matter whether she succeeds or not, she has to try anyway. Without that kind of feeling, it proves that the previous relationship was too impulsive and ignorant. If this is the case, I have an explanation to Huang Tao, and everyone is happy!

The weather was not bad on New Year's Day. Gong Qing and Cheng Yu decided to go for a walk in the school when they had nothing to do in the afternoon. Generally speaking, there are fewer people hanging out on campus at this time. Students either stay in the dormitory to rest, or hang out with friends Anyway, there are not many people who are interested in visiting the campus during the holidays.

Cheng Yu and Gong Qing walked along the campus, walked around the playground a few times, and then started to walk back. When they reached a small forest near the gate, they sat down to rest in a pavilion in the forest.Gong Qing looked up at the sky and said with a smile, "Oh, there is actually a sunset today!"

Cheng Yu also looked up, and said in response: "Well, today is a rare good weather, maybe you can see the stars at night."

Speaking of evening, Gong Qing thought of last year's New Year's Eve, he said with a smile: "Brother, do you still remember how you spent last year's New Year's Day?"

Cheng Yu glanced at Gong Qing and said, "I remember."

"I beat you that night."

"I kissed you that night."

The two spoke in unison. Cheng Yu was stunned for a moment, then smiled and said, "Well, it's only been a year, and everything has changed dramatically."

"Well, today's weather is much better than it was on New Year's Day last year. It's a good sign!" Gong Qing looked at the sunset and turned her head to look at her sweetheart standing beside her, with a tender heart.

Cheng Yu raised his eyes and looked at Gong Qing. Gong Qing's eyes were so beautiful, the black pupils seemed to be shimmering, and there seemed to be billions of stars in them.Cheng Yu was attracted by these eyes, and unconsciously leaned forward and kissed them.

Gong Qing smiled and enjoyed the tender and loving kiss. When Cheng Yu left her, she quickly pinched his chin, lowered her head and kissed him.

The gentle and beautiful scene is obviously so exciting, but it is not so beautiful in Cheng Yue's eyes.Cheng Yue rushed over from Nanshi full of joy, wanting to surprise her elder brother and second brother, so she didn't tell anyone. When she arrived at University A, she thought about wandering around the campus first to see if she could try her luck. She didn't expect her luck to be so Well, it didn't take long to meet the eldest brother and the second brother who were walking in the playground holding hands.At first she was still thinking that it would be childish for elder brother and second brother to walk together and hold hands. She followed them into the woods not too far away, and saw them kissing each other, and the clock in her heart was dulled. The sound was so harsh that it nearly suffocated her.

Cheng Yue just hid under the corner of the wall in a daze, watching the two brothers talking and laughing naturally, and finally holding hands and leaving, she didn't know what kind of mood she was in at that time, but for some reason when the sky darkened, she But squatted in place and cried secretly.

In the end, Cheng Yue didn't go to find her brother whom she missed so much, and she didn't even tell anyone that she had been here.She walked on the street like a wandering ghost, her mind was blank, until she was woken up by a piercing whistle when she was crossing the road, and she broke out in a cold sweat.She hurriedly gathered herself together, found the subway entrance, took the subway to the train station, and left this exciting place.

The Beijing city here has a rare sunny day for several days in a row, but the Nanshi city over there has been cloudy and rainy for a few days in a row.Cheng Yue suffered from insomnia throughout the New Year's Day holiday. She originally wanted to take this opportunity to clarify her heart, but before she could figure it out, she figured out the relationship between her eldest brother and second brother.The feelings planted in youth withered before they bloomed. This kind of loss will make people feel a strong sense of frustration. Even if they know that such feelings are not clear, they will feel infinite sadness in their hearts.As a new generation of young people, Cheng Yue is not unacceptable to homosexuality, but when homosexuality is her two older brothers, this is even more absurd than "she likes her second brother", she seems a little confused why Big brother and second brother will become like this.

People always have this or that kind of thinking. It may be easy to accept new things, and they can also think about problems from the perspective of others. Different people say "you can not love but please don't hurt", as if they are a saint, they can step on the commanding heights of morality and emotion to criticize others at will.But when those things that cannot be accepted by ordinary people happen to people close to them, they are not so sensible, not so tolerant, and start to think about why they become like this, and psychologically treat these people again. Divided into heterogeneous.So this world has never really empathized, and those seemingly gentle and friendly words of justice have nothing to do with me.

Cheng Yue didn't tell anyone about it, but she wrote down her emotional history and all her thoughts about her elder brother and second brother in her diary.She seemed to be keeping a big secret, and she felt uneasy every day at home. Seeing her parents always had a feeling of wanting to escape, this feeling made her feel very depressed.

The short vacation was over, and Cheng Yue returned to school. Being in this environment without family made her feel a little more relaxed, but when she thought about the winter vacation, after the two brothers came back, should she talk to them? Discuss with them how to go in the future, and she feels scared when she thinks of the practical problems they need to face. At this moment, she realizes that compared to her own feelings, whether her brothers will be hurt is her most concerned issue .She didn't blame the elder brother and the second brother, maybe she was a little wronged by her long-term unrequited love, but after knowing that the elder brother and the second brother were in love, she was not heartbroken, but distressed. It turned out that she felt more for the second brother It is still a family relationship that cannot be parted.

It was finally the winter vacation, and Cheng Yue's mood finally calmed down after being shocked and flustered. Maybe it was because she had some dark thoughts about her second brother, so she suddenly understood the relationship between her elder brother and her second brother. She thought After seeing the eldest brother and the second brother, he quietly hinted to them that he was on the same front with them.

But when she got home, what greeted her was a storm.

Liu Danqing sat on the sofa in the living room with a sullen face, and Cheng Yue's delicate diary was placed squarely on the tea table. When Cheng Yu's eyes stopped on the diary, the smile on his face froze, and his smiling voice finally just If the word "Mom" comes out, there will be no more text.

Standing at the door, she suddenly didn't dare to move forward, Liu Danqing turned to look at her, straight-forward with no expression on her face, and said, "What's going on here?"

Cheng Yue's mind was "buzzing" like it was full of flies, she pretended to be puzzled and said, "What's going on?"

Liu Danqing, who was always pleasant in front of her family, seemed to have run out of patience in an instant. She angrily threw the diary on the table towards Cheng Yue, and shouted loudly: "This is the good son and daughter I have raised for so many years! My sister likes it." My brother and my own brothers have fooled around together, are you such good brothers and sisters?"

Liu Danqing was very angry. She originally thought that the three children would go home soon, so she took advantage of the weekend to tidy up the children's room and dry the quilt. How could she have thought that the son's room was in good condition and the daughter's bed was opened What caught my eye was a few exquisite drawings and a diary stuck in the crack of the bed.At first, I thought it was nothing but just looking at the sketches, but I secretly drew a few portraits of my brother, but when I opened the diary, I saw that nothing but shock and absurdity remained.

Liu Danqing felt dizzy for a while, and the emotions that she had managed to force herself to calm down rushed up again. She clutched her heart and sat back on the sofa heavily.Cheng Yue had never seen her mother like this before, she was so frightened that she hurried forward to support Liu Danqing, and exclaimed, "Mom! What's wrong with you?!"

Sweat was dripping from Liu Danqing's forehead, she clutched her heart and panted continuously, lying on the back of the sofa with her brows on her back, feeling so uncomfortable that she couldn't speak for a while.Cheng Yue was frightened by Liu Danqing's appearance, and suddenly started to cry in a panic, and while helping Liu Danqing caress her chest, she choked up and said, "Mom, I'm sorry, I was wrong, I shouldn't like the second brother Yes, don't scare me!"

Cheng Yue's heart was already in her throat, and she panicked even more when she saw Liu Danqing's furrowed brows and gradually fading blood on her face. She buttoned up as much as possible to make her comfortable.She cried and said, "Mom, I'm sorry, the ambulance will come soon, please hold on for a while, hold on!"

When the ambulance arrived, Liu Danqing just passed out, and the doctor rushed her to the hospital after giving emergency treatment. The doctor said that she was stimulated and caused her to lose control of her emotions, which led to sudden high blood pressure. She had to stay Hospital observation for a few days.

Cheng Yue didn't dare to enter the ward after completing the hospitalization procedures, and sat on the chair in the corridor feeling guilty. This time she really caused a catastrophe. Mom and Dad can't explain it. Brothers will be back in two days What should we do then?After thinking for a while, she decided to call her elder brother to inform her.

"Hey, I haven't called brother for a month, do you miss me now?" Cheng Yu was packing his luggage, and when he received a call from Cheng Yue, he put down his work and prepared to argue with her for a while.

Cheng Yue just experienced a thrilling experience, and now she still has lingering fears and her mood is unstable. After hearing her brother's familiar voice, she suddenly couldn't help crying again, saying, "Brother!"

Cheng Yu's heart "thumped", and a bad feeling began to rise in his heart, but he still suppressed his tone and asked, "Why are you crying? What happened?"

Cheng Yue: "Brother, my mother was just sent to the hospital, it's all my fault, I'm sorry!"

Cheng Yu was confused when he heard it, but seeing Cheng Yue crying more and more sadly, he hurriedly said, "It's okay, I have brothers here, don't worry, just speak slowly."

"I, I," Cheng Yue is really going to die of guilt now, but she really can't think of a better idea on this matter, so she can only bite the bullet and say: "I went to Beijing to look for you on New Year's Day, Then I saw it in University A, saw... I was flustered and sad, so I wrote these things in my diary. My mother found out when I was cleaning the room. When I came home today, she was holding my diary. Ben was waiting for me in the living room, and when he saw me, he was very emotional, and then he had a sudden high blood pressure and was sent to the hospital, and he is still in a coma. Brother, I’m sorry, I didn’t mean it.”

The more she spoke, the lower her voice became. Cheng Yu squeezed the hand holding the phone tighter, and his heart seemed to sink to the bottom of the sea in an instant.He knew very well that the relationship between himself and Gong Qing would eventually be the result of a paper-wrapped fire, but he never thought that this day would come so soon, or that his own sister broke their privacy, and then indirectly put the family together. A hole was poked, and everyone was caught off guard.Mom is still lying in the hospital, can this be resolved peacefully?

Cheng Yu felt that his chest was tight. He took a deep breath and said to Cheng Yue, "It's okay, I don't blame you. Gong Qing and I will go back tonight."

The author says:

Ah, got into trouble!