growing up porcelain doll

◎I used to think that as long as they are far enough away from home, their relationship will be more secure, as long as they are careful enough, they can stay in Utopia longer, but now Long

I used to think that as long as they are far enough away from home, their relationship will be more secure, as long as they are careful enough, they can stay in Utopia longer, but now it's only five months, and their relationship has been exposed. Under the sun, the light is so strong that people can't open their eyes.

No one will be happy when the forbidden love is discovered. No matter how tenacious the vitality of the moss is, it is impossible to grow towards the sun. Seeing the sun is not the hope of life, but a symbol of withering and death.

Neither Gong Qing nor Cheng Yu spoke a word on the plane, their hearts were covered with a thick layer of gloom, which contained Liu Danqing's illness and their not optimistic future.

After not sleeping for a long time, Cheng Yu's eyes were a little red, and he pinched the base of his nose in discomfort. Gong Qing gently took his hand and said, "Brother, auntie will be fine."

"Yeah." Cheng Yu nodded, and said by the way: "We'll be fine, don't be afraid."

Gong Qing suddenly felt a little sad. At this time, the elder brother was still worried about himself. He forced a smile and replied: "I am not afraid. Things may be troublesome, but there will always be a solution. We Take it easy."

Looking at Gong Qing's pale face, Cheng Yu felt a pang of distress in his heart. He squeezed Gong Qing's hand tightly, and finally just hummed.

In fact, what Gong Qing said was not convincing to him, solve it?How to solve it?If there was any solution, the current situation would not be possible, Liu Danqing would not be lying in the hospital now, and this group of people would not have become so panic-stricken.

There are too many obstacles between them, and Liu Danqing's current state is their biggest obstacle. They are very clear about what they will face when they go back this time, but they just don't want to say it clearly.They went to see the innocent Liu Danqing with their bodies full of sins. They were waiting for a trial without suspense, but they were praying that the judgment would come more slowly, perhaps greedily praying for a miracle to come.

The two rushed to the hospital without stopping. After pushing open the door of the ward, they saw Cheng Yan with red eyes sitting tiredly beside the hospital bed. There was an exquisite notebook beside him. That should be the culprit who recorded everything.Cheng Yue stood aside sobbing, her eyes were swollen beyond words.

She looked towards the door following the sound of the door opening, and she felt unspeakable sadness and guilt when she saw the two brothers who were in the dust.Cheng Yan didn't punish her as severely as Liu Danqing, but it made her feel worse than being scolded. She never felt that she was so ignorant as she is now.

Cheng Yan looked up at the two of them, paused for a moment and said: "Your mother is out of danger, let's go out and talk." When he walked to the door and saw that Cheng Yue didn't follow, he turned to her and said, "You are also out of danger." come out."

Cheng Yue didn't say a word, she followed Cheng Yan silently, and closed the door gently when she walked out of the ward.

The three brothers and sisters followed Cheng Yan to a relatively secluded place downstairs. Cheng Yan stopped and turned around to look at the three of them. The fire that was suppressed in his heart suddenly came up, and he raised his hand and slapped Cheng Yu.Cheng Yu had already expected this slap, so he didn't hide, but Cheng Yue was startled by this slap, opened his eyes wide and held Cheng Yan's hand, screaming, "Dad!"

Cheng Yan suppressed his voice, turned to stare at Cheng Yue, shook off her hand and said, "And you! Are you embarrassed to cry?"

Cheng Yue immediately withdrew her hand and lowered her head, choked with sobs and dared not speak any more.

Gong Qing was extremely guilty, he lowered his head and said to Cheng Yan: "Little uncle, I'm sorry, it's all my fault, please hit me."

Cheng Yan looked at Gong Qing for a while and ignored him, and continued to say to Cheng Yu and Cheng Yue: "You two are really brothers and sisters, one has a crush on her cousin, and the other hooks up with her cousin, what do you know? I don't know! Don't you have any sense of shame?"

The five words "no shame" are really heavy for the three young people in their twenties. They are not born with low moral sense. The will to develop in a good direction, because of their unscrupulous feelings, they want to strengthen themselves more than anyone else, and they know how to be ashamed better than anyone else.Cheng Yan's words cut through the hearts of the three of them like a sharp knife, and the cut was painful.

Gong Qing felt very hurt but also very confused. He never knew that Cheng Yue had such thoughts for him. For a moment he didn't know how to react but felt that he was terrible. He seemed to have messed up the whole family. , Everywhere is full of smog.

The words of apology are really pale at the moment, but he really doesn't know what to say, the matter is much more serious than he thought.He lowered his head and didn't dare to look at Cheng Yan. The self-blame in his heart had swallowed him up. He whispered to Cheng Yan, "Little uncle, I..."

Cheng Yue felt extremely uncomfortable and guilty, even though she knew that her father was not angry because of her, but she didn't want her second brother to bear more blame and pressure because of her ignorance, so she interrupted Gong For Qing's words, he took all the responsibility on himself and kept apologizing: "Dad, it's my fault. I secretly liked my second brother when I was young. He doesn't know. Don't blame my second brother! It's my fault. It's my fault, it's all my ignorance, Dad, I was wrong, I really know I was wrong!"

Cheng Yan could understand his little daughter's mind, he knew very well that even if Cheng Yue liked Gong Qing, they would not have any substantial development, because Gong Qing and Cheng Yu got mixed up, and the real problem was Gong Qing. Qing and Cheng Yu.

Although Gong Qing has lived in their home since she was ten years old, and they have always treated Gong Qing as their own son, after Gong Qing was adopted by Liu Xiyue and Gong You, Gong Qing did not cancel the adoption with them until Liu Xiyue and Gong You died. Therefore, Gong Qing is still the son of Liu Xiyue and Gong You legally, and Cheng Yu and Gong Qing are still legal cousins.So no matter what the situation, no matter how angry Cheng Yan is, he will only be responsible for his children first.

He looked at Cheng Yu and said coldly, "Your sister knows she's wrong, how about you?"

Cheng Yu felt bitter in his mouth and tight in his chest. Seeing that Gong Qing was about to speak, he stretched out his hand to pull him, and then said to Cheng Yan, "Dad, I know I was wrong."

Although Gong Qing knew that this answer was correct, and he also knew that they were wrong, when he really heard this sentence from Cheng Yu's mouth, he felt extremely sad, just like the five people he cherished most. For months, he was personally denied by his favorite person, everything was wrong, outrageously wrong!Gong Qing felt that the surrounding air was being pulled away, and his breathing began to be difficult. He hadn't shed a single tear until now, but at this moment he couldn't help it anymore, his eyes were foggy, and Cheng Yu's face I can't see clearly either.

Cheng Yan nodded, and continued: "It's as long as you know you're wrong, so how should it end?"

Cheng Yan clenched his fists, and he said with some difficulty: "Dad, I know we were wrong, and I also know that doing so has brought harm to you, mother and even Cheng Yue, but I don't intend to let go, I love you very much. Him, I'm sorry!"

"You!" Cheng Yan didn't expect Cheng Yu to say that, and raised his hand angrily, wanting to slap him again.

Gong Qing hurriedly pushed Cheng Yu away, and the slap landed on his face impartially, half of his face was in hot pain, but he felt a little relieved because of the pain, fortunately he didn't hit his brother's face, otherwise it would be worse Cheng Yu's face would have been swollen for several days with that slap before him.

"Second brother!"

"Gong Qing!"

Cheng Yue and Cheng Yu couldn't help screaming when they saw the slap on Gong Qing's face.Cheng Yue had never seen her father lose such a temper, she was terrified for a moment, she took Cheng Yan's arm and begged, "Dad, stop beating, stop beating!"

Cheng Yan didn't expect that his slap would hit Gong Qing's face. He knew that he had slapped it with all his strength, so he was a little stunned for a moment.After a pause for a while, he calmed down a little, and finally said to Gong Qing: "Xiaoqing, uncle has never touched you before, this is the first time. We watched you grow up, how good you are we You can see it in my eyes, in my heart and your aunt's heart, I have never regarded you as an outsider, do you know?"

Gong Qing's face swelled quickly, he lowered his head and said, "I know, Uncle, I'm sorry."

Cheng Yan sighed and continued: "Are you only sorry for us? Have you ever thought about your parents, have you thought about how they would feel if they knew you and your cousin like this? They are watching you in the sky, you Are you at ease?"

Are you at ease?

These words are like a spear hanging over Gong Qing's head, as long as it falls, it can stab him right through.Cheng Yan knew Gong Qing's weakness too well, the longing for family and family affection was the desire engraved in Gong Qing's bones, and he used Liu Xiyue and Gong You to stimulate him, but it was certain that Gong Qing could not care about the old people under the nine springs and could not rest in peace.

Gong Qing really panicked, Liu Danqing and Gong You were his weaknesses that he could not ignore from beginning to end, they gave Gong Qing too much love and gave him too much warmth, they pulled him out of the swamp and gave him a chance to live The people in the sun, coupled with the phone call that he didn't make, made his guilt and remorse grow day by day. Liu Danqing and Gong You were not only his weakness, but also his unspeakable pain.

For him, Liu Danqing and Cheng Yan are the same, they are not only his aunts and uncles, but also like reborn parents in his heart, how sweet he and Cheng Yu used to be, the guilt and self-blame he bears It was so heavy that he never dared to feel at ease.

Not saying it before doesn't mean he can always feel at ease. Not talking or thinking about it is because these things are too heavy, the taste of love is too good, reason and emotion pull each other, he chooses to escape from reality for a while in the gentle village, but He can't stay in the gentle village forever.Before he came back, he had thought that Liu Danqing and Cheng Yan would definitely use Liu Xiyue and Gong You to talk things out. He thought it would not be so hard to accept with the psychological construction in his heart, but he didn't expect that when these words were really blunt. It was so painful when it entered his heart.

Gong Qing couldn't stop trembling, Cheng Yu understood Gong Qing's mood at the moment, it was extremely uncomfortable, he supported Gong Qing and said tremblingly to Cheng Yan: "Dad! You can beat me and scold me however you want, but you can't do this Speaking of him, do you know that you are trying to kill him?"

Cheng Yan said loudly: "I'm killing him? Then have you ever thought about whose heart you're killing! Can't you see that your mother is lying on the hospital bed? Cheng Yu, do you still have any conscience!" He shouted After finishing the last sentence, he turned and left.

Cheng Yu always thought that his father was tall, and even at fifty he still maintained the air of a business elite, but the moment his father turned around just now, he seemed to see the white hair protruding from his temples, and the wrinkles at the corners of his eyes were deeper than before. Quite a lot, the hair that was always combed meticulously in the past has not been taken care of now, he seems to have aged a lot, why didn't he feel so deeply during the summer vacation last year?

In the end, their parents are the line of defense they cannot break through. They are not hard-hearted enough to sacrifice their families to satisfy themselves. They are not wolf-hearted and rebellious sons.

Cheng Yue looked at the pale Gong Qing and the painful Cheng Yu, and she cried and said to them, "Brother, I'm sorry, it's my fault, it's my fault from the beginning to the end, I shouldn't sneak away I'm going to look for you, and I shouldn't write everything in the diary, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry!"

Cheng Yu forced his lips into a smile, stroked Cheng Yue's hair, and said, "It's okay, I can't blame you, sooner or later there will be such a day, and I can't blame anyone."

"Then, what should we do now?" Cheng Yue said choked up.

Yes, what should we do now? He also wants to know what other good ways to turn the situation around without hurting both sides.For him, family is very important, parents, siblings are very important, but Gong Qing is also very important, how can family affection and love be reconciled in this situation?It seems really incomprehensible.

Gong Qing looked up at the gray sky, his head was full of Cheng Yan's words just now, he was really sorry for Liu Danqing and Cheng Yan, and even more sorry for Liu Xiyue and Gong You, he seemed to feel that two pairs of reproachful eyes in the sky were watching with him.In the past, he didn't dare to confide his heart in front of his parents' graves. Now the doubled pain and guilt almost strangled him to apologise, but he still loves Cheng Yu. He is in pain, but he really doesn't want to Let go, he's so in love!