growing up porcelain doll

◎A few people calmed down downstairs, sorted out their emotions, and returned to the ward in silence. Liu Danqing was still asleep on the bed, and no one in the room said anything...◎

Several people calmed down downstairs, sorted out their emotions, and returned to the ward in silence. Liu Danqing was still asleep on the bed, and no one in the room spoke. They just stayed there until dawn, until Liu Danqing woke up. .

When Liu Danqing just woke up, his consciousness was still a little fuzzy, as if he didn't understand why he was lying here, after a while, he moved his eyes down and saw the three children standing opposite him, those trance consciousness finally returned to their place, Then she felt dizzy again.

"Are you awake? How do you feel?" Cheng Yan jumped up from the chair and touched her forehead, asking with concern.

Liu Danqing frowned for a while, then nodded slightly, and said in a hoarse voice, "Well, it's much better."

"Mom!" Cheng Yu stepped forward and grabbed her hand, his eyes were red.

Seeing the haggard-looking people in this room, Liu Danqing couldn't help but feel uncomfortable. Although she couldn't bear it, she pushed Cheng Yu's hand away and said sadly, "You still know I'm your mother?"

Gong Qing timidly walked to the hospital bed and whispered, "Auntie, I'm sorry."

Liu Danqing looked at the pale Gong Qing, feeling indescribably sad.Her relationship with Liu Xiyue has been good since childhood. Knowing that her sister has adopted a child and can become a normal mother, she is happier than anyone else. After her sister and brother-in-law passed away, she took Gong Qing back to her home without any complaints and treated him as her own. Raised like a son.Over the years, her affection for Gong Qing has never been less than that of Cheng Yu and Cheng Yue. Now that something like this happened, although she felt angry and absurd, she didn't know who to blame for such a result.

The condition of the three children is not very good. It should be said that the condition of the whole family is not good. Liu Danqing can see Cheng Yue's swollen eyes and the swollen cheeks of the two sons, and he knows that Cheng Yan must have talked. And learned the lesson.She paused for a while, then said to Cheng Yu, "How did you solve it?"

Cheng Yu lowered his head, with indescribable sadness and sadness in his eyes, he whispered, "Mom, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry." He glanced at Cheng Yan who was on the other side of the bed, and then saw the smile in Cheng Yan's eyes. The warning made my heart feel cold again.At this time, he actually didn't want to cause any irritation to Liu Danqing, but he was unwilling to let him say that he and Gong Qing would end it, so he lowered his head even lower and stopped talking.

The ward was suddenly terribly quiet, and everyone's nerves were tense. Liu Danqing knew the result before she heard the text for a while. When she closed her eyes, two lines of heartbroken tears flowed from the corners of her eyes. She said: "What if I don't agree?"

Cheng Yu took a deep breath, and said with some difficulty: "As a child, I shouldn't cause you such troubles and embarrass you. As a brother, I shouldn't have such a relationship with my own brother. Sorry. You may be able to stop us from being together, but you can't stop me from loving him."

Gong Qing's heart was going to explode, obviously the source of all this came from himself, if he could hold back that kiss and hold back his restless heart, maybe there would not be such a family person like today A tit-for-tat dilemma.But whether facing Cheng Yan or Liu Danqing, what Cheng Yu expressed was the self he fell in love with, that he insisted on being with him, and that he couldn't do without him.Cheng Yu took all the blame on himself and tried his best to bear the blame from the outside world for him, but how could he not know?

Standing by the side, Cheng Yue listened to his brother's words in horror, fearing that her father would slap her brothers again in his temper, so she lightly pulled Cheng Yu's sleeve, signaling him not to say such things at this time.

Cheng Yu didn't move, he was ready to be beaten, but the expected beating and scolding didn't come, only Liu Danqing said in despair: "You want my life, don't you? Then take it away." , As long as I am alive, it is impossible to agree to my two sons' nonsense!" She said, pulling out the infusion needle on the back of her hand.

Gong Qing watched Liu Danqing's movements, and hurriedly called out: "Auntie!"

The others also panicked, for fear that Liu Danqing would really be hurt again, she was still weak, and it was impossible not to hang up.The room suddenly became chaotic, and Cheng Yue was sent out to ask the nurse to come back and give the needle again.

Gong Qing really couldn't bear such a scene, he was about to collapse.Compared with other people, he has experienced too many deaths and too many vicissitudes in his not too long life. The sorrows and joys again and again will not make people numb, but will only make people's hearts hard to heal. One after another, the number increased, leaving countless tears when I dreamed back at midnight.

From losing to owning, and from owning to losing, he understands the pain of loss better than anyone else, so he desires to have a home full of warmth more than anyone else, and Liu Danqing and Cheng Yan gave him, not only He gave him, and gave him more things than he imagined, so he couldn't help but be moved, couldn't help but be grateful, couldn't helplessly watch them being unmoved because of their own mistakes, sadness and despair, and couldn't watch them suffer Peace of mind with their son.After all, he is not a cruel and selfish person, and his brother has already helped him bear too much, he can't watch the person he loves the most and his parents mess up like this.

Utopia has collapsed, and it is time to wake up from the dream.

The nurse came to help Liu Danqing get the needle again, but Liu Danqing suddenly struggled and refused to let the nurse approach her. Cheng Yue cried and told her that she ignored her, but was heartbroken with tears.

Gong Qing stepped forward and squatted beside Liu Danqing's bed, took her hand lightly, and said, "Auntie, I'm sorry, we, we," although he was ready, but what he said next was extremely difficult , he swallowed his throat and said in a trembling voice: "We will be separated, get well soon."

There was no sound in the ward again, Liu Danqing looked at him blankly with teary eyes, as if he didn't understand whether the words just now were true or an auditory hallucination due to the confusion just now.She was afraid that everything was fake, so she didn't even dare to blink her eyes.

Gong Qing reluctantly smiled at her, but she saw tears on Gong Qing's face. How long has she not seen this child cry?She couldn't remember.When the teardrops hanging from his chin dripped on the back of her hand, she only felt her heart ache.

The nurse gave Liu Danqing another injection, and she, who was already weak, fell into a deep sleep after exhausting herself.

Cheng Yu and Gong Qing left the ward, but Cheng Yan and Cheng Yue consciously did not follow.

They sat down on the garden bench downstairs, and Cheng Yu felt that he seemed to have floated here with Gong Qing all the way, and he couldn't even step on the ground under his feet, even though he understood what Gong Qing was thinking.

After a while, he finally said, "Have you decided?"

Have you decided?But if you don't decide, what can you do?Gong Qing felt heartache, lung pain, pain everywhere.He sat dejectedly on the chair, like a dying person who was terminally ill and had no hope of healing, his face was pale and terrifying.

He said: "But what can I do? I understand that you don't want me to carry it, but I don't want to make it difficult for you. Brother, you have done enough for me, and I owe you too much. It's not clear yet."

Cheng Yu felt that the dull pain in his heart was getting worse, and it was extremely difficult to breathe. He said, "Do I think you are troublesome? I said I love you very much."

Gong Qing smiled slightly, nodded and said, "I know, but don't you love my aunt and uncle?"

Cheng Yu stopped talking, those were his parents who gave birth to him and raised him for more than 20 years, how could he not love him?In this relationship, Cheng Yu is as greedy as Gong Qing, and he also wants to preserve the relationship between him and Gong Qingzhi, while not hurting his parents.But if they really can't get the understanding and approval of their parents, they can only compromise in the end, and they have no other choice, because it is impossible for them to abandon their parents.

Gong Qing gently took Cheng Yu's hand and said, "Brother, I still love you, and I will always love you."

Cheng Yu held his hand tightly, and replied, "I will too, always love you, always be you."

The matter finally stopped the dispute with the compromise of the two brothers, but the bad things did not end there.After Liu Danqing was discharged from the hospital, her spirit did not improve. She couldn't help observing her two sons, and she couldn't help feeling flustered when she saw them getting closer. Even if her brother compromised not to be a lover, it is impossible for a normal brother to have no contact at all, but she still couldn't help herself to think in a crooked way.She always remembers Cheng Yu's sentence "You may be able to stop us from being together, but you can't stop me from loving him." She can't help but imagine something intimate and unethical happening to her two sons at home , so she suffered from insomnia all night, and was in anxiety every day and night.

People in this family lived carefully every day. After Cheng Yu and Gong Qing found out that something was wrong with Liu Danqing, they took the initiative to live separately. One slept in the bedroom and the other slept in the study. Except for meals, they tried not to appear in front of Liu Danqing at the same time. , it seems that Liu Danqing's condition will be better.

They didn't go anywhere this year, and the year was not like a year. The whole house was in a state of low pressure, which made people lack oxygen and suffocated.

I have never felt that the days are so long, and finally got through to the beginning of school, thinking that everyone can finally change the environment and breathe a little, but Liu Danqing suddenly said at the dinner table one day: "You two want to go to Beijing together, right? "

The topic they had never mentioned during this time was finally brought up by Liu Danqing, and Cheng Yu and Gong Qing had a tacit understanding that they could release the emotions that had been suppressed for so long as long as they left this house temporarily, but now with this He was shattered by a single question, Liu Danqing was far more sensitive than they thought.

Seeing that the two didn't answer, Liu Danqing nervously explained first: "I, I didn't mean that, I just wanted to ask if you want to go to school together, I..."

Her nervous fingers were all twisted together, sweat was profuse on her forehead, and she stuttered a word, completely losing the appearance of her teacher.

"Mom, I'm not going." Cheng Yu interrupted her.

Hearing that, Gong Qing's chopsticks were also eaten. He looked at Cheng Yu quietly, only to hear Cheng Yu say: "I have finished all the courses I should take last semester, and I have almost finished writing the thesis. Find a place for an internship directly, and you don’t have to go to school before graduation.”

Gong Qing's heart finally sank to the bottom of the valley. Last semester, his brother finished all the courses for him. He hoped that this semester he could have more time to take care of and accompany him while working. Now, everything has become There was nothing, and even the last thought between them was cut off.

Cheng Yan said: "Then come to our company, I can talk to our company's legal counsel."

"No need, I'll find a law firm myself." After Cheng Yu finished speaking, he continued to eat, as if the awkward and gloomy atmosphere did not exist, and he did not look at Gong Qing, because he could not face the promise made half a year ago.

Liu Danqing picked up the bowls and chopsticks again but couldn't eat any more. Her original worry was eliminated, so she should feel relaxed at this moment, but she felt uncomfortable when she saw the taciturn family and the two brothers who had no communication. She couldn't accept the relationship between her two sons as lovers, and her head started to hurt again.

"I, I'm full." Liu Danqing put down the bowls and chopsticks and got up and went back to the bedroom. Cheng Yan looked at her leaving back, sighed helplessly, turned around and said to the three children, "Eat quickly."

In the end, Gong Qing boarded the train bound for Beijing alone, and returned to the nest they moved into last November.It was less than half a year since the two of them got together and separated. Time passed so fast, as if nothing had happened in time. Only the various items for lovers in the den and the details of life everywhere reminded him that they had really together.

Gong Qing stood in the empty bedroom, and the bed was covered with their favorite blue sheets. At first, he just casually said that he liked the feeling of the sea, so his brother arranged the whole room in the color of the sea. The wallpaper of the underwater world may seem naive at first glance, but it has a very strong warmth, which is the feeling of home.The nights they spent here were like swimming happily in the world of the sea. Cheng Yu's face seemed to be smiling, caring, crying, or panting emotionally before Gong Qing's eyes. He couldn't touch it.The bitterness, longing and pain that had been suppressed for so long finally broke out at this moment, and he buried himself in the pillow and cried bitterly.