Unreasonable

inside.But I know that you never put me at the same height.You are the person who respects me the most. You are the first person to talk to me and squat down to look into my eyes. Be a person who is going to protect the child.But I don't like this. "

He paused in front of Zhiling, staring at Zhiling's light-colored eyes:

"Maybe what I want to say is that I have grown up, I don't want a perfect brother, I just want a friend who can share the wind and snow. Can you treat me like anyone else, and be happy when you are happy Laughing, jumping and jumping when walking, playing a prank when you are bored, and showing your face when you are unhappy. In this way, I feel that you are really standing by my side instead of God pitying me. It turned into a phantom. Zhiling, I just want to catch you as much as possible, instead of being powerless every time I face you like a cloud."

Zhiling's eyes flickered, and he said softly: "But, if you have Nan, it can't be because of..." A word flooded into his mind, causing his pupils to shrink instantly, and he suppressed the urge to blurt out , and then there was a moment of confusion in his eyes.

So finally he said slowly: "Okay, Younan, I understand."

He also said: "What about Xiao Yuechen, please let me take a while to tell you. You are right, I am indeed... a little sad now. —— No, it is very sad."

Saying so, he turned and went upstairs.

The back seemed extremely sad, but also a little bit confused.

Younan bowed his head, thought for a while, and followed.

"Zhiling, I want to accompany you."

On the next Saturday, Younan got up from Zhiling's bed early in the morning, and when he opened his eyes, he saw that the side beside him was empty.

He opened the curtains and saw the clear sky outside, and he felt clear in his heart.

In fact, according to Zhiling's habit, he doesn't draw the curtains much.

You can't see in from the left and right, so Zhiling likes to be closer to the excitement.

Stretching, he turned around, and suddenly caught a glimpse of a corner of the envelope protruding from under the pillow on Zhiling's side.

Younan frowned, walked over, and picked it up.

The words on the cover are very gentle, not very sharp, but it still makes people feel good-looking.

Written on the cover: To my dearest Zhiling.

This sentence is not good, who would call Zhiling my dear?

Younan couldn't figure it out, and when he realized it, he had already opened the letter with shaking hands.

Zhiling is cute:

Before you know it, I have been with you for more than ten years.I still remember when you were in elementary school, you had exquisite eyebrows and eyes, really like a little prince.

In fact, to this day, writing this letter, I am still very sad.Feeling unwilling and embarrassed.

In fact, there are still many things I want to say to you, but I feel that it is really painful, so I can't continue.

Little friend Zhiling, I, Ziyang, and many, many people all like you very much.I know you know, but I want to say it again.

Zi Yang is aggressive, so stop him.

Xiao Xiao... I really love him.

Don't blame Xiao Xiao now, it seems weird, but I really think so.I don't want to spend the rest of my life like this.You've seen my life at its best and you know how proud I am to be alone.

Mom and Dad, please.Although I know that saying thank you will feel that I am out of touch again, but I still want to say, Zhiling, thank you.

Goodbye, little friend.

Good, 5.17

You Nan was stunned for a while before restoring the letter and putting it back.

Turning around again, I saw a pile of hideous and ugly wooden blocks on the table, and a carving knife neatly placed beside it.

Wood chips were also in the trash can next to it.

He walked out the door, and as soon as he went downstairs, he saw Zhiling half lying on the sofa in a daze, and he didn't turn his head when he heard the footsteps on the stairs, staring fixedly at one place.

You Nan sighed softly, opened the refrigerator, and grabbed the bag of cherries that he just bought yesterday. The sound of rattling was a bit abrupt in the quiet living room, but Zhi Ling still didn't move.

He went to the kitchen to wash a plate of cherries, and the cool water shattered on the back of his hands. There was a slight chill, and he remembered that it was already November.

Fortunately, there are cherries in Yucheng in all seasons.

You Nan brought a plate of cherries to the living room, bent down and placed it gently on the coffee table.

He picked up two cherries with branches tied together, and said with a smile, "Look, Zhiling."

Zhiling raised his head upon hearing the sound.

I saw that the two cherries under the green and tender branches were plump and round, full of water, and broken with clear water droplets.

Seen from the bottom, it is a fresh tender orange, with Sisidan orange oozing out from the inside, half of the wall is as transparent as jade illuminated by the light golden sunlight, which makes the heart itchy.

"Try it?"

Zhiling opened his mouth, and the mouth was clear and cool. When he bit it lightly, the peel was broken and the juice burst open. It was so sour and had a lingering sweetness. It made people suddenly feel that life is really beautiful.

Maybe what is worth cherishing in life is not the emotional entanglement that is so earth-shattering, but just the sourness of a cherry turning a corner.

Zhiling's eyes brightened slightly, and he suddenly smiled.

Younan asked, "How is it?"

Zhiling smiled: "Sour."

Younan sat down: "Be content, it's November, it's good to have cherries."

"Ah."

Seemingly thinking that we should reciprocate, Zhiling said to Younan again: "Younan, close your eyes and guess the candy."

Yunan skillfully closed his eyes and opened his mouth.

There was a clanging sound first, and then a soft "boom", and immediately there were two cool spots on the tip of the tongue.The next moment the tongue rolled up.Resisting to go to heaven, the sweetness slowly leaks out, and the jasmine fragrance that fills the mouth fills the mouth, diffuses into the lungs, and trickles into the heart, making people feel that the world is brighter.

"Jasmine flake mints."

Younan opened his eyes and smiled at Zhiling, Zhiling suddenly felt an indistinct movement somewhere in his heart, which made him turn his head away uncomfortably.

"Zhi Ling."

"Ok?"

"I just read the letter under your pillow. I'm sorry."

"Don't apologize. I showed you."

"Why do you think I must watch it?"

Zhiling smiled: "Because the cover says, 'To my dear Zhiling'."

After the short weekend ended, it was time for Younan to set off to recruit students from other places. It wasn't until Zhiling got on the bus that he didn't follow, and Younan realized that it seemed like a small parting.

Younan looked at Zhiling who was waving at him under the flower tree, and suddenly felt a little disappointed.

I haven't said goodbye to him yet.

This time I went to recruit students with a group of unfamiliar alumni and professors.

They chatted with You Nan for a while when they first got in the car, they probably sensed that You Nan was not interested, so they stopped talking with him.

In fact, compared with those eight years, this kind of difference is really not even a feather.

But as long as it is about Zhiling, it seems that any emotion can be infinitely magnified.

I was depressed for a while, arrived at the airport, boarded the plane, and saw the houses of the crowd gradually shrinking, and finally they were all hidden by the clouds. Looking back, I saw several people in the same company all closed their eyes and fell asleep, and gradually felt relieved.

I miss Zhiling very much.

But I don't feel bad about it.

I can't see him.

But I am still happy.

I know he is in the rain, right where I will go back in a few days, laughing, making noise, running, still alive.

This is already a very happy thing.

The first stop is to Sichuan.

After the plane landed, there was almost no time to rest, so they went to the school they were in charge of in groups.

The so-called enrollment is nothing more than promotional videos, lectures, enrollment plans and special policy explanations.

Some schools stayed for a short time, and left after a hasty talk, while for a longer time, You Nan got along with a group of high school students.

Sometimes when the time is just right, the school prepares dinner for them, and Younan can sneak into the food grabbers.

When visiting a school to study in the third year of high school, Younan also felt a little dazed.

I thought of how my life has undergone such earth-shaking changes within a few months of graduating from high school.

Seeing the envious eyes in the classroom, Younan smiled at them.

When I was in high school, I never thought about what college would be like.

Even if there were a few fragments, it was mostly the same step-by-step process as high school.

He liked Zhiling so much, but he never expected to see him again.

Although it is now familiar with the same in and out.

He just felt that any assumptions about the future would make this moment unbearable.

If the preset is good, it will make people want to have it urgently.If the preset is bad, it will make people fear the preset will come.

so......

"Actually, the more you want to get rid of everything in the moment, the harder it is to endure. Just wait with peace of mind."

You Nan propped his elbows on the window sill, and whispered to the frowning boy in front of him who called him "envy".

This is their third and last day in Sichuan.

Tomorrow morning, we will leave for Kyoto.

It was already dinner time, and a large number of students rushed across the playground to the cafeteria, chatting and making noise.

Not long after, people strolled out of the cafeteria and slowly returned to the teaching building in groups of three or four.

All of a sudden, there was a hoarse scream near the school gate. The scream seemed to be contagious, and it sounded wave after wave, one after another.

But nan doesn't care about those.

He stared in front of him obsessively, motionless, as if he had lost his soul, until a familiar voice sounded behind him, Younan looked back in surprise, and saw a person like Zhilan Yushu walking towards him from the playground with a smile on his front.

31. No.30 An Unreasonable Trouble

◎I, Younan, the officially certified wife of Ling◎

—— Zhiling.

Zhiling booked the fastest flight ticket after dealing with the urgent matter at hand, but he called Younan but the phone was turned off, so he had to contact the professor in charge of this team