Unreasonable

When I came in front of him, I felt him grabbing my fingers before suddenly returning to my senses.

Younan hooked the trash can over with his feet, and smiled at Zhiling: "When you handed me the gift just now, your fingernails were long and uneven. I want to help you fix them."

Zhiling didn't speak.

He looked at Younan's focused expression and heard the clear "click" sound. He felt that some indistinguishable emotions reached his heart from his fingertips, and he felt an inexplicable joy, and a strange feeling that he had never experienced in the past 24 years. Itching.

He shook his head and wanted to get rid of this uncomfortable feeling. After staring at Younan for a while, he said:

"You Nan. I used to think that you were a child who needed to be protected. But it seems that I just went out for a walk and came back. You are independent enough to not be afraid of any storms or anyone leaving."

including me.

In fact, this is normal, and he has never really had such a deep bond with Younan, but when he thinks that he is just one of the dispensable ones in Younan's life, he will feel flustered and sad inexplicably, as if subconsciously Not satisfied with such a close relationship.

He raised his eyes to look at Younan, he still had the same shallow expression, but the eyes that fell on Zhiling's nails were extremely serious, and there was a little subtle tenderness hidden.

Based on this alone, he seems to be able to arrogantly think that he does have a pivotal position in Younan's heart, but...

It seems that's all.

You Nan's eyes fell on the neatly trimmed nails that looked like a pile of jade tiles, he was startled, then he looked up at Zhi Ling and chuckled softly.

Zhiling asked, "What's wrong?"

Younan smiled and shook his head: "It's nothing. It's just that I suddenly remembered a stupid thing I did before."

With his elbows on his knees and his chin in his hands, he recalled with a smile:

"One day I was walking down the street and suddenly stopped, and then kept backing away, like an idiot."

"And then?" Zhi Ling asked.

The smile in Younan's eyes suddenly paused, and then a deeper emotion flooded up, floated up, and was suppressed again, but his attitude suddenly became a little alienated.

"Then I don't remember. I'm going to take a nap, Zhiling, go back to your room."

After watching Zhiling leave, Younan took out the green bound book from the small box, opened it, followed the handwriting on it, wrote down the date, and paused.

After a long while, he fell silent:

"Zhiling said that I am independent enough not to be afraid of any storms, nor afraid of anyone leaving, but I am not.

Losing doesn't mean it doesn't hurt, it doesn't mean it doesn't hurt, but I'm afraid that when I turn around and want to hold on to the loss, the others will go away again.

I was like a child who was carrying his only few treasures in rags, losing them along the way, but never daring to stop to pick them up.

Until one day when I had nothing left, I stared at the empty rags in my hands and didn’t know what to do.

It seems that I can only tell myself that, in fact, I still have it. "

He paused and wrote again:

"So if possible, I would like to ask Zhiling to stay with me all the time. Because indeed he gave me hope and made me feel that maybe I can live a lively life like many other people."

"But if it is still not possible in the end, I think I will always be like this, and live alone on the premise of liking him."

34. No.30 Four unreasonable troubles

◎Youyi, tell me about making a wish. ◎

In the afternoon, Younan had nothing to do, so He Zhiling swept a shared bicycle by himself and shuttled through the streets and alleys.

When you arrive in Kyoto, facing the towering high-rise buildings and the pedestrians in suits and shoes hurrying to and fro, you will suddenly feel small.

Passing by Beijing University, the two stopped their car and stood in front of the door.

Younan suddenly said, "Zhiling, the capital is so big."

Zhiling nodded: "Well. Not only is the city huge, but there are also many powerful people. No matter how shining a person is, it will be ordinary here, and it is difficult to distinguish at a glance."

You Nan smiled: "It's a statement that only a shining person would make."

Zhiling also laughed: "'Speech' can't be taken care of. It's just that I just came to a foreign country eight years ago, and no one knew me when I walked on the street. At that moment, the shameful vanity in my heart was thwarted, so I thought about it sadly."

"what about now?"

Zhiling sighed: "It's been eight years, you Nan, the problem of vanity has been cured long ago."

The two walked along the sidewalk for a while, and Younan suddenly looked at Zhiling squarely and said, "Zhiling, objectively speaking, you are also very good, no worse than anyone in this city. But for me, I only do it because I like you. I think you are amazing, not because I like you because you are amazing. And in my heart, the world is behind you, and you are always No.1.”

Zhiling was stunned for a moment, and forgot to even laugh, just stumbled and said: "Let's... go visit Beijing University?"

Younan looked back at the gate: "I remember making an appointment?"

Zhiling smiled proudly: "I'll take you to brush your face."

"Why can you brush your face?"

"I was an exchange student for a short period of time, and then I also had some cooperation. I often came in and out, and I got acquainted with each other."

Sure enough, as soon as Zhiling appeared, the guard uncle greeted him excitedly.

After entering the school, Nan curled his lips: "So, Professor Zhida, you are not a student visiting the university, but a celebrity who will be surrounded by students for autographs and photos?"

Zhiling smiled: "There are not many people who know me here, but some people did come here to ask for autographs and group photos before."

After turning around a few times, seeing the strong learning atmosphere inside, Younan smiled and said, "Beijing University really has the feeling of an institution of higher learning."

"What about the heavy rain?"

Younan thought for a while: "Yuta is home." He smiled, and said again: "Look at the grand scene of reading books everywhere, and then think about our leisurely days of petting cats and admiring flowers in every corner of Yuda, suddenly I feel The cultural orientation of the campus is really important.”

Zhiling asked: "What is Yuda's cultural orientation?"

You Nan smiled: "Ordinary people have a lot of rain, three parts are beautiful, and seven parts are Ling. Ling, what do you think?"

He looked back, only to notice that Zhiling's clothes were not the same as usual.

The upper body is a light green solid color casual shirt, the lower body is beige overalls, and the thin and beautiful ankle bones are looming.

"Why are you dressed differently today?"

"Then do you think it looks good?"

You Nangang wanted to say that naturally you look great in whatever you wear, but before he could say anything, he was suddenly interrupted by an explosive scream: "Zhi Ling!!!"

The two turned their heads and saw a girl with black-rimmed glasses running towards them with a stack of books in her hands.

To be precise, it was Chao Zhiling.

After getting close, the girl was out of breath for two seconds, and immediately she was out of breath and said numbly, "Ah, ah, ah, Zhiling, I have liked you for many years. I originally wrote it in the college application, but my mother quietly changed it to Mimi. I hate Beijing University so much! Handy Yuda requires real-name authentication so I can’t touch it. The students who entered Yuda are more talkative than river mussels. They are so angry! But there is no unparalleled road, no Thinking of you actually coming to Beijing University hahahaha, Yuda’s bad friends must have never thought that Zhiling, who was holding on to their hearts and minds, would come to me hahahaha..."

Zhiling: "Yu Da is [-] points lower than the cut-off score of Beijing University. Why do you report Yu Da if you can get into Beijing University?"

The girl: "Isn't it for you?"

Zhiling: "This really makes me ashamed. However, I came to Peking University just passing by, and now I am a professor at Yu University."

The girl froze for a moment.

"When did it happen?"

"It's been a long time."

"Why the hell is Yuda not spreading any news? They don't share anything except their studies? They can't even take the cat with them?"

Younan's eyes widened: "You guys actually want to take away Yuda's cat?"

The girl took two steps back again and again: "I didn't take it away, I didn't take it away."

He asked Zhiling for an autograph and a group photo, and then quickly slipped away.

Zhiling turned back and smiled: "Younan, then why did you enter Yuda?"

"you guess."

Zhiling shook his head: "You're not a mortal, I can't guess."

Younan ran a few steps forward, then turned around suddenly, and said loudly, "I am an ideal in the world."

For me.

Haha smiled and ran away.

After the two returned to the hotel together, Younan suddenly remembered: "Zhiling, haven't your friends from Kyoto come?"

There are so many people rushing here in Sichuan, there should be only a lot more in Kyoto.

Zhiling said "ah", "I wanted to play with you, so I refused in advance. But I gave them all the gifts."

With the ceremony?

How much is that.

With so many people, does Zhi Ling remember them all?

The days in Kyoto passed quickly because of Youzhiling's company, and Younan went home first on the day he returned to Yucheng.

There is no special reason, and there is no one I want to see.It's just that every time I go to a far place and come back after walking around, I really want to take a walk in the woods at home and stand in front of my window.

With the accumulation of 18 years of memory, no matter what it feels like, even if it is only loneliness and resentment, it can always precipitate a sense of security.

Because of familiarity, so nostalgic.

He went up the trail from the back of the mountain, and looked down at the clover all over the ground. He didn't stop until he walked out of the forest and waist-high flowers came into view.

A white-bottomed villa is like floating in the boundless sea of ​​flowers.Gabled roof, French stone walls, log window frames.

This is a dream created by Youyi himself to make a wish.

But why the dream was created, and why such a huge effort and financial resources were spent to create the dream in such an isolated place, Younan had no idea.

This is a very normal thing.For example, Zhiling doesn't think about why Su Yu is always so happy and heartless.or make a wish with him