but you never loved me

Perhaps some kind of emotional collision can simply start from the next second when the eyes meet.But this kind of broken relationship often ends in the next second when the eyes meet.

Ning Yi's eyes were full of guilt, remorse, and pity, but more of it was fear.Yan Zimu's eyes were empty and only Ning Yi's shadow was imprinted, like a pool of unfathomable stagnant water, he could not feel anything except indifference.

With such eyes, Ning Yi didn't even have the courage to explain.He just looked at Yan Zimu quietly like this, with more pleading and hope in his eyes.

He would rather Yan Zimu beat him and scold him, or even kill him, than just ignore him now, as if he no longer had himself in his world.He felt that his heart was tied by Yan Zimu's thread, as long as he tried hard, his heart could be broken into pieces.

However, before he could get the response he wanted, he was pushed out of the door by the irritable Jiang Cheng.

Jiang Cheng pressed Ning Yi against the wall and punched him on the bridge of the nose.Blood gushed out of Ning Yi's nostrils immediately, dripping to the ground.Ning Yi subconsciously raised his hand to wipe his nose and touched the blood on his hand.At this time, Du Chenfeng, who rushed out of the door, nervously stopped between the two to prevent Jiang Cheng from making another move.

Ning Yi saw blood on his hands, but he didn't show any signs of getting angry. He turned around and wanted to enter the ward.His reaction instantly ignited Jiang Cheng's anger.

As soon as Ning Yi put his hand on the doorknob, he was suddenly kicked in the back of his vest.He staggered a bit and held on to the door so as not to fall.Before he could react, Jiang Cheng grabbed his back collar, and he took a few steps back before he could stand still.

Jiang Cheng kicked him in the hollow of his knee, and he suddenly fell to his knees.Jiang Cheng sneered from behind: "Ning Yi, what qualifications do you have to see Amu? If you want to see him, just kneel here until he is willing to see you." After speaking, he passed by Ning Yi's side, "Bang "Shut the door of the ward with a bang.

Ning Yi seemed to be dazed, kneeling in front of Yan Zimu's ward like this.Du Chenfeng wanted to pull him up from the ground, but he stubbornly remained motionless.

After 10 minutes, the door of the ward was opened, and Jiang Cheng, who had a dark face, said in an unhappy tone: "Go in, finish what you have to say at once, and then don't appear in front of A Mu again. "

Ning Yi stood quietly in front of Yan Zimu's hospital bed. Yan Zimu kept looking out of the window. The winter light outside the window shone on Yan Zimu's face. It was still as gentle and beautiful as before, but lacked the most touching touch. smile.His gentle side face suddenly looked so thin when he was not smiling.

Yan Zimu suddenly sighed at a certain moment: "Today's sun seems to be warmer than before." Ning Yi's eyes trembled a little, looking at Yan Zimu's gaze was extraordinarily gentle and affectionate.

It was this kind of gaze that Yan Zimu turned his head to meet.But he didn't have any mood swings, and his voice was a little low and sad when he spoke: "Ning Yi, our child is gone."

Ning Yi's eyes were filled with despair again, and he thought of the little corpse in the morgue.Yan Zimu didn't notice his departure - you are my obsession - god, and said to himself: "Ning Yi shouldn't be together, even if you force him, you can't be together after all. You don't love Me, I forced it, so I don’t complain if I don’t get good results. But my child didn’t do anything wrong. I can’t accept that because of your choice, you don’t even have the chance to open your eyes and see the world. Ning Yi, you shouldn't have come to me, because even if you say you really regret it, I can't forgive you."

Ning Yi's heart was torn to pieces by these words. He couldn't help but stepped forward and hugged Yan Zimu into his arms, and said in a trembling tone: "It's not Zimu like this, I never thought of giving up on you. I don't know... ...I didn't know you were injured, if I knew the child was in danger, I would not have saved you, can you trust me?"

Yan Zimu broke away from his embrace, but Ning Yi dared not let go.He could only pray and looked at Yan Zimu, and said again: "Tell me, what do you want. As long as you want, I can give you my life, you... don't treat me as a stranger, can you?" ?”

Yan Zimu looked at him, smiled faintly, and laughed at himself with a sense of loneliness and self-mockery: "We were strangers from the beginning, weren't we? If I hadn't been curious about everything about you back then, then today wouldn't be like this." Since we are strangers from the beginning, let's be the most innocent strangers. From now on, there will be no relationship between you and me, and it is best never to see each other again."

Ning Yi's wounds all over his body were in pain, but because his heart was torn apart, he was numb from the pain.Even so, he still didn't think about giving up.He leaned over and pressed a light kiss on Yan Zimu's lips: "Zimu, I can't live without you. If you really want to leave, you might as well kill me with your own hands."

Before Yan Zimu could react to what he said, he took the fruit knife by the bedside and put it into Yan Zimu's hand, pulling his hand and pushing it towards his heart.

Yan Zimu came to his senses and quickly turned his wrist vigorously.But the sharp tip of the knife still made a long cut on Ning Yi's chest.Yan Zimu quickly covered his wound with his hand.To the frightened Du Chenfeng, he said, "Go and call the doctor."

Yan Zimu frowned looking at the blood that kept leaking from his fingers.Ning Yi looked at him frowning but laughed, and he said softly: "Zi Mu, don't you think it's dirty, don't cover it up and let it bleed clean. If I die, you can forgive me, Then I will."

As soon as he finished speaking, Yan Zimu raised his head and looked at him with a bit of indifference: "Ning Yi, do you think I will forgive you after you die? You are wrong. In my heart, you Not even a single hair of my child's hair. Your death will only make me bear a stain and give others a reason to talk about my life. Therefore, I never thought of asking you to die. If you really If you want to die, please don't die in front of me."

The light that had just lit up in Ning Yi's eyes went out instantly: "You... really don't want to see me forever?" Yan Zimu looked at him and answered him very seriously: "I don't want to see you again, so please Don't appear in front of me again."

Ning Yi didn't speak for a while, and Yan Zimu wouldn't take the initiative to speak.Even though the hot and humid liquid dripped onto the back of his hand, he didn't ask again.

Finally Ning Yi said with a hoarse voice: "Zi Mu, I love you, so even if you hate me, I am not willing to let go. I can promise you everything, except losing you."