but you never loved me

The beauty in life is always fleeting, lost from your fingers inadvertently.However, what makes people sad is not the loss, but after the loss, you know clearly that he will never come back.

The sentence "I can't go back" made everything Ning Yi did futile and ridiculous.With red eyes, he chuckled lightly, with a bit of self-mockery: "If I said that I love you now, would you believe me?"

Yan Zimu looked at him with calm eyes, which made people despair.Ning Yi saw himself in a state of embarrassment from the dark pupils, but he didn't find a trace of the once exclusive affection from them.

He still wants to laugh, laugh at his own stupidity these years, laugh at the absurdity of this world, and laugh at the cruelty of this ending.But there was a big hole in his heart, the pain was so painful that he didn't even have the strength to laugh.

He leaned down gently, and put a kiss on Yan Zimu's forehead: "I promise you, as long as you don't want to see me, I will never appear in front of your eyes. But Zimu, I will still love you. We will wait For you, as long as you want to come back, I will always be here."

When he bent down, Yan Zimu closed his eyes subconsciously.When he opened his eyes again, what he saw was Ning Yi's back.He looked at the back and said sadly: "Ning Yi, don't wait for me, I won't come back."

The figure paused for a few seconds, and finally, without turning around, pushed the door away.So he didn't see the pain and firmness in Ning Yi's eyes.

When Ning Yi pushed the door and walked out, his clothes were already half soaked in blood.He was weak and weak, and a heavy dizziness hit him.He held onto the door frame so that he wouldn't fall directly to the ground.

Du Chenfeng and Chu Xiaoran hurried forward to support him, intending to send him to a doctor.Unexpectedly, this time he did not resist.Du Chenfeng was slightly surprised, and when he left, he couldn't help turning his head and looking at the closed door of the ward behind him.

As soon as Ning Yi was sent to the doctor, he was pushed directly into the operating room.Du Chenfeng and Chu Xiaoran's hands and clothes were stained with his blood, looking at the blood on their hands, both of them lost their minds.

Du Chenfeng asked, "Brother, do you think San'er will get better?"

A long sigh echoed in the corridor, and Chu Xiaoran was silent for a while before she opened her mouth: "The wounds that can be seen will heal after a while. Those that cannot be seen will probably scab and heal slowly."

Du Chenfeng inserted his hands into his hair, and said regretfully, "Brother, I feel sorry for San'er. If he didn't know that Yan Zimu is Gu Yang, he wouldn't feel so uncomfortable."

Chu Xiaoran patted him on the shoulder: "The fact is, he has to face it all the time, it doesn't matter who tells him the truth."

Most of these words were comforting, but no one could tell whether Du Chenfeng was responsible.So both of them fell silent, staring at the dim light on the surgery card, immersed in their own thoughts.

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Jiang Cheng went to Xinghai Villa to pick up Yan Yan, leaving Lin Minchen to accompany Yan Zimu in the hospital.Lin Minchen sat on the bedside and peeled apples for Yan Zimu, pretending to mention it casually: "Zimu, when you are discharged from the hospital, do you want to go back to City B? The climate there is good and suitable for physical cultivation. The air is fresh and good for the baby. Yours I'll keep the bookstore for you and ask Xiaoye to help guard it. If you find it troublesome, I'll find you and your baby a house in the suburbs of the city, and find a nanny to take care of the baby for you."

Yan Zimu smiled and sighed a little in his heart, Lin Minchen was really careful.But he couldn't bear such affection at all. "Minchen, don't bother. After my father's matter is settled, I want to take the baby abroad for a while."

Lin Minchen's smile froze at the corner of his mouth, and he tried to fight again: "Amu, the child is still so young, it will be very hard for you to take care of it alone. Besides..." Besides, I will worry about you.Lin Minchen frowned and swallowed the last sentence.

Yan Zimu smiled easily: "Don't worry about me, you forgot, Xiaoyan was also raised by me alone."

Said that Cao Chao Cao Chao arrived, Jiang Cheng had just arrived in the downstairs hall when he met the old housekeeper who rushed over with Yan Yan.It turned out that Yanyan was crying in the villa because she hadn't seen her father for two days.The servant had no choice but to inform Mr. Gu, and Mr. Gu asked the old housekeeper to send her over.

Yan Yan pushed open the door of the ward, and ran into Yan Zimu's arms.She didn't cry this time, but stretched out her little hand to cover Yan Zimu's stomach, her eyes were red, and she said sadly: "Dad, does it hurt?"

On the way here, the housekeeper's grandfather had already told himself that Dad was going to the hospital to give birth.

Yan Zimu stroked her hair gently, "Ruan Ruan, Dad is fine. Dad is not with you, is it scary to be alone?"

With tears in Yan Yan's eyes, she bit her lip and shook her head.Even knowing that Dad will not abandon himself.But facing an empty room alone, without this familiar person around, you will still be very scared.But I was more worried about whether something happened to my father.That's why I pretended to be ignorant this time, crying and making noise like ordinary children.

Yan Zimu kissed her forehead distressedly, and gently hugged him into his arms: "Baby, cry if you want, it's not good for your health if you hold it back, Dad is here with you."

Yan Yan buried her head in Yan Zimu's chest, but still shook her head stubbornly.She can't cry, and her father will feel sad when she sees herself crying.Dad has a baby, and he has a little brother. It's a happy thing, and he can't cry.

Only now did Yanyan realize that there were important things she hadn't asked.Holding back her tears, she said excitedly, "Dad, have you given birth to a baby yet?"

Yan Zimu smiled and replied: "Yes, we Ruan Ruan have a younger brother." Yan Yan opened her eyes wide and looked around excitedly: "Where is my brother, why is he not in the room?"

Yan Zimu smiled and squeezed her face: "Are you just so anxious to see my brother? Are you not sad now?" Yan Yan smiled sweetly like honey: "I'm not sad!" Then hugged Yan Zimu's arm acted like a baby: "Dad, where is my brother? Tell me, I really want to see him!"

Yan Zimu smiled, with doting eyes in his eyes: "My brother is still too young, and he hasn't grown up yet. When you see it later, don't dislike him. Otherwise, he will be sad when he hears it."

Yan Yan's head shook like a rattle, and she swore: "No! No!" Then she was led by Jiang Cheng to see her younger brother.

When Yan Zimu saw Yan Yan pulling Jiang Cheng and urging him to leave quickly, the corners of Yan Zimu's mouth couldn't help but curl up again.Lin Minchen looked at him, unable to move his eyes away.He originally thought that there was no one or anything in this world that could make Yan Zimu smile so gently.