but you never loved me

When Yan Zimu pushed open the door of the villa, Ning Yi was sitting at the table, often pouring tequila into the wine glass.The pure white liquid is as pure as water, but when you drink it, your throat burns and hurts.

He walked up to Yan Zimu with the wine and handed it to him.Yan Zimu frowned, but did not take the wine in his hand.When he spoke, his tone was extremely cold: "I don't like wine."

Ning Yi was stunned, he remembered that Yan Zimu didn't hate alcohol before.He was stunned for a while, then put down the wine glass.With his head down, he didn't know what he was thinking, and he said after a while: "I'm sorry, I won't drink anymore... I'm going to take a bath." Yan Zimu frowned even more, he wanted to say no.But Ning Yi had already turned around and entered the bathroom.

Ning Yi stood by the sink, rinsing his mouth repeatedly.Until there was no more alcohol in his mouth, he leaned against the wall and lost his mind again.Today is the weekend, he should be very happy.But the phone call just now reminded him of some past that he didn't want to think about.Doctors advised him not to drink alcohol, which would have a negative impact on his illness.

But he thought that if he didn't drink, to be precise, if he didn't get drunk, this night would be too difficult.In the past three years, he must have been drunk on this day, otherwise he couldn't restrain the urge to kill himself.

When Ning Yi went out after taking a shower, Yan Zimu had already curled up and fell asleep.He stood by the door, staring at his sleeping face, as if his heart had been redeemed from infinite pain.

He went to the bed and lay down, reaching out to embrace the person beside him.The man seemed really tired, and such a big movement didn't wake him up.Ning Yi smiled slightly and placed a kiss on his forehead.

In the middle of the night, the cold wind was howling outside the window, but the people in the room were sweating profusely. "No!" Ning Yi suddenly woke up from the dream, his eyes full of fear.

Yan Zimu was awakened by Ning Yi, and asked in a blurred state: "Ning Yi, what's wrong with you?" Ning Yi turned his head abruptly when he heard his voice, and there was still deep horror in his eyes, but he couldn't see it. arrive.

There was no response for a while, and he was about to speak again.The next moment, Ning Yi hugged him fiercely.Yan Zimu felt that the body in front of him trembled like a leaf blown by the wind, and then some small voices came to his ears: "Don't leave me, please, don't leave me."

Hearing the choked voice of the person in front of him, Yan Zimu asked with some doubts: "Ning Yi?" He reached out to touch the person's face, and the tentacles were wet.

Ning Yi held his hands against his face, and when he spoke, his voice was choked with pleading: "I beg you not to leave me." Yan Zimu trembled a little, he leaned towards the bedside, and fumbled to turn on the light control. .

The glare of the light made his eyes hurt, and he closed them unconsciously.When he opened his eyes again, Ning Yi's tear-stained face appeared in front of him, but the strange thing was that there was nothing in his eyes, as gray as a pool of stagnant water.

After a while, Ning Yi suddenly laughed, a little weirdly.He chuckled lowly: "It's all fake, it's all fake, how could you come back? You'll never come back." Yan Zimu was a little at a loss for a moment, he didn't know what happened to Ning Yi, and he felt Just unusually uneasy.

Suddenly Ning Yi raised his head, and he found that Ning Yi's eyes had changed, with a gloomy and cold look, and even his expression became a little ferocious.When he was unprepared, Ning Yi grabbed his neck fiercely: "You are not him!"

Yan Zimu subconsciously grabbed Ning Yi's hands, but Ning Yi's hands were too strong, and he couldn't break free at all.Gradually his breathing became difficult and his vision began to blur.Even Ning Yi's ferocious expression could not be seen clearly.

Ning Yi watched the person in front of him faint, as long as he tried a little harder, he could escape his nightmare.But his heart suddenly began to throb, he let go of his hand, trembling to probe the man's nose, and then his pupils shrank sharply.

When Yan Zimu woke up, the paleness and the pungent smell of disinfectant greeted his eyes, which was the place he least wanted to come to - the hospital.

When he woke up, it was not Ning Yi but Du Chenfeng who was guarding his bedside.Du Chenfeng asked: "Are you awake? Is there any discomfort?"

Yan Zimu wanted to speak, but found that his throat hurt like it had been burned.Du Chenfeng said: "I forgot, you hurt your neck and can't talk for a while. You lie down well, and I'll call the doctor to help you."

When he walked to the door, Yan Zimu's voice was hoarse like sandpaper grinding across the table behind him: "Ning Yi, what's wrong?" Du Chenfeng stopped in his tracks and replied, "How is he? He doesn't want to know, and he doesn't want you to know. So don't ask."

After taking a step, he stopped again, hesitated for a long time and said: "If you can, treat him better, he... actually really needs you."

After Du Chenfeng left, Yan Zimu lay on the bed thinking about his words.He still couldn't understand the meaning of what Du Chenfeng said, and fell asleep after thinking about it.

Du Chenfeng opened the door and went out, Ning Yi was standing by the door.Ning Yi watched him come out and sat on a chair beside him.Du Chenfeng sat beside him and asked, "He's fine, he just woke up. Would you like to go in and have a look?" Ning Yi shook his head.

Du Chenfeng saw the bandaged wound on his hand and asked, "Your condition is getting worse?" Ning Yi said calmly: "Yes, the doctor said that my condition is getting worse. He said before If my illness is serious, it will hurt the people around me. I still don't believe it. Now..."

After a long silence, Du Chenfeng asked: "What are you going to do?" Ning Yi laughed lowly, full of self-mockery: "What can I do, I don't even have the right to have him by my side. I'm a lunatic, if one day I really kill him... Heh, why don't I understand myself now?"

Du Chen clenched his fists tightly: "Ning Yi, I didn't know you were so cowardly. If you really don't want to live, then you should have died three years ago. I don't have to take care of you so hard these few years It's gone." Ning Yi smiled "hehe", "Yeah, why didn't I die three years ago?"

Du Chenfeng took a deep breath, and said as calmly as possible: "Ning Yi, are you willing?" Ning Yi leaned back on the chair, and spoke weakly, with bottomless despair in his eyes: "Not reconciled, not willing So what about being willing? You know, I just saw him lying there breathing weakly, as if I had already died. You don’t understand, I can’t let him get hurt. If anyone hurts him, I will definitely punish him a hundred times Repay. Not even myself.”

Du Chenfeng didn't know what else to say, maybe they really shouldn't be together.But even though he was just an outsider, he knew that it would never be as easy as Ning Yi said if they wanted to break up their relationship.