Where to send the rest of your life

The autumn of this year is indeed a bit cold, as if the winter has been paid in advance.

In such a peculiar season of autumn, Xue, who is both big and small, also fell into memories strangely at the same time.

Xue Wenxi is not considered old, his son is almost twenty now, and he himself is not yet forty.It's just that many people don't remember it. When he was as old as his son, he was indeed suave and suave.

Then something happened and he was still suave.Merry on the outside, tears on the inside.

fake.

That is also an autumn.

Xue Wenxi snuffed out the cigarette, and all the remaining flames were extinguished—he sank into the big armchair with a coat on his body, watching the entire police station in the dark, this is where he had been for decades , Only at night does it show a little of its true colors, like a beast lurking and breathing.

The beginning of the story really shouldn't be absurd.

Xue Wenxi knew that he was a young master since he was a child, and that Lao Tzu was a man who called the wind and rain, a hundred times more powerful than he is now. Later, when he came to his generation, he was a little bit down, but he thought he was not bad, at least he never borrowed the hands of others to do it alone. Hold this high ground.Ghosts and monsters appeared everywhere, and he won one by one, and has been victorious to this day.

In fact, I have been single for a long time, and I don't think it is too difficult. I just think that I have been looking forward to love, but Xue Wenxi is at a loss, and I have a feeling that the past is nowhere to be found.

Xue Tanpei's mother who married Xue Tanpei for the first time, he was not like many people who were out of status - once the reputation was there, he had to think carefully, even marrying a daughter-in-law was not all for himself.

At that time, he was very comfortable, and there was nothing to restrict him, so he thought that he still liked that wife. Although he liked men more in essence, he could accept women, mainly because his wife was really beautiful, and He has a good background, but at the same time he likes himself very much, and he can be said to be obedient to himself.

Therefore, marrying because you like it, and getting married and having children becomes a pleasure in life, and there is nothing wrong with it.There is nothing wrong with going out to play after marrying a wife.

So Xue Wenxi was proud of herself, passing through thousands of flowers without a single leaf touching her body - it is good that I died a long time ago.

until later.

That is a model of Xue Wenxi's drinking mistakes in his life.He was dragged by a group of cronies to go to the theater, but when he arrived at the place, the group dispersed first, some smoked opium, some played mahjong, and he was left to watch the play dumbfounded.

He regrets, regrets.

There are so many wrong things he has done in this half of his life, but just this one has kept him from getting rid of it for more than ten years.He quit drinking after that.

Therefore, in Xue Tanpei's memory, his father only smokes and does not drink alcohol, and he has no chance to know that his father was also a person who never poured a thousand cups.

I remember that night, with drunken eyes, Xue Wenxi looked at the bright lights in the whole theater.There were cheers and applause, and the sound of erhu drums and babbling singing were mixed together, which was not as in tune as the rhythm of the guests cracking melon seeds and a stream of obscenities.

In the end, I only remember one scene, one out of the Peony Pavilion.His future mistress played the role of Liu Mengmei on the stage, her eyes were smiling softly, which made him see clearly especially in the audience of hundreds of people.

He was also confused when he saw the end, he liked men, he knew it in his heart.

So he fell in love with Liu Mengmei who disguised herself as a man?Or did he indulge in Liu Mengmei's appearance in the play and fell in love with that person?

unknown.

Xue Wenxi finally let the woman sneak through the door - after all, he was newly married and his wife was pregnant with a child, and he took care of that wife everywhere.

At the beginning, the two of them hit it off, Xue Wenxi thought it was love at first sight and never forgot it ever since, the woman's peach blossom eyes were very similar to the appearance that captured Xue Wenxi's soul that night.However, after he got married, he found out that something was wrong - those eyes looked very similar, but upon closer inspection, they were not those eyes at all.

It turned out that I married the wrong person!

Later, the Quartet mobilized and inquired, and found out that it was his poor appreciation of the opera that caused the trouble.He had seen the Peony Pavilion when he was a child, but he had never heard of the opera, and he swallowed it together with the Dream of the Red Chamber and the Jin Ping Mei.His father is a rough man who doesn't read at all. The collection of books at home can be said to be mixed, and they are all put there to pretend - so novels and operas with good covers are all put together, and no one will touch him anyway.

And the person in the theater who shared the stage with Liu Mengmei is the one he misses—the tactful and affectionate Du Liniang, a man.

Xue Wenxi thought about it, and felt that this time was the right one - he liked men in the first place.

So there was no hesitation at all - he took Liu Mengmei's lover too, the two should be together anyway, right?

I didn't take it seriously at the time, because I was discouraged by being cheated by the fake Liu Mengmei once, but later found out that I was serious, but it was too late.

He remembered that he had gone to listen to another play by that person, but he had long since forgotten what it was, probably at that time his interest was really low and he was only thinking about how to please others.

The man stepped off the stage and took off his makeup until he was getting impatient. Xue Wenxi rushed over to develop a relationship with him.

The man is quite arrogant, although he is not well-known, but he doesn't feel that he should be the one who will stay here all his life.

When Xue Wenxi was half leaning and half leaning to strike up a conversation with him, he just looked up casually, then stretched out his slender hands, dipped them in water and wiped the paint carefully.

At that time, Xue Wenxi had an idea in his heart, but he never dared to say it - when he took off his makeup in front of the mirror, he was really seductive.

He asked the man's name, but the man lowered his eyes and didn't look at him, as if he was ashamed.

After a long while, another sentence came in a neutral tone.

Jin Zhuqiu.

Xue Wenxi was taken aback when he heard this, and thought that this person was really awkward, but he didn't think too much about it, and then continued to strike up a conversation with a smile on his face.

Xue Wenxi really wanted to pretend that he was an old drama player in front of Jin Zhuqiu, so that he could get close, so he gently removed his wet hand and put it on himself.

In fact, the first meeting was so frivolous, for an actor, the intention was already very obvious.

While wiping Jin Liangqiu's face, he said, last time I came to hear you sing Peony Pavilion, what did you sing, Du Shiniang, it was absolutely amazing, I haven't heard such a good play for a long time.

He's half telling the truth and half lying—it's been a long time since he's heard such a good show. Indeed, this is the first time he's heard it.

Then Jin Zhuqiu glanced at him and said calmly, I am singing Du Liniang.

Xue Wenxi then laughed casually, yes Du Liniang, I made a slip of the tongue.

Later, he came here from time to time to show his courtesies, sometimes with some valuable gifts in his hands.

Jin Liangqiu is always neither salty nor bland, neither like nor dislike.

When he was young, he was full of arrogance and arrogance became a habit when he was young, so he felt that it was a great face to strike up a conversation with him and spend money for him. It was too shameless for him to be so lukewarm.He can be extremely patient if he wants to chase someone, but the other party doesn't appreciate it, so he can't be blamed for being domineering.

So Xue Wenxi said that if he changed his face, he would change his face. One morning, the overlord forced his bow and raped Jin Liuqiu in his own home.

Jin Zhuqiu didn't bark or make trouble, as if he had expected it a long time ago.

What happened afterwards was somewhat logical. Although Xue Wenxi was domineering, he was not merciless. He bought a small villa on the outskirts of the city with his own money, and kept Liu Mengmei and Du Liniang in it.

However, the more he got along with each other later, the more he felt that Jin Zhuqiu was so good in every way that he couldn't give up.

Therefore, as soon as the son was born here, Jin Zhuqiu also entered the house there.On the contrary, Liu Mengmei was left alone in a villa on the outskirts of the city, and at the same time, they agreed to their wishes.

I can't go into details about what happened after that, because I was so happy.So much so that I lost it in the end, and when I think about it more than ten years later, it is like having arthritis in a rainy day, and my whole body is covered with fine and dense pain.

He really loves Jin Zhuqiu, so it doesn't matter if he is sloppy.

Now Xue Wenxi is really willing to live in that false dream all his life, even if he knows the truth, he is still willing, but what has been lost has been lost, and no matter how hard he recalls it, he can't get it back.

It's just that sometimes he would occasionally think of a sentence, what Jin Zhuqiu said.Du Liniang and Liu Mengmei deserved to be together in life and death, even if they were torn apart, when the song is over, they will be together even after death.

At that time, what Jin Zhuangqiu was thinking about was a few words in the inscription of the Peony Pavilion. Xue Wenxi seemed to understand, but also didn't seem to understand. Go to bed.

Thinking about those few words now, I feel the pain of digging my heart and scratching my liver.

I don't know where it started, and it goes deeper and deeper.The living can die, and the dead can live.Those who are born but cannot die, and those who are dead but cannot be resurrected are not the ultimate in love.Why is the love in a dream untrue? Are there so few people in dreams in the world?

What should come will always come.

Later, Du Liniang took Liu Mengmei and swept away almost all of Xue Wenxi's family property, leaving only two villas, big and small.He handed over his money to his beloved with complete peace of mind, never thinking about the consequences.At that time, Xue Tanpei's mother had just given birth to a child, and suddenly ran out of money to provide for her recuperation.

Therefore, Xue Wenxi has always felt a little guilty towards her.

In the next few months, there was only a little Xue Tanpei who could only bark by his side, and he truly became a loner.

The plants and trees fought for a while, and when Xue Wenxi finished dealing with all these big and small fusses without touching the ground, and finally wanted to settle the general account, he learned about the two of them again.

It turned out that the two had already had a love crystallization, but their life experience was intolerable, the world was intolerable, and their fate was even more intolerable.

After so much hard work, they have achieved such an ending of mutual support, and it will be ruined if one dies due to dystocia.

How well-intentioned, Xue Wenxi has nothing to say.

After the woman died of dystocia, Jin Zhuqiu followed suit after swallowing a lot of opium, leaving behind a little baby who looked like a monkey at first glance.

And Xue Wenxi's fanatical heart in the face of Jin Zhuqiu finally cooled down after seeing his tombstone.

Love to the depths.Life should be together, death should be together, even death and resurrection should be together.

A prophecy.