Where to send the rest of your life

That day occupied a rather tragic page in Yu Shen's memory, and what was engraved at the same time was also the most blazing love.

So that every time I recalled Xue Tanpei later, all his indelible aura always came together with a sense of suffocation that was almost desperate.Just like whenever he thinks back to his mother's unsightly eyes and unbearable corpse, he can always feel that there are two hands tightly holding his own, holding his cold hands, holding his love, his own life.

Because you can't give up love, you have to bear the pain.

The sun was still bright that day, the world did not feel any sense because of the collapse of a family, and the blue sky was as clean and innocent as ever.

He buried his relatives quietly and went to another home quietly.

Yu Shen's house hardly had any superfluous things. He looked around and saw that his luggage was still neatly placed in a corner of the house, waiting for his master to take him across the ocean.

Xue Tanpei gave it to him.A shiny little suitcase.

Thinking of his parents who had worked so hard all his life, Yu Shen almost felt the despair of being strangled by someone.If he could, how much he wished that he was not their son, that he was heartless, and not to be dragged down by such selfless dedication.He thought, as long as you have money, you don't need feelings, this is the best life.

But he hurts, hurts.

But can only be helpless.

To be honest, Yu Shen is not afraid of death, he is afraid of living, or in other words, he is afraid of living like himself.

Knowing what he wanted, he wanted to run away against his will.

But he knows it better than anyone else.

It’s not easy to say that you don’t care, but if a person takes something seriously in his heart, there will always be a concern there, and he will never forget it, and he will be trapped in vain.

The lock is in his hands, but the key is his.

If you really want to escape, it will be a destruction that will injure eight hundred enemies and self-injure one thousand.

Xue Tanpei turned to look at the silent Yu Shen, and then looked up at the sky.The sun was just right, and the water in the small river seemed not so clear.It seemed that nothing had changed, but something had changed, Xue Tanpei suddenly felt Yu Shen's mood.

A flash of panic suddenly flashed in my heart, as if it was a bit late.

However, Yu Shen has already turned around, and nothing can be reversed.

"Go home." Yu Shen said, trying his best to pull out a smile.

Xue Tanpei almost felt dizzy when he looked at the young man in front of him.He was ecstatic in his heart, stepped forward to hold the man's hand, and walked out together.

Under the sky, the sun is just right, and the water in the small river seems not so clear.The car made a piercing roar and disappeared in the black smoke.

Xue Tanpei refused to think about it, obsessively indulging in this short moment, filled with joy.

He thought, as countless others had thought, to hold this hand and hold it forever.

After arriving home, Xue Tanpei let Yu Shen live in his mother's room before, but Yu Shen was unwilling, he always had the feeling of being dependent on someone else, even though that fence belonged to Xue Tanpei.

He said he had to do something and not be here for no reason.From beginning to end, he never mentioned his identity.

Xue Tanpei didn't know what he meant and didn't dare to overstep.With such politeness, everything will hurt people.

Jin Yunhe followed Xue Wenxi to the police station on his own initiative.Xue Wenxi let go completely, let him be willful.However, he is like a small animal, quietly in the police station, never talking nonsense.Most of the time it's just one person on the blanket, and the litter is all day long.

It's funny to say that there are many books at home, and Xue's family has never read them, and now they are all in Jin Yunhe's hands.He seemed to have awakened to something, and he devoted himself to reading and self-discipline.

So there is only Yu Shen in the family.

Xue Tanpei felt annoyed seeing those chatty servants all day long, and didn't care much about family affairs.But Yu Shen had nothing to do in the room, so he figured out the management mode of this big house by himself.After taking over some affairs, Yu Shen found that the cost of maintaining it alone was inconceivably high. Later, he found out that Butler Cao was full of private pockets, so he silently interrupted his profit-making chain.

He mentioned it to Xue Tanpei, but Xue Tanpei was stunned when he heard it, and then said, "You don't have to worry about that much."

Yu Shen, however, took the account seriously and made it clear. Finally, he calculated the total and came to a conclusion—"Look, there's so much money."

Seeing his serious look, Xue Tanpei thought it was funny, so she unconsciously lowered her head and kissed him on the forehead.

"You can do it if you want. It's a lot of money."

However, he turned around and called Xue Wenxi to talk about it. In the end, Xue Wenxi silently opened up another channel to make Steward Cao profitable.

Yu Shen didn't know about it, and the rest of the family didn't dare to offend him, so they pretended nothing happened.

In fact, he doesn't know how he became what he is now. He always thinks from the Xue family's starting point, and doesn't want to see them suffer.When he moved here, many of what Yu Shen took away were directly or indirectly given to him by Xue Tanpei. He did not leave any traces of his previous home. To be honest, he knew in his heart that he had finally got rid of the burden of his family. Although there was pain, he was always relief.

But when he really got to this point, he found that he no longer longed for fame and fortune as he did when he was a child.

He no longer has the ambition of a scholar.

Sometimes when he is free, Yu Shen will think carefully, what are they doing like this?If you can live like this for the rest of your life, what if you don't get married?

After thinking about it, it was always the same result in the end—then don’t get married.

But this kind of courage came and went quickly. He opened his eyes and got busy, but he still didn't dare to ask for extravagance.

Xue Tanpei is not impatient, and he also cherishes such days, at least he has opportunities by his side.However, day after day, Yu Shen was always by his side, but he was always tepid, neither expressing his opinion nor refusing, which made Xue Tanpei extremely aggrieved.

Over the years, Xue Tanpei has tried his best to chase, and Yu Shen has tried his best to hide. They are two people who have grown up and loved each other intimately, but they have separated abruptly.

Xue Tanpei was very desperate, looking at Yu Shen's busy figure, he reached out and wiped away the rare half tear.The tear was short-lived, and died on his palm before it even took shape.

He put on his coat, combed his hair, put on some perfume, and went out into the garden.In the distance, there was still that busy Yu Shen.He looked at it for a while, then said, "I'll go out for a while."

Yu Shen rushed over after hearing the sound, his sleeves were rolled up, and his hands and body were covered in mud.

"Come back early."

"Well, I'll try my best." Xue Tanpei smiled.

Xue Tanpei found a way to relieve his boredom, just like during the time when Yu Shen left, he drove all the way to the door of Hu Peng's friend's house, and asked the master to go out and fool around.

In this area, all young masters from respectable families form a small circle of their own, most of them just eat, drink, prostitute and gamble, and a few are addicted to drugs.Although Xue Tanpei had been away for a long time, when he came back again, he was still familiar with driving.If he used to deliberately conceal the fact that he likes men, then now he is already rampant to the surface.

He called many people, and then went to Hefengyuan Villa on his own initiative.That place is different from ordinary brothels, in addition to the fact that ordinary people can't afford it, there are not only women who provide services.

"Oh, Young Master Xue."

"Brother Jin." Xue Tanpei raised his head slightly and saw the middle-aged man on crutches walking down the stairs slowly, so he nodded as a compliment.

Brother Jin smiled, revealing half of his golden teeth under his crooked lips.He once led soldiers to fight, limped one leg, knocked out half of a tooth, and lost one eye, but according to him, he is doing well now, can eat and sleep, and has one eye. Instead, see more.

There are not many guests in Hefengyuan, so Jin Ge's smile can be said to be a rare sincerity. He smiled while stepping away, and slightly bowed, "Please upstairs."