dear psychiatrist

The next day, Zhuo Qihua was astonished to find that there was an extra 400 million in his account.No need to think about it, the money came from Cui Anjie.Perhaps, the money fulfilled what Cui Anjie once said, 'return double'.

It's not hard to imagine how eager Cui Anjie was to clear up her relationship with her as soon as possible. When she was disturbed by outside gossip news and couldn't calm down, she still insisted on transferring the money to her account.

Zhuo Qihua couldn't help but think of that figure without one in a thousand miles again, but the guilt in his heart continued unabated.Because, in Zhuo Qihua's eyes, Cui Anjie was just a woman who caused trouble, and even felt bored by it.But today, looking back and examining that terrible life that was infiltrated by pain, Zhuo Qihua was surprised to find the brilliance that once bloomed.

It is foreseeable that from now on, Cui Anjie will not have anything to do with her in any form.Perhaps, in Cui Anjie's eyes, she is a shooting star across the sky, although it is dazzling, it is fleeting, and after a moment of melancholy, she will be relieved.

Zhuo Qihua is not the only person who goes back and forth in Cui Anjie's life?Zhuo Qihua is willing to believe that Cui Anjie will one day find someone who treats her wholeheartedly and accepts all her good and bad.At that time, Cui Anjie will understand how peaceful and real the world after Shi Ran is.

For the 400 million that Cui Anjie called, Zhuo Qihua couldn't accept it with peace of mind, but he was eager to buy back the old house again. This sum of money really relieved his urgent need.

Zhuo Qihua could only hope that Tao Yaoyao would not find out the fact that the old house had been sold.Unexpectedly, at the moment when everything was calming down, the secret was finally exposed in front of Tao Yaoyao.

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On Friday, Zhuo Qihua, who got off work, was in a small hotel near his home, standing at the window on the third floor, looking forward to watching the people coming and going on both sides of the street.

Looking out of the window, she lost her mind, but heard the buzzing of the mobile phone in her pocket. When she was busy, she recovered and connected the phone, and then heard Tao Yaoyao's voice reaching her ears.

"Stingy ghost, do you have time to accompany me to Momo's bar tonight? I want to hear her sing." Tao Yaoyao said with a smile on the other end of the phone, seeming to be in a good mood.

Tao Yaoyao's cheerful mood infected Zhuo Qihua, and the irritability in his heart was swept away, he nodded hurriedly, and replied to the other end of the phone: "Make an appointment, I'll pick you up?"

"The door I drove out today, I should pick you up, are you at home? Or?"

"I'm outside, and I won't be going home for a while. Yaoyao, why don't you pick me up at the station in front of my house at 07:30?" Afraid that Tao Yaoyao would notice something strange about the old house, Zhuo Qihua quickly turned away. Opened the topic and reported a street name.

Fortunately, Tao Yaoyao didn't have any doubts, she agreed gently, and then told Zhuo Qihua to pay attention to safety on the road, and just hung up the phone.

After hanging up the phone, Zhuo Qihua breathed a sigh of relief, and was a little thankful that the clever Tao Yaoyao couldn't hear the slightest problem from his words.

Three minutes before 07:30, Zhuo Qihua quickly put on his coat, rushed out of the small hotel, and ran towards the station opposite the hotel.But when she raised her eyes, she was surprised to find that Tao Yaoyao had already appeared at the station, looking at her with a puzzled expression across the roadway.

Crossing the driveway and appearing in front of Tao Yaoyao, she saw Yaoyao's bewildered and bewildered expression, looking at herself, trying to see the whole story from her own eyes.

This helpless expression hurt Zhuo Qihua, but he couldn't utter a word for a while, after a long silence, Tao Yaoyao said: "Why did you come out of the small hotel? "

In her impression, Tao Yaoyao would always show up at the appointed place sooner or later, but she did not expect that she would arrive early this time.It was also for this reason that she caught him walking out of the small hotel.Zhuo Qihua was slightly annoyed, but smiled awkwardly, trying to avoid the seriousness and said lightly: "I'm a little hungry, why don't you go to Momo's bar first and then talk slowly?"

Tao Yaoyao glanced at Zhuo Qihua with a complicated expression, then sighed softly, walked straight to the Buick car that was suspended at the side, and responded to Zhuo Qihua's request with actions.

In the bar, Tao Yaoyao kept her head down all the time, eating her favorite seafood baked rice, she didn't speak a word to Zhuo Qihua, she just ate by herself.

Momo seemed to be in a good mood today. Holding her beloved guitar, she sang several brisk love songs in a row. Under such a brisk rhythm, Zhuo Qihua's tense nerves seemed to be relieved a lot along with the music.

Listening to Momo standing on the performance stage with great interest, she said to Tao Yaoyao who was eating under the stage: "Yaoyao, do you want to come up and sing a song? Since you sang a song last time, you have attracted a lot of people. Fans who come here admiringly."

Tao Yaoyao was somewhat caught off guard by Momo's invitation. After a moment of depression, she turned to Momo and shook her head slightly to show her rejection.

Momo, who is wearing a tight black leather jacket, is always unpredictable. Who would have guessed that after seeing Tao Yaoyao's refusal, she would jump off the stage with a guitar in her hand, walk to Tao Yaoyao's side again He opened his mouth to invite: "Yaoyao, let's sing a song, just one song."

This time, Tao Yaoyao didn't refuse any more, wiped her mouth with a napkin, moistened her throat with lemonade from the table, and said with a smile: "Hebe Tian's "Angel Among the Devils", if you can't play , I won’t be on stage.”

"It doesn't matter if I don't know how to play, Yaoyao, you can play and sing by yourself..." Seeing Tao Yaoyao get up, a beautiful smile appeared on Momo's face.

Finally, Tao Yaoyao followed Momo to the stage, and the two stood on one side, listening to Momo standing next to the electronic piano, playing the music seriously.As a burst of melodious music sounded, the originally noisy bar became quiet in an instant.Everyone seemed to be interested in the two beauties on the stage, interrupted their respective topics, and turned their attention to the performance stage...

"

Cut off the nerves that are too thin,

Will it be easier to sleep?

My heart has a gray prison,

Shouting with a bunch of black thoughts shut.

Pull out the too hard temper,

Will it be more clear?

You can knock me down hard,

But don't even think about me begging for mercy.

You are an angel among devils,

Let hate become too vulgar a thing,

The words thank you flowed from my eyes.

Call me crazy,

Don't call me a fool...

"

Tao Yaoyao's singing made Zhuo Qihua feel various things in his heart. Sometimes life is so cruel, and it doesn't give people the slightest chance to breathe, let alone give them a choice.Just like now, when it is clear that the old house can be bought back, and everything is calming down and developing towards a better side, Tao Yaoyao bumps into herself walking out of the small hotel.

Tao Yaoyao doesn't like to be deceived by others, but this time, is she going to tell a lie to Hu Tianhai?Zhuo Qihua fell silent and fell into his own thoughts, unable to recover for a long time.

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Until he left the bar, Zhuo Qihua couldn't be honest with Tao Yaoyao, he just walked shoulder to shoulder in the cold street.Tao Yaoyao, on the other hand, was a little dazed, looking at the world extending from the street.

"I sold the house... because Cui Anjie needs 200 million to release a single." After all, Zhuo Qihua didn't tell a weak lie to Tao Yaoyao, but Zhuo Qihua mustered up the courage to tell the truth.Afterwards, he couldn't leave his eyes from the person in front of him anymore, staring at her face, trying to see Tao Yaoyao's emotions from her demeanor and expression.

Tao Yaoyao had tears in her eyes, she looked at Zhuo Qihua and raised her voice a little, "I don't understand..."

"Selling the house for cash is the most stupid and stupid way in the world. But Anjie Cui is in a hurry to release a single. How can I get 200 million in a short time? Other than selling the house or robbing the bank , I really can't think of any other way. Yaoyao, can you understand me?"

"No, Qihua, I can't understand you." The tears that had been swirling in Tao Yaoyao's eyes broke free in an instant, and ran across her fair cheeks, and she said in pain, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry Hua, I am just an ordinary woman after all, I have no way to comprehend your nobility! I also can’t watch you helplessly, wandering among several women, and love you! I can’t even believe that you are wandering among several women. You in it really love me!"

"What do you mean?" Zhuo Qihua looked at her in shock, not knowing why Tao Yaoyao spoke like that.In my heart, I don't want to believe it no matter what, the woman in front of me who can abandon everything and elope with me, but I don't want to believe that I really love her!What a ridiculous thing this is.

Seeing Tao Yaoyao walking towards the parking lot emotionally, Zhuo Qihua didn't have time to think too much, so he hurriedly followed.

In front of the Buick, Tao Yaoyao stopped in her tracks, suddenly put her handbag on the ground, stood on the parking lot and unbuttoned her coat, trying to take it off.A gust of cold wind blew, and the slender body shivered.

"What is this for? Put on your clothes quickly, you will definitely catch a cold if you fiddle like this!" Zhuo Qihua hurriedly stepped forward, helped Tao Yaoyao tighten the collar of his coat, and said with concern.

Tao Yaoyao didn't pay any attention to Zhuo Qihua's words of concern, her eyes were filled with tears, and the tears were still running down her cheeks.Seeing her break free from Zhuo Qihua's shackles, she unbuttoned her coat, and then pulled the collar of her white shirt, revealing a sailboat necklace.

Tao Yaoyao untied the necklace, and said to the person in front of her with an unprecedented coldness and bluntness: "I will return your necklace to you, from now on... we have nothing to do with each other in the future, please leave my life!"

The cold wind blows Tao Yaoyao's hair and keeps fluttering. In the season of spring, she doesn't show any warmth. Hearing the cold wind whistling past her ears, Zhuo Qihua sees Tao Yaoyao like this thin.

Seeing that Zhuo Qihua didn't reach out his hand, Tao Yaoyao stuffed the necklace into Zhuo Qihua's hand, then turned around and walked towards the driver's seat without saying anything.

"Yaoyao, don't drive back. It's too dangerous. Let me take a taxi for you? Or I'll drive you home, okay?" Seeing that Tao Yaoyao was about to get into the car, Zhuo Qihua quickly reached out to hold her Tao Yaoyao's arm.

"Don't touch me! Don't ever touch me again!" Xu Shi became impatient, Tao Yaoyao suddenly pushed Zhuo Qihua away, then quickly closed the car door, started the Buick, wiped Zhuo Qihua's body, and disappeared completely In the darkness.

Wearing the necklace with Tao Yaoyao's body temperature, the temperature gradually subsided in Zhuo Qihua's palm.After a long silence, Zhuo Qihua put the necklace back on his neck, turned around, and saw Momo standing not far away looking at him.

Zhuo Qihua was somewhat surprised by Momo's sudden appearance. After all, Momo was the owner of the bar, but she put down everything in the bar and appeared in the parking lot.

Zhuo Qihua sorted out his mood, walked in front of Momo, and subconsciously thought that Momo would not care about what happened just now, because it was a story that had nothing to do with her, even though the ending of the story was so sad.

Momo is the proprietress of the bar. In order to prevent the guests from messing around, she went to learn Taekwondo on weekdays.It's not a joke to get punched by Momo, the black section of Taekwondo, without any precautions.Unfortunately, this punch hit Zhuo Qihua firmly on the left cheek.

He subconsciously held his face that had been punched, and suddenly, the taste of blood spread in his mouth.

Looking up at the woman next to him who suddenly went mad, Zhuo Qihua was shocked to find that Momo's right hand was convulsing uncontrollably due to the sudden force.

This punch woke up Zhuo Qihua, and also made her realize that Momo cared about what happened just now!Because they like the same woman, and Momo's beloved woman is crying.Maybe it was Momo, she would never let Tao Yaoyao cry.But Momo was not as lucky as Zhuo Qihua. She knew in her heart that Tao Yaoyao and herself were destined to have a friendship that would never stop.

"You still can't learn to cherish Qihua, you will regret it!" Besides Tao Yaoyao, Momo also knew the story about Zhuo Qihua.Because of these words, Zhuo Qihua can tell Momo one by one without any burden, without worrying about her discrimination and confusion.

Zhuo Qihua was still immersed in the trance just now, and it took him a while to recover after hearing Momo's words.

Just about to say something, Momo interrupted Zhuo Qihua's words with actions.Seeing her lighting a cigarette for herself, she immediately took out a cigarette and threw it to Zhuo Qihua.Zhuo Qihua took the cigarette and played with it in his hand for a long time, finally shook his head and handed the cigarette back, saying: "Smoke, quit long ago."

After bidding farewell to Momo, Zhuo Qihua walked on the dim yellow shadows on the street in a lonely posture for an unknown how long.Zhuo Qihua didn't realize that he didn't even say 'goodbye' to Tao Yaoyao until he walked far away.

But so what?Some people are born to be lonely, to live alone, to die alone, such as Zhuo Qihua, such as Tao Yaoyao.Perhaps, they never really believed that the two of them could really make it to the end.Then the heartache at this moment and the tears at the next moment are all deserved!

Zhuo Qihua finally returned to the small hotel where he was staying, carrying a dozen beers in his hand, and walked into the small hotel where he had lived for a long time, looking like he was not drunk.

The cold winter has already passed, and the nights in early spring are still cold.Back in the small hotel, Zhuo Qihua walked straight to the window sill without turning on the lights, and looked towards the bustling street dotted with neon lights, amidst the lingering mist and rain, it seemed that the whole world had calmed down.

One can't help smelling a bit of loneliness from it, Zhuo Qihua, who was standing alone by the window sill, fell into a trance without the usual noise and commotion.

The flickering neon lights dazzled Zhuo Qihua's eyes, and his eyes were blurred, as if he could clearly see the desolation in this love affair.The light rain turned into rain and mist, drenching the sadness of the ground.

Willingly indulging in the picturesque scenery outside the window, Zhuo Qihua still stubbornly refused to believe that he had broken up with Tao Yaoyao.

Tao Yaoyao's words seemed to remind Zhuo Qihua that in the imperfect love between the two, Zhuo Qihua had been longing for the other party to say "I love you" to him, and now he realized that he did not owe him too much. Have you spoken the truth to the other party?

Perhaps Zhuo Qihua, who seems to be eager, is not a person who is good at expressing, so he hides the love words between lovers deep in his heart, and thinks that the other party will feel it by himself.

The only thing I regret about this relationship is that I didn't say "I love you" to Tao Yaoyao.But today, this is no longer important, and there is no longer a position to speak to her.And those words that I wanted to say but failed to say, I can only regret and pay attention to them after all.

Zhuo Qihua felt as if he had given Tao Yaoyao an empty joy, and drew a gorgeous scroll in front of her, telling her how wonderful the lives of the two of them would be in the future, but in the end they could only be reduced to dream.

But in the script I originally arranged, there was no quarrel and breakup scene!

At some point, Zhuo Qihua realized that his relationship with Tao Yaoyao was in danger.Just like a small boat in the vast sea, it may be fragmented at any time.

And at this moment, Zhuo Qihua knew very well that the small boat swaying with the wind was ruthlessly knocked down by the big waves of reality, and completely collapsed...

On the large electronic display on the outer wall of the building not far away, Cui Anjie's new song mtv suddenly appeared.The beautiful picture makes everything seem so unreal, and the only thing Zhuo Qihua can really feel is the helplessness and exhaustion in dying love.

Finally, Tao Yaoyao understood why she never wanted a promise about 'forever'.No one can control life, inadvertently, time has pulled the lovers away from the original track of falling in love.

A rising promise, how can it straighten the deviated track, and how can it make people forget the emptiness in the world.

Using Tao Yaoyao's theory, after exchanging their positions, Zhuo Qihua realized that his so-called help was too much.

On the one hand, he wants to help Cui Anjie, on the other hand, he hopes to get Tao Yaoyao's understanding.But thinking about it differently, I couldn't accept Tao Yaoyao's practice of selling all the properties in order to help her friends.

This is an unfair love, Tao Yaoyao is on top, but Zhuo Qihua wants to stay on the ground.One wants to fly and the other pulls, and it hurts two people at the same time.

Perhaps, what happened to Cui Anjie was just a fuse.If there is a perfect understanding and trust between the two, how could there be a fight over Cui Anjie?

What's interesting is that, regarding the word breakup, no one is willing to mention these two words.It's not that they intend to make the other party open their mouths, but they know very well that love is already in jeopardy, and maybe it will never be able to change the tenderness it once was.

But even so, Zhuo Qihua still couldn't forget that the day she first met Tao Yaoyao, she was wearing a lady's black suit with a floral shirt underneath, her long hair coiled up high, standing under the ginkgo tree, With a smile on his shoulders.It was a glimpse, but it also amazed Zhuo Qihua's entire autumn.

In the following days, every time he saw the ginkgo tree, Zhuo Qihua couldn't help but recall the scene of the first encounter.I can't help but think, if at that moment, I didn't take a step forward and didn't appear in Tao Yaoyao's sight.So... Will Tao Yaoyao's life be different?

That night, Zhuo Qihua got drunk like mud.Drunk and dreaming, Zhuo Qihua subconsciously tightened his clothes, and subconsciously felt that the biting cold wind imprisoned him in the deep winter, even though spring was already in front of him.

Perhaps, this night, Zhuo Qihua couldn't wait for the gentle breeze from spring to caress him.