dear psychiatrist

"In the eyes of others, it is just a dog. Although the girl's methods are cruel, she is just a puppy after all. If she dies, she will die. According to the teacher, no matter how bad the girl is, I shouldn't Hit people.

But I didn't care so much, my body was controlled by the teacher and I couldn't move.But I still stared at the girl viciously, baring my teeth.That posture is like a little wolf, as long as the teacher is not paying attention, I can jump up and bite people.

After making such a fuss, I became famous in school.When my father rushed to help me clean up the mess, his face was filled with uncontrollable anger.

On the spot, he said that he would throw me to my mother.In fact, he did.

He threw me to my mother on the grounds that I was unmanageable.I found out later that my dad just wanted to use this reason to give himself a temporary new life—his life with his new wife and new children.

My relationship with my parents is not good.But simply, they still assume the responsibility of parents to raise children.My mother helped me go through the transfer procedures with a blank face, saying that I would go to the new campus after the summer vacation.

That is, during that entire summer vacation, I insisted on exercising and took the initiative to talk to the boy.I always feel that boys and girls are different. They are not so narrow-minded. I played ball, swam, and cycled with them throughout the summer vacation.

A summer vacation is enough to make me tan.It's strange to say that the pimples on his face that were frighteningly rampant gradually healed, and he now looks so handsome. "Zhuo Qihua said while sizing up his own face. A narcissistic look on his face.

"What about your friend? Didn't you see him again?" Looking at Zhuo Qihua beside him, he was narcissistic and touched his face.Tao Yaoyao chose to ignore it, narrowed her eyes slightly, and opened her mouth lightly.

"After the summer vacation, I entered a new junior high school as a transfer student and started my life. Interestingly, I have never been treated unfairly or discriminated against.

I always feel that it is that little puppy who transferred all the good luck in his life to me.I still feel helpless when I think about that weak little guy once in a while.

This is why, I will choose to be a policeman.It's because I don't want to see the tragedy happen again. "The topic seemed to be dragged away, Zhuo Qihua paused to answer Tao Yaoyao's question: "After that, I went to the original junior high school to see it.To apply a popular phrase now, 'I guessed the beginning, but I didn't guess the end'.

As I said earlier, in childhood, there are always some people who will be ruthlessly drawn into a hostile area.Become the imaginary enemy in everyone's mind.

Before I transferred schools, I acted as that character.

After I transfer schools, there will always be another person to take my place, no matter whether he is willing or not..."

Zhuo Qihua, who went to a new school, quickly adapted to new classmates, new teachers, and new friends.But she often still thinks of that friend from the past, and sure enough... the warmth she came into contact with when she was in the most difficult and most desolate time will be remembered in her heart and will be unforgettable.

So, on a Wednesday afternoon, Zhuo Qihua chose to skip class.Riding the mountain bike that her mother bought for her, she rode towards the old school in the old city.

When seeing the old school again, Zhuo Qihua was full of emotion.But he didn't say a word, just sat on the mountain bike and waited quietly, waiting for the end of get out of class and school.Just to take another look at my former friends.

To Zhuo Qihua's surprise, the bad girl who trampled the puppy to death was classified as hostile by everyone.

Seeing that girl with her own eyes, surrounded by several people, she was forced to accept insults and teasing from others, while the people around her pointed and poked at her, but no one took a step forward.

Of course, Zhuo Qihua didn't take a step forward either.From the beginning to the end, Zhuo Qihua had hatred in his heart.But at that moment, the hatred in her heart disappeared, replaced by deep pity.

Zhuo Qihua's appearance has changed a lot, the bumps and bumps on his face have become smoother.The originally pale cheeks also turned a healthy buckwheat color because of the exercise.

Facing Zhuo Qihua's transformation, few people can associate her with the submissive coward before.Even the girl who trampled the puppy to death didn't recognize her, but ran away from Zhuo Qihua while begging for mercy and crying.

People from the school disappeared one after another.Zhuo Qihua still stuck his head in the crowd, constantly searching for the shadow of his friend.

Until the end, Zhuo Qihua failed to get his wish and saw his friends.And who is that friend that Zhuo Qihua is talking about?Yes, you guessed it right, that person is Zhao Xiaoqi.

Even with his eyes closed, Zhuo Qihua still remembered Zhao Xiaoqi's appearance at that time.When a person is lonely and helpless, even if it is just a friendly smile, he can remember it clearly.

After asking the students around him for a while, Zhuo Qihua finally understood why the wicked girl was treated like this.

That year, Zhuo Qihua resented those who waved his fists, and the beating incident caused a lot of trouble.It almost spread throughout the entire junior high school, and from time to time someone would go to the little tree to take a look at the place where the incident happened.

It is said that people are selfish.Sure enough, when the incident of the puppies being tortured and killed was spread by everyone, almost everyone began to reject that girl, including her companions.

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"Because of my mother, I objected to my being too close to my father. And my behavior of returning to the old city where my father lived annoyed my mother. She cried and asked me, why should I be a white-eyed wolf who eats inside and outside? Eat She drinks hers, but still faces my dead ghost father? So, I chose to compromise. Before I became an adult, I never went to the old city again, and I never saw Zhao Xiaoqi again." Zhuo Qihua's story is over. , she lowered her head so that people could not see the expression on her face clearly.

Just when the two fell silent at the same time, Zhuo Qihua spoke again: "I will never forget the appearance of that wicked girl, but I will never forget Zhao Xiaoqi who talked to me. The good and evil in the world, It all flows in my heart. If you want to ask me if I like Zhao Xiaoqi? The answer is of course yes! Zhao Xiaoqi is my first love. After that, the girl I like always has her shadow."

"..." Tao Yaoyao didn't speak, but glanced at the people beside her with a complicated expression.

Facing Tao Yaoyao's surprised glance, Zhuo Qihua smiled relievedly and said, "Haha, you guessed it right. I'm gay. But it's okay, anyway, my parents don't care about me, and I don't have to give it to my parents. Confess. I...probably just need to take care of myself. It's true to live comfortably. "

"By the way, luckily, I met Zhao Xiaoqi again. She even opened up to date me. I think I should have been favored by God, and I have come together again with my first love many years ago." This sentence, originally Zhuo Qihua thought about what Tao Yaoyao said, but he swallowed it abruptly.I don't know why, the ghost was fascinated, looking at the woman in front of me, in my mind, for a moment, I saw the white-haired appearance with her.

"I've told you so much, maybe you're pleasing to my eyes." Zhuo Qihua swung the red wine in his glass, tilted his head and looked at the woman beside him: "After you've heard my story, you should also tell me about yours." Is something wrong?"

I don't know if it was because Zhuo Qihua drank some wine and his head was dizzy.I always feel that the woman beside me is more charming when she becomes silent than during the day.

Tao Yaoyao crossed her legs, but her complexion was not good. She had already drank most of the red wine on the table.Seeing her pouring the red wine on her own, she then poured the wine into her mouth in big gulps.

Anyone can see that at this moment, Tao Yaoyao's face and eyes are full of drunkenness.It seemed that something was haunting her, making her helpless and struggling.

"What's the matter with you? If you're in a bad mood, just drink less than two cups, otherwise you'll know it's hard when you wake up the next day with a splitting headache." Zhuo Qihua said.

"..." For some reason, Tao Yaoyao didn't say a word after hearing Zhuo Qihua's story, and just drank the red wine in her glass in silence.

This made Zhuo Qihua feel overwhelmed, seeing the beauty in front of him gulp down the wine, but his heart became suspicious.How could such a beautiful woman have something on her mind to bother her?

Look at the air of neither arrogance nor impetuosity brought out by every gesture, it is not something that a petty citizen family can learn.This is an invisible aura that has been accumulated bit by bit since childhood, naturally, and has penetrated into the bone marrow.

Zhuo Qihua tilted his head and began to analyze.The woman in front of her is not human.In the minds of ordinary citizens, she will naturally not have the trivial troubles of extra fifty cents or one less.

Since it's not for money, it can only be for feelings...

Then I thought about the beauty just now, and asked the question, "Did you ever like anyone when you were a student?" '.

Based on the above points, Zhuo Qihua had a guess.Of course, as a member of the criminal police team, her guess did not come out of thin air.Rather, it was obtained through deliberation and deliberation—the woman in front of me was trapped by love, and the object was probably an alumnus from the student days.