dear psychiatrist

"Hello, Zhuo Qihua." Zhuo Qihua had already walked a long way, and Cui Anjie suddenly called out her name.

"Why?!" Zhuo Qihua turned his head and looked at Cui Anjie who was not far away. This woman never called her by her own name directly, but called her "little policeman". Today, she has changed her sex.

Cui Anjie opened her mouth, as if she wanted to say something, but in the end she didn't say anything, she looked aside and said, "It's okay, let's go."

"What's going on?! It's inexplicable." Zhuo Qihua scratched his hair, wondering what Cui Anjie was singing, couldn't figure it out and didn't bother to think about it, so he turned around and left.

In an ordinary cafe...

"Have you been waiting for a long time? I'm sorry, something happened." Seeing Zhao Xiaoqi, she was already sitting by the window that she loved most, and she was holding a coffee cup and drinking quietly.While saying sorry, Zhuo Qihua took off his coat and threw it on the seat beside him.

"I just arrived too." Zhao Xiaoqi said calmly, shaking the coffee spoon in her hand.Then he pushed the cup of coffee in front of him in Zhuo Qihua's direction and said, "I still like latte, right? I ordered a cup for you on my own initiative."

"Thank you." After saying this, Zhuo Qihua didn't know what to say, so he simply stopped talking.

"After that incident, I went to Lhasa and lived there for nearly a month. How about you, how are you doing?" Zhao Xiaoqi's words came out lightly.It's as if she doesn't expect the answer, and she doesn't care whether the other party answers or not.

"Hey, what else can I do? As always, work when you need to work, and rest when you need to rest." Zhuo Qihua scratched his hair, said with a smile, and kept silent about the suspension.After finishing a sentence, he cast his eyes out of the window and said nothing.

Suddenly, I understood the phrase "meeting is worse than missing", although my heart is still full of longing and concern, but the relationship between each other has already changed to nothing, and I can no longer do the usual peace of mind.

After a long silence, I heard Zhao Xiaoqi's fine words: "Qihua, this is really good!"

"What kind?" Zhuo Qihua kept looking at the light rain falling outside the window, and said softly, "It's raining."

Zhao Xiaoqi shook her head, not intending to finish her sentence.Instead, he turned his eyes straight to Zhuo Qihua's body, and his eyes were slightly red.

In the vast crowd, it is really good to be able to gaze at you quietly like this.Now that you have more beautiful scenery around you, will you still look back at me occasionally?However, none of this matters anymore.Because thousands of words have long been buried in our dreams.but me……

Zhao Xiaoqi stopped thinking about it, but said to Zhuo Qihua again: "I'm in love, and my partner is like an executive of an auto parts factory. We met on the way to Lhasa together."

"What... what did you say?" Zhuo Qihua suddenly turned his head when he heard such explosive news, trying to see a trace of truth from Zhao Xiaoqi's facial expression.

But from the beginning to the end, Zhao Xiaoqi just talked calmly, as if she was talking about a trivial matter that had nothing to do with her.But Zhao Xiaoqi's calm made Zhuo Qihua feel a little inexplicable panic, but he didn't know why he panicked.

Before she could speak, Zhao Xiaoqi calmly said: "He is very good to me. Between loving and being loved, I want to choose the latter this time. So, this is also a love with the purpose of marriage."

Listening to my best friend, who is also an ex-girlfriend, sitting in front of me and calmly talking about my current relationship experience, this feeling is very strange.It's not that Zhuo Qihua still has love for Zhao Xiaoqi in his heart, it's just that he just feels weird.At some point, the role changed, and I changed from the protagonist to a bystander.

But that's okay, as long as Zhao Xiaoqi feels happy.Only when she is happier can Zhuo Qihua feel less guilty.Thinking of this, Zhuo Qihua calmed down: "Oh, that's really good. I'm happy for you."

Zhao Xiaoqi shook the coffee spoon in her hand, and said with some emotion: "Yes."

After drinking a cup of coffee, Zhuo Qihua, who had been looking out the window, was about to say goodbye, but Zhao Xiaoqi stepped forward and said, "The rain has stopped, I'm going home. How about you?"

"Oh. I'm going to go too..."

Before Zhuo Qihua could finish his sentence, he saw Zhao Xiaoqi standing up with her handbag in her hand.Hearing what kind of tone she used, she said to Zhuo Qihua behind her: "Qihua, I will never let myself see your leaving back again."

And Zhao Xiaoqi's words reminded Zhuo Qihua of the past.From childhood to adulthood, Zhao Xiaoqi was always the last one to leave. She always had various reasons to stand where she was and wave her hand to let the other party leave first.It wasn't until Zhuo Qihua's figure disappeared before her eyes that she put away her loving eyes and turned to leave.

Probably this is a kind of tenderness expressed by Zhao Xiaoqi, but at this moment when the relationship between the two is getting colder, Zhuo Qihua understands in his heart that no one will wait for you forever.Zhuo Qihua also had no right to ask Zhao Xiaoqi to stand there and wait for her, because he couldn't give her anything.

It wasn't until Zhao Xiaoqi's figure completely disappeared in the coffee shop that Zhuo Qihua looked away, stood up and walked out of the shop.

Along the unknown path washed by the drizzle and stretching to the end of the field of vision, Zhuo Qihua took small steps and walked forward confidently.

Tao Yaoyao's smile flashed in my mind, I thought of the way she pursed her lips and smiled, the dimples around her mouth, her soft and smooth hair, and the faint scent of perfume on her body.

Seeing the name he thought about day and night appeared on the caller ID, Zhuo Qihua felt strange, why would Tao Yaoyao appear in his own world every time when he needed it most?

He picked up the phone in a hurry, and then heard Tao Yaoyao's pleasant voice as always accompanied by fatigue and strong thoughts: "Stingy ghost, what are you doing?"

I often hear people say, when you start a conversation, use the phrase 'what are you doing? ', in fact, what the person who spoke wanted to say was 'I miss you', Zhuo Qihua naturally missed Tao Yaoyao too.

"I'm just hanging out on the street. By the way, I'll be resuming my job tomorrow. Looking back at my current life of not doing business, I'm still somewhat attached." Zhuo Qihua talked and laughed while holding the phone.

"Stingy, I just finished my consultation and I'm getting ready to go home."

"Ah? What time is it? Are you off work?! Are you sure that client chatted with you so late, not because he was greedy for your beauty, and planned to take the opportunity to plot something wrong?"

"What nonsense are you talking about? What's in your head? You've been thinking wildly all day long!"

"Okay, okay, forget that I said something wrong, then you should be careful on the way home." Zhuo Qihua had just hung up the phone after several reminders like this.

She doesn't think it's so casual, the chatting without saying a word is looking for something to say, on the contrary, Zhuo Qihua thinks it's plain and beautiful, and she is deeply intoxicated by it.

But her thoughts were drawn to Zhao Xiaoqi again, remembering the day she broke up, she said over and over by her side, the ordinary happiness in daily necessities.Perhaps, what I have been looking for is the same as what Zhao Xiaoqi yearned for - ordinary.

If it is said that a person is doomed to owe some people in this life, in order to achieve his own life.Although Zhuo Qihua didn't want to admit it, she had to admit that she already owed Zhao Xiaoqi.And this debt is destined to never be able to make up for it.

After hanging up the phone, Zhuo Qihua stopped in front of a food stall, took out ten yuan from his pocket, handed it to the proprietress, and said, "Madam proprietress, pack some fried rice. Make it bigger, I'm hungry gone."

"Okay, girl, sit and rest for a while, the fried rice will be here soon." The proprietress swiftly took ten yuan, gave three yuan to Zhuo Qihua, and yelled at the kitchen. : "Have some fried rice, more rice!"

After a while, Zhuo Qihua shook the packed fried rice in his hand and walked towards the nearest station.Suddenly, I heard a few baby dogs barking under the small tree beside me.He glanced in the direction of the call, but was attracted by a familiar figure not far away.

Looking at the direction not far away, Zhuo Qihua's footsteps were fixed in place, and he couldn't move any further.No matter what, Zhuo Qihua would never believe that the sky is big and the earth is big, in this city, they can meet each other despite their faith in each other.Perhaps, this is what people often say "fate"?

"Yaoyao..." This unexpected encounter kept playing with the tenderness in Zhuo Qihua's heart, and while calling Tao Yaoyao's name, he walked towards her.

"..." Tao Yaoyao turned her head when she heard the sound, and the moment she saw Zhuo Qihua, a trace of surprise flashed across her eyes, but she quickly put the surprise away, and a beautiful smile bloomed on her face.

Zhuo Qihua squatted beside Tao Yaoyao, tilting his head to watch her carefully break up the small bag of dog food, pour it into the milk and stir it carefully.With a somewhat professional posture, he asked her in a low voice: "When did you learn how to feed puppies?"

Tao Yaoyao didn't speak, but turned to give Zhuo Qihua a smile, and then pushed the little dish towards the puppy.He looked contentedly at a few weak milk dogs, licking milk together in a pile.

"Yaoyao, fate is such a wonderful thing. Every time when I miss you, you will appear in front of me unexpectedly." Zhuo Qihua said while holding the hand of the woman beside him, carefully Caressing her delicate fingers.