hibiscus past years

In Shen Mujin's hand, "Drink tea."

The weather was very cold, and the water that was splashed on the ground would form a thin layer of ice in a short time, but the water he handed over was still warm.

"You went to buy this for me?" he asked.The voice is slightly hoarse.

"The water on the shelves in the store was cold, so I went to the milk tea shop." Seeing that he was not moving, Gu Fengzhu took the fruit tea and inserted the straw for him, and handed it back. gone back."

"I squatted for a long time, and my legs were numb."

Gu Fengzhu doesn't use the mobile phone very often, thinking that it can only answer the phone except for sending messages, and can't take the initiative to call others.

"Don't buy any milk tea next time." Shen Mujin took his hand, held it tightly, and whispered, "Scared."

"No." Gu Fengzhu held him back and said with a smile, "I know my brother can always find me, so I'm not afraid."

"I'm afraid."

Shen Mujin hugged him, hugged him tightly, lowered her forehead to his shoulder, and repeated softly: "I'm afraid."

I'm afraid I can't find you.

I'm afraid I lost you again.

I'm afraid I'll never see you again.

Scared, scared...

"Brother... don't be afraid." Gu Fengzhu was a little at a loss, hugged him back in a panic, and comforted him jerky, "I am here, I will protect you, and I will protect my brother well."

Shen Mujin didn't speak, just hugged her quietly for a while, then went to hold Gu Fengzhu's hand after she calmed down a bit, and said softly: "Let's go home."

It was early in the morning when the two returned home, and the east would be pale in a few hours, so there was not much time left for them to rest.

The two took the time to take a shower.When Gu Fengzhu came out, Shen Mujin had already blown her hair and was sitting on the sofa with a hair dryer waiting for him.

The sofa was given by the landlord's aunt when he first moved in. It is not big, just enough for one person to sit on, but it is a bit reluctant for two people.The sofa is a bit old, and some parts inside are also broken, and it is a bit uncomfortable to sit on.Gu Fengzhu was reluctant to change it, and he didn't know how to repair it, and he didn't sit very much when he thought about it, so he just made do with it.

Shen Muqin writhed uncomfortably while waiting, but found that no matter how she moved, something was sticking and uncomfortable, so she had no choice but to stay still, focusing on waiting for others.

"Come here and dry your hair." Shen Mujin said.

A small soft stool has been set up in front of the sofa, Gu Fengzhu walked over and sat down, and let his brother blow dry his hair.

Taking advantage of the blow-drying time, the two chatted one after another.

"How is Xiao Yu?" Gu Fengzhu still remembered the beautiful boy in the wheelchair, he had been out for so long, and he didn't know how he was.

"The body has almost been adjusted, and it is the best time to undergo surgery. I can enter the operating room in early summer of this year." Shen Mujin said.

"very nice."

The wind from the hair dryer was hot and comfortable, Gu Fengzhu felt a little sleepy while blowing it, and couldn't help yawning.

"Sleepy?" Shen Mujin looked at his head bit by bit, and said with a smile, "Soon, it will be fine soon."

He dried it for a while, and felt that his hair was dry, so he turned off the hair dryer, and the humming machine sound in the room disappeared immediately.Shen Mujin pulled out the plug, rolled up the hair dryer, saw a few of his hairs curling up mischievously, and smoothed them out.Smooth to the touch and fragrant.Moving down the hair, it is the smooth nape exposed by the hair pulled forward, which is delicate and white.Shen Mujin's fingers rested on the soft skin for a moment, stared at it for a while, and then, in a strange way, she lowered her head and kissed it.

The skin under the lips is as fragrant and delicate as imagined, with soft fluff, which is very comfortable to kiss.

The person under the lips visibly stiffened, and he could feel the momentary muscle tension of the other party.He knew his brother felt it, and he knew that his delay in responding was giving him a chance, giving him enough time to react and cover up.

But he didn't get up to explain as he wished, instead he kissed again, slightly heavier than last time, making it impossible to pretend not to know.

This time was different from the sneaky and unclear one last time, he knew what this kiss represented and what it would change, but he had no regrets, nor did he regret it.He has never realized this so deeply, clearly and soberly as at this moment.

He likes him, likes his brother, wants to be with him all the time.

If it’s legal, you get married, if it’s not legal, you fall in love for the rest of your life.

"Xiaozhu, I like you." He heard himself say this.

He put his hands around, trying to hug him, but he broke away.

Gu Fengzhu stabbed him with a back elbow, restrained him and at the same time escaped smoothly.He didn't dare to look back at his expression at all, so he could only choose to walk forward without looking back.

"Xiaozhu..." Shen Mujin wanted to hold his hand, but was dodged as soon as it touched his fingertips.He looked at his back as he walked forward slowly, his high hanging heart slowly sank, and he was about to fall into the deep valley.

"Xiaozhu..." he shouted, his voice pleading.

The distant figure stopped, but only for a moment, and still did not look back, and continued to move forward without hesitation, walking resolutely.

The door of the room closed with a "bang", and as the door closed, Shen Mujin heard the sound of her heart falling to the bottom of the valley, her body being smashed to pieces.

"Xiaozhu..." he murmured in a low voice, frustrated and defeated.

44. Try to love

◎I want to protect my beloved you with my devastated body. ◎

Shen Mujin left, taking the things he had brought with him, and left without leaving any traces.Just like when he came, he was alone, with no one to see him off.

When the door was gently closed, Dongfang was already pale.The frog-shaped balloon with the green-bottomed monster picture floated in the room, floating high, touching the ceiling, shaking up and down with the flow of air, and gently hitting the small piece of heaven and earth above the head.

The people who had been sitting by the door for half the night heard the sound of the door closing and finally heard something.He supported the door and stood up slowly. The line connecting the balloon was very long. As soon as he raised his hand, he grabbed the floating line and pulled it down with a light pull.He picked out the monster's eye, and carried it to the window.

The snow that hadn't fallen for several days since Shen Mujin arrived, now began to fall flutteringly again.There was a man pulling a suitcase in the snow, wearing a black coat, behind him was a string of long footprints and roller tracks.He walked slowly, his back was lonely and desolate, from the distance where he could clearly see the contour line at the beginning, to only seeing the black moving dots clearly, and finally he couldn't see anything at all.

Gu Fengzhu knew that something was going to change between them.He doesn't want it to change, but he doesn't know what to do to save it.He needs to be taught, but the man who taught him has left.

He lowered the curtain, looked at his hands, but finally failed to catch up.He slid down with his back against the wall, and pressed his face against the little monster's forehead, with tears in his eyes, and whispered, "Brother, I want to eat an apple, the kind that requires you to peel it for me."

After that day, the two returned to a state of being strangers again, and they never saw each other's letters or calls on their mobile phones. It seemed that after a year, they forgot about each other.One continued to treat diseases and save lives, and the other continued to learn how to cook, going around and going around, and returned to the life track before coming here.

Gu Fengzhu didn't know his brother's recent situation, only occasionally heard a few words from the Liu brothers, knowing that he was doing well, so he was a little relieved.

I thought that I would slowly forget about that night, and then one day many years later, when I met his brother, I would see a married man with a child, or tell him "Long time no see" with a smile, or simply Turn a blind eye.

Either way, he thought, he would be happy and blessed.

But ah, countless midnight dreams, when he thought of his brother starting a family and starting a business, and standing beside a woman he wanted to call his sister-in-law, his heart would ache, and he couldn't sleep all night because of the discomfort.

He didn't want to admit it, but it was undeniable that his heart was more transparent than he could see.Facing the answer that was about to come out, he couldn't retreat.

For three months, from early spring to early summer, this thought tormented him.He was stuck in this swamp, struggling, frightened, almost driven crazy.

Finally, he fled to another place, hoping to take the opportunity of a change of environment to erase this strange strangeness.

The last time we met, he was still a man who could walk, jump, and cook. Goodbye, his hair was all white and he was sitting in a wheelchair. He was so weak that Gu Fengzhu didn't dare to recognize him.

"you……"

"Come on, come in and sit." With a cat curled up on his lap, he smiled as usual.

Looking at the seemingly indifferent smile, Gu Fengzhu couldn't continue to ask, and said familiarly: "Yeah. Come to eat and drink——Is there any apple?"

"It's in the kitchen." Qiu Sanyue pushed the wheelchair behind him and said, "It was just delivered, and you have to wash it yourself."

After I couldn't move my legs, I hired special staff to take care of hygiene and housework.Vegetables and fruits are delivered every morning, and they will be replaced the next day if they can't finish eating that day.

"You said you were coming, so I gave Master Li a few days off. I haven't tasted your handicraft for a long time, and today I just had a good time." He said.

Master Li is the chef in charge of the food in Autumn and March, and I heard him mention it before.

The word "Master" is a very normal address, but when I heard it suddenly at this moment, I felt a little dazed.It vaguely gives people the illusion that those sad things never happened, that person and that store are still there, and he is just going out to meet friends, and during the chat, the topic just happened to be here.

"Wind candle?"

"Wind candle?"

Qiu Sanyue called him twice, seeing that he was still in a trance, she was a little helpless.The cat in his arms was awakened by his cry, as if sensing the owner's inner thoughts, it jumped down with its short legs and slammed headlong into the standing legs.

Feeling his calf being hit by something, Gu Fengzhu subconsciously wanted to kick it, but thought of something and held back.He lowered his head and looked at the round glass eyes, but he hadn't realized what happened.

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