Xiqing as usual GL

I don't know if it's good or bad for him.Sometimes I'm glad that I don't have to think so much and bear so much.To say he is my elder brother is better to say that since seven years ago, he has become my younger brother.I need to take care of it, I need my family to comfort me.Although it is normal to talk.But no one can approach him when he is abnormal.If a sharp weapon happens to be in his hand, he will go crazy and pick up the sharp weapon to hurt people.Only my mother and I, he never hurt.

Dad simply lost faith in him.After he became disabled, Dad put all his thoughts on me.Even the number of times I saw my brother gradually decreased.

He and his mother are already old, and it is impossible for another boy to inherit the family business.Although I am a woman, I have been raised as a boy since I was a child.

Although my parents told me many times that they would marry me off.But I know they won't let me marry.He will only find me a man from the same family background, and then persuade him to marry into my family.

The right family is right, but also the other party is rich and beautiful.But they never asked me what I thought.

To calm down the thoughts in my heart, I smiled and sat down on the bedside to straighten my brother's messy clothes, and said, "Dad told me to study elsewhere, I can't accompany you, brother..."

He suddenly grasped my right hand tightly with both hands, and I saw that he hesitated to speak, as if he was about to cry.I had to grit my teeth, "Father said I was too naughty, so he sent me to the mountains to study and let others discipline me. You stay at home to recuperate. I hope to see a healthy brother when I come back!"

The books I can't read, the guilt I can't let go of, I only have guilt and tolerance when facing my brother.My father asked me to leave because he wanted me to learn more things. Could it be that my father and mother dominate everything about me like this?

My brother and I were like puppets being manipulated, without our freedom at all.

Feeling depressed for a while, I brought the food, took the bowl into my hands, scooped up a spoonful of bird's nest porridge, and handed it to my brother's lips, "Brother, crying can't solve the problem. When I'm not around, you have to take good care of yourself, don't cry anymore." Beat someone. Dong'er is a good child, if you hurt her, you will feel sad, won't you?"

He refused to eat, and still stammered, "You...don't go, I'll tell dad. My sister, I am, isn't it... very useless?"

I know it's normal for him to be like this, sometimes he's normal and sometimes not, I'm used to it...

It's just that this time I heard him say that, I don't know why I feel so sad, "Brother, I'm sorry for you... It's all my fault for this..."

His trembling hands touched my hair, and I looked up to see the occasional clarity in his eyes, "I don't blame you...you are my sister...it is my responsibility to protect you..."

I, who haven't cried for a long time, suddenly want to cry at this moment.I held my brother's hand and couldn't do anything but sigh "Brother..."

His mouth was slanted, his face was ferocious, and I knew it was him smiling.

Maybe having such an elder brother is a blessing I cultivated in my previous life. If my elder brother hadn't saved me at that time, maybe the disabled and stupid person now would be me.

Knowing that my brother is very tired, only seeing my mother and I will be happy.The rest of the time will be sullen.The servants looked down on him, and the women fled when they saw him.No one talked to him.

Even if someone wants to get close to him, they will be frightened by the scene of him going crazy in the end.

I don't know who can really walk into my brother's heart.

I have a hunch in my heart that maybe that day will come soon.

Dong'er brought another bowl of porridge, and I managed to persuade my brother to drink it.I wanted to pack my bags but he held my hand and refused to let me go.I know he hates me.After all, I have never traveled so far before.

That night I sat on my brother's bedside, and didn't say goodbye to my parents. My mother would understand me, so I don't need to say anything.

And dad is domineering and selfish.Even if I go to say goodbye, he will be so angry with me.Maybe there are some new rules to be imposed on me.

For my own sake, and for my father not to be mad at me, I decided not to say goodbye.

Sitting all night until dawn, my brother slept soundly, he didn't notice when I let go of his hand.Dong'er got up early and stood beside me, and I told her softly, "Just tell me what my brother wants or needs. Treat him better, he is a very good person."

Dong'er nodded, and I turned my head to look at my sleeping brother again.

"Brother. I hope that when I come back, you will really get better. That way, my crimes will be reduced."

Stepping out, the early morning air felt slightly cold.

Look at the thin clothes I'm wearing, it turns out that it's summer without knowing it...

I don't need to say more, my mother has prepared everything for me.There are ten servants at the gate of the mansion, and four other maids.Two large convoys and two carriages.

This is to study?What should I do?In fact, no matter how many people I bring with me, they are just following the orders of my parents to monitor me.

My mother stood in front of the door, saw me come out, and said with a smile, "Look, your father still cares about you. I chose four maids for you at the beginning, but he added ten servants to you. You must go learning success……"

Add ten people to watch me?See if I have messed up the academy.As soon as something goes wrong, fly a pigeon and send a letter back?

I'm not a child, why do you want so many people to follow me?I looked at the ten people, each with a thick back.Going to the academy like this can scare people to death.

I shook my head and only ordered one of the maids to come out, and then said to my mother, "Mother, my daughter is going to study, and it is a burden to bring so many people. My daughter thank parents for their kindness. Only Zifen is enough for this trip."

It doesn't matter if you bring too much money, just forget about people.

The maid I selected was originally my personal maid.I originally planned to take her alone.

Take another look at the luggage, clothes, cakes, books, pens, inks, papers and inkstones that my mother has prepared for me. Is it for me alone or for people from a college?

"Mother, you have prepared so many things, Zi Anhui and I can't handle them alone. How about turning them all into taels of silver. I'll go to the academy and buy it myself. Keep everything simple when you are away from home. This is what my father taught me. .”