Xiqing as usual GL

"What I want is not to hate you forever, you should understand." She turned her head to prevent me from seeing her tears.

"I don't understand. I'm confused." He covered his ears, afraid of hearing anything again.I'm afraid I'll leave everything behind and take her away.No matter how much volatility our departure would cause.

Only if one person always quits can the other two people be happy.I figured for them, I would opt out.

"I only know that I'm sorry for you. I can't give you a future. I'm afraid I'll hurt you. I haven't fulfilled my desire to protect you for the rest of my life. I can only watch over you. I don't want you to get hurt again."

Roaring like a trapped beast.She stared at me blankly, stretched out her finger to my cheek, and stroked it gently, as if she didn't hear my words just now, "Does it hurt?"

She asked me, the tears in her eyes dripped onto her fingers, she withdrew her hand, pressed her fingers to her lips silently, and then said slowly, "So your tears are also so bitter."

I closed my eyes and couldn't bear to look at her.I really want to hug her, get close to her, and experience the beauty of being with her.

"Give me time, okay? I need time to think about it. I need time to make a good decision about our relationship..."

I can't bear to look back and see her burst into tears. We all bear different fates, and we can't be together if we want to be together.

I regret not getting to know you sooner.I regret letting my brother know you.I regret not fulfilling my promise to stay by your side for the rest of my life.

"Don't you want to hear my explanation? I want to tell you. I know you still have me in your heart, but you dare not listen. If you can't face me, then you can face your heart, okay? I will give You have time, I'll give you time to think about it."

I covered my ears, I was really afraid of hearing the explanation from her mouth.Even if I want to know so much why, why she wants to marry.Why don't you wait for me.

"Remember the man we met in the market that day? He is my brother. The day after you left, he went to the academy and took me home by force. If I refused, he beat me. No one in the courtyard dared to stop him , even the academician didn't stop him... I really don't want to go with him."

She was talking behind me, and her clear voice pierced my heart with tears. When I heard that she was beaten, my heart immediately jumped.I hate myself for not being able to hug you now.

"It was only when I got home that I found out that my father was terminally ill and there was no cure. Someone proposed to my family to marry me. I disagreed, but my father always held my hand and told me that he hoped to watch me get married. The Yin family The incense has been cut off. My brother was trampled off after a pleasure. My brother hates me. Because I was the one who turned him into a useless person... I am sorry for the Yin family. I am sorry for my father. The incense of the Yin family is in my hands I'm ruined, how can I owe less than you? Do you know? My brother threatened me that if I don't marry, he will deal with you. You are the most important person to me, I would rather get hurt than you feel sad... you Can you understand why I want to marry? Can you understand my difficulties?"

I never knew that you married to protect my safety.But have you ever thought about me?No matter what I think, I would rather get hurt than make you sad.I would rather be hurt than marry you...

"You don't even know that the person you married is my brother? You don't know everything? Just marry yourself so blindly? What do you want me to do? Even if I get hurt, I won't give up on you. It's you who gave up first Me. You chose my brother. How do you want me to face you? You know that we can’t see each other after we get married. The relationship can only end. Haven’t you thought about it? You said you wanted me, but what you did Which one doesn't make you farther away from me?"

I turned my head and yelled at her loudly, and all the doubts in my mind were cleared up.No matter what, I still want to be with her.But where is the chance?

"I really don't know! My brother lied to me, saying that I married a half-dead man, he will be buried in the ground soon, and I can return to you as soon as he dies. My brother will not deal with you. I just Make a form to show my dad. It will only take a while, and I will return to you. My purity and innocence, still intact, belong only to you... I really didn't know that things would turn out like this. I also I don't know that my brother would lie to me like this. I don't know what to do...I dare not face you, I'm afraid you will say that I have betrayed my heart. I really didn't. I really didn't..."

She cried very hard, tears kept falling, her body trembled slightly, I moved slowly twice, heartbroken.Unable to control my feelings anymore, I rushed forward and hugged her into my arms, "Stop talking. I understand... I blamed you. It's my fault..."

"Lan Lou, don't leave me, don't let me go. I don't want you to go. I can follow you anywhere. I don't want anything."

I tried to hold back my tears.I don't want to go far away with you.But what about our family?We can't just leave everything behind.

In that way, we will all be guilty for the rest of our lives.Even together we can't be happy.

I still don't have the ability to give you a lifetime, and I still don't have the ability to break free from the shackles my father gave me.

"How do we escape? Even if we escape to the ends of the earth, we will still be caught... At that time, we really can't meet again. My brother loves you so much, I can't take you away. I can't make my brother sad For a lifetime. I already owe him so much, how can I destroy his happiness with my own hands?"

She grabbed my collar and sobbed slightly, "Then you will have the heart to make me sad forever?"

I can't bear it, how can I bear to make you sad.But how can I have the heart to hurt my brother again.My heart is not made of iron, and I cannot hurt the same person over and over again.

"Give me time, give me time, okay? I have to think about it, you know I have you in my heart, and I only love you in this life, just remember this sentence. Just remember that the person I love is you I'm not afraid of what will happen in the future, I just don't want the two of you to get hurt for me again. I really can't bear it."

"Lan Lou, I'll give you time, so don't let me have the chance to hate you forever, okay?"

I was about to say something.A person suddenly appeared in front of me and hurriedly called me, "Lan Lou, Master and Madam tell you to go back quickly."

The sudden appearance made me panic, I immediately let go of Yunchi, I was afraid of being seen by the servants at home, and then I went to tell my parents.A burst of sourness reverberated in my heart.

"Zifen." It was not me but Yunchi who called out the person's name.She cried out in surprise.While trying to move closer to me.

Because Zifen knows about us.Even if she sees it, it doesn't matter.As long as she doesn't tell her parents.

I know that anise will not reveal my secret.I held Yunchi's hand to reassure her, but at the same time I felt ashamed of myself for being timid.

"Zifen, it's you. What's the matter?"

I hastily wiped away the tears on my face, pretended to be nonchalant and looked at Zifen, who stared at Yunchi, and finally said lightly, "Hi, Young Madam."

I squeezed Yunchi's hand tightly and felt her trembling a few times, and my heart was also in a mess.

"Zifen, you..."

Knowing about Yunchi, but wanting to call him Yunchi like this, you want to tell me that Yunchi is now my sister-in-law?

"Master has ordered, Miss, you should go home now, a distinguished guest will arrive."

Ever since Zifen told me that she was redeemed, she always called me Lanlou behind her. She seldom called me by my name for many years, because of her status as a maid, she never violated the rules.

"VIP? Who is it?"

Zifen turned her head and left, leaving us where we were, and didn't tell me who the person who came was.As soon as she left, I immediately squeezed Xia Yunchi's hand and said, "No matter what, your current identity is my sister-in-law. We... can't do this."

I shook my head and wanted to leave, but someone grabbed my sleeve, and when I turned my head, I saw her tears welling up again.I want to cry too.

"Don't cry, if you cry, I will be sad too."

Stretching out his fingers to touch her face, his soft voice was as gentle as before, "Yun'er..."

Although the thoughts in my heart are not clear, but tonight, I am destined to suffer from insomnia again.

Finally got home.When my parents saw that I was dressed as a servant, they quickly sent me to change it.Yunchi came back after me.I saw my brother holding her hand and asked her where she was going.

The eyes that were red from crying were full of sorrow, making people intoxicated.I gritted my teeth not to watch the subtle movements between them.

Who can accept that the person he likes the most is so close to other people?

A long corridor passes through it.The sound of the wind swept across the courtyard, the scenery was so beautiful, but what I wanted to see the most was the man turning his eyes and smiling.One of the most beautiful flowers I have ever seen.

I am like a butterfly, I will abandon all flowers just for this one.

People are selfish.Me too, my heart is full of confusion.Brother is like the person who fell in love with flowers, and Hao took them off without any effort.

How do butterflies compete with humans?How can I compete with my brother?

A fearless war would leave all three of us wounded.do i quitMake them happy?