Sir, I'm not good

Before sending the two of them away, Shen Yao called them over to give her final instructions.

Shu Xian arrived first, while Gu Yinian had to rush over from the company a little later.

After all, he is the main manager of an entire family business, and it doesn't matter if he skips work occasionally, but if he leaves for half a month, he will definitely have to explain a lot.

"Since you came first, shall we start first?"

"It's all right."

"Seeing how stubborn you are, I feel that what I said should be all nonsense."

"Since you know, why bother talking."

Shu Xian sat on the bench opposite Shen Yao, his eyes looked lazy.

He stayed in the hospital for two days, and took various infusions and medicines. Although his mind was still not clear, his body had some changes.

For example, sleep is indeed better than before, and I can finally fall asleep before dawn.

But sleeping pills still have serious side effects. For example, he feels a headache now, so his brows are always frowning involuntarily.

Shen Yao regained her professional smile, looked at Shu Xian and said, "How do you feel these two days?"

"Alive."

Shu Xian answered very perfunctorily, undisguisedly perfunctory, showing irritability in every aspect from tone to demeanor.

"Then I hope you live longer."

"Then I hope your hope will be shattered soon."

"You look like a blackened bad boy now."

"Then you're like a long-winded aunt with early menopause."

The corners of Shen Yao's mouth twitched, "I can't talk properly, can I?"

"……can."

Shen Yao saw that Shu Xian sat up straight with horror on his face, straightened his attitude, and put down the knife contentedly.

To deal with the anxiety of patients, it is still necessary to take some effective measures.

After "pacifying" Shu Xian's anxiety, Shen Yao was about to speak when she heard a knock on the door.

"Enter."

It was Gu Yinian who opened the door in response.

Shen Yao raised her eyebrows, "Are you here so early? Do you miss your Omega so much?"

Gu Yinian did not evade at all, smiled politely, nodded in affirmation: "Yes, I miss him."

Only Shu Xian silently turned his head away, and muttered in a low voice, it's not your family anymore.

After Gu Yinian sat on the bench next to Shu Xian, Shen Yao officially spoke.

"Okay, since everyone is talking in human language, let's not go back and forth and get straight to the point. You are leaving tomorrow, right?"

Gu Yinian nodded, that's how he agreed with Shu Xian.

Shen Yao: "I came to you mainly to make a final struggle, to see if I can make Shu Xian's mind a little bit normal."

"...Can you be so straightforward?" Shu Xian couldn't help but complain.

Shen Yao smiled frankly: "What's wrong? Let's meet honestly."

"Then you struggle."

"Everyone is a rational person, so let's summarize first, where is your personal emotional crux?" Shen Yao said to Shu Xian.

But Shu Xian didn't intend to answer her, she looked at Gu Yinian next to him, and Gu Yinian didn't intend to speak.

Shen Yao was not surprised.

Shu Xian definitely didn't want to say that he was sick, and Gu Yinian couldn't tell her that Shu Xian was sick in front of Shu Xian.

So this dirty work will eventually fall on her head.

So Shen Yao sighed: "Jian Wan said, it was Bai Yu who gave you a big blow, but you don't love Bai Yu, why can't you come out now?"

No one answered her, even if Shu Xian wanted to refute her words, he just raised his eyes a little, and endured it.

Shen Yao went on to say: "I know what you want to say, yes, love is not the only thing that is the most cherished among human beings, and not being in love may not be unimportant."

"Bai Yu is someone you don't love but cherishes. He died when your emotions were the most complicated, and he died in the most cunning way."

Yes, if it wasn't for the "I love you" before he died, if he didn't say he loved him at the end...

Shu Xian felt unwell, had a headache, and felt cramps in his heart, and the hand resting on his forehead couldn't help but grabbed his hair.

Bai Yu is his demon, and if he falls into hell, he will be entangled in it too.

They can only be like this, if one is tortured, the other must also be tortured, there is no reason for celibacy in heaven.

Shen Yao can see Shu Xian's pain, everyone can see it, because the expression is too obvious now.

But she still wants to say that she wants Shu Xian to remember.

"At that time, you still had love for Gu Yinian, but you never got a response. At the same time, you couldn't respond to Bai Yu's feelings."

"Did you ever think at that time that if you hadn't forced to be with Gu Yinian and kept the child, you wouldn't have aroused Xiang Qing's hatred, and you wouldn't have harmed Bai Yu."

"Or, if you succeeded in falling in love with Bai Yu, wouldn't he die like that?"

"Alternatively, if you make Gu Yinian fall in love with you, would it be possible to have a different ending?"

Shu Xian was a little overwhelmed when he heard that, the hair clenched between his fingers trembled slightly along with his whole body.

He hates himself.

"But you can't do anything, you fail, everything about relationships, you fail."

While Shen Yao was talking, she saw Gu Yinian's eyes, as if telling her, stop talking.

But, it's all about this, even if she stops, Shu Xian will not stop grieving.

So she continued: "Think about Xu Zhi, and then look at Gu Yinian, you will find that anyone who falls in love with you will be tortured."

"Shen Yao, do you think you understand me well?!"

"I don't understand you, Shu Xian. You are really too complicated. I just evaluate it as an outsider of 11. Taking the present as the knot, your past relationship is a mess."

"It won't get better in the future." Shu Xian said, smiling bitterly.

He thought that maybe Shen Yao was trying to hit him, and then suddenly turned around, telling him that there is still hope for the future.

But he didn't want to have hope.

And Shen Yao didn't seem to continue the conversation according to his idea.

"Yes, it won't get better in the future." Shen Yao said.

Too many people give patients unrealistic and illusory hopes.

It will be fine in the future, the future can be expected, and the sun will rise as usual tomorrow...

But in fact, tomorrow will still be cloudy, and there will even be heavy rain and hail, and there will be no sunny days for thousands of miles.

"Shu Xian, don't be surprised. I can't even imagine what it will be like when you get better. How can you abandon your past? I can't think of it."

Facing Shu Xian's surprised eyes, Shen Yao smiled and said.

Her smile was always on her lips, but this time it seemed to be different from usual.

Even though her words are cruel, but coupled with her expression, they can give Shu Xian solid warmth.

He didn't understand why she said that. Although it was true, was this what a doctor should say to a patient?

But that's what Shen Yao said.

She said, "Let's just live in such a bad way."

She said: "I can't feel your pain, no one can empathize with you, and no one can understand you."

"It's just that someone loves you," she said.

"But, Shen Yao, I..."

"You don't love him?" Shen Yao took Shu Xian's words, "Just like you can't fall in love with Bai Yu, you can't fall in love with Gu Yinian again, can you?"

Shu Xian was silent, that is to say, he acquiesced.

The spectators also lowered their heads.

Shen Yao looked at the bystander and asked, "What about you, if he doesn't love you, will you still love him?"

Gu Yinian raised his head to look at Jian Wan, and then fixed his eyes on the Omega beside him.

He looked at Shu Xian tenderly, and said helplessly, "I can't control myself."

The next sentence is, I love you.

The next sentence is that you don't have to be burdened.

But Gu Yinian didn't say any more, he knew that Shu Xian knew it, and if he said too much, he would appear selfless and would increase Shu Xian's burden.

Shen Yao shrugged and spread her hands: "Look, you can't help it, Shu Xian, you are very similar to Gu Yinian, you are both too stubborn and crazy."

After thinking for two seconds, Shen Yao found a suitable description, and said to the two of them: "You are an unsolvable math problem, and you are the second question of that derivative problem."

"Actually, I can solve that. I got full marks in mathematics in the college entrance examination."

"..."

Shen Yao was choked by Shu Xian, feeling that she was being crushed by a self-taught bully.

How can anyone in this world get full marks in mathematics?Is that still human?

Mathematics is inhuman suffering.

Shu Xian can even endure the hardships of mathematics, why can't he endure the hardships of love?

She thought for a long time, and finally found another description: "Then you are like a Chinese composition, and you will never have a perfect answer."

"...Then what should I do? Then I go?"

"No need, just live so reluctantly for now, and when you don't want to live any more, we'll talk about what happens after you die."

Shu Xian was speechless for a while, what Shen Yao said, seemed to find him a solution to the problem, which was to solve nothing.

Isn't it still a mess in the end?

"Don't look at me like that, I look like a quack."

"I just think everything you're saying is bullshit."

"Really? But you have to know that many people are hopeless and sloppy living, and you are just extremely desperate."

"Then I really failed to live..."

"Well, then it's such a failure, let's make do with it first."

Shen Yao seemed quite magnanimous, as if no matter what Shu Xian said, she could reply him with "make do".

I didn't persuade him to treat his illness well or ask him to live a good life. I just told him that it's okay to live in any way, and even not living is not completely unacceptable.

Shu Xian was silent.

He has never been persuaded like this before!

"...That's fine."

Shu Xian thought for a long time, but couldn't think of how to reject Shen Yao. After all, Shen Yao didn't ask for anything, so he had no choice but to agree.

Seeing this, Shen Yao breathed a sigh of relief, "Let's leave it at that. You'll know the specific treatment when you get there. Gu Yinian and I have explained it."

Shu Xian glanced at Gu Yinian

"Goodbye."

"Hope to see you again."

After finishing speaking, Shen Yao paused for a moment, and added: "What I hope to see is not a photo."

The next day, the airport.

"Brother, you two go out to play, why take me?"

"To reassure my parents."

"Am I safe? Carrying it with me can ward off evil spirits?"

"If you haven't been arrested, your parents will be suspicious? When you get to the place, obediently take a few photos with me to prove that we are together, and then talk about your freedom."

After Shu Xian said something, You Haozhe was embarrassed.

With such a big You Haozhe, it would be embarrassing to be caught, let alone being caught by Jian Wan?

Without words to refute, You Haozhe could only silently pull Shu Xian's suitcase and follow behind the two of them.

They came to the airport again.

The destination is still the north, but it's not Xu Zhi's city anymore.

In fact, he still wanted to meet Xu Zhi, but he felt that it was not easy for Xu Zhi to leave by himself, and he really shouldn't bother him anymore.

He can stop being a man once or twice, but he can't stop being a man again and again.

On Gu Yinian's private jet, Shu Xian sat face to face with Gu Yinian, and You Haozhe sat in the corner quietly watching a movie.

"where are we going?"

Shu Xian stared at the layers of clouds outside the window, and suddenly asked.

Hearing the sound, Gu Yinian put down the work in hand, and instead of answering, asked, "I'm only thinking of asking this now? Are you afraid that I will be abducted by you?"

"You can't."

"I just don't want to."

"What's the difference? The result is the same."

Shu Xian returned casually, stretched his waist, yawned, and spread his hands towards Gu Yinian: "Where's my tablet?"

Flying is really a boring thing, and it is easy to be anxious after being bored for a long time.

It's better to take the opportunity to watch online classes for a while.

Hearing the sound, Gu Yinian turned his head and waved to the flight attendant, gave her some instructions in a low voice, and saw the flight attendant leave.

Not being able to get the tablet for the time being, Shu Xian wanted to retract his outstretched hand, but Gu Yinian grabbed it before he could move.

"I'm annoying, don't touch me."

Shu Xian frowned tightly, but he was not ready to take the initiative to withdraw his hand.

As for Gu Yinian, he pulled his hand towards him, lowered his head slightly, and kissed the back of his hand.

Shu Xian's hands are often cold, but when Gu Yinian's warm lips gently touch her, it suddenly burns her heart.

This sudden hand kiss was only one click, and it was over.