please love me

, the price is not low.

It is the first time to invite us to dinner to go to this kind of hotel, presumably their families are quite rich.They are also very generous.

After it was finished, Ma Nan asked us to order food, and I handed over the ordering to Jiang Shu and Chen Qi. I didn't know what to order, no matter who I went out to eat with, I would not order food.

The first is because the dishes I order are basically just good-sounding names, and the taste is not good. If you order this, you can't waste it, but if you don't pick it up, you can only waste it.The second is because I have difficulty choosing, and it takes a lot of time to order a dish, which delays everyone's meal.

After they finished ordering, Manan introduced us to his boyfriend.Because I was distracted, I didn't hear the name of Manan's boyfriend, but only heard something about his boyfriend.

His boyfriend's grades are very good, but because of his love, he chose sports.Participated in many competitions and won many awards.

After listening, Chen Qi asked if he was nervous during the competition, what he needed to pay attention to, his usual diet, exercise and so on.

His boyfriends told Chen Qi one by one that people are easy to communicate with, but they look a little fierce on the surface.

In the end, it hurt all of us and chatted while eating. Ma Nan's boyfriend also expressed his opinion on Chen Qi's rescue of the classmate who likes women's clothing last time.

I feel embarrassed to say Chen Qi.And I also found that as long as the dishes ordered by Ma Nan's boyfriend are the ones that Manan likes to eat, the dishes ordered by Chen Qi contain coriander, and when Ma Nan puts them, his boyfriend will eat the coriander on top.

After we finished eating, we left the hotel, and Manan and his boyfriend left after they had a date.The three of us had no desire to go shopping, so we went back to the dormitory.When we walked to a street, I saw a vendor who was very similar to my mother. I asked Chen Qi and the others to go back first, and went up to see if it was really my mother.

When I took a closer look, it was really my mother. She had a lot of gray hair on her temples. She shouldn't have so much gray hair at her age.She bowed her head and was doing her own thing, asking if I needed something.

I called my mother with red eyes.She froze for a moment, then slowly raised her head, the moment she looked at me, her eyes were also red.

I said aggrievedly: "Mom, I've been looking for you for a long time, why did you leave me behind?"

"Your father told me that he couldn't see you, but he couldn't let you know where I was. Otherwise, you would be in trouble, so Mom had no choice but to avoid you. Xiao Yi, you've lost weight." Tears filled her mother's eyes , Stretched out his hand in the air and compared the outline of my face.

At that moment, my nose was sore, and all the grievances came to my heart.I reached out and hugged my mother, and started to cry. Mother's arms are always so warm.

"Mom, I want to go home."

I could feel my mother's body stiffen, and then she hugged me tightly, tears falling on my forehead.She said: "Xiao Yi, it's because Mom is incapable."

I don't understand what my mother said.My mother may feel guilty about my father selling me to Luo Jidong, or she may not be able to agree to my words.

It doesn't matter whether I understand it or not, as long as I can still be with my mother, I have the hope of living.One day, I will leave with my mother, and I will take my mother to a far away place, a city where no one knows us, and live anew.

I told my mother that I am now in a very good college.My mother was very proud of me. She asked me if I had enough money to study and how I was doing at Luo Jidong's place.I answered the real situation in the first question, and I can only make up the latter question.

I don't want my mother to know what happened to me.She will blame herself more and suffer more. I don't want her to suffer so much.

My mother closed the stall early and took me home, but the house was still the same.Mother never moved from our previous home, so why would the neighbors say she moved?

I asked my mother, and my mother told me that during that period of time, my father had to force her to move away. After moving away for a long time, my father left again. She had no place to live before moving back.

She made me a big bowl of wontons and a basket of xiao long bao. I asked her to sit down and eat together. She said she was not hungry and just watched me eat.

I have heard this sentence since I was a child. Every time there is a good thing, she says that she is not hungry and doesn't like to eat it, but who doesn't like to eat good things?It's all to make me eat more good things.

After eating those things, I washed the dishes and helped my mother clean up the house by the way.My room is still the same, nothing has moved, it has remained the same as when I lived in it.

My mother said that after I left, she lived alone and could clean my room every day to keep dust from my desk.She also washes the rest of the clothes in the closet frequently.

When we were cleaning up the house, we took out another photo album, which recorded my appearance from childhood to adulthood, and finally, the photos stayed in the year when my mother and I were separated.

In every photo, my mother can tell in detail what the scene was like at that time, and what the two of us experienced that year.To be honest, my mother and I have been through a lot.When I was in the first grade of elementary school, my mother had no job and no money, so she couldn’t pay my tuition fees, so my mother begged the owner of a restaurant to let her wash dishes in the restaurant. tuition fees.

Later, my mother went to the restaurant to wash the dishes and saved enough tuition fees. Food and clothing for the two of us became a problem again. My mother only ate one meal a day, and I was still not full, while I ate in the cafeteria at school.

During that time, my mother was very thin, with almost no flesh, and she was tired every day, and she could pretend to be a strong smile when she saw me.

Later, my mother opened a steamed stuffed bun shop and sold steamed stuffed buns for me to go to school every day. But after I left, there were many accidents, and her steamed stuffed bun shop was closed, so now I can only make money by setting up a stall.

From this, I can tell that my father didn't give my mother a penny of the money he sold me. He is really too much.After abandoning the son, the wife raised the son with painstaking efforts. When he came back, he sold him and sold him without giving any money to his wife.

Really scum.

How can I have such a father?

At this time, I asked how my mother and that scumbag met.My mother sighed, reached out and held my hand, and told me with tears in her eyes, about her acquaintance with that scumbag.

It was that scum who slapped my mother that gave birth to me.Because my mother valued chastity more than anything else at that time, she was kicked out by her parents and followed that scumbag.

That scum gambles, fucks, and beats my mother violently whenever he is unhappy. He is a typical man who takes anger outside and vents his anger on his wife when he comes home.

In order to get money to gamble, he also engaged in illegal activities. He was caught in prison several times. After he came out, he still did not repent. He even had the idea of ​​asking my mother to sell her body to make money for him to gamble.

My mother refused, so she was beaten violently by him, almost every day.He did not have the habit of drinking, and committed domestic violence when he was fully awake. At that time, his mother lived in fear every day.

If he had used a knife at that time, there would be no me, and my mother would have died under his knife.Such a person is really a scum, without any conscience at all.

Later, while gambling, he was caught cheating and almost lost his life, so he left his mother who was three months pregnant and fled.My mother was pregnant with me and had no financial income, so I had to go back and beg my parents.My parents also felt sorry for this daughter, so they left my mother behind. After my mother gave birth to me, they died of illness.

The mother can only rely on herself. The parents left the house and solved the housing problem. The rest is food and clothing.When my mother said this, she couldn't stop crying. She said that the most sorry thing in her life is her parents and me.

I hurriedly comforted her, and we held each other's hands tightly.

We also only have each other.

I can't imagine my mother dying, what should I do.If my mother dies, I really only have myself, then what's the point of my life?

I can't stay outside for too long, I have to go back to school.But from that day on, I often sneaked back to see my mother, and it lasted until the sophomore holiday.

That will be the shadow of my life.

Chapter 29

◎When I was on vacation in my sophomore year, Luo Jidong asked me to put on a long skirt, but I couldn't get rid of it despite all my struggles.Wearing that long dress that puts me to shame, I'm sick

When I was on vacation in my sophomore year, Luo Jidong asked me to put on a long skirt, and I struggled in every possible way but couldn't get rid of it.I was miserable in that long dress that I was ashamed of, I have no taste for womenswear.I hate girls wearing long skirts on me, it's disgusting, and I feel disgusted with myself like this.

Although I am friends with a boy who likes to wear skirts, I don't think there is anything wrong with him wearing skirts, but I can wear them as skirts on my body.I just feel terribly sick, terribly disgusted, I don't like it, I don't like it, not at all.

The more I disliked it, the more Luo Jidong asked me to do that thing. This is his usual way of torturing me.He took me into a room full of mirrors and forced me to look directly at myself in the mirror.I collapsed and wanted to close my eyes, but he held the knife against my neck.

I want to live, I want to live.

who can save me...

who can save me...

Luo Jidong looked at me in the mirror and lifted up my long skirt.But I didn't dare to resist, I could only make a request for collapse, I begged him not to do this, but he refused to let me go no matter what.

"You look like her in a long skirt..." Luo Jidong squeezed my jaw suddenly, and pressed me against the mirror, "Yes! That's the expression! Just like her!