please love me

The frightened little white rabbit is so cute. "

I bear all this numbly.

In the end there was only disgusting banging in the room.

After an unknown amount of time, Luo Jidong suddenly started beating me and knocked me out deeply.When I woke up again, I was already lying in the hospital with injuries all over my body and a broken leg.

The doctor said that I had broken two ribs and had a slight concussion. Although my leg was reconnected, it would leave a lifelong hidden disease, and I would be a cripple from now on.

I lay powerlessly on the hospital bed, and I thought, am I really better than dying like this?Eat on the tip of a knife, live under the eyes of the devil, and suffer all the shame and pain.

Feeling numb physically and mentally.

so tired!so tired!very tired.

What did I do wrong to do this to me?Was I a heinous sinner in my previous life?You want to punish me like this for the rest of your life...

Why?Why do you want to do this to me?

I keep asking myself, but I know that I can't give any answer at all...

Obviously know it...

Why are you so stupid...

He wanted to escape countless times and wanted to call the police, but no matter where he fled, Luo Jidong knew that there was no evidence to call the police, and he might beat him up in the end.

But after doing this, the exchange will be even more inhumane torture.

It's really painful, it's painful...

I stayed here for several months, but Luo Jidong did not show up, and no one came to see me.I sat by the window all day long, staring at the occasional passing vehicles outside the window in a daze.

There are willow trees by the window, just in season, when the willows are in season.

When the window is not closed, the breeze blows, and the willow will come in the window in no time.I looked up, and it was spring coming into my window.

Reluctantly, the spring was out of season, and it failed to bring me back to life.

On the day I was discharged from the hospital, I limped back alone and ran into Luo Sheng as soon as I entered the community.When he saw me, he was shocked and asked me where I had been for so long.I shook my head and didn't speak because my throat was broken too and it took about a year before I could continue to speak.

He continued to ask me a lot of questions, but I didn't answer, so I went back without him.Afterwards I was secretly glad he didn't catch up.

After I went back, I charged my phone, and when I turned it on, I saw 99+ messages and countless missed calls.It was from Chen Qi, Jiang Shu, Luo Sheng and some other students. I took a deep breath and sat at the desk to reply one by one.

[Something happened and I was hospitalized for several months.Feel sorry.I haven't been home, and I'm fine now. 】

【Fuck!What did you do?Is it okay to stay in the hospital for a few months?Think I'm stupid! 】

[I broke my leg, it's fine now, at most I'll be limping a little later, I accidentally fell.Don't worry. 】

【Walking and reading again, right?I told you not to read while walking, you have never listened to me before. 】

[Now that I have learned my lesson, I will never walk to read again. 】

[You must remember this lesson, I will visit you in a few days. 】

【no need. 】

【What do you mean no more?It's not that I don't think you're not enough buddies for such a big incident. 】

[Then make an appointment. 】

[How can it work, you just got out of the hospital. 】

[It's okay, I just went out for a walk to get some air. 】

[Forget it, in case you go out and have trouble again, I will see you when you go back to school. 】

【it is good. 】

I paused and replied, thank you.Having such friends has indeed given me some comfort in my painful life, and perhaps there are also them in the hope that supports me to live.

I stayed in the house for several days before I packed my things and went back to school. Luo Jidong asked me to ask for leave these days in the hospital.So the professors in the school did not make things difficult for me.

As soon as I entered the dormitory, Chen Qi rushed up to help me with my luggage. It was a good thing, Chen Qi, Jiang Shu and I were the only three people in the dormitory, so we didn't need to worry about the relationship between roommates.

"You didn't answer the phone or reply to the message during this time, which scared us. What's the matter with your leg?"

I didn't speak, and wrote a few words on the paper—sorry, it happened suddenly, I can't speak recently, and my leg fell.

Chen Qi frowned when he saw it, "Is there something wrong with your throat?"

I write on paper again. 'Because it hurt too much, my throat was extremely inflamed from crying, and I kept silent for a year.

'

Chen Qi said with a look of disbelief: "You cry because of the pain and your throat is inflamed?"

I reluctantly wrote a few more words. 'I'm human too, I'm sure it will hurt, there will be tears, and it will fall. '

Chen Qi took a look and nodded thoughtfully.We didn't talk any more after that, and we didn't start to interact until Jiang Shu came back.Jiang Shu is very silent outside, but when he is in front of his friends, he is a chatterbox, opening his mouth and chatting non-stop.

Chen Qi couldn't take it anymore, he put on his earphones and went to listen to music. At this moment, Jiang Shu stepped forward to grab his earphones and listened to his music.

Xu is that the music is very nice, Jiang Shu pulls Chen Qi to ask who is singing.Chen Qi rolled his eyes at him, and found the singer's homepage from his mobile phone. After staring at it for a long time, he said, "The singer is a junior high school student!"

"what's your name?"

"Jiang Yan."

"What? What's it called?"

"Jiang Yan."

"Jiang Yan..." Jiang Shu muttered a few times, then took out his mobile phone and found the account, "This name is really nice."

"Of course it sounds good. He is talented. He wrote lyrics and played songs by himself, and several of the songs he sang became popular." Chen Qi read novels on his mobile phone, and said something from time to time, "When I was in junior high school, I was talking to a group of boys. Fighting and bragging, look at others, it’s awesome. I was under a lot of pressure during the college entrance examination, and I still listen to his songs to relieve the pressure.”

"Will he be a guest at the Comic Con?"

"Hey, everyone is about to take the high school entrance examination! How can there be so much time! Do you think everyone is like you! It's really a new realm."

"What's the matter with me? Is there a problem? That's called the law of the house. Unlike you, you only know the house."

"Hey! Didn't I tell you about Jiang Yan when I was in high school?"

"……Oh yes."

"Stupid things don't remember things."

"You are."

Watching them fight each other, I don't know what to say, I can only look down at the book in my hand.The person who wrote this book is my favorite novel. The author wrote every bit of myself and her boyfriend when I was in high school. I only read a little bit at that time. Later I heard that the author broke up with her boyfriend. Without further writing, the book is over.

Just when I bought a lot of books, this book was included.I figured that since I bought it, I had to take it out and have a look.

Creation is inseparable from reality, just thinking about it is hard to calm down.

After reading a few pages, I put the book back in the drawer again.I still don't watch it, the more I watch it, the more uncomfortable it becomes.

I went to class the next day, but didn't train for physical reasons.When I got back to the dormitory, I received a call from Luo Jidong. He called me and told me to suspend school and go back to stay in that room, and promised to let me come and go freely.

At this time, I don't care about anything.Because my life is ruined, ruined to pieces.

Letting me go out is already considered a gift to me.

Maybe it's just pity for my lameness.

But all of this is his fault!

After hanging up the phone, I packed up my things and was about to leave. When I went out, I met Luo Sheng.But he is not from this school.What are you doing in our dormitory?who?Looking for Jiang Shu?Looking for Chen Qi?Forget it, it has nothing to do with me anyway.

I passed him with my luggage, but he grabbed me and asked me where I was going.I didn't speak, but he got even angrier.

Luo Chen grabbed my shoulders and pulled me back to the dormitory. He closed the door and turned his back to me and asked, "Were you in the hospital for those few months? Why didn't you answer me last time? You hate me so much? Then how much do you hate me? What did I do to make you hate? You don’t even want to tell me when it’s time to talk. Huh? Talk!” He grabbed my shoulders with great force, and the injuries that didn’t heal before , the pain made me take a deep breath, I pushed him, but he grabbed it even tighter, and shouted at me: "Speak! Why don't you speak?" I still didn't speak, and my face was in pain.

He suddenly let go of me, stretched his hand towards my waist, and hugged me in his arms, then he lowered his head and kissed my lips, aggressively invaded my mouth, kissing me so hard that I couldn't breathe up.

This is the first time I've ever kissed someone and I thought I'd only get kisses from that disgusting pervert from Luo Jidong in my life.I don't know how long it took before he let me go.

"I said I like you," Luo Sheng paused, held my hand tightly, met my eyes, and said forcefully, "This was never a lie, it was my sincerity." He slightly adjusted his expression so that he didn't look as fierce as Gang Cong, "Do you understand? You like me too, don't you?"

I shook off his hand and took out a pen and paper from my pocket. 'I don't like you, I won't be gay, never will, I don't care about today.But I hope you can understand the distance between us, there is no possibility for us, let alone the possibility, please let me go now, thank you. '

He took the note in surprise, and his face became even uglier after reading it.I seem to have seen it somewhere, it was shame and anger, I didn't think much about it, I picked up my luggage and walked towards the door.

"Why the hell do you hate me? Did you tell me you would die?" Luo Sheng finally couldn't help but swear at me.

I reluctantly replied, "Yes..." The word "will" was so hoarse that I couldn't make out.I don't know if he heard me clearly, but I'm sure that his teeth are itching with anger now, and he wants to kill me.

This is the case with rich kids like them. Once you rise up, even if you are an ordinary stone, you can also be called a valuable jade.