please love me

She is married and even has children, and her husband is even more useless than me. "

He said all his complaints, and after he finished speaking, he felt a lot better, and told me that he had been burying these in his heart all these years, which was very uncomfortable.He said it to me today, and he felt much better.

I don't have much comment on what happened to him. I don't know how to comment on his relationship with Chu Yu.Maybe the two of them are the kind of love that can only be heard in other people's mouths. They separated because of their parents' disapproval. Then the man worked hard to become a rich man, and when he finally came down to marry the woman, the woman was already married and had children.

Sometimes, I also don't understand why parents become the gap between two people who want to be together for a lifetime. They ignore the love between the two people, forcibly widen the gap, and separate the two loving people. Go and merge whoever they are more satisfied with.

Isn't getting married and having children a matter for children?Why should parents get involved too much?

Perhaps during the time of raising children, they have become accustomed to dominating everything about their children and habitually choosing everything for them.

Only know what they do, but forget what they need.

After we separated from Xu Huan, I went back and made myself a bowl of porridge, porridge with diced mushrooms and minced meat, the kind Luo Sheng made for me before.

After I tasted it, I lost any appetite. At that time, I suddenly discovered that the same dish tastes differently for everyone.

On the day Xu Huan was discharged from the hospital, under the protection of Chen Qi, Xu's mother and Xu's father did not dare to do anything to her.Xu Guangyan also came that day, and he bought some things for Xu Huan. Now he doesn't feel disgusted with Xu Huan as before, but feels that he was ridiculous and cold-blooded at that time.

"Sister, pay more attention to your body. If you have nothing to do, come to my place and sit down. Your nephew would like to see you too."

"Ah."

Xu's mother on the side said with a bad face: "Where are you going? How unlucky, be careful that she invites bad luck to my eldest grandson."

Chen Qi replied mercilessly: "Your grandson is not a magnet, all kinds of mold will be attracted to him?"

Xu Guangyan ignored Xu's mother, helped Xu Huan into Chen Qi's car, and watched her leave.This is all he can do as a younger brother. He wanted to make up for it, but found that his sister gave him too much, and he didn't know how to make up for it.

He himself hurt his sister too deeply, so it's better not to appear around her, so that she doesn't think about those unbearable pasts.

Xu Huan said thank you to us, we shook our heads, watching their car drifting away, I actually wanted to cry.

Later, when I was about to leave, Chen Qi pulled me and asked, "Luo Sheng hasn't troubled you for so long, right?"

I smiled lightly, "How can he trouble me?"

Chen Qi patted me on the shoulder, and said to me with a serious face: "Tell me honestly, what happened between you two? I don't believe that Luo Sheng will let you go, besides, the relationship between you two I can't believe you let it go so quickly."

Chen Qi's words seemed to wake me up all of a sudden, did I really let go?Maybe I have been lying to myself all this time, if I can let go of Luo Sheng easily, is he still Luo Sheng?Not any more.

But I'm really more realistic, I have no hope of going on with him at all, now I just pray that he and I don't get entangled with each other anymore, that's the best.

He has his own life, and I also have my own life, and it’s much better than love to death. We are not writing a novel, and we don’t need so many emotions to maintain the plot.

"That's it for me and him." I smiled and hid all my emotions. As long as I do this, I guess I can easily live every day.

Chapter 40

◎I didn't stop any longer, just took a taxi and left.Chen Qi also understands my temperament, since I have said that, then I must have my own arrangements, and he will not... ◎

I didn't stop any longer, just took a taxi and left.Chen Qi also understood my temperament, since I said that, then I must have my own arrangements, he didn't continue to ask me anything, just let me choose carefully, don't regret it.

I got off the car not far from the community. To be honest, I don’t know how long I haven’t walked this road.There is a small bridge there, with flowing water under the bridge, and a row of willows juxtaposed beside the bridge.

Suddenly the wind blew up, the willows were blowing, and looking up at the sky, it turned out to be a sunny day in March.

This kind of time is very comfortable and makes me feel satisfied.At least at this moment, I don't have to think about anything, I don't have to do anything, and I am free.

Over the past few years, my temper has been worn down a lot.I also thought about it, what kind of feelings would I have when facing Luo Sheng again?He is Luo Jidong's nephew, and he and Luo Jidong shed a trace of the same blood, which makes my defense line stronger in my heart.

I hate Luo Jidong. Luo Sheng is his nephew, which makes me feel desperate. I don't want to push myself into the palm of the devil, and it's a tragedy that I can't get out after I push it.

Luo Sheng, Luo Sheng, if only you weren't Luo Jidong's nephew and had nothing to do with him.

I'm not hard-hearted either, during the years I've been with Luo Sheng, he's already been carved into my bones, and I just refuse to admit it on the surface.

I like when he smiles at me, it's very warm.I still vaguely remember the conversation between him and Xuan Jinchen at that time. He remembered all my habits, even knowing which foot to walk first.I was very moved at the time, and gradually began to accept my liking for Luo Sheng at that time.

But I just want to be strong. Whenever there is something wrong between the two of us, I will immediately hate him, and I will not admit that I like him even if I kill him.

Thinking about it now, I was really naive.

Things like feelings are not like doing a question, you can find the answer if you have an idea.It needs to be cultivated and maintained. There is no clear idea and no 100% result.

Later, the news of Wei Qianling's death let Jiang Ning'an know.Chen Qi told Xu Huan that he thought Xu Huan was qualified to know about it.Xu Huan never went to Wei Qianling's tomb, because she didn't know where it was and no one wanted to tell her.Hearing from Chen Qi that she returned to her own city, she couldn't cheer up anymore.Blaming Wei Qianling's death on herself, she was suffering every day, she started to commit suicide, and was stopped by Chen Qi several times and rescued, otherwise there would be no such person in this world long ago.

The most serious one was committing suicide by slitting her wrists. Both hands were cut off. When Chen Qi came, she was almost dead.Chen Qi was so frightened that he carried her on his back and rushed to the hospital, but luckily he was rescued in the end.

When we rushed to the hospital, Chen Qi sat aside and chatted with Xu Huan: "Xu Huan, what the hell are you thinking? Your body is yours! Even if you feel sorry for Wei Qian, you feel that you killed yourself You should live well after leaving Wei Qianlin! Do you think Wei Qianlin would want you to die? Do you think she would want you to accompany her?" Chen Qi looked at Xu Huan's dull eyes and continued. She said, "What she hopes most is to see that you can live the best of yourself, instead of being submissive and controlled by others! Don't you feel that you are living for others all your life? You are very When you were a few years old, you supported your family, and when you were in your 20s, you were still supporting your family! You studied to make your parents think highly of you! Later, after being together with Wei Qianyu, I worked hard to make money and save money , so that Wei Qianlin can live a good life and fulfill those wonderful promises between you. Did you live for yourself at those times? Did you live for yourself? Xu Huan, tell me, you did for yourself ever lived?"

Xu Huan stared blankly at Chen Qi, not knowing how to answer, as if she had never lived for herself, she was always living for others.

"Sorry……"

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, what else can you say besides being sorry? How did you, Xu Huan, feel sorry for me, Chen Qi? What I need is your sorry? I want to see your actual actions! You can change your former self, and then for you Live by yourself? I just need you to do this! We all just need you to do this! Do you know how much your friends in the group worry about you? Xu Huan! You have a lot of people who love you now and they all care about you , I am very worried about you. I hope you can treat all this rationally, instead of looking for death all day long. Aren't you very strong? Are you not a strong woman? I ask you to cheer up now! OK? Huh?"

"……Um……"

Xu Huan agreed.We don't know whether she really figured it out, or because of something, but it was unexpected that Xu Huan agreed.

After coming out of the hospital, Xu Huan changed completely.She chose to live a good life, and this time she wanted to live out herself, the way Wei Qianying wanted her to live out.Learn how to make up and dress up, and try to make yourself more confident.His back is straightened, his personality is no longer the same as before, and the soft persimmon has become a hard persimmon.

Although she is still forced by Xu's mother and Xu's father to make it difficult to walk, her fulfilling life has given her a lot of motivation, and she still has many goals in living.

She worked hard, made money, went abroad, and often sent us some photos to share her life.We are all happy for her, she has traveled to several countries.

Days passed and she bought a house.Invite us to be a guest at home, and I also went.That house is very nice, avoiding some tall buildings, standing on the balcony, you can see the sky at a glance, and you can have a panoramic view of the stars at night, Xu Huan likes it very much.

However, this also troubled her. Xu's mother and Xu's father didn't know where they found out that she had bought a house, so they made a fuss and insisted on her buying a car and a house for Xu Guangyan.

because we are outsiders