please love me

, and it's not easy to meddle in their affairs, so they can only wait for Xu Huan in the room.

We were sitting inside, only to hear noises coming from outside.The more he listened, the more angry he became. Chen Qi wanted to rush out several times but was pulled down by Jiang Ning'an.

It's really not easy to meddle in other people's housework.

"Your brother is going to get married soon, and the girl wants a new house and a car to marry. You, the older sister, have to pay for the younger brother." Xu Ma sat on the sofa, speaking in the tone you should.

Xu Huan just bought this apartment, and she has no money at all. Where will she go to buy a car and a house for Xu Guangyan at this time?

"I also just bought a house, and I have no money at all."

"Then you give your trick to your brother."

"I bought this! I want to settle down too."

"Didn't your ex-girlfriend have a suite? It's fine if you live there. She's dead anyway. It's a waste if you can't live there."

"How can you say that! That's her house!"

"Aren't you two together? What's wrong with living?"

Xu Huan couldn't believe his ears, and said with a shocked face: "At first you were the one who disapproved of us being together, and now you admit to me that we are a couple? You...you...do you really have a conscience? ?”

"Conscience? I raised you so much, and you say that about me? I am your mother! Your mother!"

"We have severed ties!"

With Xu Huan's roar, the world fell silent.

"Back then you were the ones who looked down on me the most! Did I get less money now for raising me so much? What do you think of me? Tell me, do you think of me as your daughter? Even for a day! How have I lived all these years? ! I'm really broken! Very broken!"

"Even if you gave me a little love back then, a little bit is enough! But have you ever given it? Give me an ear! Give me a stick! Give me endless swear words!"

"I work hard, I work hard to make money, I want to get your approval and a little attention, but what about you? Give me what? Give me life! I beg you to take it, really! I live I would rather die than live!"

Xu Huan burst into tears, this was the first time Xu Huan saw Xu Huan like this, no matter how they scolded her and beat her in the past, she never cried so sadly.

But in the end, they were hard-hearted, left a word and left. "You are Guangyan's sister, our daughter, so you have to help us buy a car and a house."

These words kept ringing in her ears, like a sharp claw pushing her into the abyss little by little.

I still had some money at the time, and I said I could lend it to her, and Jiang Ning'an and Chen Qi were also going to give her money, but she refused.She sold all the shops and owed a lot of debts, bought a car and a house for Xu Guangyan, and even all the money for the wedding was hers.

Later I heard that after Xu Huan owed the debt, life was even more difficult than before.It was also difficult to find a job, and she was once desperate.Fortunately, a friend of Xu Huan asked Xu Huan to help her in the store, which relieved her urgent need.

In order to repay the debt, Xu Huan was scratching his head. Although he was a good friend of his own, it was also money owed to others, and the time could not be delayed for too long.

She had to find another part-time job, and the time of that part-time job happened to be the opposite of the time of working in a friend's store, and everything was fine now.She saved money and paid off all her debts after two years.She lay on the bed and took a deep breath, letting go of the burden on her body.

But her life is still tight, and buying a new dress worth more than 100 yuan feels like a luxury.Because Xu's mother and Xu's father asked her to transfer 3000 yuan to them as living expenses every month, you must know that her monthly salary is only about 3000 or more than [-] yuan.Not to mention firewood, rice, oil and salt, water bills, electricity bills, etc. also cost money.

Usually, when Chen Qi took her to eat hot pot, he would always pay the bill first. For a long time, Xu Huan also felt embarrassed and refused Chen Qi's invitation many times.

But every time Chen Qi asked her to have dinner together, he could always introduce a lot of friends to her. Most of those friends liked to write novels, read comics and so on.

Everyone established a group and communicated in it. Xu Huan, who had always been withdrawn, suddenly gained more than 20 friends, which was hard to accept for a while.However, she got used to it over time.

In front of those friends, she could liberate her nature, as if she was with Wei Qianling.Because those friends will not laugh at her, nor will they ridicule her, let alone look down on her.

She also began to slowly write articles and publish novels.But the articles she wrote all have a characteristic, the protagonist must be surnamed Xu, surnamed Wei, and there will always be a trace of regret.

Xu Huan brought the shadows of himself and Wei Qianlin into the text, and the characters in his works are very similar to her and Wei Qianlin.

There is no best outcome.

Like her and Wei Qianling's life.

She once told me that she wanted to give the characters in her works a happy ending countless times, but in the end she couldn't do it.

Sometimes people always like to bring the regrets in reality into the virtual world, and make up for those regrets in the virtual world, but people may subconsciously know that those regrets are irreparable.

Now I really can't imagine how much pain she felt when she found out that Wei Qianling had died.

The pain of parting from life and death was like a haunted ghost, tearing her apart every moment.

What a pain that was.

What about me and Luo Sheng...

We may soon be parting from each other, should I continue to be stubborn?Continue to hold on.

Apart from being Luo Jidong's own nephew, he didn't seem to have done anything wrong.

I pushed the mistake to him and forced him to add another mistake.

He is very good to me, isn't he?On the contrary, my attitude towards him has always been very bad. I don't want to talk to him, and I haven't treated him as well as Jiang Shu and the others.

Sometimes I feel that I am really hypocritical, I obviously love him, but for the sake of my so-called face, the so-called 'I don't like men', the so-called I 'hate homosexuals', the so-called I am disgusting He belongs to Luo Jidong nephew.

I'm really too hypocritical, too fake.

But why can't I control myself?As long as I see him now, I can't help but think of Luo Jidong's evil deeds to me.

I hate everything about Luo Jidong, I hate everything about him.

I also disgust the people I love.

I haven't seen him in years and I don't know how he is doing now.According to what Luo Jidong said, he found many lovers and brought them back home.

He may have forgotten me.

Forget it, or forget it.

Chapter 41

◎I often go to see her, and I am also happy to see her getting better every day.After all, I feel sorry for them too.Then there was a...◎

I often go to see her, and I am also happy to see her getting better every day.After all, I feel sorry for them too.Later, I went shopping with her once, and when we passed the Civil Affairs Bureau, she stopped suddenly and looked at the Civil Affairs Bureau for a long time.

It was only at that time that I found out that she had also developed an inexplicable habit of standing next to the Civil Affairs Bureau in silence for a long time while she was abroad.

Seeing people coming and going, she is always envious, especially when she sees two same-sex couples holding hands with happy smiles all over their faces, she always has an indescribable feeling in her heart.

I can only sincerely bless and envy you from the bottom of my heart.

Occasionally, I would meet a foreign friend who had just received a certificate to greet her, and curiously asked her if she was waiting for someone, or if she needed directions.All she can say is sorry.After returning to China, she still did not get rid of this habit. Sometimes she would stand by the Civil Affairs Bureau and watch for a long time.After a long time, the staff is also very puzzled.

Once, the staff member suddenly asked Xu Huan why he often stood here and didn't bring his partner to collect the certificate.

Xu Huan said: "Is it possible?"

"Of course, as long as it's legal," she said.

Xu Huan asked again: "Is it okay for two girls?"

Immediately, the staff showed a shocked expression, and then slowly shook their heads.

Xu Huan smiled.I believe that I can always wait until that day, no matter how long, I will wait.

After that time, Xu Huan should get rid of this habit and never went there again.

I didn't expect to stay here for so long today.

I don't know the pain in her heart, but I know that no matter how hard she is in her heart, she will never say it. She likes to bear it silently just like me.

For people like us, it is an extremely troublesome behavior to tell our friends about our suffering.

Bad emotions are rarely passed on to friends, perhaps this is the last trace of stubbornness.But what I didn't expect was that within a few months of our separation, Xu Huan left.

The day Xu Huan left was the second day of New Year's Day, or to be precise, it should be the night of New Year's Day. Chen Qi felt that she was too deserted by herself, so he wanted to ask her to go out to eat hot pot. When he arrived at her house, no one knocked on the door. I came to open the door, but no one answered the phone, only to realize that something was wrong, and hurried back to get the key to open the door, only to find her in the bathtub.

Fortunately, Chen Qi went to find her, otherwise no one would have noticed her passing for several months.Then I saw her message in the group.It made it difficult for us to accept it for a while. He was still chatting happily with us the first day, but he left the next day...

It would be hard for anyone to accept it.

It also made me understand that sometimes accidents come faster, so fast that we can't keep up with him.

Everyone also contacted friends in Wei Qianlin's hometown to help find Wei Qianlin's tomb again.We want to bury Xu Huan next to Wei Qianying, so that maybe the distance between them will be closer.

None of this is going well.

When Chen Qi and I were packing up Xu Huan's belongings, someone broke in and surprised us. We turned around and realized that it was Xu's mother and Xu's father.

We thought they were here to see Xu Huan for the last time, but we didn't expect