please love me

I saw rows of maple trees.

Every year, I would pick up a bag and write Wei Qianling's name on it, and then put it in a box.

But this day Xu Huan came home with the freshly cut leaves and put them in the box after writing. Only then did he find that the box was full and couldn't hold it.

She looked at it, smiled, and muttered to herself, "I don't need to pretend anymore."

Soon, 2021 is coming.Xu's mother and Xu's father arranged a blind date for Xu Huan, but Xu Huan didn't go, Xu's mother and Xu's father beat and scolded her again.

"I really don't know what you think! People have been dead for several years! Still thinking about that little bitch!"

"How old are you now? You're not married yet! You don't know what your neighbors say about you."

"The same goes for that little bitch. She's dead and still haunted. If you want me to say, she'd better die."

Mother Xu scolded Xu Huan, but Xu Huan wasn't angry at all. Only when Wei Qianjin was involved, Xu Huan became angry, "She's gone! Can you respect her! She didn't do anything wrong!"

"It's a mistake to live with you for a while. You look like you have no soul now, and you don't want to find a man to marry. Why did I raise you so big?"

"Could it be that the reason for raising me so big is to marry me off and get this or that dowry money?"

"So what! We are still your father! Can you still beat us?"

Xu Huan was really disappointed with Xu's mother and Xu's father time and time again.

But she is cheap and dare not make too much resistance.She is really broken now, but Xu Huan dare not, because no one can make her get up from the breakdown again.She was afraid, afraid that if she saw Wei Qianrong again, Wei Qianrong would get angry with her and leave her again.

Xu Huan endured, endured.

After coming out of the house, Xu Huan looked at the dazzling sunshine and felt almost out of breath.

The words of my parents kept ringing in my ears, and the wind could not disperse them, nor could they take them away.

After her heart slowly calmed down, she came to the hot pot restaurant where she ate hot pot on her first date with Wei Qianling.

But the hot pot restaurant was not open today, and Xu Huan remembered that today is New Year's Day, and the boss has to go home for the New Year's holiday.

Xu Huan stood outside the hot pot restaurant, looking at the signboard of the hot pot restaurant. To be honest, the hot pot restaurant has changed a lot, with a new brand, but it seems that it won't be open for long.

Back home, Xu Huan walked into the room she carefully prepared for Wei Qianlin. Everything in the room was exactly the same as Wei Qianlin's room before her death, including the broken mirror.

She stood in front of the mirror and saw the tears on her face from the broken mirror.

After dinner at night, after returning to the room, Xu Huan went to the bathroom immediately and filled the bathtub with water.Then he went to the desk and picked up a pen, opened the notebook and wrote stroke by stroke on it:

It's 2021, and it's been six years since you left me.

If you were still there, would we walk by the ancient city wall now, and at the same time hold hands tightly and say, we are also very happy today.

Will it?I think so, and we're ecstatically happy.

I miss you so much, really.

The house is full of stars and star lamps. I can eat bitter gourd and drink vinegar.

I also went to the hot pot restaurant where we had hot pot on our first date, but they were not open on New Year's Day. I'm glad they didn't open the door, otherwise I would not be able to hold back my head and cry while eating.

do you know?The brand of that hot pot restaurant has been changed to 'Hot Hot Day', but I also heard that they are going to close down.

I stood there watching for a long time, only to find the tears on my face when I got home.You know, I don't have the habit of looking in the mirror. I walked into your room and saw it in front of your broken mirror.

You would never have imagined that after you quarreled with me and left, I put the broken pieces back little by little.

I want to be reunited...

It sounds really good.

By the way, I bought a lot of novels, all of which you will like.I also made a thick collection of poems by your favorite poet, and I copied them down word by word.

I didn't expect it, I could impatiently copy it word by word, and search for it.

Your leaving has changed me so much, I am wondering if I have lived like you.

But I am not as brave and confident as you.

I now know a lot of like-minded friends, and they are all very nice.

Do you still remember Shangguan Chu?At the beginning, I drank a lot of men down, and the girl who was not drunk yet.

You would never think that she has someone she likes now, but the little girl she likes is often sad because of her drinking.

They are very sweet together, I am very envious.

Whenever I see them, I always think of you and me.

I have written many novels, and the protagonists are all surnamed Wei and Xu.I imagine them as us, and the happiness they carry can make me feel better.

Perhaps, consciously, I never thought of writing a good result, and I couldn't write it.

Tell me, what should I do.

Forget it, don't say these words.

Big idiot, little idiot, I am living happily and suffering now.

Some time ago, my parents arranged a blind date for me again. My mother said, that person is very capable. After I got married, I had no worries about food and clothing. I only need to do laundry and cooking at home.

My parents got angry when I didn't go, told me to go home, beat and scolded me.

I thought it was enough for them to scold me, but they involved you again.Every word stimulates my nerves.

I'm so scared I'm going to break down again.

But I dare not, because no one can get me back from the collapse.I am also afraid that if I see you again, you will be angry with me and then leave me.

I endured, endured.

After coming out of the house, I looked at the dazzling sunshine and felt out of breath.

The words of my parents kept ringing in my ears, and the wind could not disperse them, nor could they take them away.

idiot!I really miss you!I can't hold on anymore!You make me dream of you!I haven't dreamed about you in eight years!

eight years!Do you know how I have lived these eight years?I can't hold it anymore, really!

I... really... miss you, really!

I don't know if this is the punishment you gave me, punishing me like this, I really don't know what to do.I can't see you, I can't do anything.

The day when I met you, there were dark clouds and heavy rain; the day when I lost you, the sky was clear and the breeze was not dry; the days when you were not there, year after year, day after day.

I live day by day, but I can't live the same way as before.

We didn't miss it, we just happened to regret it.

-2021.1.1

After finishing writing, Xu Huan closed the notebook, carefully took out the wooden box from the cabinet, and unlocked the wooden box. It was full of notebooks, all written by her over the years.

Slender fingers slid across the notebook, and some liquid fell on the notebook, which was her tears.

Then she turned on the phone, clicked into the group chat with her friends, typed a long message to send, and finally sent them what she wrote in her notebook.

That passage reads:

Unknowingly, we have known each other for several years. Thinking about it this way, you have accompanied me through a very long life.During this period of life, everyone has given me so much joy and made my life gradually better.I really can't thank you all enough.I don't know if you have successfully planted the flower seeds that I usually send to you.In fact, the flower seeds for each of you have a meaning, I will keep it a secret here, I will not tell you, I believe everyone will know in the future.I have been cowardly and incompetent all my life. My parents are right. Maybe I was born a cowardly person, and I can't be hardened.I have been examining myself, why I am so cowardly, but I have never got the answer.The sweaters and scarves knitted for you, you must remember to keep warm in winter, don't care about your own temperature for the so-called grace.Especially Lingyue, when you shoot Hanfu in winter, you must remember to wear a thick cloak, so you don’t catch a cold.You remember to eat breakfast, knowing that you are busy studying and working, remember to eat breakfast and nourish your stomach well, otherwise you will suffer in the future.Another thing is staying up late, you often complain about having less hair, staying up late is easy to bald, and it is not good for your health, you are very energetic when you work and study, please be sure to maintain your spirit.In the end, I hope that you can all find a lover and spend your whole life together. Don't be like me, regretting the rest of your life, and let the rest of your life live in pain.

No one saw this message because everyone was asleep at this time.Xu Huan also had her own ideas in choosing this time period.

She looked out the window, turned off all the lights, and then lit up the star lights at home, and the room glowed like a dream.

Following the fluorescent light into the bathroom, she lay down in the bathtub full of water, the water level gradually rose to overflow, and bubbles kept popping up on the water surface.

It wasn't long before the bubbles disappeared and she was gone.

The message she sent was seen by all her friends the next day. Everyone became nervous and kept contacting Xu Huan, but no one answered, and there was no reply to the message. Everything was abnormal.

At this moment, Chen Qi sent a message, only five words: Xu Huan committed suicide.

When they first saw the news, everyone's noses were sore and they lost their minds.It's unbelievable, they were still chatting last night, why did they disappear this morning...

Who can change it, who can accept it?

All the workers took leave of absence and booked tickets to go to Xu Huan's city. Their eyes were red and swollen from crying, and they became haggard all of a sudden.In their eyes, Xu Huan has always been like their sister, taking good care of them.

At the same time, they also contacted friends in Wei Qianzhen's hometown,