Enlightenment

I wonder if I can't even have the so-called "love" in my life.

After all, I am so old, I look like a little old man, and I still have such a big scar on my face, which woman is full of disgust when she sees him?Also, that person is his wife.

I thought I would live like this for the rest of my life, but I was diagnosed with a serious illness and needed to save money for surgery, otherwise I wouldn't live long.

People like Uncle just want to be able to live, because there are too many things to do in life, to make money, and to be with their families.

What's more, when the uncle is dead, their whole family will die. What will the old lady and the younger brother who has mental problems leave him?

In order to survive the operation, the uncle began to make money non-stop, and refused to rest for a day.He found several part-time jobs, but the wages he earned were far from enough for his surgery fee.

By scraping things together, the uncle only saved [-] to [-] yuan, but this is not bad.

On this day, the uncle was going to eat a bowl of noodles to reward himself after get off work. Who knew that he met a college student who had no money to eat when he was in the noodle restaurant.Looking at the hot noodles, the uncle beckoned to the college student and asked him to sit in front of him. When the college student walked up embarrassedly, the uncle gave him the noodles.

"Eat."

Wei Xiaowei's eyes lit up, and he quickly whispered, "I don't have any money to pay you back..."

The uncle smiled, shook his head and said, "Here, I don't want you to return it to me, you can just eat it. It's not easy for college students like you to go out alone. Go back to school after eating. It's true to study hard. "

After hearing the uncle's words, Wei Xiaowei started to eat voraciously. The uncle really wanted to laugh when he saw Wei Xiaowei eating noodles.

It turns out that this scholar's food looks no better than that country bumpkin who works as a coolie.

After Wei Xiaowei ate all the noodles in the bowl, the uncle swallowed when Wei Xiaowei was not paying attention, and then called Wei Xiaowei to go back quickly.

Wei Xiaowei looked at the uncle and said, "Uncle, what's your name? Will you come here tomorrow? I will definitely give you the money."

The uncle smiled, shook his head and said, "No need. Just study hard and don't be like me in the future. Go back soon!"

Wei Xiaowei insisted that the uncle wait for him here tomorrow, the uncle reluctantly agreed, and Wei Xiaowei left.

As soon as Wei Xiaowei left, the uncle drank the remaining noodle soup in the bowl, paid the bill and went out to buy two steamed buns to eat.

The uncle went there the next day, and waited for Wei Xiaowei for a long time, but Wei Xiaowei did not show up. When the uncle was about to leave, he heard a familiar yet unfamiliar voice behind him.

Looking back, it was Wei Xiaowei.The uncle stopped and waited for Wei Xiaowei, only to see Wei Xiaowei running to the uncle panting with a satchel on his back.

It was too late for the self-study last night, noticing that it was already late, Wei Xiaowei still came.Because the uncle should have just got off work at this time, and he didn't pass by this noodle shop for a long time, so he ran all the way here.

Good to catch up, but still almost missed.

He took out the money from the bag and handed it to the uncle with both hands, "Thank you very much yesterday, this is some money, please accept it."

Seeing Wei Xiaowei treat him so respectfully, the uncle is really not used to it, he has always been respectful to others since he grew up, this is the first time someone has treated him so respectfully.

The uncle declined, but Wei Xiaowei insisted on asking the uncle to accept the money, and the two argued like this.In the end, Wei Xiaowei had no choice but to invite the uncle to eat noodles and take it home. This method seemed to be better than giving the uncle money directly.

Under Wei Xiaowei's strong request, the uncle did not refuse him to invite him to eat noodles.

The uncle thought, since he was so considerate, it would not be good to refuse again and again.Anyway, I invite you, and you are inviting me, so there is no debt.

It also saves Wei Xiaowei from pestering him in the future.

In the later getting along, Wei Xiaowei gradually discovered that he had abnormal feelings for the uncle.

Later that feeling changed and turned into love. Wei Xiaowei thought he was crazy, and the uncle thought he was talking nonsense.

No one made it clear that the uncle would not have that kind of relationship with Wei Xiaowei.

Not only was he sick, but he was also old and ugly, it was not too much to stand there and say that he was Wei Xiaowei's father.

One day the uncle was drunk and met Jiang Yun. The two hit it off and talked to each other.

The uncle patted his forehead and kept saying: "Little brother, tell me, how can I delay others."

Jiang Yun expressed sympathy for this matter. He wanted to help the uncle, but the uncle refused to accept his help.

Before the two could say a few words, they were interrupted by Wei Xiaowei who suddenly came into sight.

Wei Xiaowei helped the uncle up to apologize to Jiang Yun, Jiang Yun shook his head, "I feel much better after chatting with the uncle. You are..."

"I am his lover."

"……Oh."

"Let's go first, goodbye." Wei Xiaowei carefully helped her away.

Jiang Yun suddenly stopped them, "I hope you are happy."

Wei Xiaowei smiled at him, and the figures of the two slowly disappeared into the sound of the car.

After sending the uncle home, Wei Xiaowei took care of him all night, but as soon as the uncle woke up the next day, he kicked him out.

Wei Xiaowei didn't continue to bother the uncle, they were on vacation, and wanted to meet with the uncle last night to clarify this matter, but he was drunk again.

Wei Xiaowei plucked up his courage and said: "Mom... I like boys..." His voice became smaller and smaller, so that he couldn't hear clearly.

"Do you like men?"

"...Mmm." Wei Xiaowei lowered his head, thinking that his mother would stand up and scold him, but who knew, her mother just remained silent.

But when his mother was silent, Wei Xiaowei panicked. "Mom...why...why didn't you talk...I..."

"I don't know what to say." She was trembling, her eyes were red, tears flowed down her face, she took Wei Xiaowei's hand, kept clenching it tightly, then stroked it, trying to calm herself down, pleading Said in a tone, "Actually...Mom... really can't accept this kind of...but...but...Mom can't force you, force you to a dead end...Mom...can't...can’t harm you."

"But... Mom really... can't accept it. Can you understand Mom's mood? Let's wait a few years... okay? Wait a few more years, let's change it, okay? Let's try to get rid of it, okay? ?”

Looking at his mother, Wei Xiaowei bowed his head in silence, and nodded in resignation to his mother's constant pleading.

Wei Xiaowei understands that his mother is not open-minded and cannot accept that her son is gay.

Originally, he was a single-parent family, and his mother was not only his support, but also his only relative.

There was too much burden on his mother's shoulders, and he didn't want her to bear such a burden again.

If he really wanted to do this, no accident, he could only find one girlfriend in his life, a girlfriend who didn't have any feelings.

Then marry and have children, and then spend a short life.

To live with this life, and has been unable to escape the condemnation of his own morality.

and uncle...

Really lost...

"Mom, stop crying."

Mother hurriedly wiped away her tears, but her tears were like the sudden rain on a sunny day, unable to stop, "I'm just a little sad..." She choked up, turned her head and took a deep breath, forced a smile, "Everything I blame my mother for not fulfilling her responsibilities as a mother, for not caring about your inner thoughts, which made you like this...Mom is sorry..."

Returning to school from home, Wei Xiaowei received another piece of news that broke him down.

Uncle passed away.

He sat alone for a long time that night, but thought nothing of it.

Wei Xiaowei, who has always been frugal, spent thousands of dollars to ask his classmates to buy two suits, one for himself and one for his uncle.

Today he has one thing to do, he is going to marry his uncle.

Although he didn't even know his uncle's name from the beginning to the end, Wei Xiaowei knew that he loved him.

Putting on his suit, he went out with his uncle's favorite daisy in his arms.The neighbors asked him why he was dressed so well, and he smiled and replied that he was going to get married.

Under the puzzled eyes of his neighbors, he set foot on the road to the cemetery.

"Uncle, we don't have a marriage certificate, so I bought two sets of suits as our marriage certificate, but it's not a marriage certificate, so... just consider it a proof. Clothes are expensive. I think it's much more expensive than a marriage certificate. My son, we don't care about that little book, do we..."

He was silent, he kept lying to himself, a suit is a suit, and a marriage certificate is a marriage certificate.

A suit can be replaced with more expensive clothes, but a marriage certificate cannot.

Wei Xiaowei smiled, straightened his suit, hugged a large handful of daisies he had wrapped tightly in his arms, and said to the tombstone: "Uncle, the cemetery is the auditorium, the ghosts are the witnesses, and we are newcomers. I put on a suit, hold the flowers you love, and come to marry my favorite you. Uncle, I am here to marry you."

"I, Wei Xiaowei, is willing to marry Uncle. Are you willing, Uncle?" With red eyes, he imitated Uncle's tone and replied: "I am willing too."

"Uncle, we are married."

He half knelt in front of the tomb, kissing and hugging the tombstone.

At this time, several people passed by, saw Wei Xiaowei's behavior, and discussed something in a low voice, and what Wei Xiaowei heard clearly was the word disgusting.

He doesn't know what nausea is.

All he knew was that his lover was lying under the tombstone.

Putting down the daisy, he left.

Back home, an uncle who made clothes said his suits were fakes, and he was stunned.He didn't believe it at first, but after the uncle told him something, he believed it, went home and changed his clothes, and found the classmate with two suits.

At first the classmate refused to admit it, but in the end he admitted