Enlightenment

But you know, you don't like to make voices.

I have kept the only voice that was sent, do you remember that voice?I think you don't remember, you have a bad memory.In that voice you said: Jiang Shu, I miss you.

I have heard that voice countless times, but sometimes I dare not listen to it.Because you said it in tears, I am very distressed.Originally, this sentence really irritated me, but you still cried and said it, and my heart ached to death.

You must say why I am uncomfortable listening.In fact, I want to listen to this voice and punish me all the time.

Punish me for not being by your side during so many difficult days and leaving you alone.

When I signed the sale that year, I also received a book, which was about us, and I still keep it carefully.Later, I heard that the book was made into a TV series, Liu Yunyan played you, and the person who played me seemed to be called Xu Ning.

Many people said that the two of them brought the character in the book to life, but unfortunately, they didn't know that the "Jiang Nian" in the book was alive.

He really existed, and he left a lot behind.

To be honest, Liu Yunyan played the part where you broke down and committed suicide. In a trance, I seemed to really see you when you committed suicide again. Every time I watch that TV series, I don’t watch the last part.

You don't know, that author also wrote a lot of our sweet daily life, sometimes I even wish that we really have such a sweet daily life.

I can see your smile every day.

By the way, I forgot to tell you that Chen Qi and Jiang Ning'an are married, and Song Nianqing and Lou Ranyue are also married.Like me, Jiang Yun is a loner, but his life is happier than mine. He eats delicacies all day long, travels everywhere when he has time, and sends me some photos from time to time.

And Jia Yi, he, I feel pain for him, I won't tell you about him.

Jiang Yan, I found out later that you were ill.why don't you tell meDo you think I will despise you and abandon you?How can you be so stupid?

I wish I could hold you in my hand, how could I despise you?I can't wait to rub you into my heart, how could I abandon you?

Do you know how devastated I was when I saw that pile of pills and the blood in the bathtub and in the corners.I want to kill myself, I hate myself for being such a jerk for agreeing to break up with you and leave you.

I tried to hurt myself with the sharp weapon you used, even if it was a little bit, it hurt so much.I can't imagine how much effort you put in when you lost your mind. Aren't you afraid of pain?Why are you so stupid.

How can you be so stupid.

I don't blame you, I blame myself for being so stupid, so stupid, for not reacting.

Jiang Yan, when we went to Mongolia that year, do you remember the sentence I taught you to write?When you asked me what that meant, I tell you now, I love you.

You never said you love me, but I know you love me.You don't like to say everything, you like to prove it with actions.

I love you, love, love, love.

Jiang Yan, let me see you next Mid-Autumn Festival. '

The letter ended here, Song Nianqing burned the letter with red eyes.

But only Jiang Shu himself knew that that "next year" never came, and Jiang Yan did not appear in his dream until the Mid-Autumn Festival when he passed away.