howling breath

At the end of the dinner, the topic was on Tang Yushu's love again.

He is so frank, and he must have shared his happiness with his partners sincerely and happily.

But Lin Lang, one of the protagonists of the topic, was a little overwhelmed.

"How did you get together?"

When asked, Tang Yushu was all smiles, and he said: "It seems that since I met Lin Lang, I have been attracted by him, so I just look at him and surround him all day long."— —Tang Yushu's words are true. At first Lin Lang thought that Tang Yushu was very warm to everyone, but it took a long time to realize that although this is true, there is still "the difference between closeness and estrangement".

Hearing the boy's frank love words, the colleagues booed.

Tang Yushu went on to say: "Because I have never been in love, so I don't know if it feels like love. I only know that I want to be nice to him and stay with him forever. So when he said he likes me, It was only after I was enlightened that I realized that this is love."

Someone caught the key point from Tang Yushu's words: "So Lin Lang confessed first?"

Yes... that's right.

Recalling it...it was indeed like this—the four words "I like you" were spoken at him uncontrollably at the most helpless and embarrassing moment, as if incontinence.

"I like you."

"like you very much."

"want you."

"I've been waiting for a long time, why did you come so late..."

Lin Lang smiled and nodded at the crowd.

But just like that, an indescribable pain surged in my heart: I almost got so carried away that I forgot... It turned out that I bent down and kowtowed first, asking the gods for mercy.

Afterwards, they chatted happily again, and Lin Lang couldn't hear the words during the meeting back and forth.

His hair was uncomfortably swollen, so Lin Lang excused himself to go to the bathroom, got up and left the dining table first.

Finding the bathroom, Lin Lang washed his face in the sink. Looking at himself in the mirror, Lin Lang couldn't help but be harsh: How greedy are you?The pleasure you obtained from greed is almost going to burn you down now... Why did you call Tang Yushu?Why did you extend that hand to Tang Yushu when you were crying?Why did you blurt out that... "I like you" in the first place?

why?

Probably... like crossing a single-plank bridge.

Under the bridge is Abi Hell, and on the other side is him.

If it's him, if he can win a kiss, it's fine if he stumbles into the endless fire and burns his bones to ashes.

Lin Lang himself is a writer, so he has read a lot of novels and a lot of fabricated "cold and aloof" characters; "they" all look at the world with a pair of cold eyes; Not a single piece of fireworks ever touched me.

Lin Lang couldn't help feeling that it didn't seem real.

Just like a drowning person will not allow himself to close his mouth and nose and die safely; just like a very poor person is willing to climb over a thousand beds for money; the more he crawls out of the mud, the more shameless he will be Grab every straw.

Anyway, already in hell.

After all, at the moment when I most wanted to give up on myself, I tried my last sliver of will to survive and searched for the past along that light, and then I accidentally broke into the heaven where he was...

The warmth and beauty of heaven is true.

But the self who has lived in the dark for a long time and has grown out of his cold nature by eating the despicable and ugly, is not suitable for this warm and beautiful world after all.

The guys didn't leave until after 1 o'clock in the morning.

Tang Yushu went to the toilet, Chen Ni had already sent his colleagues home, and was waiting for Tang Yushu at the entrance of the hotel with Lin Lang.

"Let me transfer 5000." Chen Ni suddenly spoke to Lin Lang.

Lin Lang was taken aback.After thinking about it, he thought that the 5000 he said was to pay for Tang Yushu's helmet. "What's the meaning?"

Chen Ni explained: "You have helped us a lot with Lei Yin's case, which is equivalent to making a planning case and writing an advertising script—according to the market for external experts, 5000 is really not much. But we are a small workshop, and we don’t have much money.”

He tried to use "our small workshop has no money, 5000 I'm sorry for you" to cut off his retreat of rejection.But Lin Lang still refused to accept it, and said lightly, "No."

"Hey, you don't have to be so polite!"

"I'm not being polite—if you're polite, I'll take it with peace of mind."

Chen Ni didn't understand what Lin Lang meant.

"Because it's Tang Yushu's company, so if I help out with an idea, I can only count it as helping my...lover."——I want to do my best to prove that standing by his side is useful to him , it is not a loss for him...

Seeing Lin Lang's tough attitude, Chen Ni continued this topic without further ado.

Although enuresis has not recurred for a long time, apart from his own incontinence, Lin Lang and Chen Ni did not get to know each other well, so he didn't want to live with Tang Yushu in Chen Ni's house - he opened a shortcut hotel room.When Tang Yushu came out, Lin Lang whispered the situation in his ear, and Tang Yushu flushed immediately: "I want it! I want it!"

The location of the hotel was just a few hundred meters away. After bidding farewell to Chen Ni, the two walked together for a walk.

Halfway through the walk, Lin Lang received a call.

Tang Yushu turned to look at him, wondering who and what would be the one who was looking for Lin Lang after 1 o'clock in the middle of the night.

Lin Lang stared at the caller ID in a daze for a moment, then picked up the ring after a long time: "What's wrong?"

While connected, he stepped back a few steps.

Observing Lin Lang's action, Tang Yushu immediately turned around to follow, but was stopped by the boy's eyes.

Lin Lang cast his eyes on Tang Yushu's chest not far away, and kept his mind on the phone call.

The person on the other end of the phone babbled a lot, and Lin Lang could only recognize one sentence from it—"You are the same as if you hadn't been born."

A little weak: "Did you drink too much?"

"So what if you drink too much?" The voice on the other end stammered: "I want another one!"

"Yes." Lin Lang felt like he was coaxing the child: "You are 47 this year, and you have to support the second one by yourself, don't count on me—I can't even support myself."

The man was still pestering on the other end of the phone, Lin Lang endured it, and listened silently for a long time, until the drunk man's cell phone seemed to be taken away by people around him and hung up, Lin Lang put down the cell phone and put it back in his pocket.

Captured the incredible information from a few words, Tang Yushu frowned and looked at Lin Lang: "What happened?"

Lin Lang raised his head and smiled at him.He only followed, but did not answer Tang Yushu's question.

Seeing Lin Lang's obviously insincere smile, Tang Yushu felt uncomfortable: Would you rather deal with me with a fake smile than tell me?But Tang Yushu wisely didn't ask.

Tang Yushu couldn't wait to hug Lin Lang after entering the hotel room. "Away" for too long, he really missed Lin Lang.

Just hug him and do nothing else.

Lin Lang also let him hug him and did nothing else.

They maintain such an inexplicable interaction with each other in silence.

After a while, Lin Lang felt his phone vibrate.

At first he didn't care, all his thoughts were immersed in the temperature of Tang Yushu's body.

But after three vibrations in succession, Lin Lang took out the phone from his pocket, held it up to the height of the back of Tang Yushu's head, and checked it—a text message for 5000 yuan, and three messages about Chen Ni.

"Don't take your talent as value. If you always do this, I won't dare to ask you for help next time."

"It's embarrassing for me to spend such a small amount of money! The regular market price, and the external experts directly draw the commission of the case."

"I won't bother you anymore! [smirk], let the silly big feather make up for the lack of cash!"

Lin Lang turned off the phone and put it back in his pocket.

Tang Yushu didn't let go of himself the whole time.When she put the phone away and hugged him again, she bent her neck and took a sharp sniff at the crest of her neck.

Then he sighed happily and contentedly.

Tang Yushu always had some dog-like habits - Lin Lang didn't understand what he was doing.

He said: "You have a smell that is different from others!"

"What's the smell..." Lin Lang felt a little guilty because of his enuresis - obviously he was trying hard to clean himself every day; Forget it... Will there be any smell?

"Almond flavor!" Tang Yushu roughly compared it after thinking hard.

Lin Lang hid a little distance from the hug, and observed Tang Yushu's eyes again: "...it doesn't smell very good...is it?"

Tang Yushu shook his head: "Fragrant. Go up."

Only then did Lin Lang feel relieved: "Have you hugged enough? ——You stink of sweat."

Tang Yushu, who was disgusted by "Baiyan Erlang", let Lin Lang go with a raised eyebrow.

"Chen Ni gave me money—is it your idea?"

"What money?" Tang Yushu looked blank.

"It is said that it is the cost of hiring an external expert."

"Oh, I should give it to you! You bought me a helmet, and I'm afraid you won't be able to get rid of it!" Tang Yushu could hear from his tone that he was a little angry at the fact that "Lin Lang returned his whole helmet".Fortunately, Tang Yushu, who has a gentle temperament, even if he gets angry, he only has a coquettish attitude of "you bully me".He took off his T-shirt, and deliberately said angrily: "You will pay back what I give you-why don't you share the rent for the night I slept with me?"

This time it was replaced by Lin Lang with a blank face: "Didn't I transfer it to you?"

Tang Yushu's eyes widened, and he took out his phone and saw the account records in a bunch of text messages.I've been busy with work, so I haven't noticed it.It was originally a joke to run on him, but he didn't expect that he had already done so, Tang Yushu was really angry.

But when he looked at Lin Lang, he was smiling at himself.

"Why are you laughing? You don't understand or you're just pretending to be stupid, don't you know——I don't want you to be like this!"

The smile on Lin Lang's face stopped for a while, and then he smiled again: "Brothers will settle accounts."

"But... do you have enough money?"

"Enough. Don't worry."

"Where did the money come from?"

Lin Lang was really happy to mention this - it is God's blessing to come to work when money is needed.These days, I have received manuscripts from three magazines one after another; there are two other publications that are temporarily short of emergency manuscripts, and I bought Lin Lang's old manuscripts; and the money for working with my tutor after the start of school has been paid, and the amount is surprisingly large.

Even after buying that "ridiculously expensive" helmet for Tang Yushu, there are still more than 2000 in the account.

Before Lin Lang could say anything, Tang Yushu put on a straight face: "I'm not willing to spend money on that helmet myself - it was given by my aunt. Did your 'senior' pay you?"

Lin Lang hadn't had time to tell Tang Yushu about the resignation, so he didn't know yet.Lin Lang joked with him: "His name is Shen Ye - didn't you forbid me to call him 'Senior'?"

Tang Yushu was in no mood to joke: "He sent you 2000?"

Lin Lang didn't understand why Tang Yushu was pursuing this.

Tang Yushu was not happy: "What is 2000 yuan?... Otherwise, you can come to our company as a copywriter! 3000——no need to clock in, just help us come up with ideas every month!"

What is 2000 yuan?Yeah, it's nothing to you.Enough for me to eat in the school cafeteria for two months.

Lin Lang ignored Tang Yushu, only thinking that the boy was messing around.

But Tang Yushu then reported another number: "4000?"

Still no response.

"6000."

no respond.

"8000."

Lin Lang smiled, and urged Tang Yushu impatiently: "Hurry up and take a shower! Don't make trouble here—do you think I'm some kind of treasure auction item? You keep asking the price."

Tang Yushu became paranoid: "10000."

No response.

"12000."

This time Lin Lang couldn't even force a smile.He stood up straight and looked over.

The cold eyes made Tang Yushu afraid: "What do you think I am?"

Tang Yushu came to his senses immediately, and confessed: "I was wrong!"

"Go take a shower..."

Still not reconciled: "But...why don't you agree?"

Lin Lang's tone became very flat - just like when the school just started.He said: "If it's just a friend, I can accept it; but a lover, so I don't want to take anything from you."

He really didn't want to make Lin Lang angry, but Tang Yushu really didn't understand: "Why?"

Lin Lang didn't look at Tang Yushu any more, and after being quiet for a while, he said, "I'm afraid I won't be able to compensate you when we break up."

Tang Yushu was a little annoyed: "Are you planning to break up because you fell in love with me?"

"Otherwise?" Lin Lang sneered: "I live because I know I will die."

"You're going to die, so you have to live well!"

I am afraid that one day we will lose each other, so we should cherish it more when we have it - he meant this, and Lin Lang also understood: "But I don't want to make it look like a nurturing relationship!"

Tang Yushu felt that his mouth had reached its limit, and he couldn't argue anymore, but he was still angry.In the end, he turned around a few times and turned back to face Lin Lang: "Don't you?"

"No." The boy refused to accept it.

Unless you have nothing like me, we can share each other's barren world equally and selflessly.

But you are a god in the clouds, and I am a sinner in purgatory; every morsel you give me is a knife to my self-esteem.

But Tang Yushu, apart from you, I can only rely on my weak and cheap self-esteem.

The author says:

One rigid, one axis.