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Tao Liyang breathed a sigh of relief when he heard that the bedroom door was closed instead of the main door.He sat down on the chair dejectedly, first turned off Su Liang's resume on the computer, and then deleted the call history.

But what's the use?Out of sight and out of mind.It's not that he deleted all the traces, everything just now can become a dream.There is no such remedy as a remedy after a dead sheep.

After realizing this, Tao Liyang couldn't help but slammed down the table heavily, fearing that Xu Yunqing would be disturbed, so he finally gave up all his strength when he slammed it down, and there was only a muffled sound.The little knuckle was red, but the pain didn't make him feel any better.The warm light in the study fell on a corner of the wooden floor, and the dark shadow reminded Tao Liyang of blood, but everything disappeared in the next moment, and Xu Yunqing's pale face with a strange brilliance came back to him again.

Tao Liyang felt that he couldn't think about it anymore, he got up and went to the bathroom to wash his face with cold water.After trying to calm down a bit, he walked to the door of the bedroom and listened carefully for any movement.

But nothing, very quiet.Tao Liyang turned the doorknob lightly, but it was not locked.After hesitating for a moment, he didn't press it.Silently returned to the living room, sat on the sofa directly opposite, staring at the closed bedroom door in a daze.

In fact, Tao Liyang seldom has a moment of being too confused, but right now he is.He tried to think about something, irrelevant or relevant, but his brain was in a state of confusion, he couldn't see anything clearly, he couldn't hear anything, it seemed that even the ticking of the clock in the living room had disappeared.For a while, Tao Liyang even felt as if time had frozen.

If that's really the case, he might be able to take Xu Yunqing away after more than 20 years of time when nothing happened.

Tao Liyang thought this way over and over again, so that when the door finally opened from the inside, he took a beat to raise his head.

Xu Yunqing leaned against the door frame, looked at him for a while, then said softly, with a calm tone: "Are you going to sit in the living room all night?"

The light poured out from behind him, leaving a faint halo on his nightgown, which made him look softer.

"I'm afraid you're gone." Tao Liyang said, looking at the time, he thought it had been a long time.But in fact, less than two hours.

Xu Yunqing pursed her lips and tilted her head: "Where are you going?"

"I don't know." Tao Liyang said frankly.

Xu Yunqing had no objection to this answer, and hummed: "I'm gone, will you still come to me?"

"meeting."

"I don't know where I can look for it?"

Tao Liyang didn't have the heart to think about the meaning of each of Xu Yunqing's words, but just stared at him, asking and answering: "You can always find it."

"Can't find it?"

"Yunqing." Tao Liyang paused for a moment and asked him back, "Are you really letting me find you?"

Xu Yunqing stopped talking.His expression was a little dazed.After a long time he finally smiled.For no reason, this smile reminded Tao Liyang of the first time he met him in the small theater.

"I'm hungry." Xu Yunqing said suddenly, "Is there anything else to eat at home?"

"What do you want to eat?" Tao Liyang was startled, then asked immediately.

Xu Yunqing shook his head: "Anything is fine. But hurry up, I am so hungry that I have no energy left."

Xu Yunqing fell asleep when he came back in the afternoon.In fact, Tao Liyang didn't have dinner either.He opened the refrigerator and took a look, found milk and nuts to cook oatmeal.

While waiting for the milk to boil, he couldn't let go of his mind, and from time to time he turned his head and glanced at Xu Yunqing secretly.

After several times like this, Xu Yunqing finally noticed it, and simply dragged a chair and sat in the kitchen, holding a box of fruit jelly and eating slowly: "Don't look at me. It will be overcooked in a while."

After he said this, Tao Liyang looked at the milk pot again, and there was a faint sign that it was about to burn.In a hurry, I added milk again.

"Let me do it." Xu Yunqing came over, reached out and turned down the fire, and added chopped chocolate.Then he gently pushed Tao Liyang: "Pass me the bowl."

Instead of going to the dining room, they ate at the counter.Xu Yunqing ate very slowly, the hot air rose slowly, passed between his eyebrows and then dissipated.After eating a bowl of porridge, his pale face finally had a rosy glow.

"Do you still eat?" Tao Liyang asked him.

Xu Yunqing shook his head, got up, mixed honey water, and handed Tao Liyang a cup.Lean against the wall and watch him clean up the dishes.

No one spoke for a long time, only the sound of the dishwasher running in the kitchen.

Xu Yunqing seemed to be very thirsty. After drinking the water in his hand, he also drank Tao Liyang's cup.But during the whole process, his gaze was always on Tao Liyang.Tao Liyang was not sure what he was looking at.But it is a good thing that he is willing to look at him.

Putting the last dish back into the cupboard, Tao Liyang turned around, Xu Yunqing still maintained the posture just now, watching him quietly.

"Tao Liyang, you are right, you don't need to know."

The four eyes met for a long time, Xu Yunqing sighed almost inaudibly, lowered his eyes, and looked up at him again.Because of the filming, Xu Yunqing's hair was long, and it slanted down from the brow bone to the side of the eyes, blocking the color in it, but the tone was steady: "But I can't. I can't and shouldn't let you do nothing. Know."

After saying this, he gathered his clothes, slowly put the cup on the counter, and turned back to the bedroom.Tao Liyang was stunned for a moment, wiped his hands, put all the chairs back to their original positions, and then followed.

The bedroom door was not closed, Tao Liyang pushed the door open.Xu Yunqing was lying on the side of the bed with his back facing him.The light fell on his bare arms beside the quilt, the color was warm and moist, like a fine white porcelain.Like porcelain, he didn't move at all. When he heard Tao Liyang's footsteps, he didn't turn his head. He just said to him, "Turn off the light."

Tao Liyang turned off the lights and the door as he said, and drew the curtains again.After all this was done, Xu Yunqing obviously relaxed a little, at least his breathing could be heard in the room.

After his eyes got used to the darkness, Tao Liyang went to the bed and sat down.Feeling that Xu Yunqing gently pulled his hand, she changed her mind and lay down beside him, hugging him from behind.

Xu Yunqing nestled quietly in his arms, and Tao Liyang once again confirmed that he had indeed lost too much weight, leaving only a thin layer of flesh in his waist and abdomen.When Tao Liyang caressed her past.Feeling stung, but for a second, he hugged him even tighter.

"To be honest, I actually don't know how to tell you." After a long silence, Xu Yunqing said without warning, "I have never told anyone, and I will never tell anyone again."

Tao Liyang was silent, at this moment, all words were pale.Xu Yunqing didn't need it either.So Tao Liyang just touched the hair on the back of his head.

After Xu Yunqing finished speaking, he remained silent for a longer time, and when he spoke again, he first mentioned Su Liang.

"I forgot when exactly I saw him for the first time, anyway, Su Liang has been around since I can remember. He is my dad's psychiatrist... My dad, he should be depressed or something, I don't know. My grandparents worked in the medical system in the early years, and the family conditions are good, and they know more. When most people don't have the concept of mental illness, they have already sent him to see a psychiatrist."

He paused here for a while, Tao Liyang hesitated for a moment and asked him: "Where are your grandparents?"

"Passed away. He died before I was born." Xu Yunqing buried half of his face in the quilt, his voice muffled, "But I was too young at the time to understand what was going on with his illness, and he didn't understand anything in front of me. I can’t see it, and they are always smiling. I only know that he will go to the hospital regularly. At that time, his doctor was Su Liang, and it has always been... I will also think later, maybe he has recovered a long time ago. A fair and honest reason to meet Su Liang..."

"Yunqing." Tao Liyang interrupted him.

Xu Yunqing shook his hand to show that she was fine, and continued talking.

"I was born prematurely. When I was young, my health was very poor and I was always sick. My mother was very busy with work and couldn't leave. Most of the time my father sent me to the hospital. Every time I went, Su Liang would definitely come to see me and brought many children like it. My father is a teacher in the city. Sometimes he has to rush back to class, and Su Liang will accompany me to give me injections, hang water, and tell me stories. Then take me to his office and wait for me My parents came to pick me up. So, I liked him very much at that time... Li Yang." Xu Yunqing changed the subject and asked him suddenly, "You should already know that my mother found out about him and my father later, right?"

Tao Liyang's throat tightened, and just as he was about to speak, Xu Yunqing seemed to notice it, and shook his head with his back to him: "Don't say that, I'm not angry with you, you know...but since you've heard, I It will be easier to talk about it.”

Even though he said this, when he really wanted to speak, he hesitated for a moment: "They will be discovered because of me." Xu Yunqing's speech speed became faster, as if he would swallow all the words if he slowed down for a moment.

"That day I caught a cold and had a high fever. When I woke up, my mother was watching over me. My mother didn't spend much time with me. I was afraid of her, so I said I wanted to find my father. She said that my father had gone to class... I cried No end of quarrel, couldn't wait for my father to come back, and said she wanted to find my uncle... My mother was so noisy that she really took me there... She was worried that there were patients in Su Liang's place, so she hugged me and looked outside the window first At first glance, the curtains were not drawn tightly. In the end, it was only my dad and Su Liang, they..."

Tao Liyang frowned, and tightened his arms around him. When Xu Yunqing said this, he subconsciously raised his eyes to look at the window, and then looked away: "No, it's not what you think. It's not that serious... It's just enough for me. Mom saw it. You probably have heard about what happened afterwards. My mother made a big fuss in the hospital. After that day, I never saw Su Liang again. After that, it didn’t take long after I came here... I really really I can't remember clearly, my dad was sent to a mental hospital...in less than half a month, he died."

Xu Yunqing's voice lowered, like a gust of wind that couldn't be caught.Tao Liyang hugged him even harder, sticking to his shoulder and neck: "It's not your fault, Yun Qing, it's not your fault."

"Maybe not." Xu Yunqing turned over to face him, and smiled silently: "But the other thing must be."

When he spoke, his breath caressed Tao Liyang's skin, and Tao Liyang looked at Xu Yunqing's face in the dark, which was so close at hand, once again bursting with that shocking brilliance.Xu Yunqing leaned over and whispered in his ear: "Everyone in the know thinks that you probably heard the same way. I was the first person to find my father's body. No, that's not the case."

Tao Liyang's heart beat violently, he felt that he could guess what Xu Yunqing was going to say next, his back froze, but Xu Yunqing had wrapped him tightly like a snake, unable to move at all.His voice was very soft, almost covered by breathing, but it slid so clearly from the eardrum into the blood vessel.

"That night, I was actually there the whole time... I watched with my own eyes how he hung himself on the rope, and I watched him die."

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