like her

"Yo, Sister Gai, I didn't expect you to be so old, but you still like to eat candies." When the intern male assistant doctor returned to the hospital to pick up things, he saw someone staring at the candies on the table and giggling.he teased.

"You don't care about me." Ruan Gai put the sugar in his palm.

The intern male assistant school doctor: "Don't be so stingy, let me have one."

Ruan Gai rolled his eyes at him: "You think it's quite beautiful."

This was specially given to her by her little dirty boy who ran over to give it to her just now.

Said it was the newest flavor.

If you eat it, you will feel better.

Seeing how proud she was, the intern male assistant school doctor couldn't help complaining:

"Tsk."

"Could it be given to you by a little girl in this school?"

Nguyen Gai is especially popular with girls.

The male assistant school doctor could still detect this with a little discernment.

When I was joking, I said something casually, but unexpectedly, she got an affirmative answer, "Yes, why, you don't have one, I'm quite envious."

Crit!

The intern male assistant school doctor beat his chest and sold miserably.

"Sister Gai, you are too much!!!"

Ruan Gai ignored him, "Hurry up and leave after you get your things, don't disturb my reading."

The intern male assistant school doctor wanted to gossip for a while, "Tell me which girl it is! I'm going to ask her too!"

Ruan Gai glanced at him, "Then you should not be qualified yet."

Crit again.

"Okay, I won't tell you anymore. The professor in the department gave me a task of translation, and I need to read a lot of materials." Ruan Gai sent him away without saying a word.

The trainee male assistant school doctor saw that she did everything in an orderly manner, and when you didn't see her, she took another step forward.

She is always moving forward.

At an unimaginable speed.

"Sister Gai, why are you always so enthusiastic?"

This confused Ruan Gai.

Is she always full of enthusiasm?

How could she not know.

"I'm just doing what I want to do, that is, sticking to some things. I also feel sad and don't know what to do, but I seem to adjust." Ruan Gai calmly repeated, "I think You are the one who is always enthusiastic."

Whenever I see it, I laugh and laugh.

Always smile when talking to people.

It's impossible for her to do this.

She is not a very fond person.

Unless the person in front of her is something she likes very much.

That kind of smile will be revealed unconsciously.

"Our enthusiasm is different." I don't know what I touched, the voice of the intern male assistant school nurse sank.

Ruan Gai was a little curious: "What is different?"

The intern male assistant school doctor shook his head, "I don't know how to describe it, it just feels different."

Ruan Gai didn't know what aspect he was referring to, but she knew what her problem was.

This is also a flaw in herself that she has discovered since she was young. She is black and white, and she only looks for the person she likes, and others have nothing to do with her.

She couldn't do it, and treated others with a smile on her face.

And she has no way to experience empathy from others.

To put it bluntly, it is a bit cold-blooded.

Just like facing her grandma today.

If her neighbors knew what she said, she would definitely say that she had no conscience.

The old man pulled you so hard, there is no credit but also hard work.

No matter what, you should be filial.

But what Ruan Gai wanted to say was, why did she have to bear all this?

How many people are bearing the constraints imposed on themselves by these so-called morals and ethics?What exactly is filial piety?How should we be filial?

If her parents are sick today, there is no way.

After all, they have paid for her since childhood.

But how can she get close to those so-called relatives who haven't regarded her as her own family since she was a child?

For her, the mental torture she endured when she was young, could it be offset by the fact that the employer is old and needs someone to take care of her?

Then why, she still has to study hard to get out of the predicament.

It's just so that one day in the future, she can say no decisively.

Backed away easily.

How to appease her heart, the suffering she has experienced in the past.

She couldn't convince herself.

Mom's phone call came at night.

Probably grandma complained to her.

After seeing her mother's call reminder, she was very scared. Her mother would tell her on the phone that as a junior, you shouldn't talk to your elders like this.

She couldn't refute her mother anything.

Because she once gave her the confidence to face suffering.

If it wasn't for her, maybe she wouldn't be able to live so confidently now.

After picking up the phone, my mother first asked her if she was busy.

She said she was on duty.

But you can answer the phone.

"Well, my mother called you for nothing else, just to tell you that no matter what grandma called you today, it has nothing to do with you. This is an adult's business. You children don't need to worry about it. "

Ruan Gai didn't expect her mother to tell her these words.

This is something she never thought of.

"Mother……"

"It's okay. Mom doesn't know where she asked for your phone number. You just graduated. What ability do you have? Just do your own thing well. You don't need to worry about the rest."

"Where is Dad?"

"You don't have to worry about it."

"Is it really possible?"

"Of course."

"But mom..."

"Ruan Ruan, it's my mother who is sorry for you, not giving you such a good life."

As an adult, every time Ruan Gai talked with his mother on the phone, his eyes would turn red.

Many things were taught by her mother.

When I was a child, I complained that my mother gave the love of companionship to my younger brother.

But when she grew up, she realized that she couldn't help herself.

"Mom, you don't need to say sorry, I should apologize to you. I have caused you a lot of trouble for so many years."

Over the years, Nguyen Gai seldom came home.

But probably everyone knows what others are talking about.

What the children don't face is what the adults have to bear.

Although this restraint is circled by the adults themselves.

"Then mom has hung up, call again when you have time." Mom's voice was slightly choked, and both mother and daughter were very tolerant.If you can see the good side, you will feel that you will not show your weakness.

After hanging up the phone, Ruan Gai lay on the table, weeping silently.

Behind all her luck, there is helplessness hidden, and someone is silently helping her bear it.

It was 09:30 in the evening when Chengnan No. [-] Middle School started self-study in the evening.

Lin Duqing ate too much at night, and her stomach was always full.

The roommate solemnly suggested to her to go to the school hospital.

Lin Duqing always felt that she was implying something.

The roommate was aggrieved, "I reminded you kindly."

"By the way, do you want me to accompany you?"

Lin Duqing immediately refused: "No need."

roommate:"……"

He co-authored that little look that he disliked just now, and he thought he didn't want to go?

Lin Duqing: Don't want to go?

impossible.

I'm just being reserved.

Roommate: All right, I will lock the door at night.Anyway, if you go, there is a high probability that you will not come back.

Lin Duqing:? ? ?

She really hadn't thought about this.

Not so brave.

On the way to the school hospital, Lin Duqing couldn't help complaining about himself. The number of visits to the school hospital recently was more than in the past few months.

I don't know how Gaigai is now after he quarreled with his family.

She actually forgot a lot about her childhood.

And at that time, she only relied on Gai Gai, and she could vaguely remember that the atmosphere in their house was definitely not as good as that of Lao Mo and Lao Lin.

Speaking of Lao Mo and Lao Lin, after leaving Lin Town that year, they would talk about Ruan Gai privately several times.

I also thought about going back to Lin Town to take a look.

but--

Things are always going to be more than expected.

Moreover, what can you do just by looking at it.

Subconscious avoidance.

Back off.

No one can escape.

These years, she is also avoiding.

That year, my parents got divorced, and the lawsuit went on for several months, but nothing came of it.

Later, my mother got into a car accident and knocked her head down.

Severe coma, half paralyzed legs.

After waking up, his IQ degenerated into that of a child, unable to take care of himself.

Rehabilitation is also done on a regular basis every month.

Lao Mo and Lao Lin had to give up their old age in the countryside and return to the city to take care of their daughter.And her father is missing.

disappeared without a trace.

The life that was originally in the clouds suddenly fell into the dust.

She never acted coquettishly with the adults in the family again, asking for anything.

The only thing that comes from the heart and tells myself that I can't give up is to dance Latin dance.

She dared not think about anything else.

I don't want to talk to people either.

She doesn't want others to know too much about her, so she keeps others away.

As long as you don't touch people.

Those who don't know how to tell others will not be discovered.

Even after reuniting with Gai Gai, she dared not tell her about the changes in the past.

Fortunately, she didn't have to force herself to say it.

As much as she wanted to tell her.

In the past so many years, she has actually had a very bad life.

But she seems to be faith, so she did not give up and stop.

Standing at the gate of the school hospital.

Lin Du slightly adjusted his mood.

Every time she recalled what happened in the past, she couldn't control her emotions.

Once upon a time, she didn't know what her future life would be like.

But now, it seems much clearer.

She took a step.

Go down the hall.

at the same time.

Ruan Gai, who lay on the table for a long time, weeping silently, raised his eyes.

The two looked at each other.

At that glance, it seemed that all the sufferings in the past were just to make them a better version of themselves.

Lin Du chuckled lightly and said, "Gai Gai, you're crying after eating that candy."

Ruan Gai also smiled: "Yes, but it's too sweet, so sweet that I shed tears."

Originally, a person with such a temperament as Ruan Gai would feel that it is very shameful to cry in front of others.

But in front of her.

It's not that embarrassing feeling.

But -

Hope she participates.

Lin Du lightly folded his arms around his chest, laughing, "Then, share half of your sweetness with me."

The author has something to say: Ruan: Come here, I'll give it to you.

感谢在2020-08-0319:53:57~2020-08-0416:27:45期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel of irrigation nutrient solution: 3 bottles of Chasing North;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!