Relying on love in the entertainment industry

Fang Nan's tone was understated, with a gentle smile on his face, so Hu Menghan easily believed his words.

But Hu Menghan believed it, but Jia Luo, who was eavesdropping from the other side of the wall, did not believe it.

Not only did he not believe it, but he also quickly had many associations.

——Chu Xiting.

Jia Luo instinctively felt that the person Fang Nan's words made him no longer "naive" must be Chu Xiting.And in this case, his thoughts on Chu Xiting must not be as simple as "that's all".

If this is the case, there is no need for him to go back to China to take revenge on Chu Xiting.

He gave up his development in SN and returned to CN with a different appearance. The more he did, the more he cared about Chu Xiting's affairs.

Fang Nan's cold eyes when he met Chu Xiting could not be faked, so Jialuo believed that Fang Nan really hated Chu Xiting.But he didn't feel that... Chu Xiting's attitude towards Fang Nan was the same as Fang Nan's towards him.

Gallo thought of the piano room where the portrait was hung, and the music that he recalled all night in the piano room.

——At this time, it has been several years since Gallo met Fang Nan on SN.The boy in the portrait looked more immature and innocent than when he first met Fang Nan.

He suddenly wanted to know what happened between Fang Nan and the other party.Fang Nan couldn't forget what Chu Xiting did.

With this thought in mind, Gallo began to search and inquire about Fang Nan's past.He first searched Chu Xiting's personal information, found his past albums, and eliminated them one by one until he found the name "Fang Qingzhi".

Fang Qingzhi, the son of the former director and CEO of Nanji Star, a gifted music child, and the producer of the first album of King Chu Xiting, is 16 years old.

...all the information is correct.

Fang Qingzhi doesn't have much information on the Internet, and there are no photos or video materials, so Gallo searched for a long time, but he didn't see his specific appearance.But even so, Jia Luo did not doubt Fang Qingzhi's identity.

Fang Qingzhi's image is really in line with Gallo's imagination of Fang Nan's youth. He can't imagine anyone else in the world besides Fang Nan who can show such outstanding musical talent at such a young age.

Perhaps because the other party passed away too early, there is very little information about Fang Qingzhi on the Internet.Although there are some news and remarks in memory of this talented musician who died young, after all, the influence is limited.

But it's not entirely without useful news.At least Gallo knew for the first time that Fang Nan had a congenital ventricular defect.He used to know that Fang Nan was in poor health and hardly participated in any slightly strenuous physical activities, but he didn't expect it to be so serious.

The information on the Internet said that Fang Qing died of a heart attack, and Gallo couldn't help but wonder if it was really that serious...or Fang Nan doesn't seem to be in any serious pain now, and whether she has recovered after undergoing surgery.

Gallo knew that heart disease was a soft terminal disease, and unless the heart was changed, there was almost no possibility of a complete cure. Even after the heart change, there was still a certain chance of recurrence, so he didn't think that Fang Nan was cured now.

He naturally couldn't see the grievances between Fang Nan and Chu Xiting from the information alone, so when he went to Nanjixing later, he secretly inquired about the senior employees in Nanjixing and Fang Qingzhi. things.

After all, it has only been six years since Fang Qingzhi left.Whether this time is long or short, Nan Jixing has changed a large number of people so far, but it is said that it will replace all the old people, but it will not be so.

So Gallo quickly found out who was a senior old man who had worked in Nanjixing for many years.

After finding out, he found some opportunities to chat with the other party, and then asked about Fang Qingzhi as if chatting.

Of course he wouldn't mention Fang Nan, but he just said that he liked Chu Xiting's first album very much, and he also liked the composer who was said to have become famous at a young age but died young, so he wanted to know what kind of person he was and what kind of personality he was. Do you often come to Nanjixing?

Fang Qingzhi was a very likable and sunny boy back then, so the other party didn't think too much about it, and just talked a lot with Jia Luo as if it were just chatting.

"Xiao Qingzhi didn't come to the company very often when he was a child. He was often hospitalized since he was a child. He lived in the hospital for seven or eight months a year. It is said that he didn't even go to school very often. He was invited all year round. Tutor. However, when he and Mr. Chu had a good relationship, he often came to the company. During that time, he seemed to be much more energetic, and he didn't seem to get sick when he soaked in the recording studio every day."

Jia Luo asked: "Then he and President Chu didn't have a good relationship?"

Yu looked at him in surprise, and said, "Why?" She thought for a while, and said, "Those two people have a good relationship. Although they are five or six years apart in age, their relationship is really good. Both brothers and sisters are very close." It may not be as close as they are. Xiao Qingzhi used to say that Mr. Chu was his confidant all his life... That's why after he passed away, Mr. Chu became so depressed, and he still can't recover now."

After hearing this, Gallo felt that this was completely different from what he had expected, so he frowned slightly.

The woman didn't notice his reaction, but continued to say while rummaging through the information: "Speaking of which, after Mr. Chu became famous, the company didn't plan to give him a share... After all, although he was very popular at that time, he was too young. Nan Jixing still has a few powerful old singers in its hands, and the board of directors does not pay much attention to him. It was Xiao Qingzhi who insisted on fighting for shares for him. In addition, when he was on tour in the Eastern Continent, his popularity exploded, and his influence was so great that he was called Being the God of Songs, the board of directors finally made up their minds to give Chu Xiting some dry shares."

"Later, the company failed to invest in a CN-style stage play on the 'Oriental Stage' project. Mr. Fang was questioned by the board of directors and removed from the position of executive president. It was Mr. Chu who stepped forward and turned the original project into an audio-visual project. Entertainment City relied on various open music, performance and dance interactive programs to bring the whole project back to life. Afterwards, Mr. Fang transferred his shares to Mr. Chu, making Mr. Chu officially become the major shareholder of Nanji Star."

After listening to the other party's words, Gallo felt that the plot greatly exceeded his expectations.

He couldn't help asking: "In this case, why did Fang Qingzhi..."...Suddenly "died"?

As a result, before he could finish his sentence, there was a slow and dull sound of "bang", "bang", "bang" when he knocked on the door panel behind him.

When Jia Luo turned his head, he found Fang Nan standing at the door with a straight face and no expression.

Because of the camouflage on his face, Fang Nan's usual expression has always been less obvious than his real expression.But the important parts of his face, such as the corners of the mouth and the corners of the eyes, are only covered with a piece of thin fake skin, and the fake muscles that change the shape of the cheeks, bridge of the nose, etc. have first-class elasticity and contractility, so they can still pose. Make many more vivid expressions.

So when he showed such an expression, it was really expressionless.

Later, when the two were alone, Fang Nan suddenly said, "If you want to know about Chu Xiting and I, you can ask me directly, instead of asking around like this."

After hearing this, Gallo suddenly felt a little bit wrong, wanted to explain, and said, "I'm not—"

Fang Nan turned her head and looked at him quietly, waiting for his next words.

Jia Luo choked for a moment, and after a while, he sighed and said, "Well, I just want to know about you and Chu Xiting. If I ask you directly, will you tell me?"

Fang Nan said: "When I get home at night...I'll tell you."

After returning home, Fang Nan said to Jia Luo: "I met Chu Xiting in the spring when I was 14 years old. At least that was the first time I saw him in my memory."

This sentence seems to have no deep meaning.

"He is the contracted singer of the company. He is 19 years old, a sophomore in the Department of Finance of University A. He does not major in music, but he sings surprisingly well, with loud treble and clear bass. I'm not belittling you, just telling the truth, Gallo, you may not be able to sing as well as he did in your sophomore year."

Jia Luo curled his lips and opened his mouth to say something, but in the end he held back and didn't interrupt Fang Nan.However, there was an obvious unconvinced look in his eyes.

Fang Nan continued: "At that time I lived in the hospital - I was always in the hospital at that time, but no one came to see me except my family. I didn't have many friends, and most of the classmates in school were unfamiliar... Chu Xi Ting was the first outsider who came to see me without any purpose... at least what I thought at the time."

"He said that he liked the opera "The Man in the Mirror" that I wrote for the school celebration a few months ago, and he was really familiar with the lines in the opera, the libretto and the image I wanted to express. We had a good chat that day, and he The singing is very good, I really like it."

Chu Xiting sang very well, and Fang Nan's attitude was very gentle.He is Fang Nan's first friend of the same generation who is so close and familiar in this world, at least Fang Nan thinks so.

Later, they met several times, and Fang Nan gradually learned to look forward to his appearance.During the days when he was not in the hospital, Chu Xiting would occasionally visit Fang's house. They chatted, played the piano, sang, and composed music in the piano room where Fang Qingzhi's portrait was now hung.

The time when he became friends with Chu Xiting was the happiest time in Fang Nan's life. It seemed that even the illness that had plagued him for many years flew away from him.His heart seemed to become lighter, and it would no longer beat hastily, or weigh him down.

After the operation, although the pain was less, the feeling was completely different from that at that time.

Fang Qingzhi regards Chu Xiting as everything to him—friend, confidant, ideal, and freedom.In fact, he may not have had the so-called love for Chu Xiting at that time, but for a boy of this age, he would have been willing to give everything for friendship.

At that time, Fang Qingzhi even felt happy to die like this.

But he didn't want to die at all, more than ever, because if he died, he would never see Chu Xiting again.

This idea is actually quite unconscionable, because when facing death, what Fang Qingzhi thought about was not his parents, but Chu Xiting, who he had only been with for less than a year.

Their relationship changed in the summer of that year.Fang Qingzhi fell ill once, and when he woke up, he saw Chu Xiting beside him worryingly.People are always very vulnerable when they are sick, let alone people like Fang Qingzhi who have been living under the threat of death since birth.

On that day, he confessed his inner fear to Chu Xiting, and told Chu Xiting about his inner feelings and attachment... Then, the other party kissed him.

That was the first time Fang Qingzhi was kissed by someone who was not related by blood.

Fang Qingzhi didn't have any concept of same-sex love in the past, but when Chu Xiting kissed him, he didn't feel anything wrong at all, so he just accepted it as a matter of course.

Then, they become lovers.

But Gallo was not at all interested in the process of their acquaintance.He interrupted Fang Nan's memory and asked directly: "I want to know what he did to you later? What happened to your 'death'?"

Fang Nan was silent for a long time, and said: "When I was 14 years old during the New Year, when I was traveling in Province Y, I fell ill, and then I had a first aid in the local hospital. It was the New Year holiday, and it was a small county. There is only one doctor on duty, but the level is very good."

"However, that night, it was said that there was another patient in need of emergency treatment, a college student who also traveled to Province Y. He was traveling with his friends and had a car accident nearby. When collecting money, they chose to treat me first. Then when my rescue was over...the college student had stopped breathing."

Fang Nan said in a flat tone: "The college student's surname is Cao, with the word Min in his name. He is Cao Mai's cousin. And Chu Xiting is one of his classmates who traveled to Province Y with him."

"Cao Min is Chu Xiting's first love, the first and only person he has ever loved in his life."

When he said this, he had a smile on his face, looking soft and beautiful, but he had a pair of clear black pupils, as cold as water.

Jia Luo narrowed his eyes and said, "What does this have to do with you? Don't tell me that because you both went to the same hospital at the same time, you were saved but the other was not, and then Chu Xiting hated you?"

Fang Nan smiled at him and said, "Why not? Some people hold grudges and attack doctors because of failed rescues, why don't some people hold grudges against other people who were sent to the hospital but were saved at the same time?"

He continued: "I am a type of RH-negative AB called panda blood in the legend, so even though I have been on the list of heart donation requests since birth, it was not until I was 16 that I finally got a chance to be donated. But when the news came, my parents were being dragged by the board of directors to the new theater center in Province J because of the Oriental Stage Project. Maybe you have heard of it, which is the Music Carnival in Province J, known as the largest music base in the Eastern Continent."

Gallo froze for a moment, and realized that he had really heard of this place.

The scale of this music carnival playground is very large. Since its completion, it has almost become a music sanctuary of CN. It can be regarded as a landmark building in the entire Eastern Continent, and it is a very successful investment project.

He asked: "... what happened next?"

"My parents were very excited when they found out that there was a suitable heart donation. But it was not easy for them to put everything on hand and come back from J city. It is very difficult to get a heart source of panda blood, and it is in the donation request list I was far more than the only one involved, and the preservation of a living heart was not easy, so the various procedures were handled very hastily... Out of trust in Chu Xiting, my parents fully authorized him to carry out various procedures. "

"...Then, he gave up the heart transplant application in my name, and then told me...the man who died that night two years ago, and the real reason why he was close to me."

Gallo's hand slammed into the corner of the table, but he didn't even feel the pain, so he yelled sharply: "He gave up the chance of a heart transplant for you!?"

Fang Nan said, "Yes!"

Gallo said: "This is murder at all!"

Fang Nan said: "Yes, he wanted to kill me...and he succeeded."

Fang Qing died, and the one who survived was like a lonely soul floating in the gap between the past and the future, a pessimistic, indifferent, and lonely shadow.

Fang Nan even felt that if it was Cao Min who was rescued and survived that night...would their lives be much happier.If Fang Qing died that night, then at least he was still the Fang Qingzhi who was pure in mind, didn't understand hatred, and felt happy just enjoying music.

When Jia Luo heard this, he was taken aback for a moment, then reached out and grabbed Fang Nan's arm, and said, "What nonsense are you talking about!? Aren't you living a good life? How did you succeed?"

But Fang Nan smiled again and said: "Gallo, he succeeded... because all these years, I have no way to love someone unreservedly, to believe in someone. My heart is full of dark thoughts , resentment, resentment, pain, suspicion. There is nothing more terrifying than this."

Gallo was silent for a long time before he said, "...even if it's me, can't you?"

Fang Nan said, "...Sorry."

Gallo didn't speak for a long time.

Fang Nan until Jia Luo had a very good impression of him, but it was because of this that he could not deceive the other party—from Chu Xiting standing in front of Fang Qingzhi's hospital bed many years ago, saying the indifferent and cruel words When the truth came to light, it seemed that Fang Qingzhi's chest had been cut open with a sharp knife, his heart that was incomplete but deeply longing for a lover was cut out, and he was killed alive. , leaving no possibility of being revived.

Fang Nan knew that all his fear and alienation towards others were in fact paranoid and wrong, but if reason could always make the decision for feelings, there might not even be love and hatred in this world.

So even if it is wrong, Fang Nan has no ability to change it, and maybe even he doesn't want to change at all.

When he persuaded Hu Menghan, he hoped that the other party would be sincere and brave, and not become a frightened bird because of an injury.But in fact, he himself was sinking deeper and deeper into such a muddy pit, and he didn't even have the desire to ask for help and struggle.

Because sometimes no matter how much truth you understand, it is not as good as a drop of hot tears that you have personally experienced.

After Gallo returned to his room, he was a little bit out of his wits.

He lay on the bed, clenched his fists tightly, and it took him an unknown amount of time before he forced himself to let go.

He imagined many situations, but when Fang Nan clearly confessed the truth to him, he still felt uncontrollable anger and discomfort.

He didn't know how deep Fang Nan's feelings for Chu Xiting were at that time, but he knew that Fang Nan's calm tone was covered with scars on a wall, and even if all the swords were pulled out, they still couldn't heal.

This made Gallo feel a kind of sadness that he had never experienced before.

Gallo is such an optimistic and outgoing bear youth, although he has some talent and wisdom, but he is not deep.His life has always been very smooth, if there are some troubles, usually not for long.

For such a person, the negative emotions at most stop at sadness, never reach pain, explode into anger, and cannot brew into anger.

And Fang Nan's feelings are too heavy, almost to the point that Gallo can't understand.The more he tried to understand, the more he felt unbearable surprise.

But he fell in love with Fang Nan, and for the first time in his life, he wanted to step into the world of one person so strongly, so even though he encountered such unfamiliar depression and intolerance, Jia Luo still didn't want to give up easily.

Because he cared about this person, Gallo had an indescribable touch and empathy for Nan's pain, which made him restless.

So that night, Gallo tossed and turned in bed for a long time.

He asked himself over and over again: Do you really just give up like this?Or, should I try to do something from now on?

It has been nearly half a year since Fang Nan returned to CN, but Gallo has not really gotten closer to Fang Nan.Fang Nan's difficulty in approaching is certainly one reason, but in fact, the more important reason is that Gallo has never really tried to approach him.

He is satisfied with the daily relationship with Fang Nan, and doesn't want to go deeper.

To Gallo, Fang Nan is like the male god-level supporting role in AVG who is not within the scope of the strategy. When looking at him, although he feels very, very obsessed, he is always inaccessible.The difficulty of overcoming is probably as difficult as breaking through a dimensional wall.

It's bound to be a bloodbath.

But even if you break through the dimensional wall, you will never know whether there is still a dimensional wall called fate, on which only endings without endings are painted.

For Jia Luo, wanting to approach Fang Nan is such an act that requires the courage to break through the dimensional wall.

But Gallo, who is used to laughing and cursing and enjoying life... is actually not sure that he has such courage.

However, Fang Nan was unaware of Gallo's struggles.