Relying on love in the entertainment industry

Fang Nan, who was so stupid, hurried upstairs and returned home, but couldn't sleep for a long time.

He didn't know how much he hated Chu Xiting, but he just felt that this guy was extremely cunning and had nowhere to start.Even if he wanted to make the other party suffer, Chu Xiting looked like a dead duck who was not afraid of being scalded, as if he was at his mercy.

Too much.

It is so easy for the other party to hurt me, but it is so difficult for me to hurt the other party.

Fang Nan felt very unwilling.

In the next few days, Fang Nan didn't try to play tricks on Chu Xiting, the most important thing was that he really didn't know what to do to blow up Chu Xiting.On the contrary, Chu Xiting always came to provoke him all day long, and was very good at taking advantage of the surrounding situation and the pressure of public opinion, but he also held a certain level of propriety, keeping Fang Nan in a situation that would make Fang Nan feel a little uncomfortable but not worth breaking out. degree.

So Fang Nan ate the takeaway that Chu Xiting ordered—it’s impossible not to eat it, the entire propaganda department ordered it, if Fang Nan didn’t show face, it would definitely cause dissatisfaction from everyone, and ordering another meal by himself would be too much Standing alone; Fang Nan silently collected the CD sent by Chu Xiting—it was a 60S collection of old songs. The house was sold and transferred out together, Fang Nan muttered in his heart that it was originally my thing, but he couldn't help but keep it; Fang Nan accepted the job introduced by Chu Xiting - the director of "Chong Dynasty" After finishing the filming, I quickly entered into the preparation of the next work. At present, even the script has not been finalized, but the lead actor has been selected... It was still the one at the premiere who watched his lead actor plugged in the earphones to play the whole process. The hero of the handheld game.

But this job is just an intentional appointment, and it doesn't mean that it has been confirmed.It will be a long time before the official start of filming, let alone the soundtrack.

Fang Nan still has a long period of rest before the completion of the album production and the start of film soundtrack work. If he does not accept additional work during this period, the only thing he needs to do is to put the editor of "Listen to Summer" After the song is finished, it can be said to be in a fairly relaxed state.

Gallo still has to go to the announcement, but Fang Nan doesn't even have this kind of casual work.

So in the past two days, when he had time, besides practicing the piano and listening to music, he started watching movies with Jia Luo.The two also played a few games on the Internet from time to time. Fang Nan was not active, but his hands were too dexterous. When the two cooperated, the winning rate in the battle game was very high.

After playing for a while that day, Fang Nan's mobile phone showed a notification message, but he didn't care, and waited until the game was over before reaching out for his mobile phone to look at it.

It turned out that it was a forwarding of a message, which was a gossip with connotations. He looked at it and laughed. After laughing, he realized that it was Chu Xiting who sent it, and his face immediately sank.

Jia Luo knew what was going on when he saw his appearance, but he didn't want him to get entangled in it, so he urged: "It's about to start, hurry up!"

Fang Nan threw the phone on the table next to her and started the next game.

As a result, after the round ended, he poured lemonade into the kitchen, and suddenly something went wrong again. He felt that his heartbeat was unstable and it was difficult to breathe. Gallo heard the noise and probed and found that his condition was not right, so he hurried to get medicine and water for him. Take it.

After taking it, Fang Nan sat down on the ground and was quiet for a long time before feeling a little relieved.

Garlo did not dare to call him to play the game anymore, but urged him to rest for a while.

Fang Nan was exhausted and did not refuse, so she went back to the room with Jia Luo's strength and lay down.

Gallo said: "Your condition is getting worse and worse. What if you have an attack when I go out? Why don't you go for another checkup in the next two days."

Fang Nan was silent for a while, and then said: "Actually, I don't think it's anything wrong, probably because my mood fluctuated more these two days..."

But Gallo interrupted him and said, "Ever since you met Chu Xiting, your mood hasn't fluctuated much."

Fang Nan glared at him.

Gallo stared back: "Am I not right?"

Fang Nan didn't speak.

Gallo felt that he was acquiescing, so he snorted unhappily, but in the end he didn't dwell on this issue, he just said: "It's better to go and check."

Fang Nan thought for a while and replied, "I'll go to the hospital tomorrow."

Afterwards, Fang Nan went to the hospital for another check-up. He had gone through this process once before, and he was basically familiar with it again.He didn't take this inspection very seriously.The main reason is that since Fang Nan's parents died, his mentality has been relatively negative, and occasionally he even has the idea of ​​committing suicide.Although Fang Nan's desire to seek death is not very strong, but the desire to survive is not too strong.

For Fang Nan, if one day he really got sick and couldn't bear it anymore, it would be just to see his parents one day earlier, but he was not afraid.

This kind of self-defeating thoughts is definitely not good for fighting against the disease, so it is no wonder that his relapse is getting worse and worse.

On the day of going to the hospital to get the report, Gallo had a notice that he could not go with Fang Nan, and he was afraid that he would get sick halfway, and there would be an accident, so he asked a friend from the NJStar music department to go with Fang Nan.

It turned out that the person who called was someone else, but it was Chu Xiting who was waiting at the door when the time came.Fang Nan hesitated for a second between slamming the door on the opponent's face and going to the hospital to get the report first, and finally chose the latter.

The result reported was very bad.

After Fang Nan saw the report, he fell silent, and the doctor explained the results of the examination, saying that his condition was obviously deteriorating, and he needed to arrange another operation as soon as possible.

Fang Nan was not surprised by this.The doctor sees many births, old ages, sicknesses and deaths, so he can't help but look down on this kind of person who doesn't take his illness seriously, but he said in a rather unfriendly tone: "You are now preparing to arrange surgery, and you can save a life." Come on. When the condition gets so bad that surgery is no longer possible, it may not be in time.”

Fang Nan's attitude was not correct at all, and he said: "If you can't catch up, you can't catch up...Anyway, if you catch up this time, you may not be able to catch up with the next time. This way of life is strangely tasteless."

For such an uncooperative patient, the doctor didn't even bother to talk to him. He just explained some procedures that he would have to go through if he wanted to have an operation according to the usual practice, which meant that Fang Nan could go.

Chu Xiting had never seen Fang Nan being so uneducated, but he hurriedly said a lot to appease the doctor, and then asked some details. Yes, and told which authority in which hospital in Chuxiting City is better at this area of ​​surgery...

Fang Nan leaned on a chair. Although he looked at the two, his eyes were empty. At first glance, he was traveling for nine days, and he did not put his mind on his condition.

After Chu Xiting finished communicating with the other party, seeing him like this, he was very helpless.After leaving the consulting room, he persuaded Fang Nan in a low voice: "Even if you hate me, don't get angry with the doctor...he didn't offend you."

Fang Nan gave him a sideways look, and said, "What a face. Do you think I'm going against the doctor because of you? I'm just telling the truth."

Seeing that his mouth was stiff, Chu Xiting said, "The truth? You really don't want to live anymore?" He knew that he couldn't stand up to Fang Nan at this time, but he said softly, "It's okay to be angry with me, but you have such thoughts I think about your parents when you are young, they only have you as a child, and they still count on you to take care of you when they get old. Don’t say that your parents don’t care if they are rich. White-haired people give black-haired people, never feel sad .”

After he finished speaking, Fang Nan suddenly fell silent.

Chu Xiting thought he had listened to it, so he didn't say any more, and followed Fang Nan for a while in silence.

It didn't take long, but suddenly Fang Nan said: "My parents...they have left first."

After hearing this, Chu Xiting couldn't react for a moment.After several seconds, he vaguely understood the meaning of this sentence, but he was not sure what Fang Nan really meant, and was momentarily in doubt.

Then what Fang Nan said again confirmed the guess that he didn't want to believe.

"If I get sick in the future, I will probably be able to see my parents soon, right?" Fang Nan looked at Chu Xiting and said with a smile that seemed a bit sad but also vaguely pleased.

That look in his eyes caused Chu Xiting to be stung badly in an instant.

Fang Songcheng and Mrs. Fang had passed away—the news made Chu Xiting unable to recover for a while.

In Chu Xiting's impression, both of them are people with outstanding ability and strong will.Even if he made a wrong decision on the project on the Eastern Stage, it could not cover up Fang Songcheng's talent and ability, but he had to succumb to the gap between ideals and reality.

In Chu Xiting's view, the vitality of the couple was much stronger than that of their youngest son who looked like a porcelain puppet, so Chu Xiting didn't react for a while when he heard the news of their death.

But after a long time, when Chu Xiting finally realized the meaning behind the news, he couldn't help but his heart began beating out of order—for a moment he almost felt that he was about to suffer from a heart attack.

He walked up quickly, but suddenly hugged Fang Nan and said, "Qingzhi, Qingzhi...don't be sad..."

Although Fang Qingzhi was very calm, Chu Xiting felt that the other party seemed to be on the verge of falling, as if he would fall down in the next second.

But Fang Nan didn't fall - he broke free from Chu Xiting's embrace, turned around, and gave Chu Xiting a slap.

Chu Xiting was stunned.

But Fang Nan looked indifferent and said viciously: "Enough! What right do you have to pretend to be like this? Don't let me be sad? Chu Xiting, these things were caused by you! If it wasn't for you, where would my parents need you?" Going abroad to take me away from you? How could you encounter such a thing!?"

These words are actually more or less outrageous, but they are not wrong.

Even if Chu Xiting was not the murderer who led the death of Fang Songcheng and his wife, it was at least an indirect factor that caused the whole incident.

There were tears in Fang Nan's eyes, and he said with a slightly choked voice: "My parents' matter, you and I... are half the murderers."

If he hadn't fallen in love with Chu Xiting, hadn't helped Chu Xiting make an album famous, hadn't helped Chu Xiting win various favorable resources in front of his parents; Stimulating him to get sick with full malice... How did things develop to such a point later?

It was a very painful thing to admit that such facts were in Fang Nan, so shortly after saying this, Fang Nan began to open his mouth, began to breathe in a hurry, and bent down his body.

Chu Xiting hurried to hug him, and shouted to the distant figure: "Miss nurse! Miss nurse!"

"Go to the hospital first!" The doctor put down the stethoscope, and said, "If I don't go to the hospital, I think he will die in two days. I have never seen such a desperate heart patient."

At least this time, Fang Nan didn't confront the doctor anymore, and obediently listened to the doctor's lecture with his mouth shut.

After Gallo heard the news, he helped Fang Nan bring a bunch of things, including his laptop computer, portable roll piano, notebook and others.

He didn't know the specific situation, but he only knew that Fang Nan fell ill again when he was in the hospital, but he felt that Fang Nan was still in the hospital, which made people feel more at ease.

It was quite boring when I was in the hospital. Fortunately, with the advancement of technology, I can do many things with my laptop and mobile phone, and it is not so boring.Jia Luo and Chu Xiting came to accompany him when they had time, and colleagues in twos and threes came to see the doctor, so Fang Nan wasn't bored at all.

After a wave of visitors left, the nurse smiled and said, "Mr. Fang has so many friends."

Are those actually friends?Fang Nan felt that most of them could only be regarded as acquaintances.

But even acquaintances made Fang Nan a little bit emotional-he was hospitalized when he was a child, but there were never many people to visit.Except for the parents, even the classmates are not very familiar with it.

So he just smiled and said "Yeah".

But other than that, when the doctor suggested Fang Nan to have an operation, Fang Nan refused with little hesitation.

The news was told by the doctor that when Gallo and Chu Xiting, both of them responded to a large response.Garlo almost began to jump as soon as possible, and ran into the ward and asked why Fang Nan refused to perform surgery.

Fang Nan smiled and said lightly: "I don't need surgery. I know my own body."

Gallo said: "How many times have you been sick!? You know your size!"

As a result, Fang Nan was silent for a while, and then said to Jia Luo: "Jia Luo."

Gallo watched him.

"Surgery... has a chance of success. I'm a little scared..." He crossed his arms, looked at Gallo with a frown, and said rather pessimistically.Sure enough, Gallo was fooled by his appearance, and immediately showed a bit of panic and flustered, and said, "Nolan... don't be afraid. Now, I'll go back and ask my father and some friends, and find the most authoritative cardiologist How about coming to help you with the operation and make sure the success rate is high before we start the operation?"

Fang Nan said: "...I'll think about it again."

After fooling Jia Luo away, Chu Xiting walked in, but said the same thing, "Why did you refuse to have the operation?"

Fang Nan didn't have any patience with Gallo this time, and said coldly, "I don't want to have an operation. Isn't it good? I'm dead, isn't it just what you want?"

Chu Xiting fell silent.

He knew that Fang Nan said that on purpose.

Chu Xiting said with some difficulty: "Qingzhi... I never wanted you to die."

Fang Nan also paused for a moment, and then said: "...So you want to say, you just 'missed' and almost killed me?"

Of course...not.

Fang Nan said: "That's enough! No matter what excuses you make, I don't want to hear them. Chu Xiting, I will never forgive you—forever!"

He was agitated and hysterical, and Chu Xiting was extremely worried that he would get sick again, so he hurriedly said, "I won't say anything! I won't say anything! Don't get agitated, okay? Don't get agitated——"

Fang Nan shouted, "Get out!"

Chu Xiting showed a bit of sadness on his face, but he took two steps back very obediently, left the ward, and closed the door behind him.But after exiting the door, Chu Xiting did not leave, but stood motionless at the door.

He didn't want to leave, and he didn't dare to leave.This time we met again, Fang Nan changed a lot. If someone told him six years ago that Fang Qingzhi would become such a character, he would definitely not believe it.

This change is actually very painful for Fang Nan.Time did not make him better, but scars were drawn on the original clear and gentle heart, making him ferocious and distorted.

But this change was completely caused by Chu Xiting himself.

But even so, Chu Xiting still wanted to shake his hand, kiss his eyes, and hug his thin body—that was something he didn't cherish at all, and missed like crazy until he lost it. matter.

Then he heard the sound of vaguely came in the house.

After Chu Xiting left the ward, Fang Nan didn't feel any happier.

Instead, he stared blankly at the white hospital wall, hugged his knees, and slowly buried his head in the quilt.

A surge of sadness came, and tears flowed out like a river that broke its embankment.Fang Nan was unresponsive, and it took many years to get out of the sadness and bewilderment at that time.

Getting angry at Chu Xiting did not relieve him, but only made him feel more wronged.

Chu Xiting said that he loved him, but Fang Nan couldn't understand... If you love someone, how can you do such a cruel thing?When you love someone, how can you stab a knife in someone's heart so unfeelingly?

Like a wronged child, he hugged his knee tightly, because he was hurt by something he didn't understand, so he buried his head in the quilt, crying with all his strength.

Chu Xiting was outside the door, listening to Fang Nan's mournful screams that he tried hard to suppress but still couldn't help but choked up his voice. For a moment, his whole heart seemed to be tightly clenched by one hand.

When they parted, he had no chance to know Fang Nan's emotions, but he vaguely understood that he had caused irreversible results because of his temporary paranoia.

But despite the pain, sadness, remorse, and self-blame in the middle, after all, he didn't see the harm he caused Fang Nan with his own eyes.And it wasn't until this day that Chu Xiting finally realized... what kind of crime he had committed after hearing this heart-rending cry that might have lasted from that year to this day.

He leaned against the side of the door and took several breaths before he could restrain the trembling of his voice and said, "Qingzhi, listen to me!"

There was a pause in the crying.

Taking advantage of the cessation of crying, Chu Xiting said, "I lied to you about what I said that afternoon. I signed the renunciation statement in the hospital and I made an impulsive decision after being provoked. In the past six years, I have not regretted it for a moment."

"I'm not apologizing for what I did. In any case, there's no room for forgiveness for what I did. I just wanted to tell you."

"I have always loved you. Since eight years ago, I have only loved you in my life. It's just that I was too stupid, got into a dead end, and was too impulsive, so I did something irreparable."

Chu Xiting didn't explain why he did such a thing back then, nor did he tell Fang Nan who and why it stimulated him.In fact, compared to the damage that has already been done, any reason is no longer important.

The fact is that back then, Chu Xiting stabbed the person he loved the most with a knife because of his extreme anger and anger - the knife was stabbed so deep and hard that he couldn't pull it out until now, and it was bloody even if he touched it.

It can be said that it is almost everyone's instinct to vent anger and hurt others. It is just that some people know how to control themselves because of emotion or reason, while some people are easy to lose control and cause irreparable damage.

And the injury that Chu Xiting caused that day was undoubtedly fatal.

After that year, Chu Xiting never indulged his emotions like this again and lost control like this, but the painful lesson has been made, even if he knows how to regret it, and learns to change... what's the use?

People always learn to learn after making mistakes, but if irreparable mistakes have been made, what is the point of learning again?

For Chu Xiting, perhaps in this lifetime, the greatest kindness God has shown him is to allow Fang Qingzhi to survive.

He pressed against the door, Fang Nan said: "Qingzhi, you can hate me or blame me, I just ask you to give me a chance to make amends. I won't force you to forgive me, you can always be true to me It doesn't matter if you resign, scold me, or hit me, as long as you give me a chance to treat you well. In my life...until I die, I will use my whole life to compensate you. You don't need to do anything, as long as Just live well and take good care of yourself, okay?"

Chu Xiting waited for a long, long time, so long that he thought that Fang Nan was silently refusing, only then did he hear the other party's voice from inside, and asked lightly with a little emotional indifference: "Would you like me?" If you go down...are you satisfied?"

Chu Xiting's eyes were moist, and his voice still could not restrain the trembling in the end, and replied: "Yes!"