all i want is a man

After seeing off Xia Xuechen, saying goodbye to Lei Feng, and leaving Chen Yan, Xiao Chuan carried his luggage and headed for the train station.

It was the rush hour for college students to go home, and the train was crowded with people, shoulder to shoulder, not only the seats were full of people, even the aisles were full of people.Even so, Xiao Chuan still felt lonely and lonely like never before.

He sat on the seat and watched other passengers carry boxes, those who were looking for seats looked for seats, those who hung clothes hung clothes, those who played cards played cards, and those who drank water.The sound of cursing, discussing, crying, hawking, and coughing came one after another, and the smell of sweat, perfume, tobacco, greasy, and milk was strong and pungent.All in all, messy and harmonious.

Leaving aside the nature outside, the inside of the carriage is a small world.People who don't know each other create such a world because of the same goal. Individuals in this world are special and ordinary, but they are just a drop in the ocean.

Plug in the earphones, and the whole small world belongs to the heart only.Open-minded like Xiao Chuan, he calls this kind of travel a train for one person.

The scenery outside the window frame after frame, like a movie, Xiao Chuan's thoughts were racing.

He remembered that it was the same train when he first arrived in City Y, it was so noisy, and before he knew it, it had been four months.

It was also on this train that he met Xia Xuechen.

But on the one hand, he began to believe in love at first sight, he felt that meeting Xia Xuechen was the most beautiful scenery. "If you care about the future, you will miss it for life, but if you don't care about it, you will miss it for life." Xiao Chuan once thought that if he wanted to find a man like Gu Xichao, he would also look for a man like Gu Xichao.Unfortunately, Xia Xuechen shattered his dream.

Of course Xia Xuechen didn't have the alluring looks like Gu Xichao, but she was still pretty.When Xiao Chuan saw Xia Xuechen for the first time, he knew right away that what he was looking for was here.At that time, Xiao Chuan saw that Xia Xuechen was clean and pure.His cleanliness is the rocks washed by the night rain, natural and clear; his pureness is the streams in the mountains, which can be seen clearly and unobstructed.

Therefore, Xiao Chuan tried every means to meet Xia Xuechen face to face and create opportunities to get along.

Ask him where his files are handed over, show off during military training, run into him in Lanxin Pavilion, invite him to play, cheat his first kiss, teach him roller skating, take a knife for him, plead with Wang Mu for him, and send him off. go home.

In Xiao Chuan's mind, Xia Xuechen was simple yet complicated.

Xia Xuechen would dance happily because she got an A++ in her English homework, and would also silently hide her thoughts very deeply.Xiao Chuan clearly felt that Xia Xuechen seemed to be living alone in his heart.He also used to throw stones and ask for directions, but Xia Xuechen's heart was like a deep water, without bottom or edge.

The more you understand, the less you understand; if life is only as it is at first sight, it is wonderful.

Xiao Chuan thought Xia Xuechen was just a child, but he didn't expect Xia Xuechen to be one year older than him.But what about that?He still likes to call Xia Xuechen Xiaochen, always worried that Xia Xuechen will be hurt, and always feels that only he can give Xia Xuechen enough safety and happiness.

However, he didn't have the courage to say all this.He was afraid that once he said it, everything would be out of control.

He was afraid, he was terrified, he was afraid of that day coming, but in his heart he hoped that Xia Xuechen would be able to understand his heart a moment earlier.

Chen Yan's intervention was unexpected, Xiao Chuan even tried to make himself accept her, like her, and even fall in love with her, but it was impossible.

Although there was short-lived happiness at the beginning, the happiness at that time was also for others to see, for Xia Xuechen to see.After being happy, Xiao Chuan will always fall into deep self-blame and self-question.

Xia Xuechen's tepid attitude upset him and made him feel worthless.He also forced himself to learn to let go and change, but he couldn't learn it.If you have to say that Chen Yan's appearance has any positive effect, then it is to make him more clear about what Xiao Chuan really wants, and Xia Xuechen's position in his heart has become more and more clear and irreplaceable .

However, he couldn't speak.

At dusk, Xiao Chuan received a call from Xia Xuechen: "I'm home. Be careful on the road."

"have a good rest."

Xiaochen, I miss you.The words in my heart still couldn't speak.

At three o'clock in the morning, in F City, Xiao Chuan arrived home, and only got up at noon to wash up. The [-]-day holiday life began like this.

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