all i want is a man

Spring Festival is coming.Busy and joyful, the normally quiet village came alive.

Xia Xuechen always has the ability to be out of tune with the busyness and festivities around her, causing ridicule and contempt from those around her.However, they hate theirs, Xia Xuechen enjoys her own, they have nothing to do with each other, they live in peace, conflicts and harmony.

Chinese New Year is supposed to be a rest and reunion with the family, but in fact, every glamorous New Year’s Eve will make people physically and mentally exhausted and lose their appetite.

Xia Xue always has to clean up the house, cook a lot of delicious food, buy a lot of new things, change this, buy that.He has his joy.Xia Xuechen has her own leisure.They are each active in their own small universe, you don't say it, I don't say it, I don't know if they are really together.

The mobile phone signal is sometimes not available, and the canteen only sells oil, salt, soy sauce, vinegar, sugar, alcohol, and cigarette paper. When going out, you have to walk, and going to the toilet will make you feel suddenly insecure. This is the village where Xia Xuechen lives.Very simple, very original.Xia Xuechen has long been used to everything here, ignores people she doesn't want to contact, and keeps those she misses in her heart, food, clothing, housing and transportation are just right.

February [-], [-], New Year's Eve.

People are extremely extravagant and depraved, pushing all the joy and joy to decadence, and they are so gorgeous that they are almost proud.

Xia Xue and Xia Xuechen cooked a table full of beautiful and hearty dishes. They put the meals on the table and set the oven on fire.

"Father, mother, kowtow to your elders." They kowtowed respectfully in front of their parents' coffins, and then sat around the table.

"CCTV, CCTV~~" Although it feels old-fashioned and monotonous, Xia Xuechen is still used to setting the Spring Festival Gala as the background music every year on New Year's Eve.

"Xiaochen, after the new year, you will be 22. In our village, people of this age should get married and have children. Although you are studying abroad, you may also work outside in the future, but you have to find a partner early and settle down early. "Xia Xue took a sip of wine, her vicissitudes of face were incompatible with his age.

"But, I'm only twenty years old."

"I don't care, anyway, in the eyes of the people in the village, you are 22. It is better for you to find someone from a family background. That way you can suffer less and suffer less. Don't be emotional, a family like ours I can’t talk about feelings. It would be best if you can find someone who takes into account both family background and feelings.” Xia Xue continued to think for herself.

"Brother, I'll fill you up."

"Xiaochen, when my parents left, my brother dropped out of school too early and could only do some rough work in society. I can't compare to you people with knowledge. Xiaochen, you are the hope and pride of the Xia family. For you, brother is Tired to death, suffering to death, but also happy.”

"elder brother--"

"Xiaochen, our family will depend on you from now on. You have to remember that the revitalization of the Xia family depends on you, Xia Xuechen. As long as you are successful, then brother will be satisfied." After finishing speaking, Xia Xue drank the wine in front of her. do.

On the TV, singing and dancing promote peace, singing endless satisfaction, and dancing endless happiness.

Brother, I'm just an ordinary undergraduate student, I can't get married, and I can't live with women.I like men, men, men like you.Poor people also have feelings, brother, don't force me.What other people do is their business.As long as we are all well, parents will feel at ease.

Xia Xuechen felt that there were too many things in his heart, he felt unwilling, unsatisfactory, difficult to calm down, restless, and poured down the wine.

The oven was burning vigorously, Uncle Zhao's sketches were in full swing, the fireworks resounded across the clouds, and waves of laughter followed, exuding a new atmosphere everywhere.

Xia Xue and Xia Xuechen were quiet and fell asleep.

"Ten-nine-eight-seven-six~~" With Zhu Jun, Li Yong, Dong Qing, and Zhou Tao counting down in unison, the bell of the Year of the Rat rang, followed by the classic Nokia mobile phone. ring.

"Hello?" Xia Xuechen dazedly picked up the phone.

"Xiaochen, Happy New Year!" New Year's greetings came from the other end, a familiar male voice made Xia Xuechen smile.

"Xiaochen, I like you." The confession was covered by the sound of fireworks outside the house.

"What did you say~~ I can't hear you clearly!"

"Happy New Year." Xiao Chuan was still not ready.

Because I care, because I cherish, because I am afraid of losing, because I am afraid of being hurt.

At this time in previous years, Lin Yuan would come and drag Xia Xuechen to set off fireworks together, wandering around the village.Without knowing it, they threw a firecracker in the yard of a certain family, scaring the chickens, dogs, pigs, and sheep of that family to jump around and whine.They talked, made noise, ran, sang, and enjoyed themselves.Now, no one calls Xia Xuechen to commit crimes under the window in the middle of the night.Xia Xuechen looked not far away, and the lights were clearly on.

At six o'clock in the morning, people in the village went to the temple to burn incense, worship Buddha, pray for blessings and petition.

Xia Xue led Xia Xuechen to follow behind the crowd, Xia Xue carried firecrackers, meat, and steamed buns, while Xia Xuechen held incense and a lighter.Xia Xue asks God to bless Xia Xuechen to be healthy, to make progress in her studies, and to get married and start a career as soon as possible.Xia Xuechen asked God to bless Xia Xue with health and everything goes well. After finishing her petition, Xia Xuechen continued to pray, praying in her heart for God to bless Lin Yuan and Xiao Chuan with safety and happiness.After saluting, worshiping the Buddha, burning incense and lighting the whip.The two walked back with confidence.

"Sister Fang, come to burn incense. Xiaoyuan is also here." On the way, I met Lin Yuan and Chen Fang.

"If you don't burn incense, why don't you sacrifice to the dead?" Chen Fang was full of arrogance, and pedestrians avoided her.

"Xiao Yuan, come to play at home later. Let's go first." Xia Xue turned to Lin Yuan, trying to smooth things over.

Along the way, Xia Xuechen usually didn't say a word.

"Xiaochen, did you fight with Lin Yuan?"

"Nothing."

"Then why do you ignore people when you see them? This person can't forget his roots. I watched Lin Yuan grow up. He is enthusiastic and righteous enough. He was helping you a lot when you were studying. Now You have been admitted to university and your wings have grown hard, so you look down on others? Don't forget that they are also college students, and they are of the same level as you. "

"Brother, really not. I'll ask him to come and play in a while."

"Although my brother doesn't study much, he's a rough guy, and he's careless in doing things, but I have good eyesight! You used to go to Lin Yuan to play, watch TV, do homework, play poker, and chess, and you couldn't even yell back. .In the National Day of the second year of high school, our crops grew in the field and no one harvested them, so you went to help in his field. The books, pens, and posters he bought, you didn’t take good care of them. Put it away. You didn’t even look it up when you came back this time. Let’s not talk about it, you are such an adult. Later, Lin Yuan is coming, remember to let others eat the meat in the pot. There is wine in the cabinet.”

The two chatted while eating the leftovers from last night.

"Xiao Chen?"

Said Cao Cao, Cao Cao.

"Xiaoyuan, come quickly! Xiaochen is at home. Xiaochen, come out quickly. Xiaoyuan is here." Xia Xue greeted Lin Yuan and called Xia Xuechen at the same time.

"Xiaoyuan, I'll have lunch here at noon. I'm going out to do some errands, you guys have fun."

A quiet house, Xia Xuechen and Lin Yuan.

"Sit for a while, I'll do the dishes." Xia Xuechen took the opportunity to dodge.

"Let's brush together." Lin Yuan helped clean up the dishes, Xia Xuechen did not refuse.

The two have played together since they were young, and they have a tacit understanding in doing things.Xia Xuechen was in charge of cleaning, and Lin Yuan was in charge of wiping and putting away.

"Xiaochen, I'm sorry." Lin Yuan broke the silence.

"I'd rather be like that." Xia Xuechen didn't have any expression on his face.

"I'm sorry." Lin Yuan held Xia Xuechen's hands that were covered in white dish soap foam, and looked into his eyes, which were hollow, and the tenderness of the past had disappeared.

"We used to spend New Year's Eve together, playing hide-and-seek, setting off firecrackers, and scaring people. It was the same last year, but I didn't expect it to be the last time. Xiaochen, I miss those days so much."

"Brother Xiaoyuan, we should all be content and happy. We used to be so happy. You already have Lan Feng, so treat her well."

"Xiaochen, I can't let go, I can't do it!"

"The meat is stewed in the pot, I'll serve it." So what if you can't put it down?There are too many unsatisfactory things in the world.

"Let's eat." Xia Xuechen served meat for Lin Yuan, filled it with wine, raised his head, and tried not to let the tears fall.

"Everything will be fine." Lin Yuan took a sip of his wine and left.

"Yeah, okay." Xia Xuechen was smiling, knowing in her heart that it couldn't get better.

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