all i want is a man

Tuesday, May [-], [-], sunny.

The oppressive atmosphere of the Wenchuan earthquake lingered in every corner of Y University.Everyone is working hard to contribute to the country in their own way.The weight of loss of life hits everyone.Too many small loves, small injuries and pains that are insignificant and moan without illness have become insignificant and not worth mentioning.But even in this context of the times, some pains are still very active.

Xia Xue's phone call came very suddenly. That night, Xia Xuechen, Xiao Chuan and other student volunteers were setting up the venue in Sunshine Square. Another small memorial service to commemorate the compatriots who died in the Wenchuan Earthquake will be held here.

"Xiaochen, I have something to ask you. Is there anyone else beside you?" The voice was very low, for fear of missing it.

"Wait a minute." Xia Xuechen put down what she was doing and quietly left the crowd.

"There is a piece of news titled "N University Another Homosexual Scandal"." Straight to the point.

"Really? It's unfortunate for N University." Xia Xuechen was lucky, the person in the news couldn't see his face clearly.

"Xiaochen. You can fool others, but you can't fool me. The person in that news is you. You kissed a man, and you were hugged by a man. You didn't resist at all. They said it wasn't you. But, I It's like a mirror in my heart. That's you. Xiaochen, how could you admit your mistake? I can tell if it's you if I shake my palms. Not to mention a side face, even the heel of my head, I can also know if it's you." Xia Xia Xue's voice was firm and unquestionable, but her tone was very disappointed.

Although thousands of miles apart, Xia Xuechen could still feel Xia Xue's gradual despair.

"Brother..." His eyes were disobedient and filled with tears.

"Xiaochen, Chen Fang has left the village. She said you were gay, and everyone believed you, so they went to the house to question you. I remembered what happened to Lin Yuan, so I did my best." A thrilling contest passed in a few words.

"Brother..." Thank you.Throat can't make sound at all.

"Xiaochen, tell brother. Are you gay?" The night was dark, but Xia Xuechen saw Xia Xue's bloodshot, red and lifeless eyes.

"Brother. I don't want to lie to you. I am, I am, I have always been. I have been since I was a child, I am still, and I will be in the future. I can't marry a wife and have children. I am not a good man in the Xia family." I don't know where it came from Courage, long-suppressed intimate words poured out.

"Beep-beep-" the phone hung up.

God, what the hell did I say?what did I do?Brother, I'm sorry.I'm sorry bro, I'm sorry.Why?Why did you choose me?sorry.Xia Xuechen knelt on the ground, clenched his hands into fists, and hammered the ground weakly repeatedly.Silent night, silent cry.

He had imagined the scene when he confessed to Xia Xue countless times.When he succeeds in his career, or buys a house in the city, then he can slowly tell Xia Xue what kind of people comrades are like.But now, he completely lost the initiative.In this way, Xia Xuechen reluctantly and hastily came out of the closet.

Full of grievances to whom?The old pain has just been spoken out, and the new pain has already crept into my heart.

The darkness of night is so deep and so thick.If it's like this forever, it's okay, then Xia Xuechen won't have to worry about seeing Xia Xue's disappointed eyes.Those eyes carry too much.However, after meeting Chunhuaqiushi for 23 years, there are already crow's feet raging around.There was only Xia Xuechen in those eyes.Xia Xuechen is the full brilliance of those eyes, from elementary school to middle school, from middle school to university, that ray of light blooms little by little, accumulates little by little, and now, that beam of light is about to go out.That light once illuminated Xia Xuechen's dream and moved forward bravely. In the next second, that light will no longer exist.Heartless night, heartless self.

"Xiaochen!" A familiar, low-pitched male voice.

"My brother knows." The helpless eyes were full of tears, and under the night, they were like two bright stars.

"No matter what, I want you." Only eight words, but more exciting than any notes in the world, a warm current melted Xia Xuechen's frozen path because of the loss of light.

"Xiao Chuan..." trembling voice.

"Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu whom the tip of Xiao Chuan's tongue eagerly searched for Xia Xuechen's.

A dazzling light shone into Xia Xuechen's eyes, and when she woke up, she was already on a big snow-white bed.

"Where is this?" Xia Xuechen looked around ignorantly.

"XX Hotel in University Y." Xiao Chuan had an expression that something good was about to happen.

"Have you had enough sleep?"

"Hmm." Nod.

"hungry?"

"No." Shaking his head.

"Go to the bathroom?"

"Hmm." Nod.

"Go away, fool."

"what--"

Just after flushing the toilet, Xiao Chuan suddenly appeared at the door of the bathroom without a trace, and the key words after that were: woo woo woo, um, ah, um eh, woo woo, deeper, slower, faster, um Mmm, ah, woo woo.

In the early morning of the next day, Xia Xuechen felt as if her body was not her own. Everywhere from her hair to her toenails was clamoring and protesting crazily. Every inch of her skin and every bone seemed to have been crushed by a super-heavy truck Generally, the dull pain feeling somewhere behind is clear and still.All of the symptoms indicated that some guy had changed five positions last night.

Feeling weak all over, Xia Xuechen could only use his eyes and thoughts to talk to someone.

Keep your eyes on the bathroom.

"Do you want to go to the bathroom?"

Blinking his eyes, a certain person bowed and carried Xia Xuechen to the toilet on his back.

Scanning the TV, someone meekly handed over the remote control.

Turning the head to the window sill, someone understood immediately, opened the curtain printed with small white flowers, opened the window, and a meter of sunlight instantly filled the room.

After eating porridge, taking a shower, and getting dressed, Xiao Chuan carefully carried Xia Xuechen to the bed after he was done.Leaning on two pillows behind them, the two of them nestled under the quilt, one of them showed a head, rolling two pairs of small black eyes, watching Korean dog blood soap operas.

"So, does uncle like me?" The heroine in the soap opera asked the heroine, while Xiao Chuan looked at the subtitles, followed the heroine's voice, imitating the heroine's demeanor and asked Xia Xuechen.

"Can I?" the actor in the soap opera asked the heroine, Xia Xuechen looked at the subtitles, followed the actor's voice, imitated the actor, and looked at Xiao Chuan.

"Is it so difficult to like someone? Can't he feel my feelings for uncle?" Xiao Chuan said the heroine's lines to Xia Xuechen with style.

"So, you like me?" Xia Xuechen spoke the actor's lines vividly.

Xiao Chuan and Xia Xuechen would often play this kind of small game when they were chasing dramas together, and occasionally they would get angry with each other because they didn't get their favorite character.This time Xiao Chuan ate Xia Xuechen up, so he took the initiative to keep the male lead for Xia Xuechen.This little game can make Xia Xuechen feel better every time, Xiao Chuan tried it repeatedly.

Sure enough, after an episode of the soap opera, Xia Xuechen had already curled up obediently in Xiao Chuan's arms, her left hand was still touching Xiao Chuan's chest calmly, the scar was completely healed and the pain was forgotten, the culprit of last night He could only endure it, after all, after being ravaged for several hours last night, some parts of Xia Xuechen needed to recuperate.

The sun is shining outside the window, and the indoor spring is infinite.Both of them have no more important class schedule, nor any insignificant activity interference, guarding the one they love and love themselves, doing happy things with the lover, the streamer is flying, and the room is full of romance.

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