all i want is a man

The old house was sold, a suitcase and a pair of shoulders, this was Xia Xuechen's entire net worth.At the entrance of the village is the person who sees them off. Everyone is happy, and they don't want to cry first.

"Take care of yourself outside."

"Come back when you're tired, Dashan is waiting for your return."

"This will always be your home."

"Good boy, you are a college student in the village, everyone is proud of you."

The village quietly watched him leave the place where he grew up, and he felt that there were countless hot eyes gathering behind him.The sobs spread contagiously from one point to all.

"Xiaochen, take care!" The old branch secretary's voice trembled.

"Take care, child." Uncle Zhang was already sobbing.

The young figure didn't look back, and went away amidst the roar of the bus.

Apart from crying, Xia Xuechen didn't know what else to do.Open the window and let the wind blow on your face and chest.Tears welled up from the eyes, flowed down the cheeks on both sides, flowed down the neck, and flowed onto the chest.Raising his hand to wipe it, the tears flowed down his hand again, on the palm of his hand, and on the back of his hand.

A shoulder leaned over.Unconsciously leaning forward, warm and thick, Xia Xuechen secretly prayed in her heart, Bodhisattva, please forgive me for my mistakes this time.Please let me lean one last time on the one I love.

Got off the bus and got on the train.Get off the train, get on the bus.I was speechless all the way.

"Let's go for a walk together?" At eight o'clock in the evening, the neon lights of the city reflected Xia Xuechen's side face unrealistically.

"Yeah." She hugged Xia Xuechen's shoulder.

"You know? I've liked you since the first time I saw you." Xia Xuechen couldn't help smiling when the past happened.

"Really?" She was surprised and delighted, but felt an ominous premonition.

"It's really a pleasure to be liked, loved by you, and taken care of by you. I'm afraid no one in this world can refuse. I originally imagined that I could spend my whole life with you like this. Xiao Chuan, with you, I am very happy." satisfy."

"Xiaochen..." Holding Xia Xuechen's hand firmly, Xiao Chuan was both excited and scared, happy and nervous.

Interrupting Xiao Chuan's words, Xia Xuechen continued to look at the flickering lights in the distance, and said slowly: "When you play ball, I will bring you meals; when you are sick, I will feed you medicine; You are happy; when you are happy, I will giggle with you. If possible, I hope to take care of you for the rest of my life."

"Xiaochen, is it true?" Xiao Chuan asked almost jumping, there is nothing more gratifying than getting the maximum or even excess return for one's efforts.

Xia Xuechen said nothing, a slight smile appeared on the corner of her lips, and she looked at Xiao Chuan tenderly.Those eyes had lost color, Xiao Chuan wanted to see himself from inside with great gratitude, but there was only pure white and black inside.

They still don't believe it.Turning her head, Xia Xuechen sighed softly and said, "You once asked me if I liked Lin Yuan. I said yes.

In fact, I didn't know until later that I love him, I love you, and I love my brother.However, the feeling is different.They bring me spring breeze, you give me summer.You are my love, they are my family.Without spring, summer will not come.I can't continue to talk about love after Lin Yuan is dead, Xia Xue is dead, and all my relatives are dead. I really can't bear to talk about love like this. "

These words, Xia Xuechen said more and more urgently, even though the night was hazy, Xiao Chuan could still feel that Xia Xuechen had a strange look on his face.Xia Xuechen's ears felt slightly hot due to mood swings, and Xiao Chuan knew that something bad was about to happen.

He didn't care about the pedestrians passing by on the street from time to time, and he didn't care that it was the peak time for students to go back to the dormitory for evening self-study. He was afraid that if he was a second late, his lover would go away.

Xia Xuechen walked in front, a pair of powerful, irresistible arms bound him tightly.He didn't resist, and didn't want to resist, so he just let Xiao Chuan hug and hug him.In my impression, the man behind me has used his warm body to cling to himself countless times like this, warming himself and melting himself.

Xiao Chuan breathed out hot air on Xia Xuechen's neck, and that familiar, intense, fiery itching slid from his neck all the way into Xia Xuechen's heart.What a treat.Xia Xuechen's heart melted.He shed tears silently.

Slowly freeing the arms that passed under the armpit, Xia Xuechen sniffed, without turning around, the voice was just enough for the people behind to hear: "I think I should be responsible for them and do something for them. I can't bear to leave They live a happy life by themselves. I often feel that they are watching me. They are my relatives, they love me, give me happiness, help me, they die for me. If it is not because I like you, Lin I will never hang out with men, if it is not because I like men, my brother will not be too hard. There will be many people who love you, and you will have new happiness as long as you forget me. Forget me."

These words were like a thunderbolt from the blue sky, and Xiao Chuan heard them very clearly.He wanted to use all the naked joy of the past to dispel the momentary uneasiness, but finally succeeded in failing.

A burst of dizziness.

Xiao Chuan wanted to call the person in front of him to stop, but his two slightly warm lips suppressed his voice, and there was a roar in his ears.

Xia Xuechen disappeared into the neon-lit street.

Pedestrians walked past Xiao Chuan one by one, happy or sad, fast or slow.He stayed on the spot on his side, unable to move for a long time.A gust of wind blows the dust, for a long time, for a long time, he feels that something in his heart is struggling, tearing, the pain is so painful that he can't make a sound.

The street lamps dimmed a few more times, his head was deeply buried between his knees, his shoulders trembled, and the cry of "嘤嘤" became louder, more real, and thicker. "Don't—" he howled in the street, tears weaving a web on his face.Finally, he couldn't bear it anymore, and ran away into the distance.

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