without me

Because of Ci Hai's phrase "There are so many tribulations", Jiang Ci remained silent for a while.I don’t know what I gained from this trip. Even the corners and corners of Yuanshan Temple seem to have a unique meaning that is different from the outside world—maybe it’s just "unique" to me, but I still think it’s worth it when.

Out of the corner of his eye, Jiang Ci propped his arms on the case, propped his face sideways, biting his cuff absently, and the innocent piece of fabric became crumpled.

"not in a good mood."

Not asking, based on my understanding of him, it's almost inseparable.

The other party turned his head in a daze, and I thought this expression was very funny for a while, like when he was a child and secretly took my candy, but he was stunned when he was suddenly found out—a fool.

Resemblance to image is different after all.

I went to the window and opened it wider, a little bit of street noise and laughter could be heard, which couldn't cover the big sun hanging in the sky.

"Old fifth."

There was a soft "ah" from behind.

Close your eyes and carefully search through the various chats in the past, not afraid of missing any details, and go back if it's a big deal.Perhaps because of this relaxation, the process was not difficult or a headache at all, and some details floated to the pupils.When I reacted, a gust of air had risen from my abdomen, sighing out of my nose and throat.

Mostly still miss it.

"Old Five," I opened my squinted eyes and walked back, "I remember Fourth Aunt mentioned a certain street before, saying that there was a restaurant that had thin wonton skins and fresh meat."

When the title was said, Jiang Ci silently looked up, and finally let go of his sleeve.

"I have been greedy for many years, and I want to see it."

The corner of my eye fell on the other party's face, and the naked eye could see that my words had achieved results. I pretended not to care and said, "If you haven't recovered your physical strength, you can stay and watch your luggage. I'll borrow it, Ajiu."

Before he finished speaking, he heard a series of "hey hey hey hey!" from the person in front of him. Jiang Ci bent down and patted his clothes, but paused - seeing his wrinkled and poor sleeves, he had no choice but to brush them off comfortingly. Dust.

"Sister, I think my physical strength is better now. I won't be tired when I climb the stairs, and I can walk four blocks in one go! Let Ajiu stay here, it's fine."

The statement was extremely exaggerated for his own situation. I watched him try his best to defend himself, and I couldn't help laughing out loud, mixed with sadness that I didn't realize.

Jiang Ci waved his arms to show his nonexistent muscles, and finally asked cautiously: "Sister, are you sure you still remember that street...what's the name of that restaurant?"

I spread my hands helplessly, "They say I've been greedy for many years, and I'm going to get moldy in my heart, and it still tastes bad after I lose it. How can I not remember it."

It’s really not my fault. My fourth aunt told me about the hometown dishes that I can’t forget with a smile on my face. It was so fragrant that I sat on the chair and couldn’t reach the ground. I swayed as if I smelled the smell of sesame oil. .I am not picky about my food, and I can still drool while listening to those onions, ginger, garlic and coriander.

But this restaurant has been emphasized by her, and the smile between her brows is clearer, brighter than the "green light" that emerges when I hear delicious food.

"Xu'er likes sweets, right?" Fourth Aunt clapped her hands lightly, with a deep smile in her tone, "I think Xu'er will like it there."

With memories and the tenderness of time, I have created a little bit of yearning, so small that if it is not today, I will not think of it at all.

While walking on the road, although Jiang Ci and A Jiuda couldn’t understand most of the language, thanks to my mother, I could barely communicate—Jiang Youwei’s first wife and fourth roommate, Ruan Chenji and Ji Yuping, my mother and fourth aunt, are from the same village.

The young servants in the mansion, and even all the juniors, except me, don't know about this matter.

When my mother was ill, most of the words she said were confused, and only the fourth aunt could understand the local accent.Many times the mansion would not leave anyone to take care of her, but the more I heard it, the more I understood.While the "savvy" of unknown origin is still there, I will ask my fourth aunt for advice, even after she is gone... It is really thanks to my mother who often loses control, and I still don't forget it.

Half recalling and half asking for directions, I managed to find a street similar to the description.Merely similar, the changes over the years will not be just a little bit.I can't see the momentum of crowding, and some of them are regular customers at a glance, chatting with the second class in the store for a while.

Unexpectedly, Jiang Ci was still in high spirits, so I had to help him explain what he said in the middle, which made people sigh "hard-working child" again and again!

...That's right, I'm starting to struggle.

Holding the snacks that "Xu'er would like" in his arms, he inquired about a suspected restaurant, but it closed forever many years ago. The passers-by who heard the rumor didn't know the reason, so they could only tell so much.

I asked Jiang Ci if he could hold on, but this kid showed his usual strength to go out and play around, and he seemed to tirelessly want to "chase the sun".

"Sister," he turned his head full of energy, met my resentful eyes, and asked tentatively, "...Look for it?"

Oh, who is that breathless man in front of the carriage?I really don't know it.

"……Fine."

I saw his pupils sparkling, and my resentment subsided, and I took a long breath to try to lift my spirits.This land has a strong atmosphere of local people. Seeing the sun is still hanging in the sky, but smelling the air seems to be raining.

"Believe it or not?" I told Jiang Ci my guess.

He pursed his lips and smiled with an expression of "Don't try to lie to me", "Sister, you are tired when you are tired, don't make excuses."

After walking for a while, I could still smell the rain, so I elbowed Jiang Ci.

"Make a bet?"

"Okay, what are you betting on?" As he said, he took a mouthful of crispy meat and put it in his mouth, tasting some kind of sweet and sour seasoning.

After thinking about it, I narrowed my eyes, "If you lose, go to Zhangtai for a whole day without touching girls or flirting."

Jiang Ci blurted out, "Jane..." He paused, as if swallowing meat, and said angrily.

"It's just too much!"

"Then what if I win...?"

During the conversation, a dilapidated house came into view, and it was easy to imagine what it looked like before. It was also prosperous, right?

Instead, I asked the nearby residents who came over as if nothing had happened, probably because they saw us two unfamiliar faces standing in a daze in front of the closed shop, and came to ask the situation out of curiosity.

I just said that I wanted to know some memories of the other party about this restaurant. He only said that he seemed to have eaten the wonton here once, and it was very ordinary.But the signature dish is something else. It looks pretty good according to others, but after the business is bleak, it will not recover after a setback.

It's very...ordinary, but it makes people miss it.

More things are unknown, Jiang Ci and I looked at each other and gave up tracing.This thing is not necessary.

I just rested under the eaves for a while, continued the topic just now, I tidied up the corner of my clothes when I sat down, and asked: "You didn't say it just now, what if you win?"

Jiang Ci swallowed his food and folded up the greased paper.

"Sister, if I hide something from you, don't blame me."

It sounds a little serious, and I'm not surprised by his changes these days.

"When you grow up, you should have your own ideas." I paused and lowered my eyes to look at the moss on the steps.

"As for your future, it should have nothing to do with me, it should have nothing to do with me."

"So...haha, that's fine too."

In fact, I always tell Jiang Ci and Zhuiyan openly and secretly that in a few years, the Jiang Mansion may no longer be my place to stay-this is my own choice, even if it also brings with me the feelings of wandering. Nervous and timid.

Without knowing his expression, Jiang Ci remained silent, but helped me get some food and share some weight with his empty hands.

These days... I have become more and more timid.

"It's something you'll come into contact with when you're old." He rubbed his chin indistinctly, seeing that it was getting dark before evening.

time to go.

Wipe off the dust from the cloth, and walk back along the road, as far as the eye can see, it seems that not only the sky is dim, but bricks and tiles, one person on each side.

Jiang Ci stepped on the gravel on the ground and jumped forward, his ponytail dangling like tassels on a sword, but he seemed to ignore it and was very focused.

The time and place were different, my boots were no longer on the muddy ground, and alleys were connected in a trance in front of me.

After walking this road, is it right to the river bank?

The illusion made people a little dizzy, and there was a coolness above the drowsy head.

"... Jiang Ci."

The person who was playing in front of me turned back in response, and I quickened my pace and patted him on the shoulder.

"Hurry up! You've lost badly!"

After saying that, he dropped the other party and ran, the outer robe was untied and covered his head, and his hands were firmly held on both sides.The unobstructed line of sight is clear, and the distance stretches rapidly under the feet.

Reaching for a vague destination in memory.

"Eh? Ehhh—!"

Jiang Ci yelled and chased after him, his footsteps sounded a little staggered, but his words were still filled with joy.

"It's over, it's over," he managed to catch up, trying to snatch the clothes I held high above my head, "Sister, don't be so stingy!"

As soon as I knocked off the opponent's hand, my running movement suddenly accelerated, and I replied with a loud voice.

"You have to hang out by yourself, it's none of my business!"

"Wow, how can you be so indifferent? You can't be like this!"

The voice got closer, but was dragged away again.

"None of my business!"

I don't know where I went, but I just confirmed that I was going back the same way.I laughed nonchalantly, "Pay for your arrogance, brat."

The raindrops seemed to be agreeing to the words just now, and they hit the clothes desperately, and a few splashes of water quickly and heavily bloomed under the boots.

The curtains from the eaves hung down to the ground, and the windows were opened one by one. Some heads poked out to exclaim that it was not good, and hurried out of the room to collect all the clothes and bedding to dry.The dust and moss were inevitably wet, perhaps because my footsteps were too heavy, I could have been able to hide comfortably on the edge of the mottled steps, and the idle bricks also showed traces of flow that should not have been there.

This is not the first rainy day I have spent outside, at least in so many years, it is not the first time I have a feeling of lucidity and trance.

But I suddenly realized that the two are not "incompatible".Instead, they are living in harmony in the mind.

They reappeared very differently than when they had sneaked north, though it was the same dust, the same earth that belonged.

Until the return journey in the carriage, I was somewhat out of my mind sitting in the carriage.

Some things have long been less clear-cut, but they still have extremes, and people can still swim in them, or stay at the end of the earth.

"Still angry?"

Jiang Ci sat on the side with his back to me, vowing not to look back, his voice came out angrily from his nasal cavity.

"Humph!"

Listen, it's not my responsibility that you became a drowned chicken yesterday... I wanted to say that, but I couldn't stand it in my own eyes, the other party seemed to be a "child".

Do kids need a reason to be angry?do you need?

Well, I was wrong and gave him a perfect opportunity.

"Jiang... resignation?"

I tried to wake up the dormant sibling friendship, but it seemed to have fallen asleep in Jiang Ci's heart.His neck was exaggerated, and he looked like he was about to cramp soon, "Hmph!"

"... Take it easy, it's your turn to stay in bed when you flick your neck."

Due to the rain on the ground, the carriage was rattling on the muddy road.

At first glance, Jiang Ci thought it made sense!He raised his hand and touched the back of his neck, "It's a little sore..."

"That's right."

Pulling your neck all the way without stopping, who is sore if you are not sour?

I glanced out of the window from the corner of my eye, and I got up and went to the front to lift the curtain and asked, "Ajiu! Did you change the way?"

The figure driving the horse and holding the reins replied: "Back to the young master, the road we walked the day before yesterday was blocked by a huge stone, so we have to go around!"

"Know the way?"

"Yes, don't worry!"

He returned to his seat with his back hunched, and when he turned his head, Jiang Ci still refused to let go.The angle of the person with the buttocks is even more exaggerated, leaving me with a lonely back, as if I noticed the sight falling on me.

"Humph!"

...the mess is endless.

It took a long time to talk and coax, just like a master teaching his disciples to be right.From the beginning to the end until returning home, all I could see was the high ponytail swaying back and forth, Jiang Ci striding with his hands behind his back.

Ajiu went to put away his things, and the nearby servants in that area heard the movement and bowed down to salute.

The hot summer sun slapped the ground a few times, and a few clusters of flowers in the courtyard probably died of the sun.It was just something to save face, none of the masters and wives cared about it, neither did the maids and servants.

The sound of brisk footsteps sounded familiar.

"Chasing swallows?" I turned around and caught off guard to meet him, jumping forward regardless of my image.

"Brother!"

I quickly spread my arms to catch the girl, and staggered back a few steps.

"Cough... it's heavy, it's heavy."

"what?"

Zhuiyan bounced away from me all of a sudden, turned around a few times to look back and forth at his figure, and then put his hand on his abdomen and pinched it.

"... Fat?" She asked tentatively.

I nodded, "It's really fat, but it's just right now, don't be so skinny, it should be blown away by the wind."

Jiang Ci, who was about to part ways, listened to the chat here, and trotted all the way over.

"What are you talking about?"

Zhuiyan seemed not to see him, lowered his head and asked with flickering eyes: "Really, just right?"

"...Yes." I looked at Jiang Ci's "open teeth and claws" beside me, and tried to hold back my smile.

He moved behind Zhuiyan and circled around her, "What are you talking about? Take me with you."

"Look, elder brother almost fell down just now, it doesn't seem to be just right..." Zhuiyan's thin eyebrows frowned, "It must be a little swollen."

I patted my shoulder, "It's fine now, brother didn't react just now."

"Really?"

"You should look at me!"

"...Pfft, really."

I could vaguely feel the smiles of the maids around me, and when I turned around, I saw twos and threes not daring to approach, but couldn't bear to hold their cheeks with their narrow sleeves.

Jiang Ci was still aggrieved and circled around Chase Yan, who pretended not to see him and chatted with me as if he didn't notice.

"Cough," I tried to change the topic without any trace, "I'll ask Ajiu if he has put away his things, and I'll share some food with you."

So he escaped smoothly, and Zhuiyan thought it was fun so he played, but Jiang Ci's movements became more and more fragmented.

I went out four or five steps and eavesdropped quietly. I turned my head slightly, but Jiang Ci couldn't see it, but it was almost time to cry—everyone knew it, just pretending to coax people.

"Zhuiyan, Zhuiyan, you don't want your brother anymore? Don't imitate...don't imitate your elder brother."

The other party raised the corners of his mouth slightly without looking sideways, and after a while, Jiang Ci walked despondently to his room.Being abandoned by my sister again, being ignored by my sister again... What a tragedy.

Zhuiyan watched him walk a certain distance, his mouth opened wider, his eyes formed a crescent moon, "Brother?"

Seemingly not hearing the leaving figure, she cleared her throat.

"elder brother--!"

The other party quickly turned around to answer, and then she took a step forward and ran forward.

"Brother! You idiot—"

Jiang Ci and I just stretched out our arms to respond, but because of the calls of Chasing Yan again, he pounced unexpectedly.

"Hey, hey! Little ancestor, you can take it easy!"

"You idiot," Chasing Yan embraced her with both hands, grabbing the clothes on the other side's back and refusing to let go, "I don't care, I'm your sister, if you still pounce on me in the future, you'll have to follow her for the rest of your life, there's no way you can escape."

"Yes, yes, my sister is right...it really sank again."

Then there was another eh, I let them fight like children in the distance, just shook my head and smiled.

If you go out again, you won't be able to hear it very much. There are cicadas singing and the sound continues. The clean and lively scene along the way is full of the busyness of the house, and there is something new day after day.

Ajiu was holding something, and I took away the few bags of food that were not broken, and the smell was still lingering.

I thought about giving him a little bit, but the other party seemed a little at a loss, so I put my elbow on his back pretending to be an old man, "That's right, you've worked hard."

Carrying it to pick it up for Zhuiyan, she ate a bit dubiously under Jiang Ci's urging.Maybe when she thought it was something unpalatable, she was stunned when she wrapped up the remaining fragrance.

"How?" Jiang Ci didn't hide his expectation.

"Ah? How's it going..." Zhui Yan was a little slow in wiping off the oil on his hands.

"It doesn't taste like our food...I seem to have eaten it before."

Jiang Ci and I didn't pay attention to those few short sentences, but she was busy reminiscing, her beautiful brows were slightly frowned.

Jiang Ci was sitting on the bed in the house, Zhui Yan was a chair, and I was carrying that cute little horse as usual.

Although she didn't understand, no one bothered her, and began to gnaw her thumb subconsciously.

"Yes... what's going on?"

Not long after, the other party showed a look of enlightenment, clapped his hands together, and said, "By the way, it's Mrs. Ruan!"

Mrs. Nguyen?

After she suddenly realized it, I couldn't figure it out, how could my mother bring food from home to Zhuiyan?

Seeing that I seemed to be in deep thought, the other party continued to explain.

"Madam Ruan secretly brought it to me a few days after my mother was buried," she tapped her finger on the table, "Zhuiyan doesn't quite remember what it is, but it must have the same taste as this."

And we bought it according to what the fourth aunt recalled... Zhuiyan must not know about it. Although my mother and her are from the same hometown, things are very different in different villages.

Will there be such a coincidence?Probably, there is no explanation other than coincidence.

"Zuiyan," I took the initiative to interrupt my thoughts, "Do you like it?"

She thought for a while, and replied seriously: "I like it, maybe Zhui Yan likes these more than the cauldron of Chef Scar."

An indistinct voice suddenly appeared in his mind, which coincided with Zhuiyan's opening.

It was vague and indistinct, but its clear face and figure could not be seen.

"Compared to the big iron pot with the scar, I really like the food from my hometown... But I should be used to it."

"Eating it in my parents' restaurant since I was a child - of course, I know that the taste is really not very good, but I'm used to it."

She fiddled with the simple wooden hairpin on her head, pretending to be relaxed and telling me.

"If you say you hate it, the weight of nostalgia is actually even deeper."

My two little hands were resting on the low table. I was still a little fat at that time, and my head was slightly tilted on one shoulder. "Xu'er doesn't understand."

The man squatted down, put his hands on the table as I did, and tilted his head to this side.

"I don't understand, it's good that I don't understand," she narrowed her eyes and smiled, "Xu'er will understand in the future..."

"No, it's best that Xu'er never understands for the rest of his life."

"There are still words..."

"Si Yiniang hopes that you will never understand in your life."

If the conversation happened when she was pregnant with Zhuiyan, she would probably stroke her growing belly and say something softly.

"Mother also hopes that you... will never understand in this life."

Looking at the girl who was chattering endlessly in front of her, next to her was a kid who complained and quarreled as soon as she heard it, and she was obviously not annoying at all... brat.

With such a peaceful and peaceful scene, I used [-]% of my strength to stop myself from saying that sentence—it seems that they have inherited most of the shadow of the fourth aunt, as if she is still there, I am not alone, and my mother is not alone.

In a blink of an eye, the chattering and laughing in front of me turned into two bold brats, as if they were spending the same years.

how long has it been?

A day, a month, a year...

The distance between Zhuiyan's birth and her departure.Look, the fetus you used to caress across your stomach every day, although it is a bit far from the image of a lady, is higher than my chest.

It's just that I miss that unscrupulous gentleness. Chasing Yan has not reached that time, and the kindness has not been polished.

Later, I wandered aimlessly outside, and in a blink of an eye I came to a somewhat familiar road surrounded by lush trees.

Going further, I saw a wall that was not too high, with a kite hanging on it, which didn't look obtrusive.

After a long while of reaction, it turned out to be behind the Hongxing Building.

I froze for a walk, turned and left after thinking for a moment, shaking my head subconsciously.

On the way back home, there was something in my blank mind, perhaps anticipation.

Jiang An was running around in the yard, as if he was looking for something. When he saw me stepping in, he hurriedly ran to him, "The eldest young master, go to the master's study, he is talking with the third young master."

"What does it have to do with me?" I looked at him and frowned, "Why are you in such a hurry? What's your business?"

"I'm missing you. The master ordered to find you." He bowed deeply and raised his head slightly.

I asked, "Is there anyone else? The fifth and sixth."

The other party sighed exaggeratedly: "No more, there is no one else, just you and the third young master."

Suspiciously rushed over, in fact, it was not too unexpected.Since the "hozen" chat last time, the master has asked us a few older people to discuss more times, let him understand our fears, and let us know what he wants to do—although Not obvious.

I pushed open the door of the room I was so familiar with these days, still holding the mazar in my hand.

Just like what Jiang An said, there were only two people in the study but no one else.Jiang Yushan's extraordinary talent has removed Mrs. Wei's harsh face, "Why don't you sit on a chair, brother?"

"Comfortable," I didn't care about the strangeness, I put it away, picked up the robe and sat down, my eyes fell firmly on the other person's face, with a smile on my face, the suggestion turned into a clear statement, "Convenient."

After the height was emphasized, his face turned even more blue and black, so the master rolled up his sleeves free, and spread his palms down on the two of us.

Then, the sound in the room stopped for a moment.

"Xu'er, my father is talking to Yu Shan." His eyes were complicated, and he seemed to ask softly, but he saw something strange - I always saw it in the eyes of those wolves, tigers and leopards.

"Do you have any relative... children of courtiers?"

This question really surprised me, the master has made his intentions clear, I thought about it, and replied with a sigh: "I have never had any social interaction."

In the past, I always dealt with those shop owners or shopkeepers, and most of all, the folks in the village, and it was not boring.

"Yu Shan doesn't go out too often, remember that he moves a lot, and the number of friends with long hands and feet can be said to be numerous."

Jiang Yushan couldn't help laughing when he heard this, and raised his chin slightly, "I just told my father, not much, not much."

The master lowered his eyes and pondered, and after a while, he explained to me, "The Chen family can ask Aju, even though it is a branch, they can also inquire about one or two; I really don't know the attitude of Master Ye of the Ye family, since there is friendship, why not?" Don't try it; Yu Shan, go and help me to insinuate the Shen family's thoughts..."

At this point, I stretched out one of my clasped hands and raised it in front of me, interrupting: "Old Master Shen is right about listening to His Majesty, what does Father want to do?"

"That's what happened," he said in a low and hoarse voice, "but it's Mrs. Shen, maybe Mrs. Shen may be."

The master's attitude is very clear, in order to avoid being held accountable, he will not hesitate to cling to Na Baichuan's belly, and will not hesitate to use any means.

In this way, in this way...

……wrong!

I stood up with a jerk, goosebumps couldn't help floating to the surface, and my eyes were probably full of horror.

"You want to rebel together?"

He swallowed his saliva more than once while speaking, and the fear that could not be concealed was exposed layer by layer in this small study.

Combined with the families I mentioned just now... I know that although there are few, the master who is also a courtier in the court can see more clearly and know more widely.However, after traveling and visiting in the past few days, the meaning revealed in the words, it is easy to guess why it is regarded as the starting point.

Of course some of them want to oppose.

As for the Shen family, the old man is a loyal minister of Tie Da, but his son, the old man Shen, knows how to adapt.If there is an intention to wait and see what happens, if you keep it like this, if the emperor sits unshakably on the dragon chair, he won't be the first to be protected by him—this is Jiang Youwei's calculation, and if this is the case, this is the best choice.

But after I impulsively pointed it out, the master showed an elusive smile, "Okay, you are indeed the young master of the Jiang family."

The still somewhat hoarse voice made Jiang Yushan, who was originally confused, get a glimpse of the fur, especially after getting an affirmative answer, he would never have only a half-knowledge.

"Rebellion, rebellion..." He repeated these two words blankly, but the sharpness in his throat became more and more sharp, "Rebellion, rebellion...rebellion!"

"Stop yelling!" I couldn't help sternly yelling to stop, ran outside the door and carefully examined it left and right, and closed it again after several back and forth, for fear that someone would be stuck outside the window or at the door.

I only heard about the problems in many places... Some people always say that it is not far from the "people's livelihood", but it is normal.

This choice is very, very normal.

Looking back at the tiger who made the decision, I was surprised that I suddenly understood one of the meanings behind the complexity——

You are afraid, but you are also afraid!

You made the decision, and our whole family has to take responsibility for your decision, and you yourself are afraid?

Yeah, so what if you choose normal?It's not like betting your life.

I didn't sit down immediately, and I couldn't slow it down by leaning on the wall, knowing that my pupils were probably very loose.

"This is going to be beheaded, beheaded..."

"All right."

The master did not knock on the table to scold him, but in my eyes he was more terrifying than usual.Yes, he is very scary, he has no heart for Jiang Ci and Zhui Yan, but he holds their heads!

Who is this person in front of me?I don't know... I probably do. This person is the master of the Jiang family, Jiang Yiqiong, Jiang Yushan, the father of the fourth, fifth, sixth, and seventh, the mother, and the husband of Mrs. Chen.He is my father, my mother's husband, and fourth aunt's husband.

He is Jiang An, Yingxiu, and Ajiu, their masters.

How much... How much, to actually decide to rebel, since then there are only two paths left: life or death.

I cringe at this, but there is no way... There is no way to take this body out, and those two children, the child who has not yet been named...

"I... father!"

My voice also gritted my teeth, not as sharp as Yu Shan's, and richer and heavier than that of fear.

The person who was called tried to hide his expression, as if in this way he would not be afraid to die.

"You, don't do this." On the other hand, Jiang Yushan, who only heard the word beheaded, didn't seem to think of his own death. I knew it was due to his ignorance.

Then he picked up the Maza and walked out, regardless of what the people behind him were saying, he slammed the door open.

"Shut up, I want to live too!"

I just broke down and yelled the last sentence to the too small study room, my dazed mind was talking to myself and regained consciousness, but my chest felt even more uncomfortable.

There was only that sentence in his mind, and he ran amok in the mansion, and couldn't find the room that belonged to him.

"I……"

The breath is also wandering randomly in the body, disturbing the rush of blood, rushing to the eyes and closing the doors and windows, refusing to open.

The previous conversations were all hints, hinting at how close the danger was to him.But now it tells me that the closest thing to you is not danger, you can't avoid it - it is standing above your head, covered with dark clouds, but you can't see the scorching sun.

I walked all the way to the soles of my feet and felt the pain, as if I had just woken up from numbness.

There is a shadow in front of me in a trance, turning and approaching because of my pain.

"Syr?"

The voice is very familiar to me, and it has been around my ears since I was born.

She came over with light steps, held my hand, and asked in a slow voice: "What's wrong with Xu'er, who bullied you?"

"No," I wanted to deal with it, but I was still entangled in that sentence before I opened my mouth, so I just called out, "...Mom."

"Mother is here." Ruan Chenji touched my head with a kind expression

"Don't cry like a woman, it's not good for people to see."

Before the words fell, I suddenly woke up and looked at the person in front of me vigilantly. Fortunately, there was no sign of an attack.

I was relieved and gently waved her hand away.

"Xu'er was a little tired, he went the wrong way for a while, he should go back to his room."

Just like when I left the study, I didn't care that the people behind me hesitated to speak, and avoided everything while fleeing.

When he returned to his room, the windows and doors were all closed.The moment I got on the bed, tiredness swept over me. I hugged the quilt and lay down overwhelmed. I closed my eyes, but I didn't squeeze a single tear.

"Not promising..."