without me

The state of ignorance lasted for nearly half a month, and the sense of impatience brought about by the scorching heat became more and more obvious.I just stayed in a closed room all day, until someone "visited".

"Brother?"

The knocking on the door outside the house was very skillful and controlled just right, neither inaudible nor too irritable and impolite.

Only in this way, the identity of the visitor is clear at a glance.

"Please..." He didn't speak for a long time, but he was as hoarse as a master.I closed my eyes and took a few deep breaths, then quickly poured a few mouthfuls of water, "Cough, please come in."

Jiang Wenru gently opened the door and walked in, the moment he raised his eyes was incredible.

"Brother, is this?" He realized that I didn't know what was going on at all. He wanted to go out to get something, but he walked around a few times or stayed here, took out his chair and sat upright.

I watched him hesitate to speak, and gently urged: "If you have something to ask, just say it."

"Really..." The other party sighed calmly, and asked full of doubts, "Brother has been shut up for the past few days, and he has worn down a lot."

is it?

There has never been a mirror in the house, Jiang Wenru probably wanted to use it for me to look after.The so-called haggard, he said, is dry and dull lips, ashen complexion, and dead silence in the pupils.

I frowned and asked, "Really?"

"It's absolutely true," he was still puzzled, "how could this be?"

Jiang Wenru's surprise was like a mirror, as if he could imagine his current ugly appearance through this look.I thought he came to visit out of good intentions, but my eyes didn't dare to fall to the ground.

Maybe... the master hasn't told them yet, but I realize that I'm selfishly hoping they don't know, so that they can go on with their lives without any worries, and let it be...naturally.

I asked a few hints, but the other party was confused, so I had to fool around and say that I was listening to a play outside, and I was in a bad mood.

After the topic was pulled away, it seemed lighter, but the thoughts were still in a mess.

They don't know, they should know, they should know that they are carrying such boulders invisibly.If the rebellion really happened, it would be nothing... If it didn't, once a thorough investigation is carried out, I don't believe that the people sitting in the dragon chair will not be able to find out!

If it doesn't work, they shouldn't lose their heads in a daze.

After Jiang Wenru left, my struggle came to an end. Thinking of the haggardness the other party said, I lost something because of this trouble.

It is my essence to be greedy for pleasure and accustomed to ease, and it is my essence to be cowardly and incompetent.

Somehow, I stood up, went to the window with a blank mind.There should be no light coming in here, and the ignorant cicadas can still be heard through the wall.Stretching out his hand to push it away, the sun was dazzling for a while, but he didn't seem to feel the pain in his eyes, staring straight at the green plants that were lazy to build outside.So numb, I rarely sat directly on the window sill, with my feet only a few finger heights from the ground.

Yingxiu, who passed by in a hurry, carried a big wooden basin, looked up at me in surprise, changed her posture and saluted respectfully, "Master."

In this way, I have to respond to this ridiculous title, and now I can't naively think about why.

"Then don't think about it so much."

The words from Chasing Yan's childhood resurfaced again, I nodded noncommittally, walked down from the window, and walked outside Jiang's mansion.I don't even know where I'm going.

Looking at the people coming and going on the street, all of them are running around for their livelihood, sweating profusely pushing carts in the distance.

In this world, there are only two ways to live and die, right?

Thinking of this, I finally realized clearly that I have to let myself fend for myself, and I don't need ridiculous reason to stop it, or just cover it up.But this didn't make me feel the slightest bit of relief. On the contrary, I saw the infinitely extended sadness at the end of the road.

"Let's go, come on, let's go!" The shoving crowd rushed in the other direction. I was just walking aimlessly, so I let the crowd blow me to where.

The piled voices gradually approached, and there were dense whispers in my ears.

"It's a crime." "It deserves it."

I looked up and saw the scene in front of me, and I couldn't help being stunned—it was a mess, the tables and chairs were broken, and the decorations were scattered all over the floor. The sign at the door still said "Hongxinglou" three A word, but it was divided into two, with a sharp crack in the middle.

Like the passers-by just now, I yelled "Give way!" I also experienced the surprise that Jiang Wenru felt when he saw me in the morning.

The crowd was abruptly stopped by the stubborn girls, who put their stubborn temper on the surface on the grounds that they were not allowed to enter unless they were guests.

"What's going on here?"

I pushed away the person blocking my view, trying to see the scene clearly, and stayed in front of the girl who stretched out her hand to stop her.

It's really... a tragic situation.

Suddenly, a girl with braids and a lavender sachet on her waist said to me, "Guest officer, you look so familiar."

Without waiting for my reply, she explained on her own, as if she had suddenly realized.

"Brother of the young master."

"Exactly," I felt that the other party seemed to have good intentions, so I almost asked, "What happened in the building?"

"It's hard to talk about the slave family, but you can let the young master go in and have a look. We don't hinder our business."

After finishing speaking, the stretched slender hands made a gap for me, I thanked and got in, and behind me became an impenetrable human wall again.There were also some who took the opportunity to eat tofu. The girl couldn't care less about it and she just opened her red lips and cursed back. I could see and hear it clearly.

In order not to let others notice my existence, I leaned against the wall and walked around.

"Cry, cry, cry, why cry!"

The madam stood in the center and threw the handkerchief to the ground, flung it like a whip, and the fierce anger in her eyes overwhelmed the entire building.

The sobbing sound was slightly familiar, and it came from a woman kneeling on the ground covering her face and weeping carefully. The madam pulled her shoulders and shook her, "I knew it was causing trouble for me, it's okay now, people came directly to the door and smashed the signboard! "

I listened in the corner, pretending to be nonchalant, and from the corner of my eye, I saw a figure who was also just watching and pretending.

As if he noticed that someone was staring at him, the other party also searched for me and walked here with big strides.

"Young Master Xu." He Huang beckoned without saluting, and motioned to go upstairs without asking further questions.

It was also the place where we chatted and had tea last time, so I said first, "I have nothing to do to wander around, I haven't seen you for a few days, and Hongxinglou has turned into this."

The other party picked up a handful of melon seeds on the table, and after I looked downstairs for a while, I found the face of the woman who was kneeling on the training ground, "Shuitao...?"

"Let the magistrate's son go to bed. After the young lady finds out, it's not like bringing someone to smash the shop today."

It's so concise...Under the attic, Shuitao cried so hard that she was about to lose her breath, she simply put down her hands covering her face, her beautiful face was stained with rouge from crying, and she cried so badly.The red lips suddenly looked like a bloody mouth. A few days ago, I lamented "a man-eating monster", but wept into this miserable appearance.

There is an unwritten rule in Hongxinglou, sober people don't ask questions, and they are strangers when they serve well; people who are not sober must know their identities before they can do things behind closed doors.

"I don't know, I really don't know," wiped the salty tears on the back of his hand like a peach and white jade, putting more color on his face, "He threw the money over drunk, and I asked as usual, he He only said that he was a domestic servant... I didn't know he was the son of the county magistrate!"

The bustard's eyes were horrifying, and she patted the other's cheek twice with a cold tone, and her eyes met.

"Don't know? You know now." Then he yelled loudly to the girls at the door, "It's been a month of confinement, show me everything!"

Many responses came from the underground, some were serious about stopping people without emotion, some shook their heads and sighed, and some became a little trembling.

Seeing that the madam threw the handkerchief she picked up just now on the ground again, she didn't give the person on the ground the slightest of her eyes.Shui Tao choked up for a moment and suppressed the crying, looked at the bloated back of the other party, lay down on the ground, picked up the thrown silk towel to wipe his face, and walked to a certain room by himself.Without the usual twisting of the waist, it looks like an ordinary girl leaving.

I went to confinement by myself——

"They all stayed here voluntarily." Looking at the expressions of these Zhangtai people now, I realize what kind of existence the "voluntary" in her mouth is.

The bustard closed her eyes, put her hips on her hips, and started yelling.

"I can't manage men well, and I can't watch them carefully, but instead, I control us!" Her fat legs stomped back and forth on the ground, as if she was about to step on the floor.

"Still calling us colorful flags? Damn! I don't even look at myself, I don't care about others, and dare to compete with me... I want to come back an hour earlier, I'm a fool, I scold you until you're bloody !"

"If you don't do a good young wife, you come here to be a shrew. You deserve to be nobody for half your life! My mother's mother-in-law really doesn't know how to be ashamed..."

I shook my head and smiled with the mentality of a bystander, not listening to those curse words.

Seeing that the crowd didn't intend to disperse, and the madam didn't let them entertain customers, I saluted He Huang and said goodbye, but I didn't want to go back either.

Along the trail that has been walked back and forth several times, the green forest appeared in the field of vision as expected.There was still a paper kite hanging on the wall, keeping silent while a cicada was calling out for it.

I climbed up the old tree without difficulty, the branches were so strong that two people could sit on it.

Then, under the thing appeared a man with low curly hair.In the hot summer, it seemed that there was going to be a breeze. I stretched out my hand to hold the kite, and as expected, it began to fly upwards erratically.

The "shua shua" movement was not hidden from the other party's ears, Wen Liu looked back in doubt, looked up the fence, gasped and let out an exclamation.Maybe it was surprise, I have experienced enough surprises in the past few days - this time it was different, her eyes reflected the bright sunlight, like the second or third sun.

Wen Liu couldn't hold back, and amplified her voice with a broken smile: "Miss Jiang, why are you here?"

The expression couldn't be more clear, she wasn't frightened, but a spontaneous sense of surprise swam around her chest.

How to answer this?

Holding the kite facing the wind in my hand, I played Tai Chi calmly, "I saw something happened to you from a long distance, come and watch."

While pulling the string, I looked down and saw Wen Liu eager to try, so I asked her to sit on the wall and handed the kite string to her.

"Did you go out and let it go?"

The other party carefully held the kite, looked up to see it flying high in the sky, and felt comfortable against the summer wind for a while.

"Not yet," she said regretfully, "Shuitao is too strict and always gets caught."

Now I am too lazy to guess why Hongxinglou restrained Wen Liu's hands and feet, and said bluntly: "Shuitao seems to be in confinement."

The wind became weaker and weaker, and then became stronger like a play, and it took a lot of trouble to go back and forth like this.This matter should have been expected early, Wen Liu did not make any unexpected reply, and let out a breath quietly.

It's a sigh, suppressed and disguised, I don't know what other people think, but I do it often, so I understand it quickly.

Wen Liu continued the topic without looking sideways, "Try again during this time, the madam may be so busy that she faints that she won't arrange someone to watch me for her."

Then there were all kinds of expectations for fun, and I quietly watched the girl imagine what it would be like to escape from the confinement of the wall.

A man full of hope, a man who knows what he wants to do.

Facing this scene, I still couldn't help but smile, and my eyes followed the movements of the corners of the other party's eyes.Probably because of a different state of mind, I always criticize Jiang Wenru for his pessimistic attitude towards things, but after the master made a choice, I set the date of death for myself.

Wen Liu paused and asked, "Are you tired? Miss Jiang."

I didn't realize it for a while, and I also cared about my "haggard" face from the beginning, but I just took care of my emotions and didn't ask.

This question is also very euphemistic.

I wanted to respond to this, but I somehow felt a desire to appeal, and I replied vaguely: "I'm not in a good mood, and I've missed my body."

Before the other party could continue, I interrupted.

"Ugly?"

Wen Liu actually took his eyes off the kite and looked at my face seriously, "Mmm...not ugly, pretty pretty."

I always feel that this is perfunctory, but I feel amused, and I hear the other party muttering in a low voice: "If you are happier, it will look better."

Knowing that it was for me, I kept silent, and the corners of my mouth curled up to take this sentence to heart.

"correct!"

Wen Liu suddenly said: "The day after tomorrow, Miss Jiang will go out with me."

"Huh?" I felt curious for a moment, "It's not good to bother you."

"But Miss Jiang looks really unhappy, do you usually go out to play?"

"Hmm..." Thinking about it carefully, I don't go out too much, most of them just walk around casually, and the rest are doing things with the master.

"Probably, but I know a lot of good places, and I will take a look at them when I have time, or take something back."

The other person stared into my eyes, "Just like that?"

I nodded, and then I saw Wen Liu frowned slightly, "This can't be called fun, can it?"

She said to me very seriously: "According to what Shu Niang, a girl from our former Hongxing Building, said, having fun should be for the things you like, and use up all your energy."

I disagreed: "That doesn't make sense."

"I don't understand either...so."

Wen Liu looked at the sky, put away the kite, and slowly moved closer to her face, her eyes full of anticipation.

"Would you like to accompany Liu Er and find the meaning of having fun?"

He wanted to refuse, and he refused very resolutely, but he couldn't speak when the words came to his lips.I didn't avoid the face that was so close, I just helped her back that was about to fall.

"Thank you."

"Is the day after tomorrow right?" I asked in a strange way, and when I realized it, I had to bite the bullet and continue, "When."

Wen Liu, who received an almost affirmative answer, was delighted to hear a thin laugh leaking from her nose.

She stretched out her finger, "Let's go in the evening, how about we pull the hook?"

The little finger in front of my eyes was very hard to ignore. I stretched out my hand in a daze, interlocking the two fingers together, and swinging along with Wen Liu's forearm.

"we have a deal."

"Ah."

I walked back slowly. At this time, the passers-by would no longer be surprised to see the Hongxing Building after the destruction.

When he arrived at the mansion and told Jiang Ci about the matter, he complained directly, saying that he must bring more fruit to the two sisters next time, what if he got angry and got wrinkles?Can make up more.

After speaking, he snatched two apples from Ajiu's hand and threw them into my arms. Fortunately, his hands and feet quickly caught them.

Jiang Ci looked at me, then at Ajiu, and decided to snatch another pear and put it solemnly in my arms.

"Sister...make up more."

Thinking that the kid changed his mind and knew that he would pay back, he suddenly reacted.

The brat connotes me!

Compared to half a month or something, two days is the size of an ant.

I didn't bring too many trivial things, I just went to watch something new.

The kite was still flying on the fence, this time I climbed up the tree and turned in from the other side of the wall, Wen Liuguo was waiting outside the house as expected.

"Is this leaving?"

When I saw the Maza with footsteps already placed in the corner, I felt very kind for a while.

The other party didn't speak, just pulled me into the room with a smile on his face.

Is this enlightenment?Do you know what you will do as a Zhangtai person?

I saw her laying on the bed a dress that was as simple as her own. Maybe she felt that she was disrespectful in doing so, so she explained first: "Liu'er asked Sister Qin'er about Miss Jiang...really I'm very sorry for making an assertion."

I don't know why I hold my breath, and my eyes stay on the dress without taking my eyes off it.

Seeing my complexion change, Wen Liu bit her lower lip and thought about it for a while, finally mustered up great courage, and asked tentatively, "Interested, would you like to try it?"

"No, I..." Subconsciously wanted to refuse, but I really couldn't move my attention.This is simply an incredible scene that would never appear in a dream.

Someone's gonna throw a mirror on me, my father too, stick...

The fear that is deep in the bone marrow is like a gnawing bug that stings my body. I can't wear this kind of clothes.Men's robes are what everyone should see, and what you wear on your body is what your mother wants.It should be firmly welded to my back and chest. As long as it has no feminine breath, my mother will maintain that kind smile.

All the scolding at the beginning became very light in the memory, but the smoke kept fluttering around and refused to stop. I didn't feel anything anymore. I just looked at the things in front of me and felt incredible.

It's like letting a hozen wear a tiger skin.

The sentence why, I know very well that it will become a sentence of blame, it is not a big deal, it is not a big deal at all.

"Impossible," I turned my back, "I can't wear clothes like this."

Wen Liu was silent for a moment, then let out a long sigh.

"Liu'er was rude, I just heard that a woman can't wear a skirt..." She seemed to be talking to herself, "Liu'er can still see, so you can't pretend to be blind."

Hearing that the other party blamed me for being nosy, I shook my head and wanted to tell Wen Liu that it was not her fault, nor was it a matter of being rude.

"It's impossible for me to wear such clothes. Everyone has their own destiny. My destiny is to pretend to be a man all my life..." The words were blocked in my throat, and I paused. I don't know where the voice came from , "I am a man, I can secretly become 'Miss Jiang', or 'Sister'. But this is wrong, I should be called 'brother' by those children."

Some remarks provoked Wen Liu to step forward, and gently pressed the back of her hand against the side of my face.I don't know what kind of expression I have now, but I know that I may not be able to continue.

He was giving up on himself, and he knew very clearly in his heart that he was giving up on himself.In recent days, I have ushered in a change that makes me feel less than happy——

I will no longer be in a good mood just because Jiang Ci calls me "sister".This word has given me dream-like joy time and time again, even if it is only a little bit, only as small as an ant.

Not anymore.

Whenever I think of the existence of Wen Liu when I don't know it, half of the reason is that besides Jiang Ci, there is a girl who calls me "Miss Jiang".

Not anymore.

"Is there really anything impossible?"

"No, you don't understand, you haven't experienced it, so..."

I answered Wen Liu's question in a way that I really hated. The other party felt that I had slipped his words, piled up the dress to the foot of the bed, and smiled again with his hands behind his back, "Okay, out of sight and out of mind, I feel fine now ?"

Realizing that the state just now was really wrong, the other party has been taking care of my emotions.Obviously the past has become light and ethereal, I can't feel the weight, but I can't get rid of it.

I sighed, walked up to me and gently held the hand that the other party had just extended to me.

"sorry."

It shouldn't be like this, it's not a big deal at all, I'm about to die... Yeah, I've already condemned myself to beheaded, compared to that point in the past, it's not a big deal at all.

Suddenly, what Wen Liu said just now came to mind - "Is there really anything impossible?"

All of a sudden, my eyes suddenly became clear, I was dying, why should I worry about so many annoying things?It's annoying.

So... what am I thinking?

His eyes fell on the messy pile of fabrics at the corner of the bed, as if something was vaguely causing trouble.

Jiang Xu can't wear this kind of clothes, it's just Jiang Xu.

"I really want to make friends with you, I want to get to know you, know who you are, and then I made my own claim and asked Sister Qin'er," Wen Liu saw that my dark clouds were about to dissipate, so she let herself lose all defenses , In this way, maybe the person in front of him will also take off his guard and let the light come in, "Liu'er really wants to know you, in my eyes, you are 'Miss Jiang'."

These words are not wise at all.I smiled helplessly, and wanted to tell her that if she said that to others, maybe what she got in exchange would not be sincerity, but the estrangement caused by not understanding herself.

But I didn't say that, I just replied: "Me too, I want to know you very much, even if I can't know who you are."

"You have goals that I can't find, you have power that I never had, and you did things I never dared to do." I took a look at that thing, and the words I said came from my heart.

Wen Liu, who got the answer, looked happier than before, and I asked, "Have those 'sisters' you mentioned in Hongxinglou ever taken you out to play?"

The other party shook his head.

"Then..." I couldn't help closing my eyes, took a few deep breaths, and opened them to meet their eyes.

"Would you like to have a... uh, friend who wears a dress and takes you out?"

Wen Liu was startled for a moment, then more emotions surfaced on his clean face, and he let go of his clasped hands and hugged him.

It was really a surprise.

"I am willing."

The fabric looked so satisfactory in her hands. She tossed it over and over again, and took off the hair tie for me, and tied my long hair on my left shoulder.

I sat in front of the dressing table and sighed that it had been a long time since I observed my appearance so carefully.

The eyes are not like a woman, the nose is okay, the mouth is just like that...

Okay, I am getting more and more worried about whether I will make a joke when I go out. The old ladies on the stage are probably more like girls than me, not to mention the group of beautiful and beautiful characters, they are all men.

"Is this dress yours?"

Feeling the huge gap, I reluctantly diverted my attention.

Wen Liu shook off his clothes and looked at that face in the mirror.

"It was made bigger years ago, and it has been kept in the corner without modification," she said, "It's really beautiful, and I don't need to draw eyebrows."

Because it's rough enough, I complained to myself.

"You don't need to sip the fat."

Because this mouth is really hopeless, it doesn't matter, I understand.

"Come on, let me help you."

The feeling of nervousness and unaccustomedness gradually showed on my face. Wen Liu took full care of my discomfort and patiently found topics to chat about other things.Although she stayed in the yard all day, and her affairs were all Zhangtai people's affairs, I felt fresh because I had no contact with her.

Unknowingly, the clothes when she arrived were squarely folded and placed on the chair, turning her body into a clean and elegant woman.

Wen Liu walked around in front of me with a very interesting expression, "Look?"

"No no no I don't look at it."

Resistance was inevitable, and the other party lifted the mirror from the table, and suddenly lost ground.

"Come and take a look," she moved towards me with her things, "Come and see how you look."

I closed my eyes in an evasive way, and gave up struggling under the guidance of soft whispers in my ears.

Then, take a look...who?

I didn't realize it for a while, but it just didn't look like a girl's house.

Wen Liu didn't give me time to catch my breath, she held my hand with a smile on her face, "Go, let me go out."

To tell you the truth, wearing this clothes, I didn't speak anymore, I climbed over the wall and jumped off the tree, all in one go.

I stretched out my arms to catch Wen Liu who jumped down wobbly,

"Hey--"

After a word of thanks, someone took her hand again, and then walked towards the street.

It was indeed a little late, but it was not yet late at night, and people were still coming and going in the streets and alleys, and the small stalls looked at the sky to estimate the time.

"When do you close?"

"Uh, wait until the rest is gone, when will you guys be here?"

Hearing such things clearly, Wen Liu looked around curiously, "It's still lively."

"You've seen it before." I whispered, referring to the Dragon Boat Festival.She took my hand and went further, and asked me where the shops I mentioned earlier were located. I pointed them out to her in bits and pieces, and I described some of them not on this street verbally.In such a short time, Mingyue had already risen to the top of the head, and the people on both sides packed up their stalls and left one after another.

Trying to try his luck, a voice suddenly came from behind, "Hey girl, you look familiar."

I confirmed for a moment that the person was really talking about me, and when I looked back, it turned out to be Uncle Li who runs a food stall.

The other party said hello and recalled there, and Wen Liu also came to my side and watched curiously.

"Hiss... she looks a bit like the girl dressed up by that man from the Jiang family."

I panicked, but with my mother's hometown accent on my face as usual, I asked back about the other party's intentions.

Uncle Li was pushing the cart and chewing on these words over and over again, sure he couldn't understand what the girl in front of him was saying.Recalling that Jiang Xu was a person with a northern accent, he nodded repeatedly and said that he had recognized the wrong person.I pretended to have a strange expression, and lowered my head to tell Wen Liu that the pancakes were pretty good.

"Ah, Uncle," she exchanged glances, she understood, "Have you sold out all the food here?"

"No, girl, do you want to take a look?" After saying that, he lifted the two big cloths covering it, Wen Liu took out the money bag and pointed to a few leftovers, wrapped it in oiled paper, took it, and left, just put it away It's getting cold.

With the satisfaction that gradually surfaced on the face, there is nothing to see in walking a little more.I took her to the bank of the river before, where the children were flying kites, and I seemed to be able to feel the remaining warmth of the family's joy.The summer wind is not blowing too much at this time of year, so I told Wen Liu that when autumn comes, the kite string will be unsteady even if you try to hold it.Sure enough, no one came out to look for Wen Liu today. After fulfilling the first expectation, he found the next expectation for himself.

"Okay, I'll come and set this paper kite free in autumn."

Even though she knew it was a joke, she looked at me very seriously.

I turned my head and thought for a while, "Well, together?"

As soon as he finished speaking, Wen Liu stretched out his little finger again.I covered it with the other hand, and made the next promise.

Considering that it is time to go back to rest in normal times, she returned to the green forest behind the wall along the road, and she suddenly grabbed my sleeve and walked to the other end.

"Hush, come with Liu'er."

I regained my defensive state, followed her half-believingly, and took note of the way I came from.

It didn't take much time to pass through the towering old trees in front of me, and suddenly there was a dark green grass field illuminated by the moon, which was much smaller than the river bank.

This is not a real forest, and the possibility of danger is also reduced.Wen Liu beckoned to me, lay down on the most delicate and soft spot, and left me some space.

"It's a good place," I tried to sit down, and found that it was more comfortable than I imagined, so I also lay down, with my head resting on a wide sleeve, and I could smell the freshness of green plants as soon as I turned around.

The thin white cover covers all the colors of the earth, and the turbid black becomes less turbid.

"Do you like the moon?"

Seeing someone accepting the baptism intently, the silence becomes less scary, and there will always be words, even if it is just the singing of cicadas.

I opened my mouth and thought about this question carefully, "This makes me feel at ease and clear."

Is there anyone who doesn't like the moon?Maybe I just don't like the dark night.

People under these layers have never felt the tranquility of nightfall so clearly.

"This is the moon," she took over the words naturally, "We used to have a female school teacher in Hongxinglou—I seem to have told you that her name is Shu Niang."

"Shu Niang always likes to go to a pavilion with her lover, watch the bright moon at night, blow the breeze at night, and talk about poetry and songs for a long time."

I have heard many similar stories.

"It's romantic, I think, and I'll be interested in what happens next."

Wen Liudao did as I wished, "However, Ms. Jiang may not like such a development."

The people at this time are illuminated by the same brilliance as the foolish men and women in the story, and there is no difference in the reflection of Yingqing in their eyes.It is like a rope that connects all living things. Even if the person who used it to cross the ditch or the ocean has passed away, this rope is still so securely there, motionless.

Shu Niang is a person who loves writing and pen and ink very much, if not for this, she would not have the title of school book for girls.This story is not much different from the ones in many story books. It is nothing more than falling in love with a scholar, putting his heart into it, but being abandoned on the day of his prosperity.

It's just that she quickly broke away from the sadness, redeemed herself and married an honest butcher, and finally died of illness.

"The Red Apricot Tower is like this. Those who want to stay don't hurry up, and those who want to leave don't stay," Wen Liu said indifferently, "The guest officials give a lot of rewards, and no one spends them indiscriminately. As for the ransom, everyone has already earned it." enough."

"Why don't you go?"

It was supposed to be in this business to get out, but it sounded like the opposite.There are many puzzles, I know Wen Liu will explain.She was fiddling with an innocent leaf in her hand, and asked nonchalantly, "Is it ripe with a peach?"

"It's alright," I said, "actually like you, it's hard to measure a relationship after a few encounters."

The other person turned his head around, looked at me and asked interestingly, "Do you know who fried the melon seeds in my house?"

"I don't know..."

Back and forth, a possibility that I never thought of emerged, I widened my eyes, "Is it a peach?"

"Yes."

Wen Liu confirmed this guess, "Shuitao used to be the daughter of a small vendor's family."

"I was abducted by human traffickers during the famine years, and I struggled out in a state of embarrassment—you know how difficult it was. I didn't have Sichuan funds on me, so I walked home on foot, without shoes, and the thick calluses and scars on my feet are still there today It hasn't faded completely."

"Many neighbors in the neighborhood can't be seen, and no one answers the door - the houses there can't be sold, and no one will buy a dilapidated house if they can't eat enough.

"She pushed open the door and went in, only to see the couple starved to death inside the house, quietly."

She recalled, her eyes seemed to reflect the appearance of the other party when she first met, revealing a touch of unbearable.

"I saw that when my mother brought her to the inn, there was not a single piece of skin on her body that was intact. You must not be able to see that Shuitao has a persistent disease in her left arm."

"I really didn't see it." I hesitated. I'm afraid this is the case in the majority of Hongxinglou.

But after I said it, Wen Liu told me not most of them, but all of them.

"Everyone has their own dispositions that don't want to change," she smiled helplessly, "this also makes our Hongxinglou business far inferior to other chapters. Even so, I still hope that they will continue to be like this, not like dust , will not be deeply resentful."

"Has Miss Jiang experienced the sadness that she doesn't even want to believe?"

I remembered something, nodded and said: "Yes, many are not easy, and they are pitifully small in comparison."

Uncle led the group of troops to the battlefield under his orders, and none of the guys who ran over heartlessly to relieve pressure by provoking me came back.

The battlefield is too chaotic, even after the victory is declared, the endgame is shocking.The lieutenant's wife fell to the ground with only the piece of armor in her arms and refused to get up. I stood there intently from a distance, and found that I couldn't even find the faces of those guys in normal times—the heads were crushed by the horse's hooves, and some of them seemed to disappear. same.

How old were you then?I can't remember clearly, but it was the first time I realized that human blood can stain an entire piece of land beyond recognition, and bodies can pile up into a sea.

After winning the battle, almost everyone left without even saying hello.

When I returned home in despair, the master made a gesture to beat me, but my mother stopped me.When I brought the news of my uncle's death, I said to the clothes I brought back in a daze, "... I have caused you trouble."

Have you ever experienced sadness that you don't even want to believe?

Yes, of course I have.Seeing people who have finally met, amiable, humorous, or reticent but not malicious people, weave a not-so-big net, and then watch them move forward without seeing them, even if they are halberds. It pierced through the chest and fell apart in my ears.