overdue love

Feeling uncomfortable, although they don't know what they are playing, they still have a strong desire to escape.

Until Chen Sheng turned around and said something to me, Cheng Shu was sorry.

For a moment, I thought that I had heard it wrong, it was nothing, why did Chen Sheng want to apologize to me?

"We shouldn't say that kind of thing," Chen Sheng said very seriously, as if he was completing some important ceremony, "Our group of people are used to joking, and we don't speak properly, and we don't really mean it. sorry."

……

I probably figured out a little way to know what Chen Sheng was talking about, but why did he know?

The hand I put by my side trembled a little, and I also felt cold. If Chen Sheng knew about it, that means Qi Xiaoyun also knew about it, right?

Why do you know?If you know it, why would you say it?And what does this sorry mean?

What does Chen Sheng want to say sorry?I'm sorry that he, as Qi Xiaoyun's friend, served as Qi Xiaoyun's dog-headed military adviser, or I'm sorry that he didn't keep his mouth shut and let things be exposed inappropriately?It can't be that I'm sorry those words hurt me, right?

This sentence of sorry made me want to laugh, but when I pulled the corners of my mouth, I realized that I couldn't do it. The smile that couldn't show on my mouth was about to turn into water and flow out of my eyes.

"What's there to be sorry for..." I thought I could hold back, I could hold back, and bury this matter in my heart for the rest of my life, but when I heard this "I'm sorry", I realized that I couldn't, those The sadness and grievances I thought I could never mention were just a shell that I stubbornly held up because I was afraid of being hurt again.

"You're not wrong," I looked up at them, and said with some belated resentment and resentment towards myself, "Isn't that the way it is?"

As soon as he finished speaking, Qi Xiaoyun's face suddenly turned pale, his lips opened and closed, and the quilt in his hand was also wrinkled by him, and it took him a long time to mumble and call me "Xinxin".

Seeing him like this, my heart softened all of a sudden. Forget it, I told myself, what is there to care about? To say that I lost something in this love game is nothing more than some unspeakable thoughts. Since it is unspeakable, then I will not mention it.

"If Mr. Qi is not feeling well today, I'll come back another day." When I go back to calm down and can accept that I have nothing to hide in front of Qi Xiaoyun, let's talk about this business again.

I turned around and walked out the door quickly, not intending to listen to Qi Xiaoyun calling me any more. I just want to escape from this place quickly, and I only realized this truth. There is no desensitization method to treat love in the world. Desensitized, it’s just numb from the pain, and you’ll only find out when you encounter a more fatal blow. In fact, you haven’t been able to leave the place from the beginning to the end. I can't go away.

It's a pity that the sky always doesn't go my way. As soon as I walked to the elevator at the corner, I heard heavy footsteps behind me. I was a little anxious. Qi Xiaoyun naturally couldn't get out with his current appearance. The only person who came was Chen Sheng. .

I lowered my eyes and watched the red numbers getting closer to the floor I was on. I didn't even have the thought of going back to confirm this conjecture. Instead, I remembered Chen Sheng's "I'm sorry" just now, and felt a little funny. The group of them Is it always like this, apologizing, asking for forgiveness, no matter what, it's just an appearance they made to appease their poor guilt, and they never have any sincerity.

"Cheng Shuxin," the elevator door slowly opened following Chen Sheng's voice. I stood in the elevator and glanced at him. Chen Sheng said, "Qi Xiaoyun didn't intend to tell you, but I still want to fight for him."

Just look at me and say that this group of people has no sense of guilt at all, and everything they do is to achieve their goals.

I looked at him blankly, not intending to strike up a conversation.

Chen Sheng also got into the elevator and pressed the first floor, apparently planning to go down with me.

"Qi Xiaoyun went home after you left a few days ago."

"He had a showdown with his dad, saying he liked men, but he didn't say it was you."

I stood quietly in the corner and didn't pay attention to anyone, but I couldn't help frowning when I heard this sentence, what is "but didn't say it was you"?I broke up with Qi Xiaoyun, so I can't be regarded as his boyfriend, and he really doesn't like me, so what can he say about me in front of his father?You have to report to your father for being in a relationship with someone you've never liked before?

Or, Chen Sheng just wanted to tell me that Qi Xiaoyun didn't use me as a shield and didn't cause me any harm, so let me not blame him?

But this kind of thing has hurt me since I had that thought.

"Then he was in the hospital."

...Wait, I suddenly raised my head, what Chen Sheng meant——

Was Qi Xiaoyun sent to the hospital by his father?

I thought back to Qi Xiaoyun's hoisted leg, how could his father hit him so hard?No wonder he was so afraid that he could even do things like deceiving people's feelings... But how could he do it?

Is it really that scary?

My mind seems to be torn in two by the tug-of-war. One half is understanding Qi Xiaoyun, telling myself that his father is so cruel that even his own son can do it. No wonder Qi Xiaoyun can only use that bad idea. The other half Again and again, Qi Xiaoyun not only doesn't love me, but even for him, that unnecessary beating will be heavier on the scale than me.

The mind is pulled, the breathing is deep and shallow, and the frequency of the heart beat becomes irregular.

Haven't you already left, haven't you already separated, haven't you already decided to forget it, how do you know that when you are insignificant, it still hurts so much?Why is it still difficult to breathe?

Why is it already like this, do you still like Qi Xiaoyun?

"In fact, he didn't need to tell his dad so early, but he didn't want to use you as a shield, and he didn't want you to be wronged in the future, so he went to his dad for a showdown first."

... It seems that from the day Qi Xiaoyun and his company came out, I couldn't understand what they were talking about.

They always say something that I know is impossible, but it is very ambiguous, making me mistakenly think that Qi Xiaoyun might have such a shred of sincerity for me, and once loved me for such a moment.

How can you use the words "I don't want to be wronged in the future"?Since it makes people misunderstood and makes people sad, I am used to being alone, so where have I suffered any grievances? Nothing that happens in passing is not grievances. The only grievance I have ever suffered is Qi Xiaoyun. How could Chen Sheng have the face to say that in front of me? Qi Xiaoyun is afraid that I will be wronged?

It was as if, as if Qi Xiaoyun really cared so much about me.

I can't listen anymore, and I don't want to listen anymore. The hands behind my back keep tightening. I just hope that the elevator will reach the first floor soon. Come here, come here, I'm going to be unable to hold on, please. , come quickly.

7. Overdue Love 06

After getting out of the elevator that day, Chen Sheng didn't say anything, maybe because I didn't respond, or maybe because I didn't have anything to say.

The days passed day by day, and it was a new week in a blink of an eye. Our manager asked me how the cooperation with Qi Xiaoyun was going. I said that the person in charge had recently been hospitalized, and we would talk about it later.

The manager didn't say anything, but I knew that the day when Qi Xiaoyun and I met again finally came before I was ready.

The hospital is still the same as the last time I went, but this time there is no one beside Qi Xiaoyun's bed, only he is lying on the hospital bed covered in white, looking straight at his hanging legs, I don't know Thinking about something, it looks so pitiful.

I collected my mind, didn't let my thoughts diverge any longer, raised my hand and knocked on the door of the ward, and walked in.

"Boss Qi?"

The knock on the door failed to wake Qi Xiaoyun from his own world, so I had no choice but to call him.

Just one sound was enough, Qi Xiaoyun suddenly came back to his senses, turned his head to me, propped his body up on his elbows, hiding something broken in his eyes that I couldn't understand, pulled a forced smile on his face, and said to me, "Xinxin, You came."

I stepped forward to help him with the pillow, and it was broken. Why is it so unclear?

"President Qi, please don't call me that."

I lowered my eyes, continued the action just now, and let Qi Xiaoyun lean on the pillow before saying, "It's inappropriate to shout about our relationship now."

Qi Xiaoyun froze for a moment, then dropped her raised hand.

"Heart--"

He stopped abruptly, as if he just heard what I just said, "...are you here today to discuss cooperation?"

I wanted to say "yes", but before I had time, I heard another knock on the door.

Qi Xiaoyun and I looked together, and it was the doctor who made the rounds.

The doctor asked Qi Xiaoyun a few questions, and he responded cooperatively. After asking the questions, the doctor turned to look at me again and said some precautions.

"...That's all, nothing more, family members pay attention."

I froze for a moment, and wanted to say that I was not a family member, but I knew in my heart that there was no need to talk to the doctor about it. He might just recognize me as Chen Sheng or someone else. When I said it, it seemed to be aligned. Xiaoyun is too caring.

So after I was stunned, I still took this sentence and said "Thank you doctor".

The large team of rounds came and left in a hurry, and the room fell silent for a moment. I turned around slowly, thinking about how to speak in unison.