overdue love

When Xiaoyun talked about cooperation, he opened the mouth before me.

"Can we chat?"

I looked into his eyes and didn't speak. If I had to give an answer, of course I couldn't. If I could, I wouldn't leave Qi Xiaoyun's house without a word.

I silently resisted, Qi Xiaoyun looked at me for a while, and suddenly his eyes turned red.

"Can't you just say a few words?" Qi Xiaoyun didn't cry, nor choked up, but spoke with a nasal tone.

"It won't take you too long, I'll just say a few words."

Faced with such a fragile pleading, I couldn't bear to turn my head away. In fact, I didn't want to chat with Qi Xiaoyun, and I didn't want to meet him again, except that I didn't want to think about those days when I wasn't loved. Another very important point is, I actually don't want to hear Qi Xiaoyun admit that he never loved me, and then apologize to me.

I want my moon to hang in the sky forever. It doesn’t matter if it’s dim or not in a dark corner. As long as it doesn’t fall into the world, it’s fine.

Facing Qi Xiaoyun like this, I couldn't say no to it, but I couldn't readily agree, so I had to give a tactful answer, and I said, let's talk about the project first.

Qi Xiaoyun nodded, reached for the tablet from the table beside his bed, clicked on a document and handed it to me.

The project planning and cooperation intentions are all clearly listed, and I don't know how long it took to prepare, but the complete information is comparable to mine.

"That's about it for cooperation," Qi Xiaoyun said absently, "Look where there is a problem, we can still discuss it."

I flipped through the pages, and at the end I saw a draft contract. All the indicators were within our company's plan. It can be said that there is no more intimate contract than this.

But that's why it's wrong.

Qi Xiaoyun was not a little white rabbit when he was doing business, and he never relented when he squeezed the other company. Where did he offer such good conditions?

He may not be able to do it when the two of them are good, but now he is holding it in front of others, what is this?

I hesitated and asked Qi Xiaoyun what it meant.

Qi Xiaoyun asked me instead, is this not good?

Yes, isn't that bad?Our company has achieved the maximum profit, and my work task has been successfully completed. Qi Xiaoyun's company has retreated and retreated without any intention of fighting back. Isn't that good?

From the company's point of view, there is no better contract than this one, so why do I disagree?

But I still said that selfishly, I said, Qi Xiaoyun, you don't have to do this.

Qi Xiaoyun said "hmm" and asked me, do you want to sign the contract?

We confronted each other silently, or it was my one-sided confrontation. Qi Xiaoyun just used his red eyes to draw my outline over and over again, as if he hadn't seen me for a long time, and he seemed to have never known me before. I generally.

Sign, I said, of course sign, such a good condition can't be found even with a lantern, if he insists on doing this, then let him go, whether it's guilt or compensation, when he's done tossing, he won't remember me, and everything will be gone It went back to the original track.

The content and details of the contract were hastily decided, and the final version was just waiting for another day to be brought to both parties for signature.

After the official talk, there was another period of silence between us. In fact, I haven't felt such a depressing atmosphere for a long time, but since I broke up with Qi Xiaoyun, I often feel that I am in such an environment.

Want to take a breather, but can't find a place to relax.

"What do you want to say, finish it at once." Stretching the head is also a knife, shrinking the head is also a knife, it is better to let me take the initiative.

"I'm sorry, Xinxin."

Qi Xiaoyun said this sentence very naturally and smoothly, as if he had practiced it many times.

I thought he was apologizing for playing with other people's feelings, but I never thought that his next sentence would be "I'm so stupid, so stupid that I have suffered so much and made you so sad".

"...What do you mean you are too stupid?"

Qi Xiaoyun is always like this, saying some ambiguous words, people can't understand, and people don't know what he wants to do.

He stretched out his hand to hold my hand and said, "Chen Sheng did give me an idea, but I didn't stay with you because of that idea. I really like you, but I'm too slow to find out too much." late."

I was caught off guard by Qi Xiaoyun's sudden words, and I even forgot to take my hand out of his hand. What kind of new trick is this?

Haven't you already had a showdown with your family?Isn't it useless to me?What else is there to fool me with?

"...I'm useless anymore," I almost blurted out in a panic, "No matter what you say, I can't help you with anything, Qi Xiaoyun, don't do that."

8. Overdue Love 07

The conversation between me and Qi Xiaoyun was completely a battle that hurt the enemy one thousand and self-destruction eight hundred, and in the end it seemed that no one was left behind.

But the words were not in vain, and there were still some gains, for example, the contract was signed, and Qi Xiaoyun never looked for me again.

Half a month has passed, the weather has turned cold, and it has started to snow here. Compared with rainy days, I still prefer snowy days. Regardless of the ornamental value, from a practical point of view, at least snowy days can be used without an umbrella .

Two snowfalls have passed, and the thickness of the clothes has increased again. During the rush hour, the pedestrians on the street are like cute penguins, all dressed bulging.

The weather is fine and work is going well. Tomorrow is the weekend. You can wake up a little later, go out for a meal at noon, buy some fruit, and pick a movie to watch in the afternoon. It’s time to relax and adjust.

Everything is getting better, I said this to myself as I went upstairs, as long as Qi Xiaoyun does not appear in front of my eyes, one day I will forget him, those wrongly paid friendships, and the sincerity that cannot be taken back will one day be Faded and forgotten.

Then, at the corner of the stairs on the first floor of my house, I saw Qi Xiaoyun who was moving with a suitcase.

I was a little confused, thinking that I might be dreaming, haven't I been in touch for so long, why did Qi Xiaoyun appear next door to my house all of a sudden?

There was not much movement when I went upstairs, but the sound of my footsteps stopping suddenly was very abrupt. Almost in the next second, Qi Xiaoyun turned his head and looked over, smiling at me very calmly.

The words I wanted to say and the questions I wanted to ask all of a sudden got stuck in my throat. I retreated and thought, or I just let him go and forget, what can I do if I just live next door?One day it will fade away, I will, and so will Qi Xiaoyun.

But Qi Xiaoyun didn't mention those words that couldn't be distinguished between right and wrong and true and false. He just stood at the door and smiled at me energetically, and then called my name.

"Cheng Shuxin," he said, "I moved next door to your house, and I will be your neighbor from now on. You can come to me for anything!"

Time moves forward step by step and will not stop for anyone. Of course I know this truth, but people are inevitably fragile and in a trance. Looking at Qi Xiaoyun like this, I also felt for a moment that nothing happened between us, and our story is still here. On the page when the two companies cooperated for the first time, Qi Xiaoyun and I still had the opportunity to see different possibilities.

It's a pity that it's just a trance.

As the saying goes, don't hit a smiling face, Qi Xiaoyun looks like a warm-hearted and good neighbor, and I can't say anything harsh, so I forced the corners of my mouth to give him a formulaic smile.

But it still doesn't work.

I took out the key from my pocket, opened the door, entered the room, and closed the door. A set of movements was done in one go. The door that was quickly closed made a "bang", completely ignoring Qi Xiaoyun's figure and everything related to him. isolated.

I stood with my back against the door panel in a daze, until the sound of dragging luggage from the gap in the door disappeared, and then I slid down on the ground.

The past that I thought could be faded by time did not go away with the wind, on the contrary, they became deeper and deeper with the years, buried deeper in my heart, only need a small meeting, the overwhelming Emotions will come back again, setting off a stormy sea in my place.

It was only when Qi Xiaoyun stopped pestering me for a second that I realized that sometimes breaking up decently is not a good thing.

Breaking up decently means shaking hands and greeting Qi Xiaoyun when we see each other in the future. I want to put on a smiling face to face Qi Xiaoyun. No matter in work or in life, wherever we appear at the same time, we must wear this mask.

But I obviously made this decision to take off the mask on Qi Xiaoyun's face. I don't want us to be insincere or frank, I don't want him to say he loves me when he doesn't love me, but in the end, I became Has it become what I care about most and what I don't want the most?

I shook my head, tears fell silently and wet my sleeves.

Love is a terrible thing. I didn’t notice it when I glanced at it for thousands of years. I didn’t know it when I was deeply involved. When I was separated and broken, I wanted to let it go, but I couldn’t let it go. I was hurt a lot and felt very painful. , even if facing the other person has become the person I hated the most, I still can't say that I don't love him.

Or rather, I love him.

Even though he was hurt, shed tears, and faced him would become another self that never appeared, he still loved him.

Time seemed to be going backwards, and I went back to the day when we were discussing the cooperation. In front of me was the contract payment that Qi Xiaoyun had prepared, and what I heard were his words.

"I really like you, but I'm too slow to find out too late."

She has already rejected it so thoroughly, and made such harsh words, then there is no future and no way out, why did Qi Xiaoyun move here?