fishing for fame

Fang Songyu didn't intend to disappear on purpose, he just had an accident.

If he knew that Zhong Siyan thought he was deliberately disappearing, he would be even more angry, because he would feel that Zhong Siyan didn't understand him at all.

He doesn't like to run away from home in exchange for gaining the upper hand in an argument. It's not safe to run away, and it's also very boring to do. It's like threatening. When you need to threaten the other party to prove that you still have the upper hand, you have already It's already fallen into inferiority.

But no one can withstand the unexpected, Fang Songyu's cell phone is dead.

At first he was really in a bad mood and wanted to go out for a walk to relax, so he found a convenience store, bought a box of Baxi, and played with his phone while eating.

After the whole family sat for a while, Baxi was almost done eating, so she planned to go back.

As a result, the phone turned off while walking.Then, because I didn't know the way very well, on the way back from my family, I walked and couldn't find the hotel.

The most memorable thing is that the few people Fang Songyu met on the road had no memory of the hotel they stayed in.This is also normal. People who live nearby will often remember the living facilities around them, but they will not remember the location of the hotel.

And at this point, taxis are rare on the road. Occasionally, there are one or two taxis with passengers in them. They come and go in a hurry, and there is no way to stop them with their hands.

Fang Songyu had no choice but to ask the way back to the whole family, hoping that the staff of the whole family could have a charger to charge him.

Fortunately, his mobile phone and the staff's mobile phone model are similar, both produced by the same manufacturer, and the staff is also very willing to help. In order to express his gratitude, Fang Songyu used the cash around him to buy some things in the store.

When the phone was turned on, Fang Songyu discovered that Zhong Siyan had called him eight times since 45:[-], and hadn't called him again after [-]:[-].

For some reason, Fang Songyu was suddenly a little scared.

Will Zhong Siyan be angry because he didn't go back?

Although Zhong Siyan had never lost his temper with him, he unexpectedly felt that Zhong Siyan was someone who would get angry over such things.Zhong Siyan would not be angry because Fang Songyu usually hates him, but would be furious because Fang Songyu suddenly disappeared.

In Fang Songyu's intuition, Zhong Siyan is such a person.

There is no intuition without reason, intuition is a kind of subconscious feedback.

So, why does he think Zhong Siyan is such a person?

Fang Songyu, who was lost in thought, forgot to call Zhong Siyan back for a while, and just stared at the chat dialog box in a daze.

He found that Zhong Siyan hadn't received the transfer so far.

Just as Fang Songyu was sitting at the table with the whole family in a daze, Zhong Siyan opened the door and came in.

The whole family has only this small round table with two wooden chairs, which is still by the door.

Zhong Siyan stood by the table and looked at Fang Songyu, his eyes were cold, which was similar to the weather outside.

Fang Songyu looked up at him, feeling a sense of fear.

In Zhong Siyan's eyes, he saw seriousness, indifference, and even disgust that he had never seen before, as if he had done something outrageous, like raising a dog, and the dog bit the sofa at home. When I saw the dog when I got home, I had the same expression.

Zhong Siyan asked: "Fang Songyu, what time is it?"

What he asked was a very common topic, and he used the usual tone that was not salty, but it sounded like some kind of doubt from Fang Songyu.

Fang Songyu couldn't bear the doubts: "My phone suddenly ran out of battery, it was too cold and the battery dropped very quickly, and I just borrowed the phone from the clerk to charge it."

He held up the phone to show Zhong Siyan, and the phone interface was still stuck on the dialog box between two people.So Zhong Siyan asked, "Why didn't you call me?"

"I was about to fight when you came." Fang Songyu said.

He felt as if he was being questioned by the people on the Berlin Wall, but he just wanted to take a walk by the Berlin Wall and had no idea of ​​smuggling.

Zhong Siyan was still not very happy, when the two walked back, Zhong Siyan didn't even hold his hand as usual.

Fang Songyu was also unhappy, he was thinking why he had disappeared for so long, Zhong Siyan's first reaction was not to worry about him or ask him if he was okay outside and if he was injured.

The ink-like night swallowed up reason, and it was hard for Fang Songyu not to think, he doesn't care about me, does he not love me anymore?Or did you not love me at all?

Although it's hypocritical to think like this, when Jiang Yiyun was in a relationship, she used to pull him to analyze her boyfriend's various behaviors, and kept asking:

He loves me?He does not love me?

But it is very, very difficult for humans not to shake from side to side, repeatedly, because no one can read minds.Even with the ability to read minds, it is very likely to die from irony and sarcasm.

It is too difficult for people to understand and ponder.

Once the seeds of doubt were planted, it seemed that many traces of the past had become part of the evidence, and he couldn't ignore some of Zhong Siyan's excessive behavior. The knife hidden in the honey, when it was saccharified, was still a knife.Zhong Siyan almost decided his social interaction, just like deciding whether a dog should go for a walk or not.

The ingredients of love include possessiveness, but not entirely possessiveness, but also compromise, respect, and understanding.Anything short of that would cease to be love.

Fang Songyu thought, they started dating after two months of acquaintance, is two months enough to prove that love is not caused by hormones?Is it enough to prove that Zhong Siyan didn't like his face?

Otherwise, why does Zhong Siyan always like to torment him in all kinds of indescribable and shameful ways?Taking pleasure in admiring his embarrassment, satisfying his desire to control him, tossing him over and over again is for stimulation, and has nothing to do with love.

After returning to the hotel, Zhong Siyan asked Fang Songyu to enter the room first before closing the door.

Zhong Siyan asked: "Do you know where you went wrong today?"

What is wrong?

Fang Songyu didn't want to argue with Zhong Siyan about who was right and who was wrong over such trivial matters as clothes and taxi fare. The core of the conflict was never embedded in these trivial matters. Seeing the edges and corners of character that two stones don't fit into each other.

and so……

"Do you love me?" Fang Songyu mustered up the courage to ask.

He tried hard not to look so naive, and stubbornly looked at Zhong Siyan, who was standing in the entrance, wearing a black down jacket: "Do you like my face...my figure...or do you like me?"

Do you like an object, like a pet, or, like me?

Most people in this world have read the story of Jane Eyre. When Jane Eyre stood in front of Rochester and asked questions, did she feel the same way?

To want to be loved as a whole personality, not a pet, not an accessory, an equal, pure personality.