my dog ​​brother

When I got home at night, my dad was still sitting on the sofa watching TV. When he saw me, he walked to the kitchen and said with a smile, Wenwen, you're back, is it cold?I stewed chicken soup today, warm it up for you, drink some.

I followed him into the kitchen and felt a little uncomfortable seeing his quick movements, he didn't even say a word to me.

I drank the chicken soup, went into the bedroom and took out the paper and pen.

I sat there thinking for a long time, not knowing where to start writing.

I remembered that once when I was a child, I had a quarrel with him. I said that he ran away with my mother, and I wanted my mother, not him.

He pulled me up and beat me, and then I saw him crying.

He turned his back and cried, and I saw it.

That was the first time in my memory that I saw him cry, and I saw him a few times later, all for me.

I have never heard of other classmates' fathers crying, only my father can cry, and I am all angry.

When I heard him come in, I stood beside my bed and said, Wenwen, come out and watch TV.Act in a movie where you like that star.

I moved my hand and my eyes got wet.

He also said, I went to consult the doctor again today, and the doctor said that you can talk after a period of rest.Your aunt said to come to see you, and I told them that when you come on vacation, didn't your cousin go to city A for training?Your second aunt said, when he comes back, our family will pick a place to travel.

I watched as the liquid dripped onto the notebook paper, dotted and drenched, drenched.

Probably because the sobbing was too loud, but he finally heard it. After a while of silence, he walked over, patted my shoulder and said, what are you afraid of? Dad is here. Even if it’s true, I won’t be able to talk in the future. We can also find a way to find a job. .

I clutched at the notebook, and my fingers poked the wet spots.

I don't know what is the use of my explanation, whether it is to give my dad an explanation or to comfort my own heart.

In the end we didn't talk about anything, just sat on the edge of the bed and smoked.

He said, Ji Wen, I'm sorry I didn't keep your mother.

I slid off the bed and knelt at his feet.

Single-parent families are not good, he said.I often sometimes think, if your father and I can do better, and your mother has not left, you must not be like this.

He reached out to touch my head, rubbed it and then rubbed it a little harder, his brows were as deep as a ravine, he said, Ji Wen, study hard, even if it's for me, study hard, concentrate on studying, You are only 19 years old, you should study hard.

I keep my head down.

He sighed and said, will you promise me?

I knelt and took two steps towards his feet, nodding.

He threw away the cigarette and said, Wenwen, let's not go to work during the winter vacation.Have a good year.

I supported his knees, the bar was on fire, and where did he go to work.But I knew he meant more than that.

Seeing that I didn't nod my head, he took a deep breath and said lightly, go to bed early.

After speaking, he stood up and left the bedroom.

I don't know how I fell asleep at night, or if I didn't sleep at all.

I wanted to send a message to Ruan Xun several times, but I was afraid that he had already rested.

Besides, what can I say?I couldn't even give him the outcome of a conversation.

For the next two weeks, I was busy reviewing and taking the exam. After no classes in the afternoon, I went to the hospital to watch over Ruan Xun. He was almost ready to be discharged from the hospital and seemed to be in good condition.

There was a report in the news about the fire in the bar, saying that the aging natural gas pipeline caused a leak and explosion.Fortunately, there were not many people in the bar at that time. There were more than a dozen people injured, and three of them were seriously burned. No one died.

Ruan Xun was discharged from the hospital the day I finished the exam. When I accompanied him home, I took a detour to the bar to have a look. It was burnt black, as if there was only one shelf left.

I was a little lost, remembering the first time I met Ruan Xun in a bar, he asked me if I was gay, and I cried a lot.

Ruan Xun said, let's burn it, just choose a new place.

I looked at him for a while, but could not see any nostalgia.

I hung my head, feeling a little powerless.

He suddenly grabbed my hand and said, Ji Wen, you won't leave.

I looked at the blue veins protruding from his palm and shook my head.

He coughed a few times and turned to hug me.

He pushed harder than me and squeezed me out of breath.

After nine o'clock in the evening, I was ready to go home, and 1.9 meters came.

He looked like he had been up all night for days, and his eyes were red and black around them.

He seemed to be here to deliver some materials to Ruan Xun.

When he saw me, he smiled and said, can't you talk yet?I won't be dumb.Are you a rabbit? You are so frightened by such a small matter.

I know that he is only virtuous, so I don't bother to argue with him, and besides, I can't open my mouth to argue with him.

But Ruan Xun glanced at him, his expression was not kind, it should be said that he was very bad, because 1.9 meters immediately restrained the smile from the corner of his mouth, handed over the document in his hand, and said, what you want.

He paused, then continued, "To be honest, I don't think this matter has anything to do with Meng Xia's statement.There's absolutely no point in him doing this, and it looks like he's determined to want you to reminisce.

Ruan Xun ignored him, just put the materials back in the study, and then said to me, let's go, I will take you back.

Ji Cheng shrugged and said, what are you going to do if there is a relationship?

I think this sentence made Ruan Xun angry. I have rarely seen him really angry, but this time it was obvious.

Standing not far from the coffee table, he picked up the teacup on it and threw it towards Ji Cheng.

Ji Cheng didn't dodge, the cup hit him on the waist, he hissed, took a few steps back, didn't say anything, instead sighed, kicked the pieces of the broken teacup together with his feet, and winked at me He blinked and said, go get a broom and sweep this up.

I thought he was trying to dismiss me, but I went anyway.

When I walked into the living balcony at the back to pick up the broom, Ruan Xun had already followed. He grabbed my chin and kissed me for a while, then laughed and said, kissing is enough.

It's rare that he didn't bite my lip. I think there's something wrong with him that I can't tell. I can't tell what's wrong. For example, he lost his temper. Words that are not humorous at all, such as blocking me on the balcony and not letting me sweep the floor.

I go left, he goes left.

I go right, he goes right.

Are you full?

I put down my broom and raised my arms to stare at him.

Damn, things are forcing.Does he think I'm going to let him go when he lost his temper just now?

I gave him a push, not much, no push.

Then I may have put in a little more effort or I was very upset, anyway, I pushed him against the wall with my palm.

Now it's like stabbing a hornet's nest and I can't stop talking.

He grabbed me and started ripping my clothes off.

I already felt that he deserved a beating, so I really did.

I finally understood how to write the words "overthinking one's abilities" when he tore my clothes off.

The balcony was not closed, so even though I was out of breath from wrestling, I still felt cold with my upper body naked.

He grabbed my wrist and started pulling on my pants.

I was a little panicked. First, the balcony was not closed. Although the opposite building is far away, it’s hard to say that I couldn’t see this side clearly. Second, Ji Cheng was obviously still in the living room.

I struggled a little bit and started kicking him.

He didn't pull down my pants for a moment, and slid his hand in along the waist, grabbing my ass.

I was squeezed into the corner by him, and I was shivering a little from the cold, so that I couldn't tell whether his hand that was grabbing my butt was shaking more violently.

He said, Ji Wen, do you blame me for not wanting to talk.

I leaned against the wall, grabbing his collar and trying to shake him off.

He said, blame me, don't keep silent.

My forehead was swollen and painful. When he said such words, I suddenly became very angry. That kind of anger is very complicated. I don't know how real and how illusory.

I roared twice, reaching my throat, and furiously pressed against his shoulder and pushed it away.

His arms were completely stiff, strangling my back.

He said, Ji Wen, I can't sleep well.

No wonder he lost his temper, I was a little soft-hearted, even though I was getting goosebumps from the cold, I was still soft-hearted.

It's just a sentence, and I can't be angry with him.

He hugged my head and said, is it cold?

He is acting like a baby.

I think he is being coquettish.

If you ask me such a question on purpose, obviously I will start to tremble.

I put my arms around his waist and got closer to him.

He said, Ji Wen, do you like me the most?

fool.

He added, Ji Wen, do you blame me for not protecting you well?

Neuropathy.

He said, did you sleep well, do you want me to sleep with you.

I pursed my lips.

He said, Ji Wen, I can afford a mute.

I suddenly felt a sense of relief, maybe it was a feeling of being needed, not owed, not guilty, not helpless.

I'm standing here, holding him in the cold, just because he needs me.

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When my teeth started chattering, he finally let me go and put my clothes back on for me.

He drove me downstairs to my house, but locked the car door and would not open it.

He said, Ji Wen, please sit with me for a while.

It's already 11 o'clock, and my dad has already called me twice.

I was a little hesitant, I was afraid that if I continued to sit with him, I would not want to leave him even more.

He looked at the time and said, let's sit for another 10 minutes.

Then he leaned back in the chair, closed his eyes, and let out a heavy breath, as if he was very tired.

At that moment, there was a strong impulse in my throat, I really wanted to call him out, just like before, even if only the word "Brother Dog" was enough.

Enough to appease him, and enough to appease me.

If he is unhappy, I am willing to make him happy. If he has too much trouble, I am willing to share it for him. If he faces difficulties, I am willing to advance and retreat with him.

If we are all stuck in the mud, we can also rely on each other to make fun of it.

Because he is my dog ​​brother.

I flipped over the gearbox and pressed my whole body onto him.

He smiled, opened his eyes, and said, I'm flirting again, do you want to play car shock?

Shock his sister.

I just want to hug him.

He was very interested and said, we haven't played car shock yet, have we?Tidy or not?

I smiled and leaned over to kiss his chin.

He was in a daze for a moment, stared at me, laughed out loud and said, Ji Wen, how could I have such a good thing like you?I don't even know what to do?What do you say I should do?Let me give you an unlimited package for free, okay?If you say go east, I'll go west. If you say head down, I'll look up. If you say you want to fuck me, I'll fuck you.how do you feel?

I grabbed his cheek, licked his lips, and stuck my tongue inside.

Don't fool me with sweet words, and do whatever you can.

Indeed, the more I stay with him, the more I hate parting, even knowing that we will meet again tomorrow will not offset that resistance in the slightest.

Ruan Xun gently pushed me away and said, go up.Don't worry your dad.

Doesn't he even want to kiss me for a while?

I got out of the car and lay on the window for a few seconds.

He turned his head to look at me, raised his hand, but it seemed that there was a distance, so he put it back, grabbed the steering wheel and said, don't wear it, go up.

I pursed my lips, turned my head and walked towards the community, halfway there I heard him call me, and he said, Ji Wen, why don't you come to the company for an internship during the winter vacation.

I stood where I was, and before I could turn around, I heard him say again, forget it.you're too dumb.

I continued to walk forward, and within three steps, he yelled at the back again, saying, Ji Wen, why don't we find a psychiatrist, but he's in Z city, a bit far away, I'll go talk to your dad in a few days .

I really want to hit him, who the hell is ink.

He said, Ji Wen, if you can't talk, at least you can say hello to me later, do you want to change?

I was furious and rushed to the side of the car itchy.

He said, Ji Wen, why are you falling back again?

I opened the car door and got in, grabbed his clothes and started beating him.

He laughed so loudly that I almost spit out laughing seeing his saliva.

bitch.

He said, Ji Wen, are you reluctant to part with me?

Um, I have seen someone who hides their ears and steals their bells, but I have never seen someone with such a big lump that can also hide their ears and steal their bells.

I leaned against his chest and bumped him, and he was right, I was reluctant to part with him.

It was 12 o'clock when I got home, and my dad was standing at the door, and I saw him as soon as I opened the door.

He pretended to cough twice and said that he came back so late.

I'm not a girl. I used to go home at two or three o'clock in the morning and didn't see him say anything.

But I knew I was ashamed, so I scratched my head and lowered my head. I couldn't speak anyway, which was just right.

He said, go to your aunt's house for dinner tomorrow, and your cousin is back.

I nodded.

I haven't seen Boss Liu for about two or three years. He is good at studying. After graduating from university, he applied for a public-sponsored postgraduate study in his department. After going to N country, I haven't seen him. Sometimes we meet on the Internet and chat Chat, but not much, but I had a good relationship with him when I was young, so I am very happy that he is back.

Boss Liu has been back for a while, but it seems that he has been training in City A and joined an awesome investment bank.

When I saw him, I felt that four words were enough to describe him, he was full of energy.

Anyway, his face was full of red, and he looked proud.

If only I were like Boss Liu.

He also brought back a girlfriend, who was very quiet and very comfortable when she smiled.

As soon as I entered the door, he grabbed me and asked me to call me sister-in-law.

Damn, it's not like he doesn't know that Lao Tzu has a voice disorder now.

Family gatherings are the same every time, besides Boss Liu, I have two cousins.During the meal, I noticed that a few aunts kept winking at Boss Liu and his two cousins, and as expected, they took me to the bedroom to have a heart-to-heart talk after eating, in fact, they came to do ideological work for me.

The main thing is that Boss Liu explained to me his experience in picking up girls, how he found my sister-in-law, how generous, virtuous, beautiful and beautiful my sister-in-law is and so on.

After finishing talking, Boss Liu finally got to the point and said, brother, have you played with your girlfriend before?

I shook my head.

He put his arms around my neck and said, hurry up and find someone.

I smiled, took a pen and wrote to him, saying, I am gay.

He crumpled the note and threw it into the trash, looked at me for a while, and said, are you going to be gay to the end?

I don't know what was going on in my mind, and I wrote back that I have to be responsible to my other half.

Boss Liu rolled on the bed laughing so hard.

Laugh, laugh, I rolled my eyes, I don't believe that he is not responsible for his sister-in-law.

He had had enough laughing, and said angrily, how fragile yours is, and you are still responsible.Do you have a photo?show me.

The single photo of Ruan Xun I took last time in Dongshangou has been saved in my mobile phone, and I showed it to Boss Liu.

To be honest, when I showed it to him, I was still very proud in my heart. I am no worse than him.

He said, how old are you?

I wrote, 28.

He returned the phone to me and said it was unreliable.

Damn, why is it unreliable?

I don't even look at my own appearance, I also said that he and his sister-in-law are unreliable.

He said, you are not afraid that he will play you to death, if you can't play to death, you can play with you.

fart.

I don't want to tell him that I'm still a graduate student.

I snatched the phone back.

He said, what is it called?

I have already written half of the word "dog", and then erased it, and wrote the word Ruan Xun stroke by stroke.

He said, what are you doing?

Damn, is he here to check the account?

I thought about it, wrote it, and opened the bar.

He grunted and said, the bar was on fire, and he must have lost a lot of money.

I was stunned for a moment, he didn't say that I haven't thought about the aftermath of the bar, but that Zhou Ao mentioned it and it was handled smoothly.

Boss Liu touched his mouth and said, anyway, my mother told me last night. She said that the whole family will do ideological work for you. We will do it first, and they will do it later.

He sighed and said, what's so good about a man?Isn't it disgusting to sleep together?The whole body is stiff.

I wrote and said, I like that.what?

He pursed his mouth and said, make an appointment.

I thought about it and agreed to him.

Sooner or later, my dad will have to accept this matter. I guess it will be a long-term problem. If I talk to my dad directly, he doesn't seem to be willing, and I'm afraid it will be more emotionally conflicting.He can think of asking relatives to do ideological work for me, and I can also ask these people to do ideological work for him.

Brothers and sisters are of course the best way to start. After all, they are the same age, and their acceptance of gay is relatively higher. Even if they still disagree, at least they will not completely resist it.

On weekends, I invite Boss Liu and his girlfriend out for dinner.

I originally expected it to be pretty good, because Brother Gou is very cooperative with the work, especially cooperative.

As a result, Liu Qian was dragged to [-] million. He didn't come here today to communicate at all. He just wanted to give Ruan Xun a blow on behalf of my family.

So, he arrived half an hour late with his girlfriend, and as soon as he walked in, he began to say that this place is not good, the environment is not good, the service is not good, and the tea served is not good.

When the dishes were on the table, he began to criticize that the dishes were not fresh, tasted bad, and looked bad.

My veins twitched when I heard it, and I turned my head to look at Ruan Xun, but I couldn't see anything special.