my dog ​​brother

I don't owe it, he owes it.

Brother Guoqiang is right, his way of dealing with feelings is simple and rude.

He just can't.

He doesn't know how to treat people well, how to express that feeling, that's why he and Meng Xia came to that point.

Maybe loving someone is blind in itself, so even though he said he made a mistake, I just feel sad that he once loved hard, tossed and tossed repeatedly on the edge of confusion, and finally lost everything.

Perhaps it is out of date to talk about right and wrong in love, this is not the prevailing rule in love.

So I can only forgive him for all kinds of stupid behaviors, such as lying to me without changing his face.

He said, I once seriously thought about the possibility between you and me, but the result was always very small.I don't do things that are so unlikely that it doesn't make sense.Even the most probable things, I completely failed.Besides, you are so stupid, so stupid, so useless.

He sighs, but you're always there, popping out of nowhere, doing what idiots do like idiots.I will always miss you. Sometimes I am very devoted to thinking about work problems, but the next second I will think of you inexplicably.I can't find the reason, and I can't find the way to maintain a good distance, but I always want to find an excuse to be nice to you.If you are smarter, things may be much easier, because smart people know the pros and cons of advancing and retreating, but you don't know, you can't even tell the real good from the bad.

However, Ji Wen, this may be the difference between the right person and the wrong person.Once you meet the right person, no matter how insignificant the result, how far the distance is, or how complicated the obstacles are, you will never want to give up or go your own way in a paranoid way. You are always more willing to understand and think to get a satisfaction. The answer, step by step closer to that person.

Because I always miss you and always want to treat you better.

So don't blame me for lying to you, I just want to know that I will always be the one closest to you when you encounter difficulties, this is not a promise, Ji Wen, this is my responsibility.

Don't pass this responsibility on to other people.

I wanted to speak, but my throat hurt like a fire, and I couldn't speak.

Ruan Xun said, Ji Wen, ask Zhou Ao to take you to a psychiatrist tomorrow.

I have had a checkup and there is nothing wrong with my body.

The doctor said that it might be post-traumatic stress disorder, so I can't speak for a while, maybe it will be fine after a period of time when the mood calms down, if you are really worried, you can find a psychiatrist for counseling.

Maybe I just don't feel like talking yet.

I don't really want to go, I want to stay with him in the hospital, tomorrow is my birthday, I want to stay with him, even if I don't do anything, just stay by his hospital bed.

I shook my head, and he put his arms around my neck and said, have you heard what I said?

I thought about it, and I didn't express any objection for the sake of his injury.

So when I finally started to have a serious birthday, I was sitting in front of the psychiatrist's desk and communicating with the doctor with a pen and paper, no cake, no dinner, and no old-fashioned movies.

Dr. Wu asked me what I was thinking.

In fact, I didn't think about anything. If I had to say something reluctantly, I would occasionally have a few thoughts.

What would have happened if I hadn't met Ruan Xun?

It's just that as soon as this idea was born, it began to become unbearable.

So what if I broke up with him?Like him and Meng Xia, finally one day they can no longer go on?

If there is a day when true love must end, let it be when I die, and until then, I will do my best not to let us enter that situation.

This is probably the responsibility of love.

Leaving from Dr. Wu, I told Zhou Ao that I was going to buy a cake.

Zhou Ao smiled and said, happy birthday, Ji Wen.

I froze and looked at him.

He narrowed his eyes slightly and said, remember what I told you about the holiday on the 23rd?The boss originally wanted to celebrate your birthday with you today, but he didn't know that something like this happened in the bar, but although he had no other arrangements, he asked someone to prepare the cake first.

I squeezed the hand on my knee uncomfortably, and after a while I took out my phone and sent Zhou Ao a message, and I said, thank you, Brother Zhou.

I have too much to thank Zhou Ao.

Thank you for his constant encouragement, thank you for supporting me, thank you for always giving me opportunities so gently.

He looked at it, smiled, and said, no thanks.Ji Wen, I don't do much, I do what the boss tells me to do, if you want to thank me, get well soon, he is very worried about you.He must have never told you.

I looked at Zhou Ao and nodded.

Zhou Ao sighed, and said for a long time, Ji Wen, don't have any doubts about him, he just doesn't know how to be as frank as you, but don't doubt that he will never treat you worse than you treat him.

I gritted my teeth, feeling a little dizzy.

I know that he is good to me, I have known it for a long time, but only now, I have realized the weight of that kindness.

In the evening, I went back to the hospital and ate the cake prepared by Brother Gou.

When the cream slid into the throat, the tearing pain seemed to be soothed, and it was not so uncomfortable.

He couldn't eat yet, just sat on the bed and looked at me, coughed lightly, and said, Ji Wen, do you like me?

I don't know why he's asking me this question at this time, it's obvious and unnecessary, and I confessed it a while back in his office.

He repeated it, his expression became serious, and he said, Ji Wen, do you like me?

I nodded vigorously, and the emotions in my chest were a little stirred up.

He said, do you like everything?

I walked up to him and grabbed his hand. I don't know if such tightly pressed palms can convey the surging emotions in my heart.

He nodded as if he wanted to confirm.

I nodded.

He was silent for a moment, and said, Ji Wen, your father came to see me this afternoon.

I gripped his palm a little tighter.

I haven't talked to my dad about these things, although I know he knows all about it.

From the time I woke up to today, my dad hasn't said anything to me, he acted like nothing happened, as if he didn't know that I fell in love with a man.

I have more or less thought about how I will let my dad know about this matter, maybe I will reveal it slowly, or try to tell the other party some, but it seems that it is not necessary now.

I wonder if he feels betrayed, although he cares more about me these days than ever, I must have done him a lot of damage.

He spent most of his life on me, but I never seemed to bring him any results he hoped to see. I didn't study well in school. When I was finally willing to study hard, he found himself son is gay.

I think this is not what a father wants to see, let alone him who is both a father and a mother.

I took too much from him and gave too little in return.

But as I said, my goals in this life are few and small, not worth mentioning.So I think I have at least thirty years to make up for what I did to my dad.

Just like the responsibility he once shouldered to me, I should not have any shrinkage and avoidance, but face the difficulties and obstacles brought about by the path I have chosen, including the damage I caused.

I know he loves me, so I know he wants me to tell him that no matter what happens in the future, I can bear all the consequences by myself, just like I told him that I grew up.

I took Ruan Xun's hand and wrote in his palm with special care. I will talk to my dad at night.

Ruan Xun laughed, grabbed my finger, and said, he loves you very much, don't make him too sad.We'll be together for a long time, so it doesn't matter if I wait a little longer.If he disagrees, don't feel embarrassed, there is still a lot of time to digest this matter.

I froze for a moment before I felt warmth gradually spread through my body along with the blood.

I wonder why I love Ruan Xun so much?

Because he always gave me enough understanding and support when I needed it most, but never mentioned the price and sacrifice he had to pay for it.

He looks so powerful, so successful, so calm and composed, but in fact he is just walking on the tip of a knife, one step away from failure and death.

He just can bear it.