my dog ​​brother

But I didn't blame him at all. I'm fine now, and I might be able to speak in another month.

It never occurred to me what else to say about these things?

The left sunglasses blinked, probably seeing my doubts, and sighed again.

I have never seen his serious expression. Most of his expressions are frivolous, but his face looks stern.

He said, Ji Wen, do you know he loves you?

I know, I'm not a fool.

He said, so you have to reassure him, he finally caught you.

I thought about it and wrote, isn't my love for him enough to make him feel at ease?

The left dark mirror pursed his lips, half joking and half sarcastic, and said with a smile, not enough.If it's enough for him to know that you love him, why should he fuck you.Let him know that you are fine and everything is going well.Ji Wen, you have to reassure him, he is very nervous about you, do you understand?

I don’t think I have ever considered the question of whether brother dog is nervous about me. Most of the time my brain can only consider my own position, such as I love him, whether he can feel it, or whether he is willing to love me.

I didn't dare to think about our relationship from his standpoint before, because I was afraid that he would not love me.

When I really wanted to stand in his position and consider his emotional problems, I realized that I paid too little attention.

The day before New Year's Eve, I unexpectedly received a call from Tian Ye, who said he had returned to China and wanted to invite me to dinner.

I wondered if Tianye knew about my relationship with Ruan Xun, but he didn't say much on the phone.

I think this meal must go, at least I need to give Tian Ye a formal account.But I didn't tell Ruan Xun about this matter. In case of any embarrassment, it might be better for me to handle it alone.

But the purpose of this meal was a little different from what I had originally thought. Besides me, there were three other people, one was Tian Ye, the other was Ruan Xun's second uncle Ruan Yunxi, and there was another person I didn't expect, Ji Cheng.

I have never met Uncle Ruan Xun, but he looks somewhat similar to Ruan Xun's father.

I'm a little nervous.

Ruan Xun's second uncle looked a little old and thin, with deep wrinkles on his face. He seemed to be thinking a lot, and he didn't talk much, but his tone was quite friendly.

I couldn't understand why Ji Cheng was here at first, but he introduced himself, and he and the co-stars were stalking each other.

He said, Ji Wen, I came to you today to ask you something.

I listened to him until the end without interrupting.

Then I felt a burning sensation inside my chest, like a fire was set there, and the smoke from the flame rushed up to my throat.

I think of many things, more than ever.

Ruan Yunxi said, Xiao Ji, you should also persuade him when you go back, not to go too far.This time the matter of the bar has not yet reached a final conclusion. Even if there are any problems, I will come forward to deal with them.No matter from any angle, I, and the people of the Ruan family hope that the big things will be turned into small ones.

Ji Cheng glanced at me, smiled, squeezed my shoulder, and said in a low voice, you go back to persuade Ruan Xun, don't say that I have looked for you, you know.I am also entrusted by others, besides, I can't just watch Ruan Xunhu come, right?

I was not in a hurry to find Ruan Xun, I walked back to the original bar road and stood there for a while until night.

I sent a message to Ruan Xun and asked him, brother dog, where are you, I want to see you.

I know where he is. His plane at eight o'clock this evening probably landed not long ago.

Sure enough, he said he just got off the plane.

I said, I'll wait for you at the tea house at the corner opposite the previous bar.

He called me and asked me, Ji Wen, is there something wrong?How did you get there?

Of course he didn't expect me to answer him, he just continued to say, then you wait for me there for a while, don't walk around, I will drive over.

I hung up the phone and sat in the corner waiting for him.

I think he drove very fast, came in an hour and a few minutes, and I've been watching him since he walked in the door.

He was a little anxious and touched several chairs.

When he came to me, he cleared his throat, smiled and said, what's the matter?

I took his hand under his chin and rubbed it with the stubble.

He said, Ji Wen.

When he called my name, I realized that there was a trace of unconcealable sleepiness under his eyelids and a kind of cautiousness that I probably never noticed.

I looked at him and remembered what Ji Cheng talked about in the afternoon.

He said that because Ruan Xun suspected that the fire in the bar had something to do with a group of old people in the company, he started to make a big fuss about the company's organizational structure, and did a lot of unnecessary and reviled things, and so far the other party seems to have no intention of accepting it. hand meaning.

Ji Cheng said let me persuade Ruan Xun.

When I was just waiting for him, I edited everything I wanted to say and saved it in my phone, but when I saw him, I didn't want him to see those boring words of comfort.

I just sat there holding his hand.

Sitting until I started to feel numbness in my buttocks, he suddenly said, let's go out and play on the fifth day of the Lunar New Year, okay, Ji Wen.

My throat started to tickle again and I wanted to say yes.

Want to say, say with your mouth, okay.

I probably opened my mouth, but still no sound came out.

He saw it, put his hand over my mouth, put his arm around my shoulder, and said in a low voice, let's find another doctor.

I turned to look at him and smiled.

Suddenly remembered what Zuo Sunjing said, he said you have to make Ruan Xun feel at ease.

My eyes were wet immediately, not uncomfortable, not painful, not moved, not helpless, I think it was happiness.

You understand that a person is loving you, and you just happen to be loving him.

I told Ruan Xun that I was fine.The things in the bar no longer have any impact on me, maybe the temporary inability to speak is just a physical discomfort.

I wrote, brother dog, are you worried?

He froze for a moment, touched the back of my neck and said, who taught you to ask such a question?

I wrote, Brother Guoqiang.

He smiled, paused for a moment, and said, worried.

I wrote again that I was fine.

He said, I know, Ji Wen.

I wrote that Uncle Ruan and Ji Cheng came to me in the afternoon, and they asked me to persuade you not to overdo your actions in the company.

He frowned, and said with a half smile, Ji Cheng is good at finding someone.

I wrote, Ji Cheng said that you got into trouble because of me.

He squinted at me, propped his chin and said, are you that important?

I think so, shaking my head.

Even if what happened in the bar was really a dirty trick by someone from Ruan Xun Company, it probably doesn't have much to do with me.

He curled his lips and said, didn't he tell you not to listen to others?

Rather than saying that I listen to others, it is better to say that I am just worried about whether he will be in trouble.

He was silent for a moment, and explained that the adjustment I am making in the company is a step that must be taken sooner or later, and it just happened to take advantage of this point.I know what I'm doing, Ji Wen, don't be nervous, and don't take my second uncle's words to heart.

I nodded.

Of course, I believe that he can handle his work well. Apart from my admiration, I have never doubted his judgment and ability.

However, maybe I overestimated his ability, maybe I underestimated his emotions.

When I came out of the teahouse and walked to the corner, I glanced to the left, in the direction of the bar, I stopped in my tracks, a little dazed.

It was just a mistake, and after a few seconds of emptying, an electric car rushed over, I fell out, my palm was on the ground, the skin was broken, and my butt hurt a little, other than that, there was no serious problem.

I patted my buttocks and prepared to stand up, signaling to Ruan Xun who ran over that I was fine.

He nodded half of his head, gritted his teeth, his face was livid.

The person riding the electric bike made a few slurs, saying that I don't have eyesight when I walk.

He ran over violently, grabbed the man and beat him up.

I went to pull him, but I couldn't.

I simply hugged his waist.

mace

Now I can't even hug him.

I was almost being dragged along by him, the fat man panicked again, and wanted to run when he got on the electric car, Ruan Xun grabbed the tail of the man in the back seat and kicked the man off.

The fat man wailed twice, rolling on the ground in pain.

I suddenly flashed back to the scene in the third year of high school when I followed Brother Huang to find Tianye to settle accounts, but Ruan Xun grabbed his head and hit the ground.

I think I'm going to lose him.

My head is going to explode, I think I should do something, but I don't know what I should do.

There was a pang of breath in my chest, and it burned me uncomfortably.

Ruan Xun pulled my hand away and said, go to the side and wait.

I felt his skin disappear from between my fingers, and the temperature was also lost. His voice may only have a little ups and downs, but I almost felt invisible sleepiness and anxiety at that moment.

I vaguely called him.

Called him again, louder and clearer.

He froze a bit and turned to look at me.

I want to say, brother dog, I'm fine.

But I only called out the word Gou Ge and I couldn't continue.

He reacted a little strangely.

First, he stared at me in a daze.

Then he smirked.

It's really a smirk, the same way a demented child laughs.

After laughing, he stood on the side of the road and squatted down, his posture was similar to that of a squatting pit.

He glanced at me and said, call again.

I said, brother dog.

He simply sat down, lit a cigarette, took two puffs, said, and yelled again.

I didn't care how many people were watching, I sat down next to him, my pronunciation was still a bit stupid, I said slowly, brother dog, I'm fine, very fine.

He stubbed out his cigarette, and stretched out his arms sideways to hug me.

He said, Ji Wen, you can't have anything to do.

We sat there until the wee hours of the morning, and if we looked up we could see a faint star or two.

On New Year's Eve, we had a New Year's reunion at my aunt's house as usual. After watching the party, it was already early in the morning, and the whole family went to the temple to worship Buddha, and we also had good luck.

Burned incense, kowtowed, and woke up naturally on the first day of junior high school.

When I woke up, I found someone crowded beside my bed, who looked familiar.

I stared at him blankly for a while and said, why are you here?

He said, come to pay New Year's greetings.

I said, don't leave the household on the first day of the new year, and celebrate the New Year at my own home.

He said, I can't wait.Been waiting for a year.

I smiled and rubbed my eyes, which felt full of eye feces.

I said, where is my dad?

He said, went out for morning tea with my dad.

I must be nervous, my ass is clamped.

He lifted my quilt, and the cold wind came in. I flinched, and he reached in and pinched my leg, saying, Ji Wen, let's have a good time, do you agree?

I bent my head and stared at him, thinking that it's fucking unbearable for a big gentleman to pretend to be affectionate.

Sour meat.

Probably to retaliate for the feeling he brought, I shook my head and said, no.Think about it first.

He exerted some strength with his fingers, smiled, and said, okay, how long will you think about it?

Others say that you can't stop the opportunity once it comes.

I didn't understand it before, and I never met opportunity at all.

Now I guess I barely figured it out.

What was it like?

It may be the surging mood of the serf turning over and singing, and the soldier turning into a general.

I also learned to smash it in a decent way, and said twice, saying, the time is hard to say, it depends on the situation.

I may have forgotten that the person in front of me is not a tender person at all, and I forgot his hand on my leg.The so-called country is easy to change, and nature is hard to change. I was only proud for a few seconds before I was attacked by him in the lower body.

He pressed me and said, have you considered it?

I gasped and shook my head.

He freed a hand to grab my ear and said, I'll wait for you to think about it.Agree?

I said no.

He smiled sullenly and said, Ji Wen, you want to be beaten.

I've seen him through, and he's not doing anything at all.

I said no.Still have to think about it.

I'm spineless enough once.

This kind of backbone probably comes from some kind of natural peace of mind.

He looked at me for a long time and cursed, shit.

I laughed out loud.

He pursed his lips, grabbed my chin, and looked at me with even more goosebumps than before, saying, are you happy?

I grabbed him and kissed him.

I think it's a good start to the year.

I had lunch with Brother Gou and his dad.

My dad was quite uncomfortable, but he didn't say much. I don't know what Uncle Ruan talked to him before.

But it's obviously not very useful, because when I was alone with my dad at home at night, the first time he spoke to me about this matter directly, he said, no.

I tried to show him my relationship with Ruan Xun, but he just listened, smoked, and said, I was doing it for your own good.You are young.

I said, Dad, I have decided.

He froze for a moment, sighed, and said no more.

The next morning, I tossed and turned all night, got up to make breakfast for my dad, someone knocked on the door, I opened the door to see, it was Ruan Xun.

He said, borrow a ladder, do you have it?

fool.

My dad came out and glanced at him.

He said, Uncle Ji, good morning.The light bulb in your corridor seems to be broken again, I bought a new one, let's change it.

I rolled my eyes and changed the light bulb early in the morning, pretending to be aggressive.

My dad hummed and pointed to the back balcony.

I took the ladder out, half-opened the door, and said, what are you pretending to be?It's too fake.

He stepped on it, patted me on the head, and whispered, you know what a fart.

I provocatively said, would you change it?

He ignored me and pretended to be serious about his work.

I said, no matter how well you pretend, my dad won't appreciate it.

He raised his eyebrows, climbed down, and said, I didn't pretend.

I snorted and said, you are so rich, I still don't believe you can change the light bulb by yourself.Even if I believe it, my dad doesn't believe it either.

He said, I didn't pretend, Ji Wen.I am happy to do it, happy to do it.Do it now, and do it in the future. If you still think I’m pretending, just get used to it.

I was speechless for a while, and stood there, feeling a little helpless.

I'm a little embarrassed.

Because I suddenly seemed to feel a certain sincerity more than before.

I kicked the ladder and said yes.

He nodded, smiled and said, don't you think about it anymore?

laugh.How could he not know that I was just talking about it.

I changed the subject and said, when did you come?

He half leaned on the ladder and said, I didn't leave last night.

I mean it?

He smiled and said, yes.I'm afraid you will have conflicts with your father at night.

I swallowed and said, did you sleep in the car?Did you lie to me?

He took the ladder and said, I lied to you.

I stood at the door, looking at him behind the ladder as if my legs were filled with lead.

I knew he must not have come home last night because he hadn't shaved and there was a lot of stubble sticking out under his chin.

On the fifth day of the Lunar New Year, I secretly went to P City, the southernmost city, with Ruan Xun.

When boarding the plane, there is an illusion of elopement.

I've never done a plane before. When I was in the air, the air pressure dropped, my heart beat faster, and my tinnitus expanded, as if the reverberation was on the largest dance floor, and it was about to explode.

That hand held my palm tightly.

There was a burst of whiteness in the brain.

I heard his voice, like a roaring engine throbbing above my heart.

He said, Ji Wen, I am beside you.

The sun shines in through the window, bringing a little gold.

I looked at the clouds outside and thought, when did the story begin?

From the first meeting?

Or from a long time ago, that person will be by your side.

You just have to reach out and grab him and he'll never let go.

I was very lucky to be one of the few students who graduated from junior college.

On the day I entered L University, the sun was terribly hot and the ground was scorching hot, but it was a little golden like the day I took the plane for the first time.

I watched Ruan Xun leave from upstairs in the dormitory until I could no longer see his back clearly.

The new roommate asked me casually, who is he?

I couldn't help laughing.

His name is Ruan Xun.

He is my dog ​​brother.

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