After Shenghuan

Chen Jing paused, and took a deep breath to sort out his emotions.

He actually had a feeling similar to being close to home. If in the past, no matter how much Yan Qingsheng resisted, he would stick to it without hesitation, and use his whole body of copper and iron to stand firm. Maybe one day Yun Kai Moonlight.

But now, he seems to have understood Yan Qingsheng's words overnight, because not only the other party, but also him, after ten years of blankness, no matter how indifferent Yan Qingsheng was, he is no longer the boy who was attached to and loved him deeply. .

However, he should be thankful, thankful that no matter how bastard he was back then, Yan Qingsheng still had love for him, thankful that he was Yan Qingsheng's only love from beginning to end.

This kind of love is too precious. When he thinks of his shameless self in the past, he feels guilty for the first time and dare not touch it.

It's just that he wanted to stay by Yan Qingsheng's side too much, wanted that person's smile, wanted that person's voice, wanted that person's hug, and in such an urgent desire, his fear and hesitation gradually dissipated, and finally he became a firm man. And charming smile.

He opened the door gently and walked out.

On the sofa in the living room, Yan Qingsheng pinched the cat's ears with both hands, one person and one cat looked at each other, not knowing what they were communicating.

Hearing the sound of the door, Yan Qingsheng turned his head to look at him, and his calm eyes didn't seem to feel that it was so strange that he appeared here.

Chen Jing smiled, Shi Shiran walked over, sat down next to him, stretched out his hand naturally to touch the big yellow cat on Yan Qingsheng's lap, and with one hand, called the cat to hug it.

Mimi has been taken care of by him during this time, and she is no longer afraid of him. It’s just that the cat, which is less than one year old, is officially lively and playful, but now she wakes up and kicks her legs after being held in his arms for less than a minute. , Chen Jing felt a little loose, it scrambled to the floor and ran to the balcony.

Chen Jing couldn't help laughing, raised his head, and saw Yan Qingsheng frowned slightly, as if annoyed that he disturbed his relationship with the cat.Chen Jing couldn't help it, and raised his hand again, but this time it landed on Yan Qingsheng's cheek, and gently pinned behind his ear the slightly long hair that hadn't been cut for a long time.

Yan Qingsheng tilted his head, avoiding his hand, still looking at him, without speaking.

Chen Jing sighed slightly, withdrew his hand embarrassingly, and said softly, "Go and wash your hands, I ordered takeaway, and it should be here soon."

Yan Qingsheng was beyond his expectation this time, and he didn't say anything to refuse, but when he was about to reach the door of the bathroom, he turned around and said: "Chen Jing, this is my home."

This is my home.

Chen Jing's eyes lit up, not because of the alienation in this sentence, but because Yan Qingsheng didn't say the sentence that was like you leaving, he even thought affectionately: Yan Qingsheng still loves being with him The time together, miss the days with him, for the past, he is not addicted like poppies.

Thinking of this, he wished he could rush forward and hold Yan Qingsheng in his arms, but thinking of his personality, he could only restrain himself from moving forward.

Fortunately, at this time the doorbell rang, and Chen Jing looked at the wall clock in the living room, knowing that the dinner should have been delivered.

He went to open the door, and the delivery boy handed over the paper bag containing dinner, and then went to pick up the money handed over by Chen Jing, but when he looked up and saw Chen Jing's face, he was in a daze for a moment.

During this period of time, perhaps because of the ice-breaking relationship with Yan Qingsheng, or because of Yan Qingsheng's return, Chen Jing's spirit has improved a lot.The previous haggardness and vicissitudes have faded away, and it is still the face that fascinates thousands of men and women.

Seeing that the younger brother was still unwilling to take the money in his hand, Chen Jing asked patiently, "What's wrong?"

The latter came back to his senses and stretched out his hand to take the money in embarrassment, but the moment he raised his head again, he saw Yan Qingsheng coming out of the bathroom through the half-open door, and couldn't help but stare again.

But this time he didn't lose his composure, said goodbye hastily, then turned and left.

Chen Jing smiled again, suddenly felt that today's time was good, he closed the door with dinner and went back, seeing Yan Qingsheng was already waiting at the dining table, his smile couldn't help but become bigger.

He went over to open the lunch boxes very attentively, and Yan Qingsheng saw that they were all his favorite food. Although he was very light because of his physical problems, he could see the intentions of the orderer.

Yan Qingsheng's heart was even more confused, thinking of the dreams he often had, and remembering the countless times in the past that he hoped to find Chen Jing, ask everything clearly, let him tell himself that everything he did was out of necessity, and then we were together again.It's just his expectation, ten years late. Ten years later, everything he wanted back then will come back, but how will he face it?

After eating absent-mindedly, neither of them spoke.

Yan Qingsheng was because he was immersed in his own thoughts, while Chen Jing was because he sensed Yan Qingsheng's emotions and knew that saying anything at this moment would only make the latter more distressed.

It wasn't until Chen Jing packed up the rest of the food, washed his hands and returned to the living room that he sat down beside Yan Qingsheng and asked softly, "What's the matter? If it's because of me, just say it, scold me, hit me That's fine. That is, don't drive me away again."

Yan Qingsheng raised his eyes, staring at him with eyes like well water, which made Chen Jing tremble.

Just when Chen Jing wanted to say something more, Yan Qingsheng spoke softly.

He said: "Chen Jing, when I was in love, the first person I fell in love with, do you know who it is?"

Chen Jing's smile stopped, and gradually became serious. Yan Qingsheng did not avoid the past, and continued: "He was the first person I met when I was with me."

Back in time, the man who took him out at the banquet to enjoy the beauty with the time of a flower in bloom was deeply engraved in Yan Qingsheng's heart.

He vaguely felt that this was wrong, but he still thought of that person from time to time.

That person's smile, that person's soft voice, and the temperature of that person holding his hand.

We met again in the evening when the phoenix flowers bloomed.

When my brother's friend came to visit, Su Hui personally prepared dinner with the cook, which shows how much he attaches importance to it.

Yan Qingsheng was asked by his father to accompany the guests, and waited with his aunt in the living room.

So, when the young man in a white shirt walked into the living room with his elder brother, Yan Qingsheng was stunned.

This man, whom he had thought about countless times in his heart, also smiled when he saw him, his handsome face was full of anxiety and joy that could not be concealed but had been premeditated.

Yan Qingsheng lowered his eyes pretending to be calm, and said hello calmly.

And until the end of this visit, he didn't say much.

Because the protagonist of this night is Chen Jing, and of course, Yan Xi.As a much-loved youngest daughter, she has a cheerful and outgoing personality with a touch of pampering, and her conversation with Chen Jing made everyone in the Yan family think that the two were interested in each other.

The Yan family and the Chen family had a good relationship, and Chen Jing was Yan Jinqi's best friend, so they were happy to see the success.

Only Yan Qingsheng, thinking of the slow friendship in that person's eyes that day, thinking of those ambiguous words, and looking at the two people who are a good match at this moment, his heart is full of sadness.However, he is probably used to being indifferent, even if he is sad, he doesn't say anything or show any expression.

However, when that person was saying goodbye, he suddenly passed the crowd and said to himself: Qing Sheng, please give me a gift. Your brother said that you like watching NBA very much. inside.

Yan Qingsheng suddenly raised his head, and finally nodded in agreement under the puzzled eyes of his family members.

The Yan family heard Chen Jing's words, but they didn't think much about it. Yan Muchen asked Yan Qingsheng a few words, and sent Chen Jing away with a smile.

The collector's version of the VCD fell into Yan Qingsheng's hands, a box full of them showed the collector's intentions.Yan Qingsheng raised his head and said thank you seriously, which was also the first sentence he said to Chen Jing that night.

Chen Jing smiled, his eyebrows and eyes were still gentle, his voice was sweet like a cello across his heart, he put his hands on Yan Qingsheng's shoulders, and asked softly: "Qingsheng, why are you unhappy?"

Yan Qingsheng's heart trembled. Few people knew whether he was in a good mood or not, happy or unhappy, including his parents and family members who loved him.

His silence caused Chen Jing's smile to fade gradually, turning into a barely audible sigh.

"Qing Sheng, tell me, why are you sad?"

Qingsheng, tell me, why are you sad?

Yan Qingsheng didn't turn his head until Chen Jing held his hand.

The man in front of him was no longer the radiant young man in the white shirt. Time had left traces of sadness, pain, tempering and rebirth on his face.

Like a ghost, he suddenly stretched out his hand and held Chen Jing's hand back, and suddenly smiled, but the sadness in it penetrated, making Chen Jing's heart feel like a knife.

Yan Qingsheng didn't remember exactly how he answered that day, or he forgot it on purpose.But at this moment, what he said seriously and softly may be the same answer as that day.

"Because, although I understand, some people may be able to fall in love at first sight, but they can't be forgotten in a lifetime. However, I have forgotten that some things will be forgotten sooner or later."

Chen Jing was sad: "Qing Sheng, am I that person?"

Yan Qingsheng didn't answer, and said again: "I've been waiting for you to come back, some things have a beginning, but also have an end."

But he did not accept Chen Jing's unilateral answer to end everything.

Chen Jing held his hand even tighter, "Qingsheng, don't say it's over, there won't be an end between us."

Yan Qingsheng smiled, but stopped talking.

He accepted the fact that he was still in love with Chen Jing, but that didn't mean he didn't care about the past.

Xu Ran once said: Easy to forgive and easy to give up are because the love is not deep enough.

But Chen Jing left precisely because of the deep love in his heart.

Just like with the Yan family, Chen Jing never felt indebted, and the only one he owed was Yan Qingsheng.

Thinking of this, Yan Qingsheng broke away from Chen Jing's hand.

"Go take a shower and go to bed early."

These words of concern made Chen Jing completely speechless.

The author has something to say: Summer is here, and the stitches were removed today. Although there is another operation two months later, I still feel relaxed.