if it rains

In the classroom, Jing Chen and Yan Hao were still fighting together, Xiao Han, Su Xuan and Qin Yi kept trying to persuade them to fight, Yan Hao seemed to have finally vented, looking at Jing Chen with red eyes, I don’t know if he was sad for Qian Yang Jing Chen was still angry, "Jing Chen, you are not only blind, but also blind. You know better than me how Qian Yang has treated you in the past three years. The incident about Qian Yang's high school was fake. Yang molested his girl, because she chased Qian Yang for a year without getting a response, so she became angry and framed Qian Yang, which caused Qian Yang to be bullied by other classmates, and later depressed, he committed suicide, self-mutilation, The school later found out about this matter, but Qian Yang still dropped out of school, if you don't believe me, you can investigate by yourself!" Yan Hao told all the things Lu Lin told him a few days ago.

Yan Hao raised his hand and poked Jing Chen's chest with his fingers, "You... are not good enough for him at all. Since the time you two broke up in the first year of freshman year, he has had some relapses. He finally recovered a little, and was caught again. You, were hurt by you people and became seriously ill again. He sat on the window sill of the dormitory and dazzled himself, and secretly self-mutilated in the classroom. It’s all thanks to you, thanks to you. But I never know whether my words will cause harm to others! This kind of atmosphere really makes me feel sick." Yan Hao pointed to other people in the class while speaking, and the classroom was quiet. No one stood up to refute Yan Hao.

Jing Chen was stunned when he heard it, and only reacted after being pulled by Qin Yi beside him. He suddenly picked up the clothes on the table and ran out the door, but was stopped by Su Xuan who was following him, "Jing Chen , Enough, you don't like him, don't you? It's fine to just break up like this."

"No, I'm going to find him." Jing Chen pushed Su Xuan away and ran to the dormitory, the spare key was still there, he opened the door and saw the dormitory was in a mess, and then saw a bunch of jasmine lying horizontally on the head of the bed, The vase was broken on the ground, and there were spots of blood on it. When I walked in, I saw the storage box that Qian Yang had shown me before. There was a small post-it sticking on the outside of the lollipop inside, obediently. Sticky, the top one reads: Day 1017.

Then I saw a few pieces of paper on the desk that were also stained with blood, which were rent contracts.Opening the drawer, he saw a particularly exquisitely packaged envelope. Jing Chen opened the envelope with trembling hands, and two rings fell out, as well as a not-so-big note, which read: Jing Chen, since we are going to move together Live, then can I marry you?

Turning to the back, the handwriting seems to have just been written on it, densely written: But you still don't want me!

Jing Chen seemed like he hadn't cried for a long time, but now he was crying like a child who lost his toy. He stood up and walked to Qian Yang's closet, which was empty when he opened it.

Qian Yang...he left anyway, not bringing his favorite Jasmine, nor his cherished lollipop.

Lu Lin took Qian Yang away overnight. When he arrived at the hospital, he was injected with a sedative before slowly calming down, and then fell into a coma.

In the past few days in the hospital, Qian Yang either lay in bed in a daze, or sat on the balcony in a daze. He would not do anything dangerous, but he seemed to be really dead, without any life.

The application for leaving school has been issued, and there is no need to go back to school after that, Qian Yang picked up his mobile phone and quit the class group, and deleted everything related to this school, including that person.

Lu Lin watched him finish all this, raised his hand and took the phone away, then handed the cup in his hand to Qian Yang, and stroked his hair.

Qian Yang took a sip of water, looked up at Lu Lin, as if to say something.

Lu Lin understood everything, "No need."

Qian Yang swallowed the words just as they came to his lips.

"Everything will be better in the future. Remember to take your medicine on time and don't think about it! I'll be with you."

Qian Yang nodded.

The next morning, Qian Yang woke up early, left the hospital and went straight to the familiar breakfast shop, where he ordered chicken soup wontons and soup dumplings.

While eating, he was dazed again.

I'll move back when the sophomore class is less stressful, and then I can come here for breakfast every day.

You can also move out and live with me.

I would like to live with you.

When he came back to his senses, he found that his cheeks were already covered with tears. He took out a piece of paper to wipe away the tears, and then continued to eat. What he ate was tasteless but he always felt that he couldn't eat enough.

This scene was all seen by Jing Chen at the door. He looked for Qian Yang for several days, but no one knew his whereabouts. Finally, he remembered this breakfast shop. Qian Yang said that he could eat here every day after returning home. I squatted for breakfast at home for several days, and finally waited for someone who looked particularly haggard today, and after seeing Qian Yang's state, I didn't dare to go forward, fearing to stimulate Qian Yang again.

For a few days, Qian Yang would show up at this breakfast shop early, but Jing Chen would sit at the same place and order the same breakfast after Qian Yang left.

Until one day, even the boss felt something was wrong. After Qian Yang finished ordering, the boss finally said, "Little classmate, did you quarrel with that friend of yours?"

"What? Which friend?"

"It's the boy who used to come with you. During this time, you both came one after the other. After you left, he would sit in your position, order the same breakfast as you, and leave after eating. "

Qian Yang didn't react for a long time after hearing it, and didn't say anything, but sat down, but looked up and saw Jing Chen across the road.

The boss put a bowl of wontons in front of Qian Yang, "Little classmate, I have a good friend to cherish, and let them go if there is a small quarrel."

Qian Yang nodded, lowered his head and picked up a spoon to eat, ignoring the person across the road who kept looking at him.

After eating, he left in a hurry without stopping any longer.

Afterwards, Jing Chen never waited for Qian Yang to come again, no matter the weather was good or bad, sooner or later, Qian Yang never appeared again, as if he had a dream during this time, and he still couldn't find Qian Yang after waking up.

He asked everyone, including the teacher, but only got the news that Qian Yang had already left school for an internship. He also went to all the places he could think of, and even went to the place Qian Yang rented, but he still didn't see him. people.

Jing Chen lay on the bed, picked up a piece of his own school uniform brought out from Qian Yang's dormitory, which still had a faint fragrance of jasmine, lowered his head and sniffed desperately, desperately absorbing a little bit of warmth, as if Qian Yang still by your side.

He regretted it, and when he saw Qian Yang at the breakfast shop, he should have held him back, begged him to forgive himself, and begged him to give himself another chance, he thought that as long as Qian Yang calmed down and calmed down, he would definitely return to himself side.

Little did he know that Qian Yang was already prepared to disappear completely, and even these three years had turned into a dream.

The tormented Jingchen didn't know what was wrong with him, and recently he started to suffer from insomnia. He hugged the school uniform, and the jasmine fragrance on the clothes became weaker and weaker, so he ran to buy a lot of jasmine and put them on rent. In the house, I would still buy a lollipop every day, put it in the storage box, and put a piece of paper on it to mark the time. The note that said I was married was put in a photo frame and placed on the bed On the head, Jing Chen would always look at it and smile stupidly, and then realize that Qian Yang would never come back again, crying and muttering to himself: "Xiao Qian, when are you coming back? Are you coming back?" OK? Come back."

Jingchen's wrist also began to slowly have small wounds, like a knife cut, or planned with a circle.

It wasn't until one day that the wound became more obvious and blood would ooze from the thinly wrapped gauze, and Qin Yi sent him to the hospital.

Moderately Depressed...and Depressed...

Looking at the list in his hand, Jing Chen sneered, he was just like Xiao Qian!This taste is really uncomfortable.Then I thought of Qianyang High School and started to feel depressed, and couldn't help feeling distressed.

Life is still going on, Jingchen will still go back to that rental house every night, put in fresh jasmine, and put in a newly bought lollipop.

Sitting on the bed with the school uniform in his arms, he took out his mobile phone and opened Qian Yang's circle of friends. Because it was deleted, the circle of friends and friends was blank, only the signature under the profile picture changed.

I hate jasmine the most.

Jing Chen sat up suddenly, feeling irritated, raised his hand and threw the vase away, but stopped when he picked up the photo frame to smash it, reluctant...

I found the pair of rings from the drawer, strung them together with the black braided rope I bought a long time ago, and wore one on each hand, just enough to cover the scars on my hands. But Chen felt very satisfied, raised his hand and kissed the ring, and picked up the bouquet of jasmine.

Xiaoqian likes Jasmine the most...

How can you hate it...

Jing Chen kept repeating these two sentences.

After chewing dryly and taking a few pills, he finally felt sleepy, so he lay down and passed out.

In the dream, Qian Yang was still there, and he didn't want to wake up, really didn't want to wake up.

Afterwards, Jing Chen also disappeared from the school, and the two of them never showed up until the end of their senior year. The teacher sent their graduation certificates back to their respective homes.It's as if the love affair that was discussed vigorously on campus before had never happened, Jing Chen never showed up, Qian Yang never showed up, and the couple that everyone praised as a good match never showed up.

Jing Chen stayed in that rental house for a few days after leaving school. He didn't want to admit that after so long, he still had the hope that Qian Yang might come here to have a look.When I finally left, I was not willing to return the house, and told the landlord that I would keep renting it, and that I could contact me if I wanted to sell it.

The landlord found it difficult to understand, but agreed.

Jing Chen sat in the breakfast shop again.

Qian Yang, I will wait for you one last time!This is the only chance, if you don't come again, I really don't want you!

After eating the last bite of wonton, Jing Chen snorted and went out the door and raised his hand to look at the gloomy sky through the ring. Afterwards, the rain began to fall with a patter. Jing Chen's face didn't know whether it was tears or rain.

Xiaoqian, I really know I was wrong. I have experienced everything you have endured. Can you come back to me?

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Three years after the start of the next chapter!