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Li Meixiang got up early and went to the market to buy beef bones and stewed a small pot of soup. At noon, she carefully opened the door of Shen Xu's room.

"Xiao Xu, get up and eat something."

Shen Xu on the bed didn't respond, Aunt Li sat by the bed, looked at the person whose back was facing her, and sighed.

"Xiaoxu, Auntie knows how difficult this period is for you, and also knows how much pain you have pretended in your heart. Xiaoxu, Auntie is sorry for you, Auntie... will pass, you believe me, no matter how hard it is , one day it will pass. Xiaoxu, you are still alive, you can only live. Don't think about things that you shouldn't think about, for your parents, for that person, for----you have to live, live well Yes, let them stop worrying in that world."

Li Meixiang wiped her tears and walked out of the room, Shen Xu slowly opened her eyes, the sun was already shining brightly outside the window.

A new day has come.

For lunch, Li Meixiang filled a bowl full of rice and placed it in front of Shen Xu.

"Eat more and see how thin you are. Listen to Auntie, this bowl of rice must be finished."

Wan Hui sighed, "Don't force him, just eat as much as you can!"

Shen Xu mechanically picked up the chopsticks, picked up the rice mechanically, and stuffed it into his mouth.

During the meal, Li Meixiang once again brought up the matter of moving to S City to live with them.

Shen Xu shook his head, "I'm not going anywhere, this is my home, the home of me and him."

Li Meixiang frowned, and Wan Hui lowered his head slowly.

Wan Hui went out for a walk in the evening, but Li Meixiang hesitated and went into Shen Xu's room.

She tried her best to persuade her for a long time: It's not a long-term stay, it's just a period of time, come back when you feel better, okay? One year, no, half a year is fine, as long as you can come out, Auntie will send you back in person, okay Is it

After repeated rejections, Shen Xu was forced to explode.

He stood up and roared furiously, "I said, I'm not going anywhere! I'm not going anywhere! Why do you force me like this?! This is the home of He Lei and me. If one day, one day he comes back , but I am not here, where should he find me! He will come back, and one day, he will definitely come back. Because this is the home that he and I found with great difficulty, and it is our last support."

He must stay here, as if He Lei is still alive, forever.

In the future, one day, when he also leaves this world, he will be eligible to reach that person!

Li Meixiang's eyes were filled with tears, she slowly stood up from the chair, supported the side of the bed, bent her knees, and knelt on the ground.

Shen Xu, who was burning with anger, was stunned, and looked at the old man who was over fifty in front of him in disbelief.

Tears slid down his face, and the old man touched his chest with trembling hands, crying bitterly.

"Xiao Xu, I beg you, I beg you, can you please go with Auntie, Auntie knows, knows how hard you are in your heart. Auntie doesn't want to force you, and if there is a way, Auntie doesn't want to force you. Xiaoxu, I In my heart," the wrinkled hand patted the heart that was about to crack again and again, "I also feel like a piece has been gouged out here, and I am also experiencing that kind of pain. Xiaoxu, I can't stay here with you, you Forgive me, forgive me as a mother, come with us, come with us! This is his only wish, I--Xiaoxu, I beg you, I beg you..."

The old man put his hands on the ground, bent down, and kowtowed heavily to him.

Shen Xu was so shocked that he couldn't speak, his body froze, his eyes widened as he watched the old man kowtow to him time and time again, pleading loudly.

"Boom...boom...boom..." The heavy voice resounded through the roof.

He couldn't understand Aunt Li's actions, because he was worried about him, really, did he really want to do this?

The old man's insistence, the old man's tears, the heart-piercing pain of the old man----

The next day, accompanied by Aunt Li and Uncle Wan, he boarded the train bound for S City.

Sitting by the car window, looking at the city with many memories of him and He Lei, he slowly closed his eyes.

The life in Wanjia Xiaoyuan is peaceful and warm.

Shen Xu was arranged in Wanchen's room on the second floor. The sheets were clean, the wallpaper was elegant, the small window was opened, and the sunlight filled the room.

For a long time, Shen Xu hid in the hut and refused to come out.

Li Meixiang prepared the meals and brought them into the house. He ate very little and gradually lost weight.

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Shen Xu stayed in the small flower garden for a long time, he couldn't listen to what Uncle Wan said, and didn't talk to him, just doing the work he ordered silently.

Busy, and then busy, you will gradually forget some pain!

Aunt Li would go out for three or four hours every afternoon, and Uncle Wan said she was playing mahjong at a neighbor's house.

Shen Xu asked about Wan Chen once, Aunt Li covered her mouth and got up and went to the kitchen, Uncle Wan sighed and said that he went to work in a distant place.

distance

Shen Xu lowered his eyes and didn't ask any more questions.

Insomnia troubled Shen Xu for a long time.

I kept my eyes open all night and looked at the dark room, imagining that He Lei was back.

They will also go climbing and playing ball on their rest days, buy good food on the way back, and cook together for a sumptuous dinner.

He Lei's smile is his most precious treasure.

At dawn, the pillow was wet.

He didn't know how those who lost their lover survived, but soon, he found his good friend again.

In a small supermarket not far from home, he hid the wine in his daily necessities and took it home, and brought it back to the hut with a faint flower fragrance.

From then on, the smell of wine filled the hut, and he found his sleep and those happy times.

Soon Uncle Wan discovered his secret, and after a sigh, he closed the door gently.

One day a month later, Shen Xu woke up after being drunk, and as soon as he walked down the stairs, he saw Aunt Li sitting on the sofa with gauze wrapped around her head.

Surprised, Shen Xu hurriedly stepped forward to ask, but Aunt Li just smiled and waved her hands, and went back to the room without saying anything.

Uncle Wan walked into the room carrying the dishes, glanced at Shen Xu and turned silently to the kitchen.

Shen Xu chased into the kitchen, and after repeated inquiries, he learned that Aunt Li's injury----

"Xiaoxu, I know it's not your fault, you're drunk and you're not sober. But--ah, forget it, I don't want to talk about you anymore, one day you'll think about it."

Uncle Wan's words hit Shen Xu's head like a bolt from the blue.

He... what did he do.

Alcohol is like a drug. Once addicted, he will drink more and more, until he is drunk to the point of intoxication. He has no memory of what happened afterwards.

He went drunk...he hurt Aunt Li with a wine bottle...

He is simple, not as good as a beast.

For three whole months, he only wanted to be trapped in his own sorrow and refused to get out.

Unknowingly, he hurt the people who loved and cared about him deeply, Aunt Li, Uncle Wan, Sibao, and Lorraine.

Pushing open the closed door, the sun was already scorching outside the house.

He rushed to the second floor, opened the small cabinet, put all the wine inside into plastic bags, carried it out of the house, and ran to the trash can on the side of the road in one breath.

No one told him how to live alone.

When his parents left, he died once, from body to heart, he completely became another Shen Xu.

He was alive, but he seemed to be dead. For 12 years, 12 years of loneliness, he survived, thinking that the pain was the end.

He Lei left, and he felt the pain again.

Tears rolled down the corners of his eyes, and the plastic bag in his hand was clenched tightly, as if it was a dream that he didn't want to leave.

In the dream is the world of him and He Lei, all their memories, and the future they look forward to. He Lei like that will never leave.

A teenager on a bicycle passed by him, and the ringing of the bell awakened his thoughts; the smell of vegetables wafted from someone's kitchen, and his stomach made a gurgling sound; the neighbor who came back from the supermarket took his own children and walked into the place singing children's songs. house door.

He is alive, and he is still alive, so he can only live.

The clenched fist gradually loosened, and his vision blurred a little bit. He wanted to say sorry to that person.

Sorry, can't keep going;

I'm sorry, I can no longer live in a world with only you;

I'm sorry, He Lei, I'm sorry...

The plastic bag in his hand fell into the trash can, and he turned his head with his eyes closed.

It was a dream, a dream that had been going on for a long time, and when he woke up, it was time for him to wake up.

Opening his eyes, the sun illuminated the world, and he took the first step slowly without him.

"Shen Xu, lock the door when you leave." The master master took off his overalls, greeted his apprentice, and walked out of the shop first.

"Hey, good!"

Liu Ji's appliance repair shop is not far from Wanjia, it's only two stops outside the community, and Shen Xu has been working here for more than a year.

When he looked up again, it was already dark, and there were three missed calls on his silent phone, all from Aunt Li, and he forgot about the dinner time.

After packing up his things and locking the store door, he carried a bag with some gadgets on his back, missed the last bus, and walked home.

When the time is not too urgent, he always walks home. He has walked back and forth on this road for more than a year.

The master is over 60 years old, very kind, and old chess friends with Uncle Wan. He does not open this repair shop to make money, but just does not want to waste this craft and waste time.

Shen Xu learned a little bit in the prison back then, although he was a bit flustered when he first came here, thanks to the teacher who was very patient and taught him carefully, he quickly got used to it, and now basically all the work in this shop is handed over to Shen Xu The master came around whenever he had nothing to do, and treated Shen Xu really like family.

The phone buzzed in his pocket, and he took it out to see that it was from Sibao.

After connecting, the two chatted about some homework.

There have been too many changes in the past year, and Shen Xu couldn't adapt to it.

Sibao and Lorraine's small shop merged into one, and then people also merged into one.

At the beginning, Sibao's sisters came out and made a big fuss. After all, Sibao is a "yellow flower" boy, and Lorraine is a mother of a child, and she is older than Sibao, which is inappropriate no matter what.

After arguing for a while, all tricks were used, but the two just refused to separate.

In the end, Sibao simply obtained a marriage certificate without telling the sisters. Last month, they heard that Lorraine was pregnant.

Lorraine is a standard elderly pregnant woman, and Sibao is careful everywhere, urging her to stay in bed just at the beginning.

After Shen Xu listened to his nagging, he laughed and joked a few words, before hanging up the phone, Sibao mentioned something.

Brother, are you back?