kind of bend me

The first time I met He Lei's parents could only be on this kind of occasion.

In front of him and the heartbroken old man was He Lei's frozen body.

On the way here, Shen Xu never cried again.

He told himself to be strong.What right do you have to cry in front of the old man.

But when the white cloth was lifted, all rationality collapsed.Tears fell uncontrollably.

He Lei was there, lying half a step away from him, but he never spoke, laughed, stood up, or stayed with him for the rest of his life.

He Lei, who was lying quietly, has forgotten that there is still someone waiting for him to go home in this world.

When I was having dinner with the elder at night, no one touched the dishes on the table, the elder held Shen Xu's hand and kept saying regretful words.

If I knew he would leave at such a young age, I really shouldn't have treated him like this back then, why are we so confused, as long as he lives well, lives well...

The old man was crying so hard, Shen Xu couldn't say anything to comfort him, he just raised his other hand to cover the old man's trembling hand.

Before parting, the old man gave He Lei's belongings to Shen Xu.

A wallet with pictures of the two of them, a key to home and business, a dusty ring.

These add up to He Lei's life.

That night, he went to bed early.

He thought that when he woke up, maybe this dream would wake up.

He would be woken up by He Lei's noisy voice, busy getting dressed and having breakfast, got in his second-hand car, and hurried to the company.

Their day begins again.

Can't sleep.

Tossed and turned on the bed for a long time, but did not feel sleepy.

He sat up, took out his cigarettes and smoked one after another.

But the more he smoked, the more bored he became, and the more he smoked, the more painful he became.

He put on his clothes and left the hotel, and went to the 24-hour pharmacy to buy sleeping pills.

The salesperson looked at him suspiciously, and he forced a smile, saying that he couldn't fall asleep because of the hard work.

In the end, only a few were given to him.

When he got back to the hotel, he ate those few pills with water.

Lying back on the bed again, waiting for the time to fall asleep, he took out his phone and flipped through the photos inside.

It contains the life of him and He Lei, bit by bit, as if that person is still by my side.

At the birthday party, the man with a three-cornered hat and a cream nose smiled happily. The man who read a book in his hands in the quiet afternoon was very sexy. The man who rolled up his sleeves and carried a gas tank rushed to Lorraine’s house. Too much, and was permanently frozen in the phone.

He Lei, He Lei, He Lei...

Why did you just leave?

Obviously I am still here, how can you be willing to leave.

We agreed to be together for a long time, we agreed to meet our parents together, we agreed to choose gifts for Liu Xuan's children together, we agreed——

Do not break up.

There are still words on the text message that I will come back soon, but I will never wait for that day.

Tears trickled down the sheets, and he slowly closed his eyes.

It has been nearly half a month since he returned to his home in T City, Sibao didn't dare to say anything more, but he didn't worry about him being alone, and always found reasons to get tired of staying at his home.

At first glance, it seems that Shen Xu is fine, he can still chat and laugh with people, but Sibao knows that he is completely ruined.

I don't go to the company, and I don't answer the phone.Sometimes while talking, he fell into deep thought.Forgot to turn off the induction cooker after cooking, forgot to pull out the key when going out, and left without taking things after paying.

Sibao asked why he was so willing to forget things at such a young age, and he replied, "It's nothing, He Lei remembers!"

Sibao was stunned, and Shen Xu walked several steps away before remembering, "He Lei, aren't you here?"

Sibao's nose was sour, and he hurried to catch up with him, walking home with him.

Shen Xu suffered from insomnia all night long, went to several pharmacies but couldn't buy sleeping pills, a salesperson was annoyed by him, and yelled angrily, "What sleeping pills do you want, a bottle of wine, and you'll sleep like a dead pig! "

When he got home that night, he drank most of the bottle of white wine, and sure enough, he finally fell asleep that night.

Since then, he has fallen in love with wine.

Day and night, he hugged his favorite and never let go. There were wine bottles all over the house. Sibao couldn't stand it anymore and thought of many ways. Finally, he was so angry that he poured a bucket of cold water on his head.

"You are enough! Brother Lei is gone, but you are still alive! You have to live!"

Shen Xu shook his wet head, held the wine bottle in his hand and raised his head to smile at Sibao, "Sibao, I need it because I want to live. Only it can keep me alive."

Sibao trembled with anger, but couldn't say anything to refute.

Alcohol has become Shen Xu's dependence, only wine can keep him alive.

Sibao sat down on the ground dejectedly, and said weakly, "You don't want Brother Lei to see you like this either!"

Shen Xu sank into the sofa, with a sad voice, "He can't see it anymore, never again."

Sibao returned home, Lorraine asked him how he was doing, and he shook his head.

He knew that Shen Xu was sad, sad to death, maybe, maybe one day, if they didn't pay attention, he would really--

Lorraine sighed helplessly, "Is there any news about his classmate Wan Chen?"

Sibao: "No. The phone has been disconnected. Maybe..." He raised his head to look at the distant sky, "He won't come back either."

Just when Sibao was almost in despair, Shen Xu's small home welcomed two guests.

Li Meixiang walked into the house, the ground was in a mess, Shen Xu slept in this pile of garbage with a wine bottle in his arms, living like a ghost.

Her nose was sore, she covered her mouth, Wan Hui patted her on the shoulder, and walked to Shen Xu's side.

Sibao told the two old people about Shen Xu's situation, and hoped that they could persuade him well.

When Shen Xu woke up in the evening, he could smell the aroma of food, and the long-lost symphony of pots and pans sounded again in the kitchen.

After being dazed for a moment, Shen Xu got up in a jerk, and rushed to the kitchen like an arrow.

Li Meixiang stood in front of the stove and put the last dish out of the pot.

Shen Xu's eyes were red, and he slid to the ground against the wall.

He thought, thought--

He Lei who thought he was really back.

He thought that all this was just a long dream, that his life could still be saved, that his only salvation was finally willing to come back.

Li Meixiang put down the basin and squatted beside him, softly calling his name.

Shen Xu wanted to pretend to be strong, but it was too difficult, he grabbed his hair and cried bitterly.

The last hope is completely gone, his He Lei, his He Lei, will never come back.

The mournful cries alarmed Wan Hui, who had just entered the room, and he put down his things and rushed into the kitchen.

On the kitchen floor tiles, his wife Li Meixiang hugged Shen Xu who was crying like a child, hugged him, and shed the same sad tears.

During dinner, Li Meixiang kept adding vegetables to Shen Xu, and the small bowls quickly piled up into a mountain.

Wan Hui proposed to let Shen Xu follow them back to City S.

Shen Xu understood their kindness, but still shook his head.

"I won't go, Uncle Wan, this is my home, and I won't go anywhere. This is my home and He Lei's."

The two elders looked at each other, but they didn't insist any longer. After eating, Shen Xu just went out with his front foot, and Wan Hui stepped out with his back heel.

"Uncle Wan?"

"Let's go, take Uncle for a stroll, I haven't been to your place yet, it's good to visit the night scene."

Shen Xu glanced at him in embarrassment, lowered his head and started walking.

He came out to buy wine, and Uncle Wan must have seen his thoughts before following him.

City t is not as prosperous as City S. At night, some stores are closed, and the street looks a bit deserted.

For him, this place has always been warm, but he didn't expect that one day it would gradually become colder.

And this time, does he still have the strength to adapt to this coldness?

The sudden loss of a person who has been with us day and night, this kind of pain is like gouging out a piece of flesh from the body.

He couldn't bear the pain soberly. If one day, he died drunk in their home, it would be a good ending!

After looking around, Wan Hui said slowly, "This place is quieter than S City, no wonder you can stay here for so long, it's a good place."

Shen Xu didn't speak, Wan Hui continued, "Uncle Wan didn't want to force you, Shen Xu, just temporarily, leave for a while, and come back when you get used to it, okay?"

Shen Xu: "Uncle Wan, I'm really fine, I... can survive."

Wan Hui stopped, raised his hand and patted his arm, "Shen Xu, you and Aunt Li are your family, you don't have to stand up in front of us, cry when you want, make trouble when you want. People live a lifetime, Many times you will experience all kinds of pain, even if you are knocked down by pain for a while, it doesn’t matter, no one will be strong forever. Shen Xu, but you still have to live, not for yourself, only for the person who left, for the sake of They also want to live. Your parents and lover, the only thing they miss in this world is you. I hope you can live bravely, wonderfully and happily. Shen Xu, for them, you too Hold on. Promise Uncle Wan that you will never be overwhelmed."

Shen Xu closed his eyes, his body twitched slightly.

He couldn't hear such words, every word touched the bottom of his heart like a needle prick.

He couldn't forget He Lei's death, and he couldn't forget the feeling that life was worse than death.

Many times, he doesn't want to hold on, and he can't hold on.

For them, live bravely, the heart already filled with despair can't understand such words at all.

The next day, Li Meixiang came to Luo Lin's shop and chatted with her.

When the kindergarten is over, parents flock in and lead their children to pick and choose in the small shop.

Li Meixiang stared at those children for a long time, a slight smile appeared on the corner of her mouth

Luo Lin smiled and said: "Aunt Li wants to hold a grandson, it's not easy, let Brother Wan get married early, and you will be able to hold him in two years. By the way, speaking of this, where did Brother Wan go? It's been a long time No contact, Sibao and I have been worried for a long time."

Hearing her mention of her son, Li Meixiang's calm appearance finally collapsed, covering half of her face with one hand, trembling and sobbing in a low voice.

Lorraine shut up in fright, not daring to ask any more questions.

After Li Meixiang left, she hurried into Sibao's shop and expressed her doubts.

"Wan Chen must have had an accident! Seeing his mother like that, I dare not ask any more."

Sibao frowned, and the words Wan Chen said the day he left slowly came to mind.

"Whether I will come back or not, please help me and take good care of him."

Sibao asked him suspiciously where he was going, but Wan Chen didn't answer.

The smile on his lips gradually disappeared in time.