kind of bend me

Thin snowflakes fell in the quiet city of T, and the sky was so white that it was really beautiful.

After school time, the small square is bustling again. Sibao's small supermarket is full of gluttonous children, and cheerful music sounds on the rocking car when a coin is thrown.Aunt Li took her "little grandson" to play among the children. When Uncle Wan and his chess friends were fighting hard, some child yelled, "It's snowing."

Everyone looked up, and salt particles fell from the sky, kicking off the winter.

The door of the maintenance shop was closed, and there were two people sitting in the living room of the house in the backyard.

One afternoon, two cups of tea, when does a long life start.

From the time when he would crawl to his little friend and call "Xixi" indistinctly, from the time when he watched his grandma die with his own eyes and became firm in his dreams, from when he delivered meals to Shen Xu from time to time, from when he secretly fell in love with Shen Xu Xu started, from their confession, first kiss, and love...

He spoke very slowly, stopping and talking, as if he was afraid of missing something.

These images were replayed in his mind, and he realized that he remembered them so deeply.

Some people say that from the moment of birth, everyone is imprinted with a lifelong imprint, perhaps happiness, misery, sunshine, darkness, greatness, mediocrity... and the imprint imprinted in his life is called Shen Xu.

Their endless quarrels, his selfishness and Shen Xu's paranoia made them go farther and farther; he struggled to send those photos, but he did not expect to cause Uncle Shen's death; he stood in the crowd of the school playground, indifferent Listening attentively to Shen Xu's punishment, Liu Xuan's high-profile declarations, and Li Da's support and cheers;

He thought it was over like this.

Shen Xu and his dream became incompatible.

And he chose the latter.

On the day of the graduation photo, he met Shen Xu, and they never met again; he saw him shivering while hugging the big tree, and heard the screams and roars that cut his eardrums in the middle of the night.

He could only sneak around to the front of the building, and look out the small window at the devastated Shen Xu.

During the time they were apart, he went to college, thinking that time would make him forget everything.

Until his mother told him that Aunt Lin died and Shen Xu attempted to commit suicide.

At night, in the empty and deserted house of Shen's house, he cried.

Heart-piercingly calling Shen Xu's name, memories and longings tore apart the strength he had worked so hard to hold up.

Later, he entered BIC and met Wen Xuan.

He told Shen Xu that he missed him, when he was drunk and cried while hugging the telephone pole, when he was squeezed out by his colleagues and fought alone, when he returned to a person's home and fell down on the sofa exhausted.

miss, miss, miss...

Someone asked him, what is the biggest regret in this life?

He lost the most important thing.

That afternoon, Shen Xu sat on the sofa without saying a word.

As the sky gradually darkened, Wan Chen got up and turned on the light.

Under the lamp, two people sitting opposite each other continue the story that seems to never end.

Wan Chen had struggled at the class reunion, but in the end he couldn't match the desire deep in his heart.

Shen Xu also knew most of what happened later, he proposed to Wen Xuan to break up, he thought it would be good to be alone for the rest of his life, because he was not qualified to be happy.

Regarding Liu Xuan's matter, he could only think of such a stupid way.No matter what, he wanted Shen Xu to live.

Even if he gave his everything.

The life after being released from prison, the days that were like being trapped in an abyss, I could only stand silently in the corner and watch the happiness of Shen Xu and He Lei every day, every day, every day...

The last time I saw He Lei, he was lying there dying.

Sometimes things happen so suddenly that you don't have time to think about them.

There is only one string in his mind, a string called Shen Xu.

He jumped down.

Life in the rehabilitation hospital can really be described as worse than death.

Every day and night, physical pain tormented his nerves.

There will also be thoughts of giving up life in an instant.

Moments later, he would also laugh at his own cowardice.

Coming out of the closet was a kind of confession. Before he died, he confessed his sins to his parents.

If he wanted to say that he had a scheming heart, he had nothing to say.

Because, he survived.

All the details that Kang Lin didn't tell Shen Xu, he told them all,

It was late at night when this story ended.

Shen Xu leaned on the sofa and closed his eyes.

Wan Chen walked into the kitchen and poured two cups of hot water out, and handed them to him.

Shen Xu took the water and warmed it in his palm.

The hustle and bustle of the day receded, and there was silence outside the house.In the photos on the TV cabinet, the people who love him the most are smiling and looking at him.From someone's mouth, a distant sigh came out.

Wan Chen came in front of Shen Xu, squatted down, and held his hands warmed by the hot water.

"Shen Xu."

Shen Xu raised his eyes, and found that he was no longer young in that person's eyes.

"You once said that you only want to live the most ordinary life. Am I stupid? I don't understand the meaning of ordinary until today. Shen Xu, I want to be with you. For the rest of the day, I want to stay with you all the time. By your side. Walk, chat with you every day, eat together, and go shopping together. On days off, go climbing and watch movies. Shen Xu, I want to live such an ordinary life with you, so ordinary that I can wake up with a smile days. Shen Xu..."

Wan Chen lowered his head and left a warm kiss between his fingers.

One, a heart-melting kiss.

The next day, Shen Xu slept late, and the small repair shop didn't open the door all morning. Sibao asked his wife in wonder, should he knock on the door to see if he died of gas poisoning at home alone?

Lorraine gave him a sip, and said mysteriously, I heard that someone confessed last night, and people are not allowed to be excited, excited and insomnia, so don't worry about it.

Li Meixiang hesitated at the door of her son's bedroom for a while, and Wan Hui patted her on the shoulder, "Okay, it's rare for my son to sleep late, so don't bother him, it's fine."

Li Meixiang walked away, and the sleeping person in the small bedroom had a faint smile on his mouth.

This year's winter is much colder than previous years, Shen Xu put on the winter coat early on, but he still underestimated the power of the cold current.

When he got up early in the morning, he felt dizzy. After barely working for an hour, his dizziness became worse.

Sibao next door said it was influenza, and his Yangyang had a fever of 39 degrees two days ago, no, he was still drinking water!

Shen Xu planned to carry it for two days, took the medicine and lay down on the bed to recuperate.

Wanchen came once in the middle and left soon.

Shen Xu woke up from sleep, and at noon, the rolling shutter door was pulled open with a loud crash.

He opened his eyes and looked around in a daze.

Footsteps were heard, and soon someone entered the house.

Shen Xu simply closed his eyes.

The scent wafted into the nose, and the empty stomach was stimulated and screamed.

The man came to his bed, called a few times in a low voice, helped him sit up, put the pillow behind him, and raised his hand to test the temperature of his forehead.

"The fever has subsided a bit, it's not as hot as before, let's eat something first."

The man scooped up a spoonful of porridge, blew it gently, and brought it to his mouth.

Shen Xu looked at him, turned his head, "I'll do it myself!"

The man smiled, "OK."

The porridge tastes very good, with minced minced meat, it is soft and glutinous, neither salty nor bland, but it is not the taste that Aunt Li often makes.

Shen Xu: "You did it"

"Well, is it okay?"

Shen Xu didn't answer, and finished the bowl of porridge silently.

"Don't go to bed yet, can you watch TV? Take the medicine later and then go to bed." The man took the bowl away and handed the towel to him.

To be honest, Shen Xu was really not used to this feeling.

Especially the person he was facing was Wan Chen.

After washing the dishes and returning to the bedroom, Wan Chen sat by the bed and looked at him with a smile, "Are you bored? Otherwise, let's play a game of chess."

Shen Xu shook his head.

Wan Chen: "Playing cards? What do you know how to play? I learned a few things from Sibao a while ago. It's quite interesting."

Shen Xu thought, the world has really changed, even people like Wan Chen would say that playing cards is interesting? !

Wan Chen: "Otherwise, I'll tell you a joke. Even if it's not funny, you'll welcome it."

Shen Xu was very helpless, "You don't have to do this, it's not suitable for you. I'm not dying."

Wan Chen was quite aggrieved, "I'm trying to learn, it's not good to be warm, so next time I'll change to a warm one, or you prefer a cold and arrogant style."

Shen Xu rubbed his temples, and felt that the dancing there was even stronger.

After taking the medicine and falling asleep, Wan Chen still hadn't left, and sat beside him with a book, as if he was going to fight all afternoon.

Shen Xu was puzzled, "Aren't you going to work?"

Wan Chen, "I'm asking for leave."

Shen Xu: "Ask for leave? Is there something wrong?"

Wan Chen glanced at him, "Take care of you!"

Shen Xu closed his eyes and turned around, saying, "Don't be so aggressive!" He fell asleep by himself.

Wan Chen smiled heartily.

After sleeping until evening, when Shen Xu woke up, Wan Chen was gone.

There was still the book he had just read on the chair next to him, and he opened it and turned it over, as if that person would be back soon.

Shen Xu got up and changed his clothes. Just as he opened the door, the man really came back.

Seeing him going out, Wan Chen hurriedly asked, "Have you got a fever? Are you going to the hospital?"

Shen Xu frowned, "No, I lay down for a day and went out to get some air."

Wan Chen: "Okay, I'll accompany you."

After saying that, he took off the scarf around his neck, wrapped it around Shen Xu's body, and tied it tightly, "Let's go!"

The scarf blocked Shen Xu's mouth and nose, and it was full of the smell of that person.

Obviously 20 years have passed, and I have forgotten it early, but the familiarity deep in my memory is quietly awakened.

That's right, it belongs to Wanchen, the taste.

When the lights come on, the city puts on bright evening dresses, and the streets and alleys are colorful and blurred.

Wan Chen walked beside him, talking non-stop.

From big and small news to weather travel, the toilet in Sibao’s house is broken, and there is another snack cart at the entrance of the kindergarten, and finally——

Finally Shen Xu said: "Wan Chen, I have a headache."

Wan Chen turned around, pressed his temples with both hands, and rubbed them gently.

Wan Chen's hands were very cold, and it made people want to shrink back when they first touched them. After getting used to it, he slowly closed his eyes.

Wan Chen leaned very close, breathing close to his brow.

Wan Chen's voice was very soft, and he said, "You have slept for too long, but you can't go shopping for too long, the air is still cold, and the cold is still not healed, go back to Sibao's house or my house for a meeting and chat , go to bed later."

Shen Xu: "No, don't infect you."

Wan Chen: "There's no other way, I'll go there. Tell me when you're hungry and cook a bowl of noodles for you."

Shen Xu opened his eyes and met Wan Chen's gaze.

Wan Chen said that in his life, there was only one name that rang out all the time.

Shen Xu... Shen Xu... Shen Xu...

At this moment, Shen Xu seemed to have really heard that voice.

For a long time, it rang.