Looking for Cheyenne

】He looked serious 【I don't want to see you get hurt again, Ann. 】

[Thank you, Fang Yi.I'll sleep first. 】Close your eyes and let yourself lean back in the chair.

It's not that I don't know the seriousness in Fang Yi's eyes. If I can't give it, I can only choose to close my eyes so that I can't see it.

When we arrived at Old Street, it was dusk.I didn't go back to Fang Yi's place.

He has done too much for me, he should have his own life, I have no reason to tie him up.

I looked up at the old sycamore tree trembling in the winter wind, and then slowly went upstairs.

There is everything in this room, but the things are old, there is no one in the room, and the table is covered with dust.

In my pocket is the money that Fang Yi forced to give me when I got off the car.I said no, I have money.He said I fart.But he had no choice but to accept it first.Just treat it as a loan from me and pay him back later.

After simply packing up, I went downstairs to find a restaurant to eat.

This room is not big, and the space is a bit tight.But at least, I am the real master here, and I don't have to stay in the corner of other people's houses, cowering.

I don't know if it's because I've become less courageous as I get older. I didn't dare to say, I didn't dare to do, I didn't even dare to think about it. No wonder Ling Cang said that I had changed, and Fang Yi said that I had changed.

After staying in prison for a long time, my brain became dull after I came out, and I have been staying with Ling Cang since then, and the society is out of touch with me.

Now the most urgent thing is to find a job. I have no choice. I am no longer a young master. I can only stand on my own. Everything is back to the original point, like when I was ten years old and had nothing.

After searching for a few days, the last bookstore owner was kind enough to take me in.Although the salary is not high, dinner is included, but the shop has to stay until twelve o'clock at night.

The bookstore is at the entrance of an alley in the old street, close to the night school, so it closes late at night, mainly for the convenience of those who study hard and go to night school.

It is precisely because the location of the bookstore is relatively remote that the boss did not recognize me, otherwise he would not dare to take me in who was just released from prison.

The boss is an old lady who loves to read and opened a bookstore to read books.But I was not in good health, so I was recruited to come and see the store.

I remember how happy I was when I came to work in the store on the first day.

I go there very early every day. The bookstore is only three streets away from where I live, very close.

Most people in bookstores gather at night after class.Usually, when there are not many people, I just flip through some newspapers and magazines.

Such a peaceful life is what I have always longed for.

I'd rather be there to guard the shop, the nights are too long and there's always a need for distraction.

I am used to the cold and loneliness, but I am also most afraid of it.

Ever since I had a nightmare last time, that woman always appears in my dreams.I don't like looking in the mirror. I'm afraid that if I'm not careful, I'll see that woman appearing behind me in the mirror, covered in blood.

The guilt is hers, not mine.

So I also removed the only mirror in the room.

If you look in the mirror too much, it is easy to hallucinate things that you fear.

When I was taking a shower at night, with the dim light on, I turned my arms carefully to check.Except for the pale and rough skin on it, no trace can be seen.

I breathed a sigh of relief, stood under the nozzle, and let the water rush from the top of my head.

☆, decisive confession

The author has something to say: In fact, I have true love for Xia An, you have to believe it!See you every night at nine o'clock~~

On the way back, occasionally some small snowflakes fell.

The street is very lively.I accidentally saw all kinds of Christmas trees placed in front of the store, and it dawned on me that today is Christmas Eve.

Calculating the days of living alone, it has been more than one month and forty days.

In order to get some festive atmosphere, I went to a cake shop on another street.I have always loved all kinds of desserts, especially mousse cakes.

The most difficult thing.

But now I only remember the bitter taste and forget the sweet taste.

Fortunately, the store was still open when I went, so I bought a small piece of mousse and ate it while walking, full of joy in my heart.

Under the dim street lights, snowflakes whirled and danced, falling leisurely, dotted with Christmas Eve, my Christmas Eve.

Even when I walked to the corner of the street, I didn't think the old sycamore was ugly.

There is still no light on the upstairs, but I have already experienced it, so I went straight up by touching the wall.

The cake melts in the mouth and is sweet and sweet.I hummed a little tune and looked in my pocket for the key.

However, the door opened from the inside.

[Who are you looking for? 】A strange woman asked.

I took a step back and looked at the house number again. Yes, this is my house.

【Who are you? ] I asked back.

[This house is mine, what do you think? 】

【your? 】I said hello all over my face.

[Just bought it. 】She turned around and went inside to take out the real estate certificate, and said to me confidently 【Who are you? 】

He looked at the real estate certificate in her hand again and again, the big red seal with black and white letters on it, indeed said that the house belonged to her.

It was fine when I went to work in the morning, but the house changed owners in just fifteen hours. This speed...

The makeup on this woman's face is very heavy, and she looks old and ugly with makeup on. Thinking that she is going to live in this house, I feel a little sick.

[Where are my things? 】

[No~ they are all there. 】 She pouted angrily behind me.I just noticed that there was a pile of stuff on the steps of the stairs.

[That's bothering you. 】I said politely.With a bang, she closed the door.

Go to the steps, sit down and eat the rest of the cake slowly.The cake is not big, and the sweetness gradually fades after eating, leaving a mouth full of bitterness.

I put the things I threw on the steps into the bag one by one, cursing in my heart that this hateful woman is so impolite to throw my things at will, but fortunately she still has a bit of conscience, so she threw the bag out, otherwise I would You can only wear all the clothes on your body and take them away.

Snowflakes are still falling outside.I sat in the corridor all night.

The next day, as usual, I went to the roadside to buy a cup of soy milk before going to the bookstore.

Christmas songs are playing everywhere on the street, and occasionally you can see a few Santa Claus costumes at the door of several shops distributing gifts on the side of the road to attract customers.

When I got to the bookstore, the old lady boss also came.

She looked at me as if she wanted to say something.

【Xia An, during this time...】

【Boss, I'm afraid I won't be able to visit the store in the future. I found a new job a few days ago. ] I didn't let her finish speaking first.

She looked at me with some surprise.

[So, very good. ] As he spoke, he took out a prepared envelope from the drawer and gave it to me.

【You give too much, I only take my share.goodbye. ] I took a small stack of banknotes from the thick envelope, and I said goodbye to her with a smile.

Everything is expected.

Sure enough, the bookstore was going to fire me.

Will it be such a coincidence?Obviously, no coincidence.

After wandering around the street with nowhere to go, I finally took a taxi to the park and sat there for a day.

This is my Christmas, like a stray dog ​​with nowhere to go.

At night, the snow got bigger.

Those who watch the play should also see enough.

With a sneer, I dialed Xiao Feng's phone number【Call him over, I'll wait in the park. 】

Half an hour later, I saw him at the entrance of the park, holding an umbrella, walking all the way through the snowflakes, like an angel who strayed into the world.

The snow fell harder and harder, and the surrounding world was a vast expanse of whiteness.

He came to help me pat the snow off my shoulders.

[Look at freezing you...] As he spoke, he held up an umbrella to cover the heavy snow for me.

After sitting on a cold bench in the park for so long, I feel like I'm turning into a snowman.We were so close that I could feel the warmth of his chest on my cheek, but I didn't look up so I couldn't see his face.

[Isn't it just what you want? 】

[If I know you don't know how to take care of yourself, I won't let you out. 】His tone is very light and soft, and his voice is pleasant.He held mine in one hand, trying to warm my cold fingers.

[Then put me in the cage again and sentence me to life, never let me out, how about it? ! 】Let him hold it, I looked across the lake to the slowly rotating Ferris wheel in the air.

[An, yes, no, get up. 】He said word for word.

【Sorry what? ] I was at a loss [Ling Cang, I think it must be because my head was caught by the door that I shamelessly came back with you, you should send me back to the prison. 】

【nonsense! 】 He said loudly, clenched his fist, it hurt my hand.

[Sorry, I said something wrong.Make you unhappy. ] I bowed my head and apologized.

【enough! ] He hugged me, face pressed against his chest and I couldn't speak.

He didn't allow me to speak, so I simply shut up.

He can do it, but I can't say it.

[Don't say that in the future, do you want me to blame myself for the rest of my life? 】His voice was a little muffled from his chest.

Blame yourself?No, I never blame you.

[Why do you have to apologize.In the past, Xia An would not admit his mistakes even if he died. He was obviously right, so why did he admit his mistakes again! ] He hugged him even tighter.

Then what do you want me to do, please tell me.

[If Xia An three years ago would be so good, maybe I wouldn't be so wrong. 】He murmured to himself 【Now you know I was wrong but you want me to add to my mistakes, when did you become so cruel? 】

The heart is bleak.

The former Xia An?Hehe, you were the one who didn't want Xia An in the past, but now you blame me.

Now that I'm back, you've forced me into this situation again, who is cruel?

The wind was blowing in my ears.

【Ling Cang. 】I put my arms around his waist and buried my face deep in his arms, even if it was just a moment of warmth, I didn't want to let go. [It's great that you came to spend Christmas with me.Last year at this time, you always left me alone. 】

He didn't make a sound, but I knew he was listening.

[It was much colder last year than it is now, and it almost froze me to death. ] I took a deep breath, and tried to use a more relaxed tone. 【The gatekeeper was so bad that he didn't even give me a quilt.My limbs were so frozen that day that they almost turned into ice cubes.At that time, I thought that I would not survive the next day...].

【do not talk. ] His voice trembled a little.

[Let me finish, okay? ] I rubbed my head coquettishly, and said softly [At that time, I even thought that you would be very happy if you knew that I couldn't make it through.Because that way, no one keeps pestering you endlessly.No matter where you go in the future, you will never see that perverted stalker.In the two-person world between you and Ning Shu, no one will come to make trouble for no reason.You don't need to send someone to protect your Ning Shu every night, to prevent me, who is insane, from murdering him. ] I wanted to finish my sentence, but my heart couldn't stop hurting, 【Because, he is about to disappear, and you can live a life of a normal person. 】

【An~~】The Dao in his hand is a little bigger, as if he wants to cut me off.

[But the facts let you down.My vitality was tenacious and I survived.In fact, you don't have to bail me out just because you promised the old man. 】

[I don't...] He said.

[I know you don't want to do this either.Heh~~ In fact, I also made a plan to stay in it for the rest of my life. 】

【It's not like this…】

【What is that?Didn't you bring me back because you felt guilty and wanted to make up for your mistakes? 】

He didn't say anything, he acquiesced.

[Okay, in the past six months, your compensation is enough, you don't owe me. 】

[I'm sorry, I shouldn't have messed up my reason and decided that you were the suspect in the case. I was so wrong. ] His voice was full of deep guilt and apology.

You see, until now, he is still saying sorry, always sorry, always guilty.

He personally admitted that all his care for me was for redemption.

He still doesn't like me.

I could feel the fluid in the depths of my eyes squirming.

[Hehe~ It's all over, it doesn't matter anymore. ] I raised my head and looked straight into his deep eyes [The important thing is,] I grinned and said knowingly [I love you, Ling Cang, I love you so much. 】

Finally, tears welled up uncontrollably.

He was stunned by my words.

I stood up abruptly, leaned forward on tiptoes in a embracing posture, and kissed his cold lips. The taste was a little sweet.

His eyes were wide open in surprise, and even the look of surprise was so beautiful, I could count his long eyelashes one by one from such a close distance.

You see, I even took the initiative to kiss him, but he looked terrified like a victim of molestation.

hehe~

Ling Cang, you are always so unreasonable, it's like you treat me unreasonably well and at the same time push me into an emotionally desperate situation in life.I am just a speck of dust in the floating life, the ordinary can no longer be ordinary.When I came out of prison, I already had nothing. Why did I have to take away my hard-earned house and job?I just want to rely on my own labor to maintain the most basic livelihood. Why should I be deprived of this?

Perhaps, from the very beginning when I approached you, it was a mistake, and everything was just my wishful thinking.It was because I didn't want to face it and admit it. I thought that by pretending to be deaf and dumb, all the facts and feelings would be covered up.

So I choose self-paralysis.

So I choose to indulge myself.

So until now, when I am backlashed by the feelings I have invested, I will be caught off guard, and I have no other choice but to bear it silently.

Ling Cang, if you hate me and hate me, you can tell me how far I can go.

But please, don't hurt me like this.

I'm human, and I get hurt too.

Now I can no longer control my feelings, but I can leave myself with the last bit of dignity.

and so……

But the kiss was like a touch of water, before he could react, I turned around and jumped into the icy lake.

The moment I turned around, I prayed that I would never meet him again.

☆, discharged

The author has something to say:

When I woke up, my eyes were filled with whiteness all over the world.

White curtains, white sheets, white ceiling, and a pale face crying at me.

what's the situation

[Xiao Ran? 】I yelled, my voice became hoarse.

[Little master? ] He looked at me with teary eyes [Little Master! ] Then he rushed over excitedly [Little Master...you finally woke up. 】

[I'm not dead yet. ] I was so crushed by him that I was almost out of breath.

[You almost died! 】 He whimpered and said while crying.

[Is this not good? 】

[Scared me to death of you.Woooooo~] He wiped his nose and tears all over me [I'll tell Young Master Ling that you're awake. 】

【Don't. ] I held down his hand.

【Why?You don't know that he was so worried these days that he couldn't sleep, and he was also terrified. 】

【I'm thirsty, Xiao Ran. 】I don't want to hear that person's name at all.

[Then I'll ask outside to bring water. ] He said to ring the bell.

[The water should not be too hot or too cold, I feel more at ease when you go, and buy something by the way, I'm hungry. 】

Hearing this, he quickly got up and wiped the crying face with his sleeve.

[Then I'll go out first, you have a good rest. 】

I nod to him.

When the sound of his footsteps faded away, I stood up.

The smell of hospital disinfectant is really unpleasant and makes people uncomfortable.

Although the ward I was in was luxuriously decorated and there was a faint fragrance of flowers in the room, I could still smell the disinfectant.

I hate hospitals.

After pulling out the needle in my hand, I got out of bed and put on my shoes.As a result, as soon as the foot touched the ground, the person fell straight down, and the needle site touched the foot of the bed, bleeding.The white hospital gown was dirty, it looked very eye-catching, I wanted to take off the gown, but I couldn't use my hands, I couldn't help being manic, I tore the clothes.

No matter how weak I was, I was so angry that I grabbed a slipper and smashed it against the window. As a result, I hit the vase on the window sill.

Well, the anger is gone, I still have to stand up by myself, I leaned on the edge of the bed to get up, when I heard someone hastily pushed open the door, rushed in and called [Ann! 】

He was suddenly picked up by the waist, and now his whole body is limp, so he had no choice but to let him hug him and put him on the bed.

[Why did it fall to the ground?Lying down is so dishonest. 】He was very happy to see me wake up, and the excitement could not be concealed in his soft tone.He took the quilt and covered me, and pressed it with his hands.

He thought I accidentally fell while sleeping.

[These days have scared me, little guy. 】He lowered his head, rubbed his face against my forehead, and saw the blood on his clothes, which was accidentally stained by rubbing just now.

He frowned, got up, and on the other side of the bed, he saw the needle tube I just pulled out fell on the ground, and the medicine inside was sprinkled on the broken glass all over the floor.

He seemed to understand, and quickly opened the drawer beside the bed without saying a word, took out a cotton swab and alcohol to stop the bleeding.

I sat there quietly watching his movements.

When the bleeding stopped, he got another towel and wiped off the blood on my hands, bit by bit, very carefully.

Afterwards, he took a rough look at my whole body, and sat down with confidence after making sure that there was nothing serious.

[Is there any discomfort? ] He asked softly, as if nothing happened just now.

I didn't answer, I pulled the quilt up to cover my neck and chin, turned over and closed my eyes.

[Sleep if you are sleepy. 】He rubbed my hair for me.

Although I closed my eyes, I couldn't sleep, but I didn't want to see him, otherwise I would feel uncomfortable.

Soon, Xiao Ran came back.

[Little master, I have all my things...Master Ling?How did you come? 】

【Hush~】He whispered 【Put things here, let's go out first. 】

【good. 】Xiao Ran also whispered, 【Huh?Didn't the young master just wake up, why did he fall asleep again? 】

[In the future, if you need it, just tell him directly, you stay by your side and take good care of him. 】

【Yes, Young Master Ling.Then I go out first. 】

Take care?It's not about guarding prisoners.

After Xiao Ran left, only him and I were left in the room, and there was silence in the air.

He knew I wasn't asleep, and I knew he wanted to talk, but neither of us spoke first, and we confronted each other silently.

I don't know when I fell asleep.When I woke up again, it was dark outside.

[Xiao Ran? 】 I called a sentence.

【He's not in now. 】

I just noticed someone on the sofa in the room.

He came over and poured me a glass of water, and helped me to sit up. I turned sideways and took a drink from the glass.

When he was about to get out of bed, he grabbed my shoulders [Just wake up and don't move around. 】

I pointed to the bathroom, meaning to go to the bathroom, so he had to let go.

Seeing that I failed to stand up straight several times, he put his arms around my shoulders and waist, and helped me over, and I simply leaned on him.

When I got better, he helped me to the bed again.

【Ling Cang, can I trouble you to call Xiao Ran here. ] I said.

【He went back. 】

【Then you go back too. 】I said hoarsely.

He ignored what I said.

While eating, he sat on the edge of the bed and watched, wiping my mouth from time to time.

I turned my head to avoid it but couldn't.

He looked at me amused.

After eating, I picked up the magazine on the side and read it.

To pass the time for patients, the hospital put a shelf next to the bed, and specially placed magazines and books for reading.

I held the book high to cover my eyes and block my view.

【Aren't you tired of reading like this? ] He smiled and took down the book in my hand.

【Ling Cang, I'm going to be discharged from the hospital. The hospitalization fee is too expensive and I can't afford it. 】

【Okay, but I can't leave the hospital until I get better. 】 He said patiently.

[It's just a bath in the water, no need to make a fuss. ] I took the clothes on the bedside.

[If you can't, you can't. Be obedient. 】He put the clothes in my hand back again. [The book should be read in this way so as not to hurt the eyes. 】

He picked the book at an angle and put it on my lap for me to read.

Unable to communicate with him, I just stared at the magazine absent-mindedly. Although I kept turning the pages, I didn't know what I was reading.

He went to the sofa and picked up the computer to start his work. There was a thick stack of documents on the table.

He brings everything in the company here.Why bother.

Afraid that I might run away, why not tie me up with a rope?

He can keep silent from beginning to end, and occasionally look up at me, and when his eyes meet, he will smile at me.

It was windy outside, shaking the windows.

It's so dark and cold outside at this time, I can't go out, so I have to get through tonight first.

What I fear most is the hospital, and at night, the fear is even worse.

I covered my head with a quilt and hid inside.

[Xia'an~Xia'an~] The woman's voice rang out again.

It seems that I saw that day again, she was sitting on the edge of the bed covered in blood, a large amount of blood kept pouring out from her wrist, but she kept laughing as she watched, she held my hand and refused to let go, her blood made me feel sick. All over her body, she kept yelling to take me away.

【Born to be cursed!It's all your fault, dragging me down! ] She slapped me twice. [Bitch!If it weren't for you, how could I be reduced to this unreasonable situation.Bitch! 】

I cried for help, but no one came, whoever came to save her, she would die if this continued.

I desperately picked up the sheet to cover her wound, but she threw me to the ground【What do you want me to do? Do you want me to live and wait for them to laugh at me?Xia An, go, leave here with me, you are not welcome in this world, let's go! 】She leaned over and lifted my chin, touching my face was covered with blood 【Everyone here is wicked, you will be bullied. ] As she spoke, she picked up the knife beside the bed to cut her wrist.

【no, do not want! ] I was terrified.

[No pain, you see I don't hurt at all. 】She held up her deep, bone-deep wound in front of me, bloody and bloody.

【ah!don't want! ] I cried and struggled hard.

【Shut up!coward!You're a coward just like him! 】She took the knife and scratched my hand, and red blood lines appeared on my wrist immediately.

【No!don't want! 】My voice was hoarse 【Help, someone help me! 】

[Ann, Ann? 】Someone slapped my face,【What's wrong?Don't be afraid, I'm here. 】So familiar with the warm voice.

Open your eyes and see his enlarged face.

Another nightmare?But it was clearly not just a nightmare, it was like a hallucination.The whole body was in a cold sweat.

He held me tightly in his arms and patted my back. 【Have a nightmare? 】

【Ling Cang, I don't want to stay in the hospital. 】 I said tiredly.

【good.Listen to you. 】

He held me like this all night.

The next day, Xiao Ran came with Xiao Feng.

[Let's go. 】 Xiao Feng stepped forward and rudely took my things.

【What are you doing here? ] I am baffled.

【Mr. Xiao is here to pick you up and leave the hospital. 】 Xiao Ran hastily explained.

【What else can I do?Hmph~ Isn't everything in your plan?Should I congratulate you! ] He looked disdainful.

【Xiao Feng, although I don't know what you are talking about, return the luggage to me. 】

[I really know how to act, look, I'm addicted. 】He pointed at my nose with a sneer 【What trick are you playing again? 】

【Mr. Xiao, you misunderstood, the young master...】 Xiao Ran wanted to explain, but Xiao Feng's words of "shut up" made Xiao Ran open his eyes and dare not make a sound.

I'm still at a loss.

【It was you who wanted to leave before, and you were the one who said they wanted to meet. After meeting, you were hospitalized by jumping into the lake.When are you going to act? ! ] he growled, completely impatient.

[It's over, it's okay after I'm done, return the bag to me, and I'll go by myself. 】

【Are you a crazy person!You have to make Ling's family restless to be reconciled, right? 】He threw my bag forcefully on the ground and kicked his feet【Warning, don't play tricks, Ling Cang is confused and I am awake! 】As he spoke, he picked up my bag again, and dragged Xiao Ran to walk outside.

Xiao Ran turned around and mouth-shaped to me [Young master, follow me quickly. 】

Several men in black standing outside the door also said to me in unison [Little Master, please. 】

This battle, how can I let me call the shots.

☆, under house arrest

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Xiao Feng seemed to hate me even more.

I sat in the living room in a daze until Ling Cang came back.

【An~ Are you feeling better today? 】

[Ling Cang, have you seen enough drama?]

[Watching a play? ] He showed a puzzled expression.

[Whether you have watched it or not, I have had enough acting and I don't want to act with you anymore. 】

[I don't understand what you are talking about. 】

[Okay, let's not talk about this first.Are you going to put me under house arrest now? ] I pointed to the man in black outside the door.

Someone has followed him all the way since he was discharged from the hospital, and he stayed outside the apartment all day today.

【You are weak and need someone to take care of you. ] he explained. [Look at how thin you are, it's all my fault. 】

I almost don't know him talking like this now.

[I'll take you to relax in a few days, and recuperate here first, okay? ] He asked if he was okay, and he didn't really ask for my opinion.If I say no, he will definitely let me stay here.

On the 15th floor, there is no way to go down the water pipe, and jumping out of the window is a dead end.

He has done all of these.

I didn't say yes or no, just let him arrange it.

Before going to bed, he saw that the light in my room was still on, so he came over and turned off the light for me.

Our room was just across a passage.In the past, I'm afraid I'd be so excited that I couldn't sleep all night.

Perhaps the first time we met, we were destined to be our present.

He saved me, everything about me was given by him.

But I still want his heart, what right do I have?

The old man has always treated me well. Compared to many orphans, I am really lucky.

But the old man left too early, and he died before he started to enjoy the family happiness, so I have to feel sorry for him.

In fact, he was a very nice old man.

I like him very much, and he pampers me very much.

If it weren't for me alone, I wouldn't be able to cause any bloodshed.

The old man can't see me getting hurt a little bit.

That's why I am lawless and forgetful, even the old fox, Uncle Chen, the old man's old subordinate, is afraid of me.

The old fox has always been opposed to keeping me, especially when I blatantly start pestering Ling Cang, he hates it to the extreme.The old fox once said that if I want to be a real man, I must have a backbone, don't just want to be a rabbit master, that time completely angered me, I pulled his beard in front of everyone, he was in pain but he dared not speak out.

The old fox is just a typical representative of people who oppose my faction.

There are plenty of people who sneer at me.

But I do whatever I think, trying my best to think of all kinds of tricks in order to make Ling Cang take a look at me.Don't be afraid of jokes when you say it.I used to know that he likes mandalas, I give him a bunch every day, but every time he doesn’t even look at it, let the assistant throw it away; Knowing that he likes music, I will pay special attention to various concert performances, but every time I participated alone with the two tickets I bought; knowing that he likes to collect all kinds of famous watches, I made a special trip to Switzerland to half threaten and half intimidate the designer who only makes one watch a year to customize a famous watch, etc. I rushed to see him off full of joy, but he took the freshly baked watch to the balcony and let go, and ten seconds later there was the sound of falling to the ground and breaking.

I'm good, he doesn't want it.

Before Ning Shu came, I asked him why he was indifferent to me, and he said that homosexuality makes people sick.

After I heard it, I kept complaining about why I was reincarnated as a man at such an untimely time, and I was troubled for a long time.

Later, I finally figured out that I planned to have a sex reassignment operation to solve the problem.When I told the old man about this idea, he almost killed the old man. He was afraid that if I did this, he would lock me up for three full months and not allow me to go out.

I always thought that Ling Cang didn't like me because of my gender, until later I promised not to do anything stupid and persuaded the old man to let me out, just when I saw Ling Cang bring Ning Shu back, I realized that I was thinking too much. too simple.

Ning Shu's kitten-like obedient appearance looked at me and made her angry.

Ling Cang never took anyone with him, he didn't like to get too close to people, but Ning Shu became the only exception.

They often go in and out together, sharing the same car, and Ling Cang is even willing to be Ning Shu's driver in charge of picking them up.

I was imprisoned for three months, I am afraid that Ling Cang has long forgotten my existence.

One time I accidentally ran into Ling Cang coaxing Ning Shu to eat, and my heart suddenly became angry, and before I left, I overturned the table and scolded Ning Shu for being shameless.Ling Cang's face turned green at that time.I said Ling Cang, you lied, didn't you say that you hate homosexuality and don't like men, but why did you accept Ning Shu?He ignored me, and instead hugged the frightened Ning Shu in his arms to comfort him.I was completely irritated, I went to pull Ning Shu away, the most disgusting person who pretends to be innocent.Ling Cang violently shook off my hand that was pulling Ning Shu, so hard that I bumped into the corner of the table and cut my forehead.He sneered and told me that he wouldn't like me even if I was a woman, he just thought I was disgusting.

But even if he treats me like this, I still think that one day he will be moved by me and take a look at me.

When the old man was alive, he protected me tightly, so I loved him without any scruples.

But the old man also knows that sooner or later I will suffer if my personality is too flamboyant, so before he dies, Ling Cang must promise him to protect me for the rest of my life.

Now that the old man is gone, I have ended up like this. If he knew, he would be so sad.

Anyway, in order for him to rest in peace, I will be fine.

The next day, I told Xiao Ran Fang Yi's address and asked him to make a trip for me.

If he can't contact me, he will be anxious.I don't even have a cell phone now, so I can't get in touch.

This place is much smaller than the previous villa, and there is no place to walk around. .

I was isolated in this small apartment deliberately by Ling Cang, and I had nothing to do after walking around the house a few times, so I ran to the back balcony to sit on the hanging chair and bask in the sun.

The sun is warm in winter, and I just want to sleep when it shines on my body.

Eat and sleep, sleep and eat, what is the difference from the walking dead?

Think about yourself or should do something meaningful.Run into the room and take out paper and pens to draw.

When I was in the orphanage, the dean always praised me for my good painting, but I have neglected it all these years.

There are still many fond memories of the days in the orphanage.

I remember that there are rows of ginkgo trees in the courtyard, which are golden and dazzling in the sun.Originally, I specially collected the fallen leaves as bookmarks and put them in the book.

The old dean likes to sleep late under the tree but always says we are lazy.

He will assign a lot of endless homework to us.Once I didn’t finish, he wanted to pull my ear, which scared me so much that I jumped up to the tree two or three times, while he stared at the presbyopia and waved the broom to tell me to come down, but he couldn’t help me.

Hehe~ It was really an unforgettable experience.

【What are you laughing at? ] I realized that there was someone behind me.

【nothing. 】I was scribbling on paper.

[Drawing? 】He was a little surprised, and leaned over to look at the paper in my hand【The drawing is very beautiful. 】

[Thank you for the compliment. 】

[I'll ask them to prepare some paintings for you. 】He smiled and walked to the door to give instructions.

[Don't dare to trouble, I'm just boring and drawing casually. ] This is too motivating.

【Stay bored? ] He sat down next to me.

not boring?you try.

I didn't answer him, it was a worthless question.

[We go out for a walk on weekends. 】He gathered the collar of my clothes for me, fearing that I would catch a cold.

I nodded to go back to the room, he took my hand.

[Why do I leave as soon as I come? 】 He asked slightly reproachfully.

【No. 】

[Sit with me and bask in the sun. 】He leaned back against the hanging chair, relaxed his body and closed his eyes.Against the light, his side face seemed to be plated with gold, holding me with one hand.I couldn't walk, so I sat down at a far distance, and the hanging chair swayed in the air a few times because of my movements.

【do not move. 】 He murmured.

Close your eyes and enjoy the warmth of the sun.

He woke me up early on the weekend with a small suitcase in his hand.

We didn't take Xiao Feng and Xiao Ran with us when we went out, we had to drive by ourselves.

It was still gray outside.

He seemed to be in good spirits, but I was very sleepy and couldn't sleep well at night.

Looking out the window with half-closed eyes, the trees on the side of the road retreated quickly.

There is only music playing slowly in the car.

I don't know the way very well.I only know that the car got on the high speed and walked for a long time, and then walked a very bumpy road after getting off the high speed. At that time, I was very motion sick and wanted to vomit.

The car finally stopped.

He turned around and asked me to get out of the car, and found that my face was not good.

[Motion sickness?Why don't you tell me.Wait, I brought motion sickness pills. ] He said he was going to get it.

【Need not. ] I open the door and get down to get some fresh air.

Wait until you get over before getting in the car.

When he arrived, he parked the car in a parking lot, and then we took the bus into the mountain.

The mountains are colder than other places.Under the warm sun, the mountain view is beautiful.

Then he dragged the suitcase and we went into the hotel.

I didn't bring anything except a few simple changes of clothes.

The hotel staff asked how many rooms we booked?

【one. 】

[Two rooms. 】

We both said at the same time.

After hearing two different voices, the hotel staff looked at us suspiciously.

We also looked at each other in surprise.

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