Eat little by little

Lin Xu tremblingly walked to the office, and when he saw his eldest brother, he was really stunned.

The brotherhood of the Lin family was carved out of a mold. The elder brother was wearing a loose white T-shirt and the dark blue school uniform trousers of Lingyi School.The eldest brother's name is Lin An, he is in the third year of high school, this year is the most stressful year, no matter what, it is not his turn to visit his younger brother.

"Ah Xu." It's been a long time since I saw him, but the elder brother's smile is still the same as before, his mouth is opened in a huge arc, just looking at it makes people feel at ease.

Lin Xu was inexplicably relieved and was puzzled, "Brother, why are you here?"

Lin An got up from the chair, with a figure of 1.8 meters seven, he was proud of his second brother. He rubbed his stupid brother's head with his fingers, and rubbed his soft hair into grass with a smile, "Go home and get something, just finished watching Xiaoyuan , come to see you."

Lin Xu waited for his brother to finish kneading before reaching out to smooth his hair, "That's it?"

"Otherwise?" Lin An stretched out his hand again to mess with the tidy hair, and missed his brother's way of pulling his hair pitifully, unlike Xiao Yuan who can blow hair, Xiao Xu is really easy to bully, big brother I feel that my malice towards the third year of high school has been reduced at this time.Sure enough, he looked at Lin Xu with satisfaction, drooping his head, combing his hair carefully.

Lin Xu's spirit has been tense to the extreme these two days, but the arrival of his brother relieved his nerves, and he smiled, "Are you going back later?"

"Are you still in class?"

"We'll have physical education class later, you can ask for leave."

"Then Axu will accompany me for a walk, I'm almost suffocating in the third year of high school." Lin An stretched carelessly, and put his arms around his younger brother's shoulders, "Let's go!"

Lin Xu has always envied his elder brother since childhood. He has many good friends since he was a child. He visits everywhere every day and knows everyone. His grades are average, but his mentality is very good.Before high school, I often quarreled with my parents. I would rather live with my classmates than go home. After high school, I seemed to have become better, and I stopped talking back to my parents.

Lin An didn't like to play with his two younger brothers before. He hung out with his friends all day long. He was the type who was very righteous in the circle of friends. He always felt that his two younger brothers were stupid and young. They didn't understand anything, so they just Two farts.Perhaps the boy is a particularly late bloomer. It wasn’t until he was about to become an adult that he realized that he might have to go far away from his hometown to study in a university. .

The weather in March is especially cold in winter, and the breeze blows over the face, leaving a numbing dampness.

The evergreen trees in the campus grow delicate branches, and the branches are stained with aqua blue, which is beautiful and charming.There are also scattered dead leaves and fallen green fruit on the concrete road under the tree, making a crackling sound when stepped on.

It is rare for Lin An to walk for a while without distraction, looking up at the broken light flickering between the trees in a daze, then turning his head to look at his younger brother, who is obviously only two years younger, but looks like a child, the lines on his face reveal his youthfulness Sentimental.

"Ah Xu, we didn't talk often before, let's have a good chat today." Lin An's impression of his younger brother was only "well-behaved" and "boring".A Xu seems to have no such transition as the rebellious period, he never goes against his parents' ideas, and never fights for what he wants.During the period when the relationship between him and his parents was the most rigid, this guy often brought meals from home to school and gave them to him.Perhaps, it was from that time that he really began to want to take care of this silly brother.

Lin Xu glanced at his brother, blinked, thought for a while, and then asked bluntly, "Is brother tired in his third year of high school? Will he suffer from stress and insomnia?"

The eldest brother of the Lin family laughed, and couldn't help rubbing his younger brother's hair again, "It's not about me, it's about you. I heard from Lin Yuan that you are in a relationship? I really didn't expect it."

Lin Yuan's face flushed red, like a child who has found out the worst thing, "I..."

"Do you like it very much?" Lin An's eyes fell on a falling leaf.

"Ah?" Lin Xu moved his elder brother's gaze, and saw the trembling leaves falling in the air, swaying in the wind, until the leaves fell to the ground. At that moment, his uneasy heart seemed to fall to the ground suddenly.

Lin Xu's eyes softened, the corners of his mouth curled up, and he said softly: "Yes, I like it very much." Then he thought of Yang Fengrui's expression when he ran out to answer the phone just now, and he frowned again, very worried.

"A real person doesn't show his face. I didn't expect that the most obedient child in our family would fall in love early. Hahaha, my parents would be surprised. They used you as an example every day to teach me." Lin An gritted his teeth, Once again, he murdered Lin Xu's hair.

Lin Xu had a bitter face, and gave up the plan to save his hair, "Brother, don't say it."

"Please?" Lin An turned his face away, smiling like a snarky bear.

Lin Xu's face darkened, and he stammered, "I..."

"Well, I promise you!" Lin An excitedly grabbed two small croiss braids on his younger brother's hair with both hands, smiling brightly.

Lin Xu had a bitter face, and really wanted to go up and bite his elder brother and become good or bad!

"How long have you been with that girl?" Lin An said suddenly.

Lin Xu's face became ugly and he avoided his brother's sight.

"Huh?" Brother Lin raised his eyebrows when he realized something was wrong.

"We've been playing together since the third year of junior high..." Lin Xu looked down at his white sneakers.

"No wonder," Lin An muttered, "Guess you are a serious child who has a puppy love."

Lin Xu didn't dare to say another word.

Lin An looked at his younger brother for a while, then suddenly said, "How about I tell you about the girl I liked before?"

Lin Xu nodded silly, and the two found a bench and sat down.

The big boy in the white T-shirt leaned lazily on the chair, stretched his waist and stretched his legs at the same time, then leaned back on the backrest with half-closed eyes, looking at the leaves on the top of the tree with an unclear expression.The spring breeze stirred the boy's hair, blown the hem of his clothes, and the loose laces of his sneakers.

"She is very fierce." When the first adjective was said, the boy on the chair smiled, as if thinking of something, "If she hears it, she will probably be angry again."

"She is the kind of annoying stubborn girl. In order to urge you to hand in your homework, she can come over after every class and stay for a while. Tsk, that time was really annoying. She didn't have many friends, and she was too obsessed with too many things. Seriously. She is the kind of annoying girl who will go up and say "you copy me again and tell the teacher" even if she sees her classmates copying homework. The teacher punishes copying ancient poems, and only she can honestly copy word by word If you know how many sentences you can count, you are so stupid. In fact, the teacher doesn’t care whether you have copied a hundred sentences or not.”

Lin Xu quietly looked at his elder brother from the side, watching his pretended disdainful expression.He didn't interrupt, he didn't ask Big Brother, why do you know?

"The water dispenser in the classroom ran out of water, and she didn't ask the male students in the class. She went downstairs to carry the bucket by herself. She was very brave and stubborn. She met several male students in the class and didn't make a sound. , I installed it myself.

"Once, it rained after school. The rain was so heavy that I couldn't ride a bicycle. All the students in the class called their parents to pick them up, but she was sitting stupidly. When I left, she was Unlock the bicycle in the awning, and plan to ride back like that.” The boy paused for a while, then continued, “When I put the umbrella over her head, her face turned red. Oh, I didn’t expect that, so stubborn and rigid girl, so shy."

Lin Xu knew that story, and his elder brother also fell in love with him when he was freshman in high school.My brother was a day student in another high school and came home very late every day. It took a long time before he was discovered.

During that time, my brother saved breakfast money every day to buy the most expensive milk for that girl, and every day he rode the girl’s bicycle to take the girl home from school and walked back alone, wearing his favorite clothes during the holidays to find various There are various reasons to go out, shopping in the supermarket to buy the girl’s favorite seaweed and blueberry flavored egg rolls, awkwardly asking my brother how to fold paper stars the week before Valentine’s Day...

That story is not long, and it will end soon.

"After my parents found out, I still sneaked out to find her, but she refused to come out. She ignored me in class. At that time, I felt that love is a matter between two people. As long as you don't give up, there is no problem. "I don't know when, the boy sat up and kicked the small stone in front of him with his shoes.

"I asked her why, and she said: Mom wants me to study hard."

The wind continued to stir the boy's hair, but this time, he held his bangs and his eyes with his hands, and didn't make another sound.

Lin Xu asked: "What happened next?" He never knew the ins and outs of this story, but he wanted to know the ending of this story so much.

"There is no later, I can't meet a few times after the class is divided, and I will avoid the meeting soon, and few people in the class remember it." This love is so slight, thrown into the water, it will not even A drop of crystal splashed out.

The story is as simple as that.

Who told him to fall in love with such a girl, a rigid, stubborn, fierce girl who would blush when a boy touched his hand.

My brother laughed out loud, "What kind of expression do you have, don't look uncomfortable, I've forgotten it long ago."

Will you really forget?

In the torrential rain, the girl lowered her head and blushed cheeks.

That was the first heartbeat when I was young, and my heart beat like it was going to hit my chest.

The love in the heavy rain, as time goes by, even if no one remembers it, it will remain in the hearts of two people, and it only belongs to these two people.

It's called first love.

In the future, we will look for it, no matter how many loves we encounter, in that love, there will never be that boy who saves his breakfast money to buy milk for himself, nor will there be that boy who blushes when he meets a boy for the first time. A girl who doesn't speak.

Young people don't understand love, and we are no longer young.

Lin An patted his younger brother on the head, "My brother said that there is no special meaning in this matter. There is no one in this world who should be blamed, not to mention, we still have such a long future, and we will meet many people. But falling in love does delay learning Yes, if you don’t really like it, brother also wants to persuade you to give up. If you still like it after graduation, you can contact me again.”

Lin Xu stared dryly, his heart crinkled, "Brother, did you feel uncomfortable at that time?"

Lin An paused, lowered his eyes, "I don't really remember, but it should be quite uncomfortable, you see, I don't even want to remember."

"Then you, do you hate your parents?"

Brother Lin took a deep look at Lin Xu, "A Xu, I want to tell you that I will never hate them at any time. In fact, I discovered it a long time ago. A Xu, you are the most thoughtful among our brothers. , the one who thinks the most, although it seems to understand everything, but in fact it is you who don't understand the least." Lin Xu froze for a moment.

Lin An sighed, "You seem to never complain about your parents, but in fact, you are the one who feels most wronged in your heart. No matter what your parents do, they care about you the most. Do you think your parents don't love you enough? Do you think your parents like Xiaoyuan more?"

Lin Xu seemed to have been hit by something, his whole expression was dumbfounded.

Lin An laughed out loud, "You didn't even realize it yourself? Forget it, you think you are so young, open-minded, and understand everything? Fool, how can parents' love be measured like this?"

"How do you want your parents to treat you? Chat with you? Talk to you? Watch TV shows with you or do homework with you? I always felt that my parents didn't understand me and never knew what I wanted." Lin An looked at Lin Xu, "Have you ever thought about it, that's the way you think they should love you, but it's not what they think. Mom and Dad have always loved you in the way they think they love you the most in their world .”

"You know the life of your parents when they were young. At that time, they couldn't even eat enough. Do you think grandparents have time to care about whether their children are in a bad mood today? Have you ever thought that at the age of parents now, Why do you have to work hard outside every day? In order to support the family, do you know what the biggest expenditure in the family is?"

A child, from birth, to kindergarten, to elementary school, junior high school, and high school, to university, from baby carriages and milk powder for children, to the replacement of clothes and shoes every year when he grows up, and for toys from childhood to adulthood All kinds of electronic products after growing up... For an ordinary family, a child is the greatest wealth in their life.

"We have three children in our family. Because of us, our parents can't even decide whether we can sleep in tomorrow after working hard for half our lives. Do you know why they were so angry when I had a fight with my parents?"

Lin Xu nodded and shook his head again.He always felt that his parents made a fuss out of a molehill, and he always quarreled with his elder brother over trivial matters.

"Because in their concept, their hard work outside, every effort is for us. They give us the best, so when I get angry and shout 'You don't care about me!''I I'd rather not be your children', they will be so angry. They gave us all the things they thought were the most precious, but their children trampled these best things under their feet. They may It is very powerful outside, but just like a simple sentence from parents can hurt children, children can easily defeat them." Lin An turned Lin Xu's head, looked directly into the other's eyes, and said in simple words Simple truth.

They may not do well enough, those are not what you want.But they try to use their experience to pave a better way for their children.They may be more concerned about whether your grades and rankings can go to a better school, because they think this is more important to your future.They just want to make your life better.Some parents will also say, it doesn't matter as long as you are happy.That's because they want you to be better off.

The way of expressing love is different from parent to parent, but in the world, no one will love you so unconditionally again.

"Lin Xu, my parents may not be the best parents, but you must know that they love you very much. They are always happy, and you can make them worry. They are really happy. My mother once asked me, Do you have anything in particular that you want, because she knows, and you won't tell if she asks you. You think you are very good, but have you ever thought that you have really avoided it for too long. "

Lin Xu's eyes turned red, he turned his head, "I'm used to it."

Lin An sighed, who said his second brother was sensible? "I'm here to tell you this. Do you really want to keep a distance like this?"

Children will lose their temper and act like a baby in their own home, but they will often be well-behaved and sensible in other people's homes.

But Lin Xu, no child would stay in his own home the same as someone else's.

"Originally, we didn't spend much time with our parents after school. We spent more time at school than at home. I'm going to university soon, and then it will be harder for me to go home. After university, I will work... "Lin An's voice became softer and softer, "I just quarreled with them in high school. I didn't expect that time flies so fast..."

So soon, I'm leaving them.

Lin Xu blinked and felt something wet rolled down.

"Really, my silly brother, you think your parents will be by your side for a long time, but they are not."

One day you will find that you no longer have time to accompany them to follow the latest series.Maybe it's because you don't like to watch it, maybe it's because you have other things, maybe it's because you're not at home.

But these are not important, the most important thing is——

You may not have learned to love them well, and they are gone.

"My silly brother, don't cry." Brother Lin went to pinch his brother's face, "Have you figured it out?"

Lin Xu burst into tears, "If I don't listen to them, will they be very sad?"

"Yes," Lin An smiled, imitating her mother's tone, "Huh, you want to fly before your wings are hard? I changed your diapers back then!"

"But," my brother continued to laugh, "we can reason with them. We need to convince them that after you do this, you will have a good life. You also need to tell them that you need them the most, if With them, you are not afraid of any difficulties, but if they are not there, they are your greatest difficulties and sorrows."

Lin Xu said, "Have you tried?"

"I tried it. That's how I convinced them that I don't want to study finance in college."

"Brother, what do you want to learn?"

"I want to learn to draw."

"No wonder they called you last month and almost smashed the TV at home."

"Is that so?" Lin An scratched his head, smirked three times and then calmed down, "I didn't want to choose science at the beginning...but they still signed up."

"Why didn't they allow you to learn painting?"

"Because they think I'm young, and I will definitely regret it later." Lin An seemed to be reasoning with a child.

"Then why agree now?"

"Because I've grown up." Lin An smiled slyly.

Lin Xu felt like being tricked.

"Haha," Lin An loved to tease his younger brother more and more, "well. That's because I told them that this is my life. If I didn't even try it once, I would definitely regret it. I also I'm especially afraid of failing, and I'm afraid of being laughed at by others, but what I'm most afraid of is letting them down. So I told them that I can ignore what anyone says, but I only need their support. I think, I will There will definitely be times when it is particularly difficult and I want to regret it, but at that time, if I think that I still need them behind my back, I will definitely be able to grit my teeth and persist. The most uncomfortable thing for me is that because of their opposition, I am most helpless. I didn’t even dare to call their phone to hear their voices when they were helping.”

When Lin An said this, he wanted to cry a little. He hugged his younger brother, "That's why they are scared. Even if I am the worst child, they still hope that when I encounter difficulties, I dare to go home."

Lin Xu held his brother's hand tremblingly, "Can I fight for it too?"

Lin An's expression was very serious, "Of course. You have to convince them that you have really considered the consequences and that you really have the courage to bear it. So, do you have it? If you don't do well, they will be very sad .”

Lin Xu couldn't control his tears more and more.

He suddenly realized that this wasn't just his life.If he had a bad life, there would be someone more sad and painful than him.And he, can he really guarantee that he can live a good life?