Eat little by little

"Lin Xu, what are you doing? Chatting with your classmates?"

Lin Xu was startled, looked up at his eldest brother, and subconsciously hid the phone behind him, "It's nothing."

"Really?" The eldest brother narrowed his eyes slightly, "I've been watching you play all the time recently."

"Huh? Well, I will pay attention." Lin Xu turned his head away.

The eldest brother looked at his younger brother's drooping face, and the hair hanging on the other's forehead blocked his expression, and there was a considerable distance between the two of them.He frowned irritably, and suddenly wanted to snatch Lin Xu's phone to see who was on the screen, but he held back abruptly, "Just pay attention, school is about to start."

Lin Xu didn't look up, his fingers holding the phone tightly behind his back.

After Lin Jian left, Lin Xu raised his head, put the phone aside, looked at it quietly, and suddenly smiled self-deprecatingly.

He is like two divided individuals, tearing each other apart, hoping to cater to everyone, but unable to let go of his selfish ego. In the end, both sides are not human, secretive and hiding.

At this time, it was as if his limbs were tightly entwined by vines, and the vines were covered with spikes, and every time he struggled, he was dripping with blood.When he seldom insisted on doing anything, he never fought for anything. This was the first time for him to hide from his parents and elder brother, just for himself.

When Yang Fengrui didn't see him, he insisted on it alone; when the two separated, he secretly liked him; when the other party needed him, he would stay by his side.

He never told anyone how difficult these things were.

When Yang Fengrui sent the question, he was about to go out for dinner with his family. The moment he received the message, he hurriedly found a reason to stay at home.

Whenever he needs him, he's there.

That bastard, with rough nerves and no brains, will never know how difficult it is to like him.

That guy didn't know that he had changed a lot this year.

He doesn't talk to the people in the class, and he doesn't participate in any activities of the class. He seems to be the most inconspicuous member of the class. In the graduation photo, he is the shadow in the corner.

He looked stuffy and astringent, like a bitter melon thrown by the side of the road.People in the class didn't like to talk to him, and privately rumored that he had some mental problems, and would occasionally make fun of him in public, without any response, the rumors spread even more fiercely.

Lin Xu doesn't remember when this situation developed, but when he realized it, it was like this.

He's been working really hard on his studies, telling himself to focus, telling himself not to let his emotions get in the way of the really big things.He tried his best to look normal.He almost tried his best to suppress all his emotions, covering himself with thick shells one after another until he became insensitive to all external stimuli.

For a period of time, his homework books were always missing and could not be found. He could only do it again in a daze, until one time he saw a few of his own books in the trash shovel next to the school trash can.When he picked it up, the name on it had been torn off, and the empty pages inside were filled with drafts.

"Is this your notebook? Well, why didn't you claim it? Someone in the class kept asking who owned the notebook outside, but no one recognized it, so someone took it as a draft notebook."

He nodded and said nothing more.

In fact, this is nothing.

He doesn't get angry, doesn't complain, but he doesn't feel pain.He was uncomfortable and could only be suffocated by himself, as if the wound was tightly packed, the more it hurts, the tighter it was, until it rotted and ulcerated.

In the past, there would be a person who forcibly tore off his disguise and scolded him: "Fuck, I told you not to do it! If you are asked to do it, you are stupid! You bastard, you refuse to refuse! Next time, don't do it!" Leave me! I will help you refuse!"

"Don't tell me it's nothing, there's nothing to give up! It's wrong to make yourself unhappy!"

That person can't learn to be tactful, can't learn to be considerate of others, he can just throw the table and leave when he is angry, and he can scold the world all over the world when he is uncomfortable.

Yang Fengrui is too hard, he is too soft.In fact, neither he nor Yang Fengrui will get along with this world.It's just that they are clumsily guarding each other in their own way.

After the man left, no one noticed his festering wound.

All of this, he won't tell that bastard.

Even if everyone in the world tells him not to like Yang Fengrui.

He won't fight back.

He will secretly like it without telling the whole world.

This is Lin Xu's "like".

The winter vacation is over and a new semester begins.This year, they are 17 years old.

The school starts in March, and the spring sweeps across the campus, with green shoots, buds and pink pistils, and the breeze is trembling, and it is beautiful and pleasant.

During the winter vacation, Lin Xu and Yang Fengrui didn't talk much, not because they didn't want to talk, but because they didn't know where to start.They are not lovers, not friends, at most they can be called classmates.Even if they are classmates, they are trembling even asking about the other party's recent situation.

One topic after another carries their weak emotions and conveys their unspeakable affection.Clean handwriting, neat steps, carefully outlined key points, and a heart that couldn't be softer.

Did you hear it?

I'm saying, I like you.

In the first exam at the beginning of school, Lin Xu accidentally broke into the top ten in the whole class, which shocked everyone.He himself was taken aback, but after thinking about it, it wasn't surprising.Throughout the winter vacation, he was studying with one person.

That guy took a winter vacation, completed all the practice questions, and made three complete workbooks.In the last month, Yang Fengrui read a set of English and [-] English words every day, and he was in a near-death state every day.Lin Xu couldn't see it, so he also bought a set of English practice questions in the same book, and helped him look up the new words he needed to know in the reading every day, and sent them to the other party after Yang Fengrui finished.Yang Fengrui probably understood what he meant, and every day he honestly wrote down new words before going to bed, and then sent them to him.Lin Xu then helped to see if everything was correct.

There will be a simple kiss emoji.

He also returned one.

Then, good night, close your eyes.

After school started, there was less contact between the two, except for the persistent picture exchange before going to bed, there was almost no intersection.

New knowledge was thrown round after round, and the two of them were overwhelmed, but they both worked hard beyond the ordinary.

Lin Xu's grades were stable in the top [-] of the class, while Yang Fengrui's scores were like a rocket, crushing the bottom class's scores and climbing into the top [-].

Lin Xu will always remember the photo of the report card sent by Yang Fengrui on the day when the results of the monthly exam came out, with a small smiling face drawn with a black pen inside.

Lin Xu looked at it for a long time, then slowly covered his head with the quilt, and secretly laughed.

At that time, their world only consisted of two parts: study, and the little kiss expression before going to bed.

No matter how chaotic the day is, the night is a peaceful dreamland.

This is a love that no one knows about.

The green shadows outside the window are shining, and the sunlight is chopped and scattered all over the ground, rolling all over the ground with the wind.The birdsong seems to be at the highest point of the branches, one sound, one sound, echoing each other.

In the classroom, chalk and blackboard rubbed against the dust, and the clock on the wall slowly moved the second hand.

"Spring sports, does anyone want to sign up?"

No one responded.

For the experimental class, the sports meeting is probably the most annoying existence, which is time-consuming and meaningless.

The teacher tapped the table with his fingers, "Everyone, don't just focus on studying every day, the body is also very important..."

"Lin Xu is going!"

Lin Xu, who was buried in his book, froze for a moment, looked around, not knowing what happened.At this time, several voices rang out in the class, pushing Lin Xu away.

"Really? The teacher hasn't noticed yet? Lin Xu is very good at sports."

Lin Xu glanced at the whole class, suddenly felt very strange, and then glanced at the teacher, not knowing how to speak, he silently lowered his head.

The teacher muttered and wrote down the names of the students, "Who else?"

The class found out a long time ago that no matter whether it is class duty, locking the door, or moving test papers and textbooks, as long as the name is Lin Xu, it will definitely work.

"It's not good for you to treat him like this all the time?" Occasionally, someone secretly commented.

"Tch, why don't you go?"

The man didn't say anything.

"Also, don't feel sorry for that guy. Let me tell you, this kind of person is the most hypocritical. Who knows what he thinks in his heart? Hehe, he always looks down on the whole class in his own way."

"Isn't it just that you don't talk much?"

"Who said it? Maybe someone will say bad things about you behind your back. Isn't it just that your grades are better? What are you dragging? He deserves to pretend to be a good student in front of the teacher."

……

At that time, the whole class was suddenly spreading all kinds of gossip about Lin Xu.Why did you always hang out with the students in the bottom class before, and you used to do one thing in front of you and another in the back, double-sided, hypocritical and pretentious... There are all kinds of ugly words.

What people are least afraid of is watching the excitement. No matter how various rumors are added, no matter how neutral they are, they will uphold the principle of keeping a distance and staying safe.

In the end, even Lin Xu's test scores were questioned by many.

"Well, may I ask, have all the test papers been handed out? Mine haven't yet."

The class representative glanced lazily at Lin Xu, "I don't know, I don't have it in my hand, you can go to the office and look for it."

Lin Xu lowered his eyelids and said softly, "Yes."

He came to the office alone, searched through all the test papers, found nothing, thanked the teacher and returned to the classroom, and his test papers lay quietly on his desk.

The people in the class didn't really do anything too much, they just excluded him from the group intentionally or unintentionally.

Lin Xu picked up his test paper, slowly clenched it, and then slowly loosened it.

There are too many things, I am used to not arguing, and I am used to bear it alone.If it hurts, cover it.

At night, he looked at the question sent by Yang Fengrui, blinked his eyes desperately, and picked up the pen to check the calculation silently.

He couldn't control it well, his hands were shaking so badly that he couldn't write any more, so he stopped.After a while, continue writing.

Then send a kiss expression, close your eyes, and sleep.

In March and April, the days passed quietly.

The classroom of the ground-level class is two floors away from the experimental class, and even if you want to run, you have to run for 15 minutes to get there.

Yang Fengrui liked to look at the classroom of the experimental class from the bottom of the teaching building more and more. He looked up, stroked the jade on his chest with his fingers, and stayed quietly for a long time.

The wind brushed against his face, shaking his clothes and trousers, and he gently closed his eyes.

It's so far away from that guy, he doesn't even know what kind of life the other person lives.

That guy had always been a likable guy, and he must have had a much better life than him.

It would be nice if I could get to him sooner, and sooner.

I want to put that guy in my field of vision and keep him firmly imprisoned.

It was May when Yang Fengrui really found out that something was wrong with Lin Xu.The sun scorched the entire earth, and the trees groaned as if they were scorched.

In the second semester of the second year of high school, the prospective senior year of high school, this year's senior year of high school students have reached the final month of sprint, and they are about to enter the next year of high school senior year, and they are also forced into the midterm exam.

When everyone was working overtime and reviewing, Lin Xu lost contact.

On the third night when he did not receive a reply from Lin Xu, Yang Fengrui grabbed his phone and almost opened his eyes until dawn.It was an indescribable torment. Every minute, he would look down at the screen, unlock it again and again to see the screen light up, and watch the screen dim again.He grabbed the safety buckle in his arms, and his hands hurt.

It was dark outside the window, only the sporadic light of distant street lamps.

He gradually became agitated, tossing back and forth on the bed, and then simply sat up and leaned against the wall. His body was exhausted, but his mind was clear. He closed his eyes painfully to try to keep himself in a state of rest.

He hated his powerless state more and more.

Again and again, almost driving him crazy.

He instinctively guessed: something happened to Lin Xu.

The next morning, Yang Fengrui broke into the experimental class at the highest level by himself. Like a strange person, he mixed with the students at the highest level of the whole grade. He stopped a student at the door and asked, "Excuse me, is Lin Xu there?"

"Lin Xu?" The classmate frowned slightly, "I've been on leave for a few days. Something happened at home."

Yang Fengrui was anxious, "What happened?"

"Who knows."

Yang Fengrui stood at the door of Lin Xu's classroom, looking at the students coming and going, his eyes were full of strangeness.He looked into the classroom, looked at the desks, and finally stopped at a corner. Looking at the familiar water cups and pen holders above, his eyes suddenly felt a little sore.

He knocked on the office door again, "Excuse me, is this Lin Xu's head teacher? I want to ask why Lin Xu asked for leave?"

"Who are you?"

"I'm his good friend."

The teacher's eyes lingered on him, with some hesitation, "Which class?"

Yang Fengrui just wanted to tell his class, but he stopped abruptly in the eyes of the other party. The distrust and contempt he inadvertently revealed made him extremely embarrassed.At this moment, he dared not report his class.Lowering his head, he clenched his fists tightly, "Teacher, is there something wrong with Lin Xu's family?"

The teacher didn't want to speak, but couldn't find a reason to refuse, so he could only perfunctoryly say, "It seems that grandpa passed away, and the whole family has gone back."

Yang Fengrui felt relieved at first, which meant that Lin Xu was fine.Before leaving, I heard the teacher's broken words in the office: "Hey, the child is very pitiful, the relationship between the classmates is not good, and no one will help him write down his homework and clean up the desktop after he leaves... I have to call, now What are the children thinking about?"

"Yeah, I just don't like to talk a little bit."

……

Yang Fengrui stood at the door of the office, his legs were as heavy as gold, and he couldn't move no matter what.He suddenly couldn't imagine what kind of life Lin Xu lived?

After the two separated, he was in a mess, but at least Lin Xu was doing well.

But, that fool, the fool who keeps everything in his head, will he really have a good time?

The class bell rang, and the bustle of the campus suddenly stopped. Yang Fengrui stood in the empty corridor, his eyes full of emptiness.

How did that guy insist on waiting silently when he ran away wantonly?How did that guy hold himself back when he was angry at his parents, angry at school?And how did that guy keep coming to him again and again in the midst of a busy school schedule when he was skipping class to smoke and fight?

That guy rarely said "I like you" verbally, the only time... Every time Yang Fengrui took a step forward, his knees would become weaker, and in the end he could hardly bear to squat down.

On that crazy rainy day, he hugged Xiaoxu and asked over and over again, "Do you like me?"

Like, like, like...

For most people, I like you, that's all.

To that guy, I like you, that's all he has.

Lin Xu missed the most important midterm exam.On the report card, Lin Xu's column is blank.

Lin Xu couldn't remember how he reacted when he heard the news of his grandfather's death when he ran to the office to answer the phone.He thought he had lost consciousness. At that moment, his five senses failed. He couldn't see, hear, or touch. He could only think of his grandpa smiling.

He opened his eyes again, and there was a walking teacher in the office, test papers were scattered on the desk, and the smell of freshener remained in the air... Tears flowed from his eyes.

"Lin Xu, hurry up and ask the teacher for a leave of absence to go home. Let's hurry back to our hometown."

The old man who took him by the hand and walked across the country road, left him a boiled egg, and patted his head before going to bed, just left.

He will never open his eyes again, never smile at you again, never say a word to you again.

No matter how much you miss him, the broadcast signal can no longer find a place.

Life and death is the cruelest parting in the world.

Sitting in the car back home, Lin Xu's body was shaking constantly with the body of the car, his gaze was not fixed, and his eyes were blank.

He didn't bring a mobile phone, or rather, he didn't bring anything.

Parents are busy answering and making calls, the eldest brother is looking down at his phone, and the younger brother is sleeping with his head tilted.

He didn't know where he was heading, and he didn't know what he would encounter when he walked down.He suddenly wanted to stop time at this moment, he was just moving forward on the road, but he could never see the end.

At least, there is still a thought in my heart.

He always thought that he could bear anything, and that the wound was rotten, and it would heal sooner or later.It turned out that I could still bear it, just because the injury was not deep enough.

He is a child after all.

Contrary to many people's expectations, Lin Xu was very calm during the whole process of the funeral.

Talking to the relatives who came, entertaining the mourners to drink and eat, helping to arrange the tables and chairs... He did a good job.

Lin Xu didn't cry until his grandfather was buried in the family grave behind the mountain in the countryside.The father's eyes were red, and the big man stood in front of the tomb, the wind was blowing, his shoulders shook slightly, as if he had returned to the appearance of a child when he was young.

"Lin Xu, are you okay?" The mother touched the child's head worriedly.

Lin Xu nodded.

He doesn't even like to talk now.

After the funeral was finished, ten days had passed.As soon as the eldest brother came back, he ordered his mother not to let Lin Xu go to school. Lin Xu's condition was very strange.But at dawn the next day, Lin Xu rushed to the school with his schoolbag in his arms.

When he returned to school, the midterm exams had already ended and the rankings had already been released.

He sat in his seat, listening to the teacher spitting and commenting on the mid-term exam papers, his eyes and body remained motionless.

After class, he silently packed his things.A classmate walked up to him and seemed to be saying something, opening and closing his mouth, but he couldn't hear anything, so he just looked at each other, looked down for a while, then continued to do his own thing.The man got angry, scolded a few words and left.Lin Xu raised his head and glanced at the man's back, then lowered his head again.

After class, the teacher came to talk to him, as if to comfort him, but Lin Xu just stood there motionless, seeming to understand, but also seemed to be deaf.

That evening, someone came to the house, and his mother wanted to take him home, but she couldn't pull him away.

Lin Xu didn't know why everyone acted like he had a problem.In fact, he understands everything. He can hear his classmates telling him what happened in the class recently, he can understand the comfort and encouragement from the teacher, and he can understand the worries of his parents... He just doesn't want to respond.

Catering to everyone is really tiring.

Why can't he be left alone?

"Lin Xu, no matter what, go back to have some dinner with mom first?"

"I'm not hungry."

"Eat even if you're not hungry! What about your body?"

Lin Xu shook his head.Why can't he even want to eat?Why do others think he should do what he has to do?

Lin Xu was dragged to eat something later, and at night he returned to the classroom for evening self-study.

Fortunately for everyone, it seems that Lin Xu just stopped talking, and there is still no problem in listening to lectures, studying and writing homework.After a few days, the schedule was adjusted, and eating and sleeping became normal.

He doesn't communicate with anyone, and he won't respond to anything in the class, sitting in the corner like a ghost, doing his own thing.

Once out, Lin Xu ran into Yang Fengrui who was running out of breath, and the other party asked him with red eyes: "What happened? When did you come back?"

He looked at each other, remained silent for a while, then turned around and left.

Yang Fengrui hurried up and grabbed him, "Lin Xu! What's wrong with you?"

He shook his head desperately, could hardly restrain himself from struggling, and ran away as soon as he broke away from the opponent.

Yang Fengrui stood behind him, looked down at his empty hand, and moved his fingers.

In May, the weather was muggy and hot, and the fans kept turning day and night, dragging the spider webs in the air with the fan blades.

The teacher talked about the importance of learning mentality on the podium, and repeatedly reminded everyone that they will enter the third year of high school soon, and they should adjust their state in advance.

In the distance, a huge banner was unfurled on the teaching building of the third year of high school: "Fight for the Central Plains."

But Yang Fengrui couldn't concentrate on studying anymore, he looked out of the window frequently, and looked at his watch from time to time, feeling like he was sitting on pins and needles.During this period of time, he approached Lin Xu several times, but they all ran away.Up to now, the other party avoided him almost all day long, and he couldn't be blocked.

damn it!In the end what happened?

He asked for the phone number of Lin Xu's family, "Hello, auntie. Are you Lin Xu's mother? I am Yang Fengrui who played at your house before. That's it. I want to ask something..."

"Are you Lin Xu's eldest brother? I am..."

He talked to Mrs. Lin, and followed Mrs. Lin to find out a little about Brother Lin.

"We wanted to take him to a psychiatrist, but he wouldn't go..."

Finally, when the phone was about to hang up, Brother Lin suddenly asked, "Your name is Yang Fengrui?"

"Huh? Yes, yes. Is there a problem?"

After pondering for a while, he replied, "It's okay."

Yang Fengrui took a deep breath, lowered his head and kept telling himself to hold back, but he almost punched the wall, you fucking bastard!What happened to Lin Xu when he was away?

He could fully imagine that he was already in a situation of extreme self-repression, facing the high pressure of study, the rejection of the class, and finally the death of his grandfather... It's no wonder that Lin Xu, a fool who was holding everything back, didn't have any problems in the end!

He's fucking crazy too!Why isn't he by that guy's side?If he was here, he would have been able to find out what was wrong with Xiao Xu earlier, earlier... sooner...

Yang Fengrui squatted down slowly, and took out the Ping An buckle from his arms, his voice was hoarse, "Actually, I am the most useless, right? You come to me every time, and even I can't learn well." You are the one who helps me...but when you need me..."

Lin Xu will always remember that it was the last day of June, and the whole school was immersed in the solemn atmosphere before the college entrance examination.

He huddled in his own world like a cicada chrysalis, isolating all information from the outside world.

At 04:30 in the afternoon, the bell rang for the end of get out of class, and students rushed out to the cafeteria and dormitory.He slowly tidied up his desk and walked out of the classroom.

As soon as he went out, he was suddenly grabbed by the arm by a person, his pupils widened slightly, and he was dragged outside the next second.

Yang Fengrui's arm holding him was tense because of too much force, and a tight line was drawn from the shoulder blade, which showed the master's anxiety.

Lin Xu subconsciously wanted to back away, but his wrist was pinched in pain, and he followed staggeringly. He didn't react until he walked down the first floor, and said softly, "Let go, let go."

The boy in front seemed to be unable to hear anything, pursed his lips, and dragged him away with a gloomy expression.

The summer days are too long, and the white light outside is dazzling.The floor was still hot, and the leaves were crushed, making a faint crunching sound.

No matter what Lin Xu said, he didn't respond.Two people, one pulling, the other retreating, slowly but kept moving forward.

Lin Xu hadn't faced such a bright day for a long time, and finally his voice was raised, "Yang Fengrui! Let go!" The strength of his grip on his wrist reached the limit, and he cried out in pain.

Yang Fengrui turned his head. He had never seen the other party so fierce. The young man approached his face, "Don't let him go! He won't let him go even if he dies!"

Lin Xu was dazed for a moment, and was dragged forward even more forcefully by the other party.

Lin Xu felt infinite panic for a moment, he didn't know where he was going, he wanted to escape back to the classroom, or go to a dark corner with no one...

Exposed to the sun, he lost all shields of safety.

Because of the scorching temperature, there was not a single student in the huge playground.The red plastic runway seems to have been sunburned in the scorching sun, showing a ferocious blood color.

Lin Xu didn't know what the young man wanted to do, he shook his hands desperately, and wanted to shrink back, but was pulled forward by the other party, and both of them got on the runway.

"What exactly do you want to do?"

There was no response, Lin Xu was dragged by the other party and could not run.

The 800-meter runway covers the entire football field.

Lin Xu was panting heavily, and could hardly see the scenery ahead. He was still trying to struggle in the first lap, but soon lost his strength.

Yang Fengrui ran too fast, and he followed hard all the way. He almost fell down a few times, but he was still pulled to stabilize his body.

The fiery feeling was still burning from the nerve endings of the muscles, and the air in his chest was constantly being squeezed. His face was flushed, and he wanted to open his mouth to breathe, but he couldn't breathe.

Under the scorching sun, the scorching temperature is like a tongue of fire licking the surface of the skin, and hot sweat oozes out.Beads of sweat slid down his forehead and landed on his eyelashes. He shook his head with difficulty and blinked to see the back of the boy in front of him clearly.

The first lap, the second lap, the fifth lap... After the tree shadow on the side of the road was pulled infinitely, he was sweating profusely, his whole body seemed to be soaked in sweat, his legs were so sore that he almost lost consciousness, he could only feel The hot wind blowing on his face during the running process sucked the moisture from his body.

He couldn't open his mouth to speak, and his breathing became heavier and heavier.

He opened his eyes, and what he saw was the back of the young man, and the sound of his firm footsteps was next to his ears.And the clearest of all the tactile sensations is that the other party tightly grasped the junction of his wrists, and the grip was painful, swollen and hot, as if the temperature of the whole body was gathered in that place, and the sweat from the other party's palms made him sticky. wrist.

How long are you going to run?

He staggered, and he almost fell again. The young man in front of him suddenly turned around to support him. At this moment, Lin Xu felt the violent tremor of the other party's chest, as well as the panting sound of the other party who was also on the verge of desperation.

Yang Fengrui's upper body was completely soaked in sweat, and the school uniform stuck to his skin, revealing the texture of thin muscles under the sun.

Lin Xu felt that his whole body was surrounded by the smell that belonged to Yang Fengrui, a strong breath that belonged to this man.

In the next second, Lin Xu was dragged forward again. This time, the other party grabbed his hand and clasped his fingers tightly. It was hot and sticky.

The sixth lap, the seventh lap... Lin Xu was almost desperate. After running at a high speed, he could not see clearly for a long time, but was only driven forward by a force.

The opponent's palm was very hot, almost burning his palm.

He can't breathe at all, and his mind is also separated, he doesn't care, his thighs move forward mechanically, every time his body shakes, the opponent will hold him tightly and lift him up, no matter what, it just doesn't work. will make him stop.

The eighth lap...he really couldn't do it.

Lin Xu's body was covered with sweat, and it was difficult to even blink. When he took a breath, his entire chest was burning and aching.He even suspected that he was going to die.

"I, I really..." I couldn't hold on anymore.

Suddenly, Lin Xu's whole body went limp. During the high-speed running, this was the most dangerous move.Before fainting, he saw the blue sky and the scorching sun... Then he fell on a fiery body.

The moment Yang Fengrui hugged Lin Xu, his knees were so soft that he fell to the ground with inertia, but he hugged the boy in his arms tightly from the beginning to the end.

Lin Xu was hugged tightly, his body was close to the other's body, the heat blended together, his whole body seemed to be roasted by fire.He gasped desperately in Yang Fengrui's arms, and finally started to cough, coughing up tears.

During the whole process, Yang Fengrui was patting his back and wiping the sweat off his forehead with his palm.

Lin Xu almost collapsed.He raised his head, and in his field of vision was Yang Fengrui's equally sweaty face, who was panting equally fiercely.

"You, what the hell..." What do you want to do?

"Xiao Xu," Yang Fengrui was almost speechless, his voice was hoarse, and every word seemed to exhaust all his strength, "You always want to persevere alone, when something happens..." He desperately After taking a few breaths, he continued, "But sooner or later you will not be able to hold on. I just want you to know..."

Under the blue sky and the scorching sun, two teenagers in blue school uniforms fell down on the red plastic runway.

The wind was blowing hard, and the hot wind swept the grass on the football field and stirred up the wave-like green sea.

"I just want you to know that I'm always by your side. If you can't hold on anymore, I can hold you; if you fall, I can hug you." At the end, Yang Fengrui coughed violently , propped his palms on the floor, panting desperately.

"You are not alone, and you don't want to be alone...Xiao Xu, please, don't be alone anymore."

Even though I am still so weak now, Xiao Xu, I hope that one day, I can help you hold up the entire sky.

Lin Xu looked at the boy next to him as if he was dumbfounded.

"Xiao Xu, no matter what I encounter, you are always there. And I am always there, do you know?"

Lin Xu had suppressed his emotions for several months and was about to explode almost instantly.His shoulders trembled violently, and his eyes were fixed on Yang Fengrui with red circles.

"Fool," Yang Fengrui stepped forward and covered Lin Xu's eyes with his generous palms, "Don't hold back. Cry if you want to."

I'm by your side, you can cry.

Too many things flashed through Lin Xu's mind, violent running, crazy panting, grandpa's grave, shaking train, cold test papers, torn homework books... the palms covering his eyes were too hot, and his eyes Sticking to it, but couldn't help it any longer, something hot and humid gushed out from the corner of his eyes, wet the other person's palm, and also wet his own face.

It turned out that he just couldn't hold on anymore.

Yang Fengrui hugged Lin Xu tightly into his arms, pressed the other person's head against his chest, felt the other person's body tremble, and heard the other person's choking crying, the circles of his eyes also turned red.

The hot and humid bodies were pressed against each other tightly, and Yang Fengrui hugged the person in his arms tightly, never wanting to let go.

He took out the safety buckle from the school trousers and put it on Lin Xu stiffly with sweaty hands. He lowered his head and looked at Lin Xu's face.

The other person's appearance at the moment was definitely not good-looking, with sticky bangs, red eyes, and cheeks that looked embarrassed due to tears... But he could hardly restrain himself, lowered his head and kissed the other person's lips fiercely.The tip of his tongue penetrated into the hot mouth of the opponent, almost instantly, Yang Fengrui lowered his body and grabbed the body fluid in the opponent's mouth fiercely.

I like it so much that I'm going crazy, and all my emotions can't be suppressed for a long time.

Yang Fengrui's mind was full of Xiaoxu's name, and he was thinking with all his heart: Xiaoxu, Xiaoxu...

The hot wind was blowing, and at a corner of the runway, a boy pressed another boy and kissed him fiercely.The drenched school uniform was chilled by the wind, and the skin rubbed against the rough plastic skin, causing a tingling tingling sensation.

In the end, Yang Fengrui's movements gradually slowed down, and he kissed the boy's red and swollen lips in small mouthfuls, and then kissed the other person's eyes all the way, kissing the same place over and over again, until the corners of the boy's eyes began to become moist again.

Lin Xu hoarsely said, "Enough, enough."

Yang Fengrui sighed softly, lowered his body, hugged the voice in his arms, and the voice fell into the other's ear, "Xiao Xu, don't leave me behind."

Lin Xu froze for a moment, then slowly hugged the person on his back.

Yang Fengrui's body trembled, and finally he couldn't help but his eyes turned red.These days, it's so hard.

Xiaoxu, do you know?I am also with you.